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This handsome man, smiling so hard that his whole face crinkles up. :heart:
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This song. I heard it on the school bus, on someone's portable radio, coming home after a day of exams.
I was 15 or 16 so it would have been around '82 or '83? Anyway, it was a brilliant sunny winter day, there
was a coating of ice on top of the snow and the sunlight reflected so brightly off it. And despite my having
been a lazy student, I felt as if I'd at least passed all my exams so far, so I felt triumphant. :2thumbsup:
Oddly enough, I thought the band that played this song was called Triumph. Similar voices? Enjoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JoZLdivjgjE
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Music. Sometimes it's the only way for me to know what to feel, actually.
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Music. Sometimes it's the only way for me to know what to feel, actually.
Damn right. I've often said (here, and to myself) that I can't grieve without a soundtrack. :orly:
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Lush, gorgeous, peaceful. :angel:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sS1kg7hYTcs
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Great music for driving with the top down on a sunny day. 8)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSsiS-v6_6M
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These tiny frozen cakes are far better than they have any right to be.
The cake part is actually chocolatey, and the frosting is divinely rich.
I love them. :2thumbsup:
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This song barreled its way into my heart. It's about five miles over the top, but so heartfelt
that I can't resist. Bonus points for the instrumental part in the middle. Gotta love it. :2thumbsup:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tRwYQgk05DY
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This song barreled its way into my heart. It's about five miles over the top, but so heartfelt
that I can't resist. Bonus points for the instrumental part in the middle. Gotta love it. :2thumbsup:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tRwYQgk05DY
Is my age showing that I actually had that record album?
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This song barreled its way into my heart. It's about five miles over the top, but so heartfelt
that I can't resist. Bonus points for the instrumental part in the middle. Gotta love it. :2thumbsup:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tRwYQgk05DY
Is my age showing that I actually had that record album?
That, and the fact that you call it a "record album." :hug:
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Sugarbutt. He literally makes me laugh every day. :orly:
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Sugarbutt. He literally makes me laugh every day. :orly:
My friend says the same about her marriage. "We laugh every day!" :green:
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Cleaning neglected areas of the apartment makes me feel respectable, virtuous, and ready for
any potential inspection by the landlord! Tomorrow I will text him about the mouse I saw earlier. 8)
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This song barreled its way into my heart. It's about five miles over the top, but so heartfelt
that I can't resist. Bonus points for the instrumental part in the middle. Gotta love it. :2thumbsup:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tRwYQgk05DY
Is my age showing that I actually had that record album?
That, and the fact that you call it a "record album." :hug:
I actually owned that record album. And Harris made the better Dumbldore.
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Great song to wake up to! Just a joy! :coffee:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IU8yBG5zmDI
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Being in the bath with candles and chillout George Michael playing, sipping a cocktail. It's one of the most relaxing activities.
Shopping.
Cleaning the place and putting everything away so everywhere is spotless. It really calms the mind once everything is spotless.
Watching a great film like either of the first two Harry Potter films, or LOTR, or the Hobbit films. Then ordering a pizza and sitting on the sofa with a duvet over me and just eating and watching.
Going out to the cinema on my own (that and shopping I WAY prefer to do by myself) while no-one else is around.
Walking around London. Visiting China Town. I love China Town, and I love their bubble teas. I wanted to try out taiyaki. The machine that made them looked cool. Video: www.youtube.com/watch?v=FGUezmJvGrY
When I was out with my friend the other day, it made it 20x better that he was enjoying walking around with me browsing the shops and being interested in all the different food too.
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I liked the following video with the bulbous shaped waffles. :orly:
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I liked the following video with the bulbous shaped waffles. :orly:
They're shaped like fish. :laugh:
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I liked the following video with the bulbous shaped waffles. :orly:
They're shaped like fish. :laugh:
No, I was talking about the following video that came after the fish one. :orly:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ZO7ZMPUX2s
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Ohh. That's takoyaki. They're actually meant to be individual balls of batter. They are seriously delicious.
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(http://images.says.com/uploads/story/cover_image/27249/c37a.jpg)
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ooh, that looks like the sort of thing I might buy for my son, so I can enjoy them by proxy.
(sounds pathetic I guess, but it actually works!)
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ooh, that looks like the sort of thing I might buy for my son, so I can enjoy them by proxy.
(sounds pathetic I guess, but it actually works!)
You can make them in a cake pop maker. :) She uses dashi powder, which is a type of soup stock powder you can get from the Japan Centre.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=TyadJhV8vHU
I love watching her videos. Decocookie, studiolorien and japanesestuffchannel are other good ones.
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So, it's a savoury rather than a sweet?
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So, it's a savoury rather than a sweet?
That's right. You can make something similar if you don't have a takoyaki or cakepop maker, and that's okonomiyaki (AKA Japanese "pizza"). It's a pancake that's filled with shredded cabbage, but the batter is the same. The toppings are the same too.
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Ohh. That's takoyaki. They're actually meant to be individual balls of batter. They are seriously delicious.
I watched a couple of videos of them, and they were shown served as one big piece, and the people were plucking off individual balls while eating it. I don't really like sweet breads like waffles much, but they still look really cool. :thumbup:
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Group B rally cars. I love these things.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JG9yfutJ254&t=2s
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My BF's son and fiancée are in town and they brought her dog. Piggy is a 50 pound love sponge pit bull mix. I miss having a dog sometimes.
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^Me too. I've been thinking about getting a dog again a lot. Fuck allergies.
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^Me too. I've been thinking about getting a dog again a lot. Fuck allergies.
I'm allergic to my cats, dogs, and about half of my surroundings. Some days are way worse than others, but the cats are still more pleasant to be around than the family 90% of the time...so allergies be damned.
I tell lecturing doctors I'd put the family up for adoption first...that normally ends the lecture pretty fast. >:D
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^Me too. I've been thinking about getting a dog again a lot. Fuck allergies.
I'm allergic to my cats, dogs, and about half of my surroundings. Some days are way worse than others, but the cats are still more pleasant to be around than the family 90% of the time...so allergies be damned.
I tell lecturing doctors I'd put the family up for adoption first...that normally ends the lecture pretty fast. >:D
I can relate. I want a dog. :)
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coffee chocolate chip ice cream.
also, the thing of things. when i am shopping for something, that which when purchased means i can stop obsessing over finding the right one.
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coffee chocolate chip ice cream.
Coffee flavored ice creams are genius.
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coffee chocolate chip ice cream.
Coffee flavored ice creams are genius.
:GA: They are wrong, just wrong.
My mother loved them too though. :laugh:
To me coffee any other way then hot just tastes disgusting. :zombiefuck:
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coffee chocolate chip ice cream.
Coffee flavored ice creams are genius.
:GA: They are wrong, just wrong.
My mother loved them too though. :laugh:
To me coffee any other way then hot just tastes disgusting. :zombiefuck:
Chocolate covered espresso beans are also genius, though also dangerous; can't seem to find the proper dosage which doesn't make me feel like the sky is going to fall. :laugh:
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^ They're really good. It takes about 10 for me to shoot along the path speed walking, almost running.
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coffee chocolate chip ice cream.
Coffee flavored ice creams are genius.
my mother fed me coffee flavored ice cream which i suspect she did to calm me down. i have to adulterate coffee to drink it - i put in a packet hot cocoa mix in addition to cream, sugar and crumbled dark chocolate.
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coffee chocolate chip ice cream.
Coffee flavored ice creams are genius.
my mother fed me coffee flavored ice cream which i suspect she did to calm me down. i have to adulterate coffee to drink it - i put in a packet hot cocoa mix in addition to cream, sugar and crumbled dark chocolate.
That sounds pretty good.
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it's like drinking a mocha dark chocolate bar. go easy on the cream or it'll be milk chocolate.
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I am happy to have no more homework. Yippee!
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I am happy to have no more homework. Yippee!
Isn't it great? When does the next course begin? 8)
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In late January. I am hoping to do some online courses in the meantime.
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In late January. I am hoping to do some online courses in the meantime.
You are ambitious! The constant challenges will keep your mind sharp! :book:
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My father loved happy music like this song.
I wonder if he heard it during his life.
If so, he would have appreciated the marimbas. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7vtF5GjVeaY
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Bouncy, obnoxiously joyous audio crack! :fuckyeahdance:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5JCc_gkIFBY
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Caramel custard.
(http://healthyliving.natureloc.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/10/How-to-make-Caramel-custard-pudding.jpg)
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Caramel custard.
(http://healthyliving.natureloc.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/10/How-to-make-Caramel-custard-pudding.jpg)
It's like a little buttery Saturn on a plate. :2thumbsup:
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Pyraxis - I used to eat at a cut-rate Mexican buffet just to get the caramel flan.
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Oh yum! :)
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Oh snap! I LOVE creme caramels. I just can't stop myself eating the entire pack though the first time one gets opened, the rest of them invariably follow.
A rollup or cigar after a morphine shot, although its not properly a hole filled by e-fag delivery, it needs, methinks the traces of MAOIs in tobacco to really hit the spot.
Finally managing to stretch to that point on my back when its got a huge itch in that spot its so damn hard to reach, and scratching it.
The satisfaction after a big :roar: of a yawn, the kind that feel like you need snake-jaws that can dislocate at will to accomodate it.
Being the recipient of new glassware, or lab equipment of other kinds, especially when some really handy piece of kit just drops into my lap (figuratively speaking) as a freebie, gift, or making a killing of a gain, like a big moneysaving deal on some reagents, and most of all in the lab, that moment where your project at the time just begins to bear first fruit, of intended end product, without a hassle of a workup, or, for that matter, after getting into a right old scrap with something not wishing to crystallize, and eventually seeing the solvent turn foggy, and then look like its snowing, as say, HCl gas in solvent is taken off a cryo bath, and your target, in solvents that won't freeze, has said acid-spiked, anhydrous solvent dropped in, whilst keeping the project on an ice-bath or ice-salt-acetone-antifreeze bath etc. to cool it right down. (the latter gets down into the -30something 'C region) and you see your hard-won target compound crashing out of solution as if it were snowing a blizzard of crystals.
For some things, taking recrystallization, especially if it was difficult to accomplish to a fine art form, and growing some really nutty-sized, perfect crystals. Ice (I don't mean frozen H2O or solvent here), that is pure D-isomer rather than racemic stuff, once, for example, had a couple of MONTHS devoted, to keeping the solution cold, from a poorly volatile solvent, and evaporating it off at such a slow pace, slowly withdrawing a seed crystal from the supersaturated solution, that the result was inches long, and the easiest way to get a piece for use, was to use a really fine saw blade like a coping saw or wire saw, it looked for all the world like a flawless piece of quartz, as one solid, around 3/4-4/5ths of an inch in diameter vitreous-looking crystal chunk. Some of the best work ever done that one, both in terms of quality and the crystal itself.
And, whilst I have been single for quite some time now, when with a lady friend as a partner, and most of all, when I was with my first fiancee (the younger of the two times I've been engaged), making her so happy you'd know about it from her uncontainable expression of delight and stimmyness. Or both of us coming flying down the street with arms wide open like a pair of cannonballs into each other and squeezing for all we were worth. The look on her beautiful face, especially if we couldn't have met up for a while, and then had the chance, to see her as happy as I could make her, with a huge case of the warm fuzzies...now that was something I'll never forget, ever. And the sight of her, us both again on an intercept course running like the hounds of hell were nipping at our heels, it was an electric feeling that I've rarely ever had from anyone else.
My stalker was like that too sometimes, miss T.
And whilst I've never dated her, conversation with kassiane/rettdevil. Theres just something about her that blows my head off. And not just looks, I mean, what inhabits the meat shell, I'll confess, I'm completely crazy about her. And she IS absolutely drop dead gorgeous searing hawt too. And when she had it up, her pro-ND rants at their most pyrophoric.
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I know what wolfy means too with 'thing of things'
Tracking down that perfect combination of reagents for a long-wanted project, and/or finding a really, really neat catalytic system that ends up with near-quantitative yields of my target and with a minimal quantity of reagents. One of those 'holy SHIT that worked well' moments when you first realize that you just found the 'perfect storm' of systems to work with in order to accomplish the goal, with clinical atom-efficiency, and every step just clicks into place with absolute precision and without any incredibly expensive, incredibly difficult or damn dangerous steps, just, everything fallen into place and a red carpet rolled out for the arrival of both chemist and chemistry. What I think of as a 'silver platter moment', not just when its easy though, but especially when it HASN'T been, and its been hard worked out in theory, the steps have been tested, fine-tuning applied for every step, and an affordable or makeable without too many tears of blood shed to get that perfect , super-elegant catalytic system is in place.
Experiment during one particular knoevanagel nitroaldol condensation, with a substrate that will remain un-named, but when TETA (triethylenetetramine in GAA-glacial acetic acid was used for the amine base, the quality of the sought nitroalkene and its smooth workup, consisting of the byproducts being water soluble, so pouring the cooled reaction straight onto cracked ice in a bit of ice water, with just a touch of pumpkin-orange byproduct, which yielded perfectly to fine light translucent-yellow plates of the nitroalkene upon recrystallization from methanol after water washing with ice-cold H2O. Having used precisely the right quantity of the appropriate nitroparrafin and carbonyl substrate and hit on, for that substrate a really good catalyst. And from all the places, an epoxy resin kit as the hardener compound, after purification.
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What happened with T, Lestat?
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It wa her decision. She is just not enough of a people person. And I have my suspicions, although only suspicions that one of the last things she'd let me do is pay for her to come to my country, or for me to travel there, either. Because I wouldn't wish to take money from her pocket on travel. Plus two other reasons.
At the time, The Bitch From Hell was in the way, and no doubt lady T would rip her to shreds, and that malignant, noxious coprophagous gutterwhore borderline dirt made flesh did everything It could to get in our way. A nastier piece of work you could never hope not to meet. Or have anything to do with. Fucking BPD bitch from tartarus if ever there was one. I've known (not by voluntary association wherever possible_ some real nasty fucking pieces of work. Some violent thugs, and this creature was the worst of the lot. The most dangerous living thing I have EVER known or known of. And that includes people who've knifed kids, rapists, paedophiles and nastier creatures still, such as the likes of one particularly noxious creature who kicked his pregnant girlfriend down the stairs. Not a friend. Somebody I lacked the ability to avoid. And one other so vile that they had to end. A thug, god knows what else (ended up banged up, and hopefully never survived what came to him. Who, What and by who, I will not say. But lets just say. It is unwise to threaten an autie of high intellect with rape. (never comitted, and for that matter, never seen alive again to the best of my knowledge. I intend some day to pay a home visit and make sure that who did gave them what was coming to them successfully exterminated them.
The Bitch From Hell...she was even worse still. Sly, and extremely dangerous. If I ever see her again I wouldn't think twice about burying her alive with a stake through her spine to make sure she suffocates and has not the chance to claw her way out of her grave. Made two false (not known to be at the time since the first guy...well that one may not be false. And is known to be best friends with a paedophie and stalker of dead babies.) so The Bitch From Hell got the benefit of the doubt about the second claim. Claimed to be drugged and raped by someone who could not in hindsight, have raped his way out of a toilet tissue box with a tactical nuclear weapon. Someone I dislike, generally speaking, but that is the limit of my enmity towards him.
This male, when the claim was made, she first attempted to have shot. And when she failed, she tried (and failed) to bring a case to court, have him charged as a rapist. And as I said, this individual just doesn't have it in him. He couldn't rape a hole in a plastic bag with a sawn-off shotgun, in fact he'd probably shit himself and run if you handed him an unloaded shotgun and a pair of shells and told him how to use it at the thought of shooting a clay fucking pigeon. Bled him dry and when there was nothing more to bleed, conconcted a false rape claim against him after fucking him (voluntarily on both sides), went to the extent of giving a video interview and all. The CPS threw the case out because she had no more evidence than I have evidence of being next in line as the king of fucking england.
Eventually this particular bitch kicked my door in as I was getting dressed and said she had to wait a moment for something she wanted whilst I got out of bed and got dressed. Forced my door and attempted to carve me into dogmeat with a katana. A sword she bled out of the same poor bastard she maliciously of rape. Soon as he had nothing else to give, to The Bitch From Hell, he was trash and to be disposed of. She very nearly did get him killed as a result.
A liar, a thief, a psychotic, malicious cancer in vaguely mammalian borderline bitch and general utter scumbag. Even pulled a knife on a friend of mine when I went to visit and she was with me, merely because she accused him of coming too close to her. And he did nothing wrong, no provocation greater than his standing on his own doorstep. And she pulled a knife, threatened to stab the guy. That time, I nearly lost the guy as a friend, and for that matter, barely managed to save HER life (I didn't know what she was at the time).
I know of at least 3, possibly four others she's accused of rape as well. Her own family. Came on to me as well, tried to ensnare ME in a relationship, and when I refused, tried to just get me in bed. With the benefit of hindsight, I have little doubt indeed that had I done so, she would have done the exact same thing to me and accused ME of being a rapist. Only I never fucked her in the first place, consensually or otherwise.
Did everything in her malignant, malicious power to foul up my relationship with lady T. I should have run her through when I had the chance. That time she drew steel against me, I was forced to defend myself in kind. Instead of disarming her and knocking her to the deck, telling her to get fucked, turn her pockets out to make sure she had nothing stolen on me, I kicked her out. Caught her stealing money from my old man, caught her, after begging me to take her to church, rinsing the donations box. She had to go. But I really, honestly wish I'd killed her that day, rather than using the flat and rear of my sword and my fists. I should have shot her in the face, cut her up and dissolved her in acid. Or preferably just dissolved her in acid so as not to have wasted a bullet. I wouldn't have the least problem dissolving her alive, after cutting out her voicebox and burning her tongue out and duct-taping her big fucking gob so she couldn't scream. I wonder to this day, who she is currently leeching off, and how many more false rape claims or other, similar such false accusations of the innocent she has made. If I HAD killed her that time she tried to off me with her sword, I would have done humanity a great kindness.
I've a hunch, although not much more of one than a hunch that she tried poisoning me once, possibly twice. And after kicking her out and searching what used to be the room I allowed her to stay in and after, made a new lab, I found a load of things she'd stolen. Such as a bunch of my meds. I'd been wondering for ages why I was constantly going into opiate withdrawal. And when I looked under her bed, there was a pile of what equated to a year or so worth of stolen painkillers, tranqs, mushrooms and other things both rx and from my stash. She was allergic to all pain medication of the morphinan family, such as codeine, dihydrocodeine, hydrocodone, oxy, morphine etc. to the point it would kill her had she taken any. She took them not for herself or to sell, but to deprive me of them, so she could then use the resulting withdrawal as a tool for manipulating me, telling me, do whatever, and I'd get some of her meptazinol and she'd give me some temazepam, because oh, because of my crap memory, I must have forgotten and taken too many. I didn't. Fucking little serpent had been stealing them. After kicking her worthless arse out, I returned the favour, her valium and temazepam, as well as the painkillers, she didn't get them back. And I sincerely hope the doubtless result of grand-mal tonic-clonic seizures and horrific withdrawal from the benzos proved fatal.
So that foul parasite being around quite likely had something to do with it. Every time I managed to get some time alone to speak with lady T, the fucking whore from hell did everything she could to get in the way and ruin our quality time, and saying awful things of her as well. The kind of things that she is lucky I didn't kill her for the moment the words left her mouth.
The time that she threatened to knife that friend of mine, she got VERY lucky that I was there and able to pursuade him not to do what he was going to. Because he is both connected, and whilst a decent guy, The Bitch is lucky in the extreme that I was able to persuade him to let her live. If I'd not have been there, there is a 95% or greater chance that he would have either killed her himself or had her killed.
I am fairly damn sure that that fucking hell-shart ruined the relationship between myself and lady T. And that woman, I have only been so deeply in love once before. Yes, I've beem in relationships before, I've loved others. But never like that. The only other person, was the younger of my two former fiancees. And I have not seen her or been able to contact her for a long, long time. How old she was, and how old I was at the time, I am not prepared to say where others could read it, and to be honest, I am a little...well...even in elder's I'd still be hesitant somewhat. But those two girls, lady T was my second chance, a soulmate. The first time, with miss C, ever since, until getting to know T, C was the love of my life, and honestly, still is. I've never felt like a whole person since then, other than with lady T. And Since losing the latter, I have never been in a relationship since. I don't know as I ever will. I've been wanting to rejoin the group that C took me at (and she did. Applied steel toe caps to the knees/groin of somebody in the way, slammed me into a tree at paintball gun-point and stuck her tongue down my throat. Then introduced herself after more or less informing me I was hers. We were engaged within weeks. And I've never been happier. Or more devastated when that relationship ended (it was really complicated and I don't want to go into the details. Because not a day goes by when I don't think of her, and it still tears whats left of me to pieces. For a time, with lady T, I thought that life could be different. But it wasn't to be. Now? chances are I'll be single for the rest of my days. And I'm not interested in just meat-encounters, only serious relationships with someone I truly love. It will be that, or it will be nothing.
What makes me ridiculously happy? either miss C or lady T. I've never been happier than with C. Ever. There are only two, maybe three other people, that I know that I'd get with, and one, kassiane her name is, I've not had the chance to speak to in way too long, and is a continent away. The others, one going by 'aliengirl' I daresay I've always had a thing for since when we were both on AFF, and the other, laura, I've known since my first secondary school. kanner's autie, cute as fuck. Been contemplating asking her out. I don't know if I can do it though. But I have always been completely crackers about her.
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I've never been together with a person I've really liked. I want it to be serious too, even marriage. Never kids.
Dating lots of people and having short mediocre relationships improved my confidence, though. It means I don't have that urge I did as a teen and having those "forever alone" feelings, cos it doesn't seem so far off. Yeh, I messed around a few people, but for years I couldn't feel anything. That changed my outlook, too.
But yeh, I can imagine having the greatest sex and loving relationship with someone I trust, who would be loyal, and they would be literal and analytical, just like me. He would be handsome, too. And smart, and fair, and amazing. And he would be the greatest thing in the world, and I would be the best thing in the world to him, and he will do anything for me. That would make me really, really happy.
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Caramel custard.
(http://healthyliving.natureloc.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/10/How-to-make-Caramel-custard-pudding.jpg)
It looks like something Wolfish would have floating in a jar. :zoinks:
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Caramel custard.
(http://healthyliving.natureloc.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/10/How-to-make-Caramel-custard-pudding.jpg)
It looks like something Wolfish would have floating in a jar. :zoinks:
You should be floating in a jar. :hahaha: :trollskull:
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:lol1: :plus:
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Like Lestat, I too felt ridiculously happy when I thought me and GA entered into a relationship and then got married. In 2010 it all went awry when GA announced she felt better as Kayleigh. We split and I went to live with my parents at my mum's insistence. I was full-time at uni and I was finding that pretty hard so our split as well stressed me. I did have a week's stay in hospital with depression and had all my meds changed.
If Kayleigh hadn't wanted more out of our relationship than I was prepared to give, then we would probably still be together. At the moment we live together but have separate rooms. I still love her and I think I always will. She can so easily say the right thing to cheer me up whenever I am down. And we share a lot of interests.
I don't think I will ever seek another relationship. Being alone is easy.
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Ren, hun, yes, its easy, and many times I've thought the same mydrlg
Problem is, however, that usually, or at least, very often indeed, that which comes easily is worth much less than something hard fought for and hard won. Don't write yourself off, is what I am trying to say; because nobody ever claimed that relationships are all smooth sailing and perfect, or easy. They usually aren't. Its not always the case, but usually.
But the right one, is worth it, IMO. Many, many times over.
And looking at that principle in reverse, I hope you don't mind my saying, and I'm not only saying this because you are damn hot, and you are, but if you ever do end up with someone, whoever it might be would have done really, really well for themselves, because, from what I can know of you through I2, you seem like a truly sweet, kickarse, and stand-up lady, who any man or woman would be lucky indeed to have. Your quite something, ren; and I've always got nothing but good vibes about you. And that pre-dates my seeing what you look like, and that was before I saw that aspie death-stare of yours that sends a hot little shiver up my spine.
There really aren't many people I know that I would date these days. But if it were not for the distance, I would offer myself up in der augenblick
As you come across as a smart, funny, sexy, decent-natured, bright and very attractive woman ren. And I have a confession to make. The thought of you being unhappy just made my heart sink, and my insides feel as though suddenly, they were made of lead.
*offers the renster a great big squeeze*
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Like Lestat, I too felt ridiculously happy when I thought me and GA entered into a relationship and then got married. In 2010 it all went awry when GA announced she felt better as Kayleigh. We split and I went to live with my parents at my mum's insistence. I was full-time at uni and I was finding that pretty hard so our split as well stressed me. I did have a week's stay in hospital with depression and had all my meds changed.
If Kayleigh hadn't wanted more out of our relationship than I was prepared to give, then we would probably still be together. At the moment we live together but have separate rooms. I still love her and I think I always will. She can so easily say the right thing to cheer me up whenever I am down. And we share a lot of interests.
I don't think I will ever seek another relationship. Being alone is easy.
don't say that, it's like a curse. i said that after my last relationship and ended up with py.
...ok, so maybe not a curse...
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You could do an awful lot worse than raxy :D
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Wow, thanks Lestat. *Warm fuzzies*
WolFish, I'm very glad you're with Pyraxis.
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You could do an awful lot worse than raxy :D
You'll have to get in line behind me and Pappy. :zoinks:
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don't say that, it's like a curse. i said that after my last relationship and ended up with py.
...ok, so maybe not a curse...
That's how I ended up with the SO.
Curse it was, some days. :laugh:
Ridiculously happy stuff:
Junk stores
w/Random books
...shiny stuff thrown in boxes
...and weird lamps.
Random cats that appear out of nowhere to greet me.
Driving on a warm summer day with no set destination.
Walking around barefoot in a summer downpour.
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Well you are quite delightful ren. Hot and delightful makes for a good combination. Hot delightful and autistic makes for an even better one :D
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Damn ren, I wish someone liked me that much. I can't imagine though, finding someone you want to spend the rest of your days with, and them suddenly changing so much, I mean GA.
I'm a bit weary of asking questions because I don't want to rip a plaster off a wound. :( Cos I sort of know how that feels.
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Hehe IQ, hadn't thought of that one at the time; but random cats are always good. I like random cats. Well pretty much any cats that aren't complete arseholes. But, random cats=goodness.
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Damn ren, I wish someone liked me that much. I can't imagine though, finding someone you want to spend the rest of your days with, and them suddenly changing so much, I mean GA.
I'm a bit weary of asking questions because I don't want to rip a plaster off a wound. :( Cos I sort of know how that feels.
Ah, it's ok if you have questions, I am pretty matter-of-fact about it now. Kayleigh herself brings up the topic every now and then, not sure what for, as we both haven't changed our minds!
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Having online access to music again makes my life right. :notes: :2thumbsup: :notes:
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Apologies if I stirred up hard feelings justcurious.
That was not my intention. But at the same time, I am not going to hold back in conversations with others due to possibility of accidental collateral.
Ren didn't seem to know just quite how fucking meow-some she is. Which, incidentally is actually kind of cute in and of itself, its endearing, for some reason. Possibly because people who are all 'hey look at me, look at how fine I am', it just engenders a mental image of some preppy cheerleader teenage schoolgirl. And makes me want to vomit. The 'up yourself' type, if that makes sense. Kind of thing typical of celebrities, where it is quite simply, revolting.
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Damn ren, I wish someone liked me that much. I can't imagine though, finding someone you want to spend the rest of your days with, and them suddenly changing so much, I mean GA.
I'm a bit weary of asking questions because I don't want to rip a plaster off a wound. :( Cos I sort of know how that feels.
Ah, it's ok if you have questions, I am pretty matter-of-fact about it now. Kayleigh herself brings up the topic every now and then, not sure what for, as we both haven't changed our minds!
Thanks. :) OK, one question...what was it like as in...is it now like you're living with a totally different person? I honestly can't imagine what it's like.
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Apologies if I stirred up hard feelings justcurious.
That was not my intention. But at the same time, I am not going to hold back in conversations with others due to possibility of accidental collateral.
Ren didn't seem to know just quite how fucking meow-some she is. Which, incidentally is actually kind of cute in and of itself, its endearing, for some reason. Possibly because people who are all 'hey look at me, look at how fine I am', it just engenders a mental image of some preppy cheerleader teenage schoolgirl. And makes me want to vomit. The 'up yourself' type, if that makes sense. Kind of thing typical of celebrities, where it is quite simply, revolting.
Eh, I go through periods of high and low self esteem. It's a seasonal thing, I think. I can appear up myself, but it makes me feel better to do it. Like if I'm wearing great clothes, I'll think, "Damn, I look fine" and other people pick up on it. And even if I'm feeling like crap about myself, it feels better to do it. I'm weary of people who are like, "I'm better than you" whether it be looks wise or morally, or if they say they've had a shittier time than anyone. But people with without that snooty nonsense, whether they have low or high self esteem, yeh, I'm fine with them.
I have to be honest with you, it's probably the wrong thing to say. You remind me of an ex, and it makes me feel anxious around you. :( Please don't think less of me for it.
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I don't think any less of you, curious.
Anything I *CAN* (fairly) do to make you less anxious around me? because I'm still going to be, well, around, and I sure wouldn't want you to feel like you wish not to be here on my account, I'm not leaving, and I hope you don't either. So, anything I can do to calm your nerves? I hope I have not in some way caused you offense, for I feel no enmity towards you whatsoever, you have never acted in any way such as to earn that from me, and it isn't there.
If I can't do anything (fairly/reasonably), I'm sorry to hear that. I'd like you to know though that this is the first I knew of such, and whatever I've done, it was not deliberate, or if its something I did deliberately say or do, then it was said or done for an entirely different reason, of that you can be sure.
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Thank you Lestat.
I'm not sure if there is anything you can say or do, not that I want you to change. :) I dunno, as I get to know you on the forums, maybe I'll see who you are even more clearly.
I think it was the way he was outspoken, and his writing style, just similar.
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The outspoken bit your going to find is very, very commmon amongst aspies/auties.
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I'm outspoken too, but we're still quite different, no?
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The outspoken bit your going to find is very, very commmon amongst aspies/auties.
I've just realised...you think that I meant it as a bad thing, right? Couldn't be further from the truth. I crave directness in other people. Not hostility or rudeness as some interpret it as, but honesty and directness.
But then, maybe being outspoken and direct are different things. I've met a lot of autistics and a lot of them aren't direct, or honest. :( As for those who are opinionated and mostly believe they're right and therefore better than others...sod them, there's a bunch of them.
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Damn ren, I wish someone liked me that much. I can't imagine though, finding someone you want to spend the rest of your days with, and them suddenly changing so much, I mean GA.
I'm a bit weary of asking questions because I don't want to rip a plaster off a wound. :( Cos I sort of know how that feels.
Ah, it's ok if you have questions, I am pretty matter-of-fact about it now. Kayleigh herself brings up the topic every now and then, not sure what for, as we both haven't changed our minds!
Thanks. :) OK, one question...what was it like as in...is it now like you're living with a totally different person? I honestly can't imagine what it's like.
Well I was living with a guy who one day tells me he wants to be a girl. Really, I should have clocked on to it a lot earlier. Because when we first started talking to each other on WrongPlanet I did a little bit of snooping and found he had a female profile on another site.
Then when GA (GalileoAce) and I met in person (I travelled from Perth to Melbourne) he told me he had been seeing a psych about gender issues and was told it was learned behaviour because he had sisters. So he told me not to worry about it. He must have been so confused.
We met in 2005 and married in 2007. I had mental health issues so it wasn't total happiness but it was close. He had moved from over east so we could be together which is the biggest thing anyone has ever done for me.
It was 2010 when shit hit the fan. But over time when I was living at my parents' I got used to the idea of GA being Kayleigh. I would visit her on weekends (I was going to uni full-time) and we would watch sci-fi together or go out for lunch or whatever. In 2013 I moved back in with Kayleigh because my parents were moving to the country and I couldn't go with them as I was still going to uni. Mum wasn't 100% happy with me going back to Kayleigh's because of my mental health but I couldn't find a place cheap enough for me to rent on my own. So Kayleigh's was the only solution. Kayleigh was presenting as a woman by that time and I was fine with it. I would go clothes shopping with her, etc.
She is indeed much different. She takes hormones and I believe that this has had an impact on her mental health as she has had issues since she started them. She has been dxed with Borderline Personality Disorder and has had extensive therapy in the form of DBT and is now having more therapy. So that's way different. GA seemed so stable.
What hasn't changed is her laziness. She doesn't do any housework except cooking and that frustrates me big time since she doesn't work or study. I study and still have to do 90% of the housework.
So that's all I can think of for now. Feel free to ask more questions if you like.
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For some reason the little dog in the sig of justcurious makes me ridiculously happy.
wouf.
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For some reason the little dog in the sig of justcurious makes me ridiculously happy.
wouf.
:) I like it too! I like dogs.
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Borderline?
Best thing for it is to run like hell. Or get rid somehow. There is NOTHING good about them. They are evil incarnate.
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Yeh, I know to now.
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Those fucking arseholes need to drink bleach and 'accidentally' fall out of the window of a tall building.
Ren-why do you allow that creature to dirty your proximity by its continued presence?
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It's easier not to think about them. :(
renaeden, I think that psych has a lot to answer for.
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Borderline can be treated nowadays.
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A nice big barn or basement full of old things to sort through. I might have one coming up in an old farm house I was working on they are going to be getting rid of a basement full of stuff that looks like it was frozen in time in the mid sixties
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A nice big barn or basement full of old things to sort through. I might have one coming up in an old farm house I was working on they are going to be getting rid of a basement full of stuff that looks like it was frozen in time in the mid sixties
Time capsules like that are awesome.
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Feel free to ask more questions if you like.
What did she want from you that you weren't prepared to give? :orly: You don't have to answer that. :hide:
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Feel free to ask more questions if you like.
What did she want from you that you weren't prepared to give? :orly: You don't have to answer that. :hide:
:-[ A more intimate relationship. Probably sex, eventually. I'm asexual. I think this may be common for people with schizoid PD.
When I first met GA, he was asexual too. I couldn't believe I had met someone like me. I didn't know about Aven at that point.
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I think that's okay. I have to say, I usually only feel sympathy for spouses in trans situations. I know it's difficult for the trans person because they have no choice but to be selfish in order to be true to themselves, and it can be difficult for family members to accept the person they are, but I see spouses as victims of the lies trans people tell themselves. I can't imagine having to deal with that. It's a testament to your love that you're still able to be close friends and allow each other to be true to their self. You're a special person, Renaeden. :hug:
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Thank you so much, Gary. I think you're absolutely right about the difficulty trans people face.
Unfortunately, the majority of my family don't accept Kayleigh. My sister made a Christmas present for her though, and I nearly cried when I received it on Kayleigh's behalf (Kayleigh wasn't there) because I didn't expect that kind of gesture.
I often wish Kayleigh was still GA and sort of daydream about it but that's really torturing myself! It will not happen. If we had not gotten married, I think things would have turned out differently. We probably would have split long ago.
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I can understand your family's reaction because they love you. Kayleigh didn't actually do anything to anyone by being Kayleigh, except for you. That was nice of your sister. Thanks for letting me be nosy, Renaeden. :green:
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No worries Gary, any time. :)
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The gopher's nosiness and sauciness make me ridiculously happy. :heart: :gopher: :heart:
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My dog. :)
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My dog. :)
:heart:
I light up when I see a dog.
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After I come back from the grocery store, the sherry will make me ridiculously happy.
Edited to add: Cream sherry and Manischewitz Blackberry wine.
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The gopher's nosiness and sauciness make me ridiculously happy. :heart: :gopher: :heart:
Aw shucks. :zoinks:
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Given the fucker is borderline, the best thing you could do is give it concrete boots and a shove off a cliff.
And yes, for once:P the gopher is right, ren, you really are quite special. Christ, I'm not asexual, its more that the right person hasn't been there in many, many many years within range. I've found a soulmate, twice. One is a continent away, the other I haven't seen since she was 14. The latter, is the one I should have married, and almost, almost did. So its more a matter of getting to the point where its been so long I haven't thought about going on the prowl so to speak.
I can't help though, but be really, really attracted to you though ren. Of everyone on here either as member or lurker, its you, and the PR. I'm kinda crazy about the both of you (not necessarily in the same place at the same time, at least, not mandatorily. Which is not for a minute to imply that I would say 'no' to the idea :P)
With that BPD creature being up at times you never see it, you are lucky. They are evil. No, not even that. Killing one wouldn't be murder. It would be comitting pesticide.
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You know the saying, "If you meet one autistic, you've met one autistic"? Well I'm guessing the same goes for borderlines. She's not the totally attention-seeking sort. Nor is she manipulative. She says she can't do that with me because I see right through it. She doesn't do stuff like hide my meds! If she wants something of mine, she asks first.
So you see, there are borderlines out there that aren't like the one you experienced. You were really unlucky. :-\
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Maybe that particular one has more self control than most.
In general though, I've never heard a single good thing about them. Ever.
The particular one I had the misfortune of encountering and not killing on sight, bloody hell, was she ever a complete fucking psycho.
The fact yours says 'she can't do that because....' is rather telling however. Because whats left unsaid there is that if you didn't see right through it, she'd do it in a heartbeat. Its the 'because' thats the important factor there. If there was not something preventing her from doing it, she'd do it.
She didn't say 'she wouldn't do that' she said 'can't do it, BECAUSE....' because there is something preventing her from succeeding if she tried. If she could get away with it, she'd do it alright.
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I would most likely move away from her if it were like that! A relationship like that would be unequal and unfair.
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Well the reason she isn't doing is because she CAN'T not because she WOULDN'T. If she could, she would.
In your previous post, you said so yourself, although perhaps not realiizing the significance of her wording. She said she wouldn't do it because you'd see right through it. Meaning if you wouldn't see through the attempt, she'd do it.
A snake without fangs, is still a snake. If put in a different situation, with someone she could use, who wouldn't see her for exactly what she is. She'd bleed the poor bastard dry. Just because she can't bite you, doesn't change the fact that she is a snake. She's just a snake you are too smart for her to bite.
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Yes, I understood your meaning the first time indeed.
I haven't known her to manipulate anyone else, though. Maybe her family? I have no idea.
She was talking about gaslighting the other day. You know, where one person makes the other person think they are going crazy? I think there was a 1940s movie called Gaslighting, where the name comes from. Anyway, I said it was an absolutely horrible thing to do (I am sure justcurious agrees with me) and I wouldn't stand for it. She just said it was interesting.
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The bitch from hell tried that with me. And TY for explaining the term 'gaslighting', seen it a fair few times recently on the board, and didn't know what it meant.
It was, OTOH, fairly obvious who was the crazy one when she forced my door and went for me with a samurai sword. Just because I told her she had to wait whilst I got dressed before she could come in to feed her pets (I'd let her have a tank of pet fish whilst she was here), told her no, you feed them once I've got out of bed and got some clothes on. Result was her trying to smash my door down, and charging in with a katana. Vile little bitch is very, very lucky I didn't kill her when she did that, and that I had enough restraint to use the back edge of my ninja-to to block her blade and only deck the stupid whore. Fairly lucky in fact that I didn't simply shoot her in the face with my revolver. Because by then I didn't trust her, and slept with it tucked into the far side of my bed, the side away from the door that is. I knew she...had issues. But didn't realize she was a lying, thieving potentially murderous and definitely vengeful monster. I regret not extirpating her to be honest, it would have saved an awful lot of trouble. And cured the world of one of its nastier diseases.
It wasn't dx'd BPD, but it was fucking obvious looking back. The most evil, and most dangerous piece of shit I've ever met. I'd sooner take my chances with a dumb, violent thug any day than that creature. Because at least with a meathead, you know they are going to knife you in the front, given the chance, you know their M.O and the best way to deal with them. A sly, sneaking snake in the grass is another kettle of fish altogether.
I wonder at times, quite what the little bitch is upto now. I noticed, after she got removed from the country (alive, at least, at the time she was thrown out of the house, and not, by me at least, made otherwise. A regrettable mistake) that she changed her name associated with her email address to a false name, very soon after being thrown out on her arse with nothing but the clothes on her back and for some reason, I didn't bother to take her asthma inhaler. But I wonder who she is parasitizing now. Or how many more men she has accused (falsely) of rape. Because she has definitely done it once, almost certainly twice (although the other guy IS a creep and I've heard enough seriously nasty things about him and his friends from kassiane S to believe him capable of it.) but given the hell-whore's history, she probably cooked it up. Beats the hell out of me why anyone would want to stick anything in her that didn't have sharp edges though.
Evil, genuine, bona-fide evil through and through. And thats borderlines for you. And sure I've heard the saying about meeting one autistic. Borderlines aren't the same though. Thats like saying you've met one psychopath...(as in clinically dx' psychopathic PD, the myra hindley type, not just a bit of a fruitcake). The only difference is where they stab you, how many times, whether they rape you, and if so, if its before or after killing you and what they stab you with. Or whether they choose to burn your house down with you in it.
And of course you haven't known about it. You think she'd tell you? those bastards are sly, sneaky little vipers. And there isn't a single good thing about any of them. Unlike autism, it IS a personality disorder.
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You know the saying, "If you meet one autistic, you've met one autistic"? Well I'm guessing the same goes for borderlines. She's not the totally attention-seeking sort. Nor is she manipulative. She says she can't do that with me because I see right through it. She doesn't do stuff like hide my meds! If she wants something of mine, she asks first.
So you see, there are borderlines out there that aren't like the one you experienced. You were really unlucky. :-\
Have known a few. Think a former neighbour of mine fitted all the criteria. She was a disaster. But best employer ex ever had is a great guy. We kept in touch a bit. And he is an official borderliner. Yes, he had his issues. But he is also genuinly kind. And despite his diagnosis manages to maintain his relationship. That is 20 years and counting.
And there is treatments that can really help.
Judging all borderline people because of the really nasty ones coming in the picture more is like judging people with an ASD because of mass-shooters with an ASD.
Do think Kayleigh does have some manipulatief talent. But she's more than that.
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Here she is. :)
(https://i.imgsafe.org/6f5836d76d.jpg)
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Awwwwww!!!!
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My dog. :)
You got a dog! Hypoallergenic then? :dog: :heart: :moomin:
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What a cute little thing. Have you named her? I like her little white spot. :)
You know the saying, "If you meet one autistic, you've met one autistic"? Well I'm guessing the same goes for borderlines. She's not the totally attention-seeking sort. Nor is she manipulative. She says she can't do that with me because I see right through it. She doesn't do stuff like hide my meds! If she wants something of mine, she asks first.
So you see, there are borderlines out there that aren't like the one you experienced. You were really unlucky. :-\
Have known a few. Think a former neighbour of mine fitted all the criteria. She was a disaster. But best employer ex ever had is a great guy. We kept in touch a bit. And he is an official borderliner. Yes, he had his issues. But he is also genuinly kind. And despite his diagnosis manages to maintain his relationship. That is 20 years and counting.
And there is treatments that can really help.
Judging all borderline people because of the really nasty ones coming in the picture more is like judging people with an ASD because of mass-shooters with an ASD.
Do think Kayleigh does have some manipulatief talent. But she's more than that.
Yes, she definitely is more than that. Thanks hyke.
Kayleigh did 2 years of DBT and that helped. Now she is doing schema therapy and delving into her upbringing, which wasn't the best.
One standout trait of hers is her generosity. She easily will spend the last of her money on me. If there is only one serving of something nice that we both want, she will let me have it. She will share anything (this is one of my faults - I often just don't think to share).
Anyway, I could go on. But what I really want to say is that there are some nice borderline people out there.
I even got dxed with it myself back in 2013 during my stay in hospital. I think this is mainly because I self harmed.
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Quite a few women on the autistic spectrum get mis-diagnosed with borderline. Therapy for borderline then only makes things worse.
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My dog. :)
You got a dog! Hypoallergenic then? :dog: :heart: :moomin:
Yes. Spanish Water Dogs won't shed at all.
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She's asleep. :)
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She's asleep. :)
I send love to her. Sleeping dogs are precious. :) :heart:
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Quite a few women on the autistic spectrum get mis-diagnosed with borderline. Therapy for borderline then only makes things worse.
Therapy techniques I've seen for borderlines have struck me as mindfuckingly awful. Maybe that proves I'm not borderline. Some people in some places seem to be helped by them, so hey. Whatever works.
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Atlanta getting plucked.
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My fur burglars
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She's asleep. :)
I send love to her. Sleeping dogs are precious. :) :heart:
And easier to handle. :P
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Quite a few women on the autistic spectrum get mis-diagnosed with borderline. Therapy for borderline then only makes things worse.
Therapy techniques I've seen for borderlines have struck me as mindfuckingly awful. Maybe that proves I'm not borderline. Some people in some places seem to be helped by them, so hey. Whatever works.
I think a lot of the time people pretend to themselves that they've benefitted from therapy. I've seen this an awful lot.
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Hearing of the PR being happy and having a good time.
That makes my day, it really does:)
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The PR is over the moon! Her name was drawn from the hat and she is to be QUEEN of her therapy group's Mardi Gras parade!
Before you get too excited, I'm sure it's just the clients marching around the block. But she does get to wear a tiara. :clap:
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Wow! Going to look like the Princess Royal she is. :)
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The PR is over the moon! Her name was drawn from the hat and she is to be QUEEN of her therapy group's Mardi Gras parade!
Before you get too excited, I'm sure it's just the clients marching around the block. But she does get to wear a tiara. :clap:
:woohoo:
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congrats to the pr
my orchid bloomed. not over the moon, but very happy.
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NICE!
On a similar, but far less complicated note, I have managed to force a pot of white Easter lilies over the past few months. They are not yet open, but still very showy with all the blooms yet to open soon. Some of the upper ones are over four inches long, still closed.
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NICE!
On a similar, but far less complicated note, I have managed to force a pot of white Easter lilies over the past few months. They are not yet open, but still very showy with all the blooms yet to open soon. Some of the upper ones are over four inches long, still closed.
:thumbup:
Post a picture when they open, DirtDawg? They sound nice.
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here is a pic of the orchid
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Not a big fan of orchids, but that one is really pretty. :)
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here is a pic of the orchid
The orchid is gorgeous. How long will the flower last? :orly:
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Judee Sill's music makes me so happy. :)
I love the sound of her harmonizing with herself
on this track. It's like a whole band of Judees!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mV_erIikfA4
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here is a pic of the orchid
Beautiful!!
Mine is still in bloom as well, it put up a runner before I noticed it and could stake it on the 2nd shelf of my stand and is crooked as hell though.
It's pink also, but a lighter shade, about 3 yrs old? now, the leaves are huuuge. Out of the other 2 one bloomed around Thanksgiving...the other I had to repot and it wasn't in good shape when I brought it home. It's holding it's own, but I don't expect it to bloom for awhile.
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Not a big fan of orchids, but that one is really pretty. :)
Not a fan? How many have you killed trying to grow one? :lol1:
Most who hate them have failed at trying to grow them successfully. :'(
That appears to be a Phalaenopsis orchid, I think. Quite prolific for orchid genera, as far as the number of blooms sustainable on one plant over a period of time.
Have you ever had a flower bloom that lasted for four or five weeks (indoors, maybe more) or even ten or eleven months (in a properly maintained greenhouse)? Phalaenopsis blooms are known to commonly last for almost half a year awaiting the proper pollinator to create seeds for the next generation.
We have native orchids here in Indiana, but they are endangered species. I have only encountered one in the wild and it had an armed guard and a protected walkway leading up to it (Parks and Recreation Agent was guarding it) patrolling within about fifty feet in a state park. Kind of discourages people from stealing it. :zombiefuck: Seriously.
Most of these Eastern Hemisphere genera are widely propagated by horticulturists worldwide and the resulting species, varieties or cultivars only slightly or rarely resemble the parent plants. That is a part of the fun, though.
I think you should give orchids another chance.
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QV if there are any pics taken, I'd love to see them.
Seeing the PR with a huge grin on her face would make my da...wee..not sure how long but quite some time.
Another thing currently making me happy is getting the toolshed to myself all night. Hopefully now I can get to production of some violet phosphorus.
The preparation takes a long time, 24 hours at least, heating a sample of elemental phosphorus in molten lead, and then dissolving the lead away with acid to reveal the violet phosphorus within.
Going to try it with both red and white phosphorus and see if there is any difference, or if one succeeds and the other does not. Red P comes as a powder, and I've 2kg to play with so to speak, and the only time I've seen violet phosphorus on sale on ebay, it was going for about £20 PER GRAM. Not reactive much, unlike white phosphorus, and like red P, its not pyrophoric, and it is not known, unlike white phosphorus to be highly toxic. I want to try making some lead molds, filling them with white phosphorus by melt-casting, then topping it off with more molten lead.
First, I shall have to get out my alembic and begin purging it with argon, and leading the outlet into hot water, to melt the recovered white phosphorus. Got plenty to try with, in fact I might just try it on test-tube scale first and see if my hotplate alone will reach the transition point, or if I need to frabricate a metal distillation vessel.
First things first though, I'm finishing my can of beer, jar of pickled olives and jelly-babies (love the black and thee green ones...biting their little baby toes off, and pulling their heads off..yum)
And finishing my rollup.
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here is a pic of the orchid
The orchid is gorgeous. How long will the flower last? :orly:
i don't know. we have another bought this year that stopped blooming as soon as we got it home. it's in a small pot so we're going to fix that.
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Not a big fan of orchids, but that one is really pretty. :)
Not a fan? How many have you killed trying to grow one? :lol1:
Most who hate them have failed at trying to grow them successfully. :'(
That appears to be a Phalaenopsis orchid, I think. Quite prolific for orchid genera, as far as the number of blooms sustainable on one plant over a period of time.
Have you ever had a flower bloom that lasted for four or five weeks (indoors, maybe more) or even ten or eleven months (in a properly maintained greenhouse)? Phalaenopsis blooms are known to commonly last for almost half a year awaiting the proper pollinator to create seeds for the next generation.
We have native orchids here in Indiana, but they are endangered species. I have only encountered one in the wild and it had an armed guard and a protected walkway leading up to it (Parks and Recreation Agent was guarding it) patrolling within about fifty feet in a state park. Kind of discourages people from stealing it. :zombiefuck: Seriously.
Most of these Eastern Hemisphere genera are widely propagated by horticulturists worldwide and the resulting species, varieties or cultivars only slightly or rarely resemble the parent plants. That is a part of the fun, though.
I think you should give orchids another chance.
:thumbup:
i am not sure if mine will last that long. We have one that's not blooming anymore - just acquired last month. the one in the picture didn't bloom for two years and then the leaves got big so i repotted it and voila! we may have three blooms. i am going to repot the white one tomorrow. the pot is so small that i can't get an ice cube in there without it touching the leaves. the other one doesn't do ice cubes. i switched to dripping water onto the leaves a couple of times a week.
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It would be very wise to, if your transplanting orchids, to include the original soil. Orchids require companion fungi to grow, certainly to germinate the tiny seeds. Without these commensal fungi they cannot grow.
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here is a pic of the orchid
My mother got me purple orchids for my birthday.
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pole dancing in a music video
and the violin at the end of the song
https://youtu.be/papuvlVeZg8
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@ lestat - the Mardi Gras celebration was private since it was at the therapy center, just the clients. No pictures that I've seen and she would have shown me if she'd had one.
I'm ambivalent about orchids. Nice to look at, but I've no fancy to have them in the house.
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Hot chocolate.
Haven't had one in a while due to it being too hot so it was nice to have one tonight which has been cool.
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Hot chocolate.
Haven't had one in a while due to it being too hot so it was nice to have one tonight which has been cool.
That's right, your seasons are opposite to ours, I keep forgetting! :snowman:
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Pictures of dachshunds. We had them when I was growing up and I'd like to get one someday.
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Pictures of dachshunds. We had them when I was growing up and I'd like to get one someday.
They are gorgeous aren't they. A Facebook friend posts adorable pictures of her dachshund dog.
My parents had one before I was born but never got another, wish they did.
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I just happened to re-notice that mardi-gras thing and couldn't help but break out into a big smile for her :)
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I love the Talking Stain. :2thumbsup:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X2cs8gnb42A
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I love the Talking Stain. :2thumbsup:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X2cs8gnb42A
:laugh:
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In WW2 Dad was in Europe and someone gave him a show dachshund because the person didn't have enough food to feed the dog. He knew the GIs would have food. Dad traveled around Europe with the dog, but sadly couldn't bring it back on the troop ship. That was the start of our dachshund relationship.
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In WW2 Dad was in Europe and someone gave him a show dachshund because the person didn't have enough food to feed the dog. He knew the GIs would have food. Dad traveled around Europe with the dog, but sadly couldn't bring it back on the troop ship. That was the start of our dachshund relationship.
I am usually not a dog person but there's something about dachshunds that I find irresistible. They are so sleek.
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In WW2 Dad was in Europe and someone gave him a show dachshund because the person didn't have enough food to feed the dog. He knew the GIs would have food. Dad traveled around Europe with the dog, but sadly couldn't bring it back on the troop ship. That was the start of our dachshund relationship.
I am usually not a dog person but there's something about dachshunds that I find irresistible. They are so sleek.
Yes, they have nice glossy coats. I also love corgis, speaking of little short pups. :)
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Just found a downloadable copy of a game I played AGES ago, nightmare creatures its called, set in what looks like victorian era london, where some necromancer type has called up all kinds of horrors, two characters, one a swordfighter and the other specializing in a long staff, old fashioned flintlock type pistols for dispatching things that are really causing grief..brings back memories. Haven't played that in ages.
And another one, blood open-legacy of kain. Not played THAT in a while. Old school graphics, but amusingly gory, main character is a vampire, and theres plenty of mayhem fun to be had.
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Seal videos on Youtube:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=03iSx8J7JzI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jEcuFIU7Cb0&feature=youtu.be
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6X-zKy70I1Y
Shit like this.
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a new orchid.
the other one eventually had five blossoms which also made me ridiculously happy.
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(https://theaimn.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/11/gaslighting1-e1510355547354.jpg)
Memes that explain stuff really well
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(https://theaimn.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/11/gaslighting1-e1510355547354.jpg)
Memes that explain stuff really well
WOW! this is like a roadmap of odeot's M.O. ::)
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Seeing WolFish's posts in here.
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Seeing WolFish's posts in here.
I have been reading a few of his as well. :)
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ye84Zrqndo
:GA: :GA: :GA: :GA: :GA: :GA:
Live coverage tonight...6:30 pacific time.
Shut up and take my money.
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(https://theaimn.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/11/gaslighting1-e1510355547354.jpg)
Memes that explain stuff really well
WOW! this is like a roadmap of odeot's M.O. ::)
Ask yourself who's calling the other by names.
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With it being my 32nd b/day just the end of june, it reminded me, and made me think of him again, that it was Wolfy who was kind enough to start the happy birthday thread (although this year people posted their happy birthday wishes in Lestat's Lab instead for whatever reason)
So every year, I'll always think of him on the 29th of june. Not to say I won't otherwise at other times too of course, I often do, miss the wee furry lupine fucker.
As for what just made me ridiculously happy right now, it was, on having to get out 30 quid from the bank from my old man, that I owed him, I found out there was another £139.26 in the bank, meaning lots of the new chemicals and replacements of other chemical supplies that I am running low on or have run out of. So time to go hit up some suppliers for a few things.
Need at least:
TCCA (trichloroisocyanuric acid), a new one I haven't worked with before but will give me better yields on a synthesis I wish to perform to make me a belated b/day treat.
More isopropanol, I'm running low, I have some in a bottle that has been carefully dried using quicklime, standing over it in the bottle for a LOOONG time, so near anhydrous by now.
More pure ethanol (drinkable alcohol, or at least, the drinkable alcohol used in retail alcoholic beverages, I can get it tax free from russia, as 95% pure EtOH, with the remaining 5% being only water, which can of course be removed for the anhydrous EtOH I sometimes have specific need for, when it HAS to be ethanol and not another kind of alcohol, like methanol or isopropyl alcohol. This russian stuff, once diluted down to about 75-80% to avoid its physically burning and irritating tissues in the throat and stomach if swallowed, is even better in terms of taste, or lack of it rather, than is even very good vodka, and I can get a liter for just $20, of the 95% stuff, no taxes and non-denatured, just too concentrated to drink neat, but with a little potable liquid in it, then it is more than clean enough to drink, its medical grade stuff)
Need more of that.
Need some of the acid chloride of pthalic acid, or pthalic anhydride, and some pthalimide.
Some propiophenone.
Want some N1-(BOC)piperazine.
Pyridine, being another, some 4-dimethylaminopyridine (one to be careful with, as it can be lethal via skin contact, but an EXCELLENT catalyst for acylation reactions of phenols and alcohols, can get things done in near quantitative yield, at room temperature within ten minutes just stirring magnetically with the thing to be acylated, and the acylating agent. Needs careful removal of course, but only a tiny catalytic quantity is required, and if it can be recovered for reuse then it is reusable)
Will have to check my stocks of hydroxylamine hydrochloride. Could use some lithium aluminium hydride, some RED-AL (another hydride reducing agent), as well as some sodium cyanoborohydride, another one, although unlike LAH, but like RED-AL, isn't pyrophoric, although it does have to be worked up with care in reactions because it can release cyanide gas on contact with acids, and as even non-chemists know, hydrogen cyanide gas is a bad thing because its so poisonous, as well as being inconveniently for extremely poisonous things, a gas and ergo, volatile, as well as so much as a single drop of concentrated hydrocyanic acid (prussic acid, its solution in water, even the vapors of that, in the eye or on contact with mucous membrane, its enough to kill somebody long before an ambulance could ever hope to arrive, with the victim dropping to the floor and dying moments after)
Will take some carbon disulfide if I can get it at a reasonable price. Need more ether and perhaps another kg of iodine, I'm running a little low on iodine. Although I really need some thionyl chloride too, after the last I had was stolen from me by some filthy low down piece of shit.
And DEFINITELY a few liters of 85-95% (ortho)phosphoric acid (H3PO4) for making hydrobromic acid, for preparation of triphenylphosphonium bromide, as a source of anhydrous hydrogen bromide gas when heated to decomposition in xylene, toluene ought to work too. Have no xylene but tolly I have.
Probably some stuff I've forgot too.
And I'd like some more round-bottom flasks, another thermometer adapter or two, plus a couple wide-range thermometers of the mercury-filled type (which can go very low as well as high, and are highly accurate too) I only have one non-electronic alcohol thermometer too, which I need for reactions that I conduct in the microwave, since obviously electronic thermocouple probes are unsuitable for use in a microwave, as are thermometers filled with metal like mercury or gallium-indium or galinstan (gallium-indium-tin) alloy.
Will be looking for a cheap replacement electric vacuum pump too, if I can get one secondhand on ebay, although I'll have to limit my purchases of chemicals then as the pump could cost a bit, but I really need one and a vacuum gauge for it too.
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(https://theaimn.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/11/gaslighting1-e1510355547354.jpg)
Memes that explain stuff really well
WOW! this is like a roadmap of odeot's M.O. ::)
I almost regret introducing Pappy to his new toy.
But think of the entertaining stupid we'd be missing out on.
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:laugh:
Actually, I can't be bothered to read many of his posts.
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:dog: :doggie: :puppy:
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"Abbey Road" shaking the floor.
:headbang2:
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"Abbey Road" shaking the floor.
:headbang2:
:headbang2:
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"Abbey Road" shaking the floor.
:headbang2:
:headbang2:
RIGHT? !!!!!!
No police last night.
Beatles, played very loudly, seem to cause complaints from some shit neighbors. I wonder if it is just the content (too simple - everyone loves The Beatles, right?) Or is it the fact that I am blasting mostly uncompressed music.
I have had my daughter's music just as loud through several albums (Hero Dad, here!) with no problems, but these are all fairly compressed to a "loudness standard" and so do not have the massive dynamics evident in some older recordings. I actually played some Aretha Franklin last night as well but I turned down that Motown favorite. It was actually getting late, but the albums of hers are only lightly compressed and fully exploit the available dynamic range. Good Stuff, too!
Honestly it seems as if the "sound stage (I know, that is considered to be merely a psycho-acoustical, imagined effect, but drop by and I will show you that sounds from a freaking CD can seem to originate outside the listening room)" is larger than one might expect.
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Priming myself and getting stoked to get back to ,the org.chem work that was making me feel like crap when I was so tired, exhausted and overloaded that I felt like every islamite in the middle bleedin' east had just used my trachea for a toilet, and my hair to wipe the shit off their TP hand when they are finished.
Now I'm feeling properly clear headed and I'm NOT gonna let the little bugger beat me. And if the workup DOESN'T go the way I want, and reform my damn ketone, then I can still restart. Don't want to lose a dinnerplate full of the bisulfite adduct of the ketone even so. But no matter what, there is still the option of going via the corresponding Knoevanagel condensation product, reducing the double bond using excess borohydride (a severalfold molar excess, this is added to prevent dimerization of the nitroalkene via a Michael addition between nitroalkene and nitroalkane product, which gives a dimeric bis-product, a total dead end, irretrievable garbage, well, can be purified of course, but the dimeric bis-crap via the nitroalkene/nitroalkane Michael addition side reaction is better suppressed to begin with using an excess of NaBH4)
And then taking the nitroalkane, reacting it with either iron dust, or zinc dust in hot glacial acetic acid with an added pinch of ferric chloride hydrate to complex to the nitrogen and render it more susceptible to undergoing the desired reduction. Direct to product, 2-3 hours at 80-85 'C, just a little dash of FeCl3 per liter flask is enough, although at least if using iron powder there is the problem that one has to use overhead or manual stirring, because being ferromagnetic, if magnetic stirring was attempted it would just make the iron powder cling to the stirbar and drag it down until it wouldn't stir.
Zn dust at least, isn't magnetic. I've actually heard that the workup is more pleasant using zinc in lieu of iron. An excess is used in either case so manual or overhead stirring is easier to work with. Then its just filtration off of the metal scraps and oxide wastes etc., neutralization of the GAA, bringing to PH 10-11 and then extraction into dichloromethane. Distill off the dichlor and there is the freebase product. Can't really say WHAT specific compound for certain reasons, but its a nice reaction to run for a tried and time-tested CNS stimulant.
A bit of a pity it takes so much borohydride to run the cunt, to suppress that parasitic Michael addition during reduction of the nitroalkene to the saturated nitro compound (the borohydride reduces the double bond, whilst the second step using an acidic dissolving metal reduction catalyzed by ferric chloride reduces the aliphatic nitro group to form the desired aminoalkane.), about a fourfold molar excess. Although I'd be very curious to know if, rather than quenching the NaBH4 excess after the reduction, using aqueous acetic acid, if GAA could be used instead, because I think that would form a solution of STAB (sodium triacetoxyborohydride) which itself has use as a reducing agent like NaBH4 does, with a different spectrum of substrates that it will reduce, either alone or with additives such as nickel salts, copper sulfate, possibly cobalt to form a cobalt boride-STAB system in-situ, or nickel boride via reduction of a solution of NiCl2, nickel chloride, done in-situ in alcoholic solvent media. Won't reduce aliphatic nitro groups on its own, but apparently the dinickel boride used together with sodium borohydride will do, neither will reduce an aliphatic nitro group on its own, but together they have greater and more scope for substrate tolerability.
Only experimented a very little with nickel boride-borohydride, and not at all with cobalt boride/borohydride or cobalt boride/STAB. Still, its on my research shortlist.
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Tinkering with my Dolby processors.
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Tinkering with my Dolby processors.
...and Ninja Cats
(https://fennychandra.files.wordpress.com/2010/11/ninja-cat1.jpg)
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You can't hide your butthurt.
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Cheese chocolate and coffee. Mmmmmmmm
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Bugger. It looks like nickel boride reduction of nitroalkanes is a non-starter. At least using the P2 type boride (there are two, one formed in alcoholic media, the other in aqueous media, P1 being the form produced when a nickel (II) salt is reduced, ideally the acetate, using sodium borohydride, in alcoholic medium, and is the more active of the two, I've only tried P2 so far though, and not under pressurized hydrogen, but it appears that it won't do for reducing aliphatic nitroalkanes to aminoalkanes.
Thankfully though, I did get turned on to a rather nifty two-step onepot nitroalkene reduction (excess borohydride, a 4-6-fold molar excess with respect to the nitroalkene to be reduced to retard it's undergoing a parasitic Michael-type addition to the reduced nitroalkane intermediate which would give one polymerized tarry shite instead of a decent yield of various amphetamines and phenethylamines, although unfortunately no good for the non-fluorinated ring-halogenated ones, and then, once the nitroalkane has formed, cupric chloride is then added, which gets reduced to, unusually for copper, catalytically highly active species, giving good yields of at least straight amphetamine from P2NP)
Kind of neat, no pyrophoric chemistry (typically LiAlH4 is used to reduce the nitroalkenes to the aminoalkane in one step but it's pyrophoric, and can be dangerous to handle, borohydride needs the additional in-situ generation of copper nanoparticles, but it's so damn tame to handle, the excess can be quenched by directly adding acid in plenty of situations, or adding methanol, with which it reacts quickly, but not violently, giving off an effervescence of hydrogen gas)
Great shelf life, no spontaneous ignition, no need to dry THF or ether over sodium or potassium at reflux for two days to get it dry enough NOT to burst into flame, and for plenty of things to do with it, it doesn't even NEED an ether or THF etc. type solvent, which means less material that has any spontaneous nasty ass decomposition potential to keep around (THF and erther form explosive peroxides slowly in storage unless inhibited and ideally, regularly treated to destroy peroxide content. Some of them are more sensitive than others, but I don't want to encounter any of them, got a really nasty habit of forming under and in the screw threads on container caps, then detonating violently when opened. I've seen some rather nightmarish pictures, that rather drove that message home.....like a fridge, in a thousand tiny pieces, embedded in the ceiling of some lab somewhere that didn't watch out for peroxides.
Quite hilarious at the time...until you think of what''s lurking in the 'other things' fridge (contents vary, but generally a load of bottles of various less than stable things have to share with tubs of live maggots and casters, that my old man uses as fish bait. Gives me a mental picture that's even worse if that THF ever were to peroxidize and explode. Not only a fridge studded roof...but if those things hatched....jesus. I think I'm going to set to making sure I use up that 5l of THF I have in there, because it's been there, albeit inhibited and stored in as good a set of conditions, bar under liquid nitrogen or the likes, that one could hope to store THF or other ethers, and unopened. But that does on the other hand, leave me with five liters of the stuff, that'll have a shelf life of needing checking and possibly treating every 3 months or so to make a point of using and replacing with fresh stuff.
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Not to self: Always ask "is it okay to drink this?" before helping myself to a drink from Lestat's fridge.
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Buying new guns. :tooledup:
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Oh, that fridge doesn't have anything anyone would want to eat in it. Not unless you happen to be a fish, t any rate. I keep the two separate, precisely for that sort of reason. I doubt anyone would go randomly taste-testing anything that needs storing in teflon-capped bottles or is marked all over with the skull-and-crossbones icon (because should the coppers ever cause trouble here, there is a whole world of it they could unleash through sheer stupidity, and I don't want to be on the recipient end of it)
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I do occasionally use the freezer though, but that's usually just for freeze-precipitating something that happens to respond well to the technique, I don't as a rule store anything in there, the second fridge works a treat for keeping even things with escape-artist tendencies where they ought to be, when the right containers are used, at least, such as the halogens, and the solid or liquid interhalogens (which tend to eat anything other than glass or perfluorinert type polymers)
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Buying new guns. :tooledup:
OK, Spill it!
Whadja git? (You know about half of mine, already)
I have not bought anything new in about a year, since that SR9 Ruger, which has actually turned out to be a treasure.
I have had enough of the bullshit about crap triggers on Rugers, already.
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Being able to sleep in makes me feel pretty happy.
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Me too Ren, me too. Although I only went to bed at about 7:30AM last night.
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7:30 AM doesn't qualify as "last night".
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7:30 AM doesn't qualify as "last night".
Not true! You have some fun due you if you do not get that.
:heisenberg:
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Famous words I learned in New Orleans:
The sun is coming up, but the night is still young!
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MOSW-sure i.t does, if you look at it as the early hours of those evil things called 'mornings', and of being, pardon my foul language, the morning, which happened to be attached to the night which followed the period of daylight yesterday.
So yes, it counts as last night.
And don't forget, I'm autistic, with what counts for a sleep cycle in your average Kanner's autie. I.e not very conventional, at the very least. And, don't forget, I'm largely a creature of the night to begin with, so your nights are my days and vice versa, although I was using the conventional, NT standard when referencing 'yesterday' in this particular context MOSW.
So yeah, it was last night. Late, very late last night. Or late yesterday as the case might be, for a nocturnal asocial as fuck Kanner's guy. I'm a spazz, live with it. I have to (not that you'll hear me complaining)*
*one of my special interests is cutting off and collecting people's ears, to string on necklaces, in a bit of arts and crafts :autism:
Although for the record, I'm still not complaining about being classically autistic. It isn't just the best way to be, it's the ONLY way to be.
And yes, I'd mean just the same thing if I had the option to change to either being NT or to being aspie (or Down's, or any other neurotype for that matter). I like it this way. It seems to work well enough for me anyway. Unless it's eating vegetables, or having to touch the coarse grained wood in ice lolly sticks, the rolling pin, or hear some bastardly piece of shit cleaning the plastic chopping board in the kitchen, in which case, Ima make like a three year old boy being introduced to jimmy saville's ghost, and fucking split.
(sorry, I know, that was a bit dark of me. But I could probably find worse by request :autism:)
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Famous words I learned in New Orleans:
The sun is coming up, but the night is still young!
But...it burnnssss usssss.
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*throws holy water in Calandale's face*
*quickly ducks round a corner with fingers in his ears and very glad he had the foresight to be wearing his laboratory goggles and face/head/neck/upper torso blast shield*
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Two weeks and two days until I see Joe Bonamasssa at the Murat Theater down in Indianapolis.
This is still very far away, but I will be happy. Tickets were kind of pricey, but worth it! I bought mine early and they are great seats, but at one hundred sixty three bucks a pop, we can not do this very often. BUT this is Joe Bonamassa!
Oh, I am taking my daughter, who loves rocking blues and stuff.
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This is a view from the stage. As you can see this is an old school, kind of elegantly outfitted theater.
My seats are roughly in the middle of the front center section.
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This is a view from the stage. As you can see this is an old school, kind of elegantly outfitted theater.
My seats are roughly in the middle of the front center section.
So cool.
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My three beautiful cats.
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Buying new guns. :tooledup:
OK, Spill it!
Whadja git? (You know about half of mine, already)
I have not bought anything new in about a year, since that SR9 Ruger, which has actually turned out to be a treasure.
I have had enough of the bullshit about crap triggers on Rugers, already.
Haven't bought it yet but I'm looking at getting a semi-auto Mossberg 930 Tactical 12ga.
I already have a Rem 870 pump and a Winchester Super-X Mod #1 semi-auto trap gun but or home defense/Zombie eradication it's hard to beat a semi-auto 12ga.
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3 beautiful cats?
What other kind of cats ARE there? :D
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This is a view from the stage. As you can see this is an old school, kind of elegantly outfitted theater.
My seats are roughly in the middle of the front center section.
So cool.
Yeah, I am excited about this trip. "It will be a night to remember."
Usually a trip into Indianapolis is a burden and lots of trouble. I only do so if I HAVE to. This concert, I HAD to attend!
My tickets are already in hand and I even have parking sorted out this time, so I am as ready as I can be.
Well, maybe a stretch of the truth since my daughter is still working out her outfit. Mine is easy, blue jeans, LOUD Hawaiian shirt and leather jacket. Cane for survival of the walks required.
(My cane is also the ONE weapon I can carry into any venue with no questions asked.)
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Buying new guns. :tooledup:
OK, Spill it!
Whadja git? (You know about half of mine, already)
I have not bought anything new in about a year, since that SR9 Ruger, which has actually turned out to be a treasure.
I have had enough of the bullshit about crap triggers on Rugers, already.
Haven't bought it yet but I'm looking at getting a semi-auto Mossberg 930 Tactical 12ga.
I already have a Rem 870 pump and a Winchester Super-X Mod #1 semi-auto trap gun but or home defense/Zombie eradication it's hard to beat a semi-auto 12ga.
Handled several Mossberg 930 and 935 of various configurations, but never used one. All my semi-auto shotguns are Remingyon 1100 in several gauges.
Only Mossbergs I own is are two fairly old 500 pump models in 20 and 12 gauges.
Tactical 930 looks awesome!
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3 beautiful cats?
What other kind of cats ARE there? :D
(https://d17fnq9dkz9hgj.cloudfront.net/uploads/2018/04/Sphynx_01.jpg)
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(https://cdn.trendhunterstatic.com/thumbs/ugly-bat-boy-cat-uggs.jpeg)
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This is a view from the stage. As you can see this is an old school, kind of elegantly outfitted theater.
My seats are roughly in the middle of the front center section.
So cool.
Yeah, I am excited about this trip. "It will be a night to remember."
Usually a trip into Indianapolis is a burden and lots of trouble. I only do so if I HAVE to. This concert, I HAD to attend!
My tickets are already in hand and I even have parking sorted out this time, so I am as ready as I can be.
Well, maybe a stretch of the truth since my daughter is still working out her outfit. Mine is easy, blue jeans, LOUD Hawaiian shirt and leather jacket. Cane for survival of the walks required.
(My cane is also the ONE weapon I can carry into any venue with no questions asked.)
Do you still need your cane? I've (mostly) gotten rid of mine.
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This is a view from the stage. As you can see this is an old school, kind of elegantly outfitted theater.
My seats are roughly in the middle of the front center section.
So cool.
Yeah, I am excited about this trip. "It will be a night to remember."
Usually a trip into Indianapolis is a burden and lots of trouble. I only do so if I HAVE to. This concert, I HAD to attend!
My tickets are already in hand and I even have parking sorted out this time, so I am as ready as I can be.
Well, maybe a stretch of the truth since my daughter is still working out her outfit. Mine is easy, blue jeans, LOUD Hawaiian shirt and leather jacket. Cane for survival of the walks required.
(My cane is also the ONE weapon I can carry into any venue with no questions asked.)
Do you still need your cane? I've (mostly) gotten rid of mine.
Around the house, in the yard, heading out to drive one of the kids to work, no. I do fine. But walking for three blocks, down into a parking garage, then up steps, maybe.
Although I do take the dog out for several blocks, but I am still very close to home and I can sit in my neighbors' yards if I need to take a break. That has not happened recently, even though I take the dog out for his morning constitutional every day.
But I am not going down town without my cane. Just in case.
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For a stealth weapon, why not get yourself a sword cane, or one with a punch-dagger built into the handle? you can get a LOT of force behind a punch dagger and make a fuck of a mess of the recipient, if ever you had to use it in anger, since you can get all the force of the blow right into the blade tip, drive them straight through bone, joints, shatter ribs and keep going into organs...
Any mugger would be isn't going to get a second chance once you ram that in an uppercut to the nose or through the eye or temple, twist, and yank it sideways.
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For a stealth weapon, why not get yourself a sword cane, or one with a punch-dagger built into the handle? you can get a LOT of force behind a punch dagger and make a fuck of a mess of the recipient, if ever you had to use it in anger, since you can get all the force of the blow right into the blade tip, drive them straight through bone, joints, shatter ribs and keep going into organs...
Any mugger would be isn't going to get a second chance once you ram that in an uppercut to the nose or through the eye or temple, twist, and yank it sideways.
First off, one should never try to defend oneself from a position of anger. That leads to mistakes and even auditory and visual impairments.
Defensive maneuvers against a group of assailants should always be very deliberate and calculated, even (if you are fortunate to have had adequate training in the past) thought out and preventive of further escalation. Locating the leader and removing his threat first, for instance.
While something like what you describe might have been a possibility in the 1800s, in these times it would be found out and confiscated.
Trust me, if I have my cane with me, no small group of thugs can do anything to my daughter or myself without a few trips to the hospital. I am lucky enough to have the advantage of some prior training. While I might have lost a step in my age, my age has also taught me some dirty fighting tricks that street thugs have never even imagined.
I will be completely secure and my daughter will be safe, even down town.
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Well, I over stated a bit.
When I leave my house, I carry a Colt .45 auto and two spare magazines. When I go into a concert venue, I have to leave my "protection" locked and concealed in my car.
If I encounter a group with more than one gun, I might be in trouble, unless I had gotten to the car and secured my protection, first. If I have my Colt in my hand, it would take more than a couple of guns to make me not want to fight back or take leading action.
With just my cane against a couple of guns, it becomes a toss up. I might get lucky. I might get my daughter hurt. Tough call. It amounts to, "don't bring a cane to a gun fight" or something like that. I would be out matched.
Fortunately, this trip, I am only two blocks away and three levels down from the building where I will park and there will be police all along the way, directing traffic.
I am not too worried. I've got this.
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By 'used in anger', I was using a figure of speech. Suppose I shoulda known better than to do that in a forum by and for spazzes :autism:
I mean, in the sense of 'a blade drawn in anger', a metaphor, meaning, intending to use it to inflict physical harm upon another, as opposed to using it to clean your fingernails, sharpen your pencil, pick your nose and eat it, with cutlery :tard:
To use the term in context, I could say that while I am alright with the set of nunchaku I own. But I have never used them in anger. Meaning that I have never used them against another person.
And I agree. If I HAVE to fight, then I make no bones about it, I'll do whatever I must to cripple the assailant in such a way that they either cannot stand, end up in hospital, or dead if needs be. Quickly, efficiently and ruthlessly.
I'd sooner not have to in the first place. But neither will I take any shit as the price of avoiding things getting physical, I won't be walked over like a doormat either. But if some pikey tosser wants to start shit just to be a 'nob 'ead (as they'd say it, and probably try to spell it too, if they are able to write and read :autism:), then if they end up with their arms broken, kneecaps kicked through sideways and repeatedly stamped on, then they shouldn't have tried to harm me or take what belongs rightfully to me.
And as for anyone hurting a loved one...then all the above merciful treatment goes right out the window. There are no limits then, all bets are off and if they wish to live, they better run like hell. Because that is one thing I will NOT stand for. Nor will I stand for people tormenting those who are obviously vulnerable, or who are spesh, either. Just isn't something I'm prepared to put up with. Don't like bullies, never have, never will. And I like those who pick on spesh people even less.
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Getting stuff in the mail.
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Getting stuff in the mail.
I love that too. At the moment I'm waiting for a book. Can't wait to get it.
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Getting stuff in the mail.
I love that too. At the moment I'm waiting for a book. Can't wait to get it.
I just got my 11" Italian switchblade in the mail. 8)
The only downside is that once I handled it, I realized it was made for right handed people.
You can still manipulate it with your left hand but it's not as easy. :emosad:
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Getting stuff in the mail.
I love that too. At the moment I'm waiting for a book. Can't wait to get it.
I just got my 11" Italian switchblade in the mail. 8)
The only downside is that once I handled it, I realized it was made for right handed people.
You can still manipulate it with your left hand but it's not as easy. :emosad:
Too bad it is not ambi-
I know I have seen some, but not sure about that length.
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Speed Limit 85 MPH.
Not sure it is only in Texas, but we go fast in Texas. Believe it or stay out.
I know, a bit off for a fellow who seems to have abandoned his roots to pursue a hot Hoosier gal, but I was there back in the spring and miss it!
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I know I have seen some, but not sure about that length.
Said that, she did. :yoda:
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:dunno:
Sorry, but who?
Most of my long blades are fixed. Only switchblades and folders I have are all shorter. I think my longest switchblade is six inches.
I do have a number of WWI era trench knives with the brass knucks attached (fake, I think), which do not need any folding. Also a couple oddball stabby and saw-toothed blades from the Viet Nam era, Schrade, Ka-Bar, some single edge, some double edged, one of which is actually German (Henkel, FFS, Identical to the Gerbers, but made in Germany by Henkel). I usually think of Henkel as a kitchen knife.
I still lean toward a machete for a close in blade, though. I can chop down a tree with my machetes. None of those little easy to carry blades can do that without a nightmarish amount of swinging a small blade.