It wa her decision. She is just not enough of a people person. And I have my suspicions, although only suspicions that one of the last things she'd let me do is pay for her to come to my country, or for me to travel there, either. Because I wouldn't wish to take money from her pocket on travel. Plus two other reasons.
At the time, The Bitch From Hell was in the way, and no doubt lady T would rip her to shreds, and that malignant, noxious coprophagous gutterwhore borderline dirt made flesh did everything It could to get in our way. A nastier piece of work you could never hope not to meet. Or have anything to do with. Fucking BPD bitch from tartarus if ever there was one. I've known (not by voluntary association wherever possible_ some real nasty fucking pieces of work. Some violent thugs, and this creature was the worst of the lot. The most dangerous living thing I have EVER known or known of. And that includes people who've knifed kids, rapists, paedophiles and nastier creatures still, such as the likes of one particularly noxious creature who kicked his pregnant girlfriend down the stairs. Not a friend. Somebody I lacked the ability to avoid. And one other so vile that they had to end. A thug, god knows what else (ended up banged up, and hopefully never survived what came to him. Who, What and by who, I will not say. But lets just say. It is unwise to threaten an autie of high intellect with rape. (never comitted, and for that matter, never seen alive again to the best of my knowledge. I intend some day to pay a home visit and make sure that who did gave them what was coming to them successfully exterminated them.
The Bitch From Hell...she was even worse still. Sly, and extremely dangerous. If I ever see her again I wouldn't think twice about burying her alive with a stake through her spine to make sure she suffocates and has not the chance to claw her way out of her grave. Made two false (not known to be at the time since the first guy...well that one may not be false. And is known to be best friends with a paedophie and stalker of dead babies.) so The Bitch From Hell got the benefit of the doubt about the second claim. Claimed to be drugged and raped by someone who could not in hindsight, have raped his way out of a toilet tissue box with a tactical nuclear weapon. Someone I dislike, generally speaking, but that is the limit of my enmity towards him.
This male, when the claim was made, she first attempted to have shot. And when she failed, she tried (and failed) to bring a case to court, have him charged as a rapist. And as I said, this individual just doesn't have it in him. He couldn't rape a hole in a plastic bag with a sawn-off shotgun, in fact he'd probably shit himself and run if you handed him an unloaded shotgun and a pair of shells and told him how to use it at the thought of shooting a clay fucking pigeon. Bled him dry and when there was nothing more to bleed, conconcted a false rape claim against him after fucking him (voluntarily on both sides), went to the extent of giving a video interview and all. The CPS threw the case out because she had no more evidence than I have evidence of being next in line as the king of fucking england.
Eventually this particular bitch kicked my door in as I was getting dressed and said she had to wait a moment for something she wanted whilst I got out of bed and got dressed. Forced my door and attempted to carve me into dogmeat with a katana. A sword she bled out of the same poor bastard she maliciously of rape. Soon as he had nothing else to give, to The Bitch From Hell, he was trash and to be disposed of. She very nearly did get him killed as a result.
A liar, a thief, a psychotic, malicious cancer in vaguely mammalian borderline bitch and general utter scumbag. Even pulled a knife on a friend of mine when I went to visit and she was with me, merely because she accused him of coming too close to her. And he did nothing wrong, no provocation greater than his standing on his own doorstep. And she pulled a knife, threatened to stab the guy. That time, I nearly lost the guy as a friend, and for that matter, barely managed to save HER life (I didn't know what she was at the time).
I know of at least 3, possibly four others she's accused of rape as well. Her own family. Came on to me as well, tried to ensnare ME in a relationship, and when I refused, tried to just get me in bed. With the benefit of hindsight, I have little doubt indeed that had I done so, she would have done the exact same thing to me and accused ME of being a rapist. Only I never fucked her in the first place, consensually or otherwise.
Did everything in her malignant, malicious power to foul up my relationship with lady T. I should have run her through when I had the chance. That time she drew steel against me, I was forced to defend myself in kind. Instead of disarming her and knocking her to the deck, telling her to get fucked, turn her pockets out to make sure she had nothing stolen on me, I kicked her out. Caught her stealing money from my old man, caught her, after begging me to take her to church, rinsing the donations box. She had to go. But I really, honestly wish I'd killed her that day, rather than using the flat and rear of my sword and my fists. I should have shot her in the face, cut her up and dissolved her in acid. Or preferably just dissolved her in acid so as not to have wasted a bullet. I wouldn't have the least problem dissolving her alive, after cutting out her voicebox and burning her tongue out and duct-taping her big fucking gob so she couldn't scream. I wonder to this day, who she is currently leeching off, and how many more false rape claims or other, similar such false accusations of the innocent she has made. If I HAD killed her that time she tried to off me with her sword, I would have done humanity a great kindness.
I've a hunch, although not much more of one than a hunch that she tried poisoning me once, possibly twice. And after kicking her out and searching what used to be the room I allowed her to stay in and after, made a new lab, I found a load of things she'd stolen. Such as a bunch of my meds. I'd been wondering for ages why I was constantly going into opiate withdrawal. And when I looked under her bed, there was a pile of what equated to a year or so worth of stolen painkillers, tranqs, mushrooms and other things both rx and from my stash. She was allergic to all pain medication of the morphinan family, such as codeine, dihydrocodeine, hydrocodone, oxy, morphine etc. to the point it would kill her had she taken any. She took them not for herself or to sell, but to deprive me of them, so she could then use the resulting withdrawal as a tool for manipulating me, telling me, do whatever, and I'd get some of her meptazinol and she'd give me some temazepam, because oh, because of my crap memory, I must have forgotten and taken too many. I didn't. Fucking little serpent had been stealing them. After kicking her worthless arse out, I returned the favour, her valium and temazepam, as well as the painkillers, she didn't get them back. And I sincerely hope the doubtless result of grand-mal tonic-clonic seizures and horrific withdrawal from the benzos proved fatal.
So that foul parasite being around quite likely had something to do with it. Every time I managed to get some time alone to speak with lady T, the fucking whore from hell did everything she could to get in the way and ruin our quality time, and saying awful things of her as well. The kind of things that she is lucky I didn't kill her for the moment the words left her mouth.
The time that she threatened to knife that friend of mine, she got VERY lucky that I was there and able to pursuade him not to do what he was going to. Because he is both connected, and whilst a decent guy, The Bitch is lucky in the extreme that I was able to persuade him to let her live. If I'd not have been there, there is a 95% or greater chance that he would have either killed her himself or had her killed.
I am fairly damn sure that that fucking hell-shart ruined the relationship between myself and lady T. And that woman, I have only been so deeply in love once before. Yes, I've beem in relationships before, I've loved others. But never like that. The only other person, was the younger of my two former fiancees. And I have not seen her or been able to contact her for a long, long time. How old she was, and how old I was at the time, I am not prepared to say where others could read it, and to be honest, I am a little...well...even in elder's I'd still be hesitant somewhat. But those two girls, lady T was my second chance, a soulmate. The first time, with miss C, ever since, until getting to know T, C was the love of my life, and honestly, still is. I've never felt like a whole person since then, other than with lady T. And Since losing the latter, I have never been in a relationship since. I don't know as I ever will. I've been wanting to rejoin the group that C took me at (and she did. Applied steel toe caps to the knees/groin of somebody in the way, slammed me into a tree at paintball gun-point and stuck her tongue down my throat. Then introduced herself after more or less informing me I was hers. We were engaged within weeks. And I've never been happier. Or more devastated when that relationship ended (it was really complicated and I don't want to go into the details. Because not a day goes by when I don't think of her, and it still tears whats left of me to pieces. For a time, with lady T, I thought that life could be different. But it wasn't to be. Now? chances are I'll be single for the rest of my days. And I'm not interested in just meat-encounters, only serious relationships with someone I truly love. It will be that, or it will be nothing.
What makes me ridiculously happy? either miss C or lady T. I've never been happier than with C. Ever. There are only two, maybe three other people, that I know that I'd get with, and one, kassiane her name is, I've not had the chance to speak to in way too long, and is a continent away. The others, one going by 'aliengirl' I daresay I've always had a thing for since when we were both on AFF, and the other, laura, I've known since my first secondary school. kanner's autie, cute as fuck. Been contemplating asking her out. I don't know if I can do it though. But I have always been completely crackers about her.
