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Start here => M.O.-Introductions => Topic started by: EquiisSavant on June 09, 2009, 10:34:26 AM
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I am new to Intensity. I am an adult savant diagnosed with autism in art and the law. There really isn't much to say. I have a personified autism horse. I am trying to become a lawyer, but the law enforcement establishment in the U.S., Calif. and Florida state bars, and a brigade on the Bench are really freaked out at the idea a mukie savant person with autism ever made it thru law school and wants to *gasp* become one of them, they have gone on a forum-to-forum hopping campaign since fall of 2002 to invade forum and attack me to censor my First Amendment free speech.
The protected speech they most dislike is that I believe people with autism and Aspergers do have the abilities to become lawyers and judges and U.S. Attorneys, and that in the U.S. our goverment refuses to count adults with autism because they don't want to have to provide adults autism services, access to autism medical doctors--especially neurologists and not psychiatrists, and they want us to be the bag boys and linen girls instead of the doctors and lawyers ourselves because there is Autism Apartheid in the U.S. and now that all other civil rights groups have moved up the capitalistic heirarchy, we auties and Aspies are the new slave class. They also don't like it when I ask for an accounting (# count) of the numbers of peopel with autism and Asperger's who are being put in U.S. jails because of this refusal to fund proper adult autism services. In the UK, the adult autism/Aspie count has begun and calls for proper spending levels on adult autism services. The figure differential of how much more the adults with autism costs the governments as compared to the children that are coming out scare the beegeebers out of the law enforcement and the U.S. Attorney. They are under the impression the U.S. government cannot afford to cover adult autism services or allow us to work because of the pitiful U.S. budget prospects and financial debacle the greedy neurotypicals in the U.S. made of our economy.
That's pretty much me.
I am just wondering how long it will take the Tampa U.S. Attorney to come to this forum and launch yet another attack on my First Amendment free speech rights like they did at Wrongplanet, where they went about rejecting me from the forum while they destroyed evidence. I guess tracking the ISP # to the Tampa U.S. Attorney's Office law enforcement under his direction would not have settled too well with his career.
I would like it if, for once, I actually did have unfettered First Amendment free speech rights to say what I think. And, if they stalk me here like they did at WP, the forum hosts will tell them to take a hike and notice a due process court hearing on me if they want to censor me on or off this forum so I can challenge it. The problem, as someone pointed out to me on Twitter is, there are an estimated 45 million uncounted adults with autism in the U.S. who also want to be heard and our government does not want to hear what is on our minds. U.S. goverment also does not want any savant person with autism to become a leader of an autism freedom and equal opportunity movement.
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I almost forgot, here is my EquiisAutisticSavantArtist website where some of my savant artwork is featured in the Galleries. The U.S. Attorney and government don't it that as a diagnosed perosn with autism I can demonstrate any abilities whatsoever, either. I am not unique -- people with autism and Asperger's have many talents. THAT's what really freaks oout the neurotpicals.
My website:
http://www.equiisautisticsavantartist.webs.com/
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My apologies for the typos -- I also have vision impairments. No matter how many times I re-read, I don't always see them.
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Fascinating story, friend. Welcome. ;D
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:welcome:
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Greetings!
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Good to see your not the sensitive type :welcome:
What does the U.S. Attorney worry about and how did you get in the hot seat
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Good to see your not the sensitive type :welcome:
What does the U.S. Attorney worry about and how did you get in the hot seat
He is worried about his job...
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What does the U.S. Attorney worry about and how did you get in the hot seat
Yeah, I'm wondering the same thing. What got the Tampa Attorney pissed enough to track you to WrongPlanet and contact Alex?
Oh, and welcome. You seem arrogant but also in some ways competent.
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Granted this is a fictional portrayal, but I think Jerry Aspinson (BOSTON LEGAL) proved that people with autism/Asperger's can be excellent lawyers.
Oh, BTW--Howdy!
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:welcome:, very interesting intro.
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My website:
http://www.equiisautisticsavantartist.webs.com/
I like your site. :)
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Where did you go?
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Good question. This one appears to have the makings of an interesting member.
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Yes, I agree.
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Good to see your not the sensitive type :welcome:
What does the U.S. Attorney worry about and how did you get in the hot seat
I appreciate everyone welcoming me ! It is good to have friends when you have autism and no one wants to be your friend, including even your autism neurologist.
To answer the above question, in the United States, all a person needs to do to "get in the hot seat" of the U.S. Attorney is co-exist with a DX of high functioning autism with savant syndromes, the more prodigious, the higher on the list it appears.
I did have research from the U.S. State Dept.'s material during the Bush Administration indicating people with autism, no different than the Quakers and other just all-Americans, were being profiled as potential suspected suspects of suspected "domestic terrorism," *just because* of our autistic savant syndromes. In my case, I also graduated law school and passed the hardest bar examination in the U.S., and I surmise my prodigious savant autism-with-law degree somehow threatens the power elite and gets in the craw of the homogeneously neurotypical U.S. Attorneys Dept.
Evidently, the Obama Administration has not yet weeded out some of these discriminatory anti-autism/Aspie policies. So -- until then -- I have to go around like John Lennon did for all the decades he did nothing wrong except ... play the greatest music !
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Good to see your not the sensitive type :welcome:
What does the U.S. Attorney worry about and how did you get in the hot seat
He is worried about his job...
Perhaps this is a very astute observation, and not so far from the truth -- if the homogeneously neurotypical legal profession, and most especially the U.S. Attorney's Office, had to hire people on merit, it is a certainly the savant autistic people whose brains think and solve problems 40% faster would have the hiring edge.
That's why they discriminate, hate us, profile us, and set about trying to make our savant autistic lives "vast wastes" as my neurologist called mine, despite my significant struggle to achieve the accomplishments I have, including my artwork.
Sadly, they do no one any favor, since they ruin people's lives like mine, and at the same time, they are not hiring the best and brightest candidates available, which ultimately cannot help but reflect on poor job performances in their Dept. And there is nothing a savant autistic can do about this plight to bring positive change.
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What does the U.S. Attorney worry about and how did you get in the hot seat
Yeah, I'm wondering the same thing. What got the Tampa Attorney pissed enough to track you to WrongPlanet and contact Alex?
Oh, and welcome. You seem arrogant but also in some ways competent.
If my autism makes others perceive me as "arrogant," I am profoundly sorry. It was not my intention. Given my severe language start in life, it is a miracle I can speak.
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My website:
http://www.equiisautisticsavantartist.webs.com/
I like your site. :)
Thank you. I posted a new painting a day ago or so.
I have new ones I will be posting soon, as well, when I am not experiencing bouts of severe depression over my autism neurologist quitting me and abandoning me without securing a referral for me to another equally qualified autism doctor, leaving me suddenly in need of medical care/treatment and no doctor. I am painting when I can manage it.
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Where did you go?
I am sorry. I have been very depressed since my doctor quit me. He was my best friend. Now I have to talk to my autism horse, but unlike my neurologist, my horse lacks his unique sense of humor. And his conversational repertoir is not as vast as my doctors, since he mostly wants to talk about apples and peppermints.
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Where did you go?
I am sorry. I have been very depressed since my doctor quit me. He was my best friend. Now I have to talk to my autism horse, but unlike my neurologist, my horse lacks his unique sense of humor. And his conversational repertoir is not as vast as my doctors, since he mostly wants to talk about apples and peppermints.
Well what the fuck, brother we're here. This isn't a support forum or anything but we have lots of "conversational repertoir" for you to enjoy. :thumbup:
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Good to see your not the sensitive type :welcome:
What does the U.S. Attorney worry about and how did you get in the hot seat
He is worried about his job...
Perhaps this is a very astute observation, and not so far from the truth -- if the homogeneously neurotypical legal profession, and most especially the U.S. Attorney's Office, had to hire people on merit, it is a certainly the savant autistic people whose brains think and solve problems 40% faster would have the hiring edge.
That's why they discriminate, hate us, profile us, and set about trying to make our savant autistic lives "vast wastes" as my neurologist called mine, despite my significant struggle to achieve the accomplishments I have, including my artwork.
Sadly, they do no one any favor, since they ruin people's lives like mine, and at the same time, they are not hiring the best and brightest candidates available, which ultimately cannot help but reflect on poor job performances in their Dept. And there is nothing a savant autistic can do about this plight to bring positive change.
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It goes on in all walks of life. Put it this way, this all starts with school bullying, where the dim use the social rules to come out on top. School bullying would be derided as terrorism if it were done on the international relations level - but inside a state its welcomed by the moronic majority. Democracy is another one of those tools, along with argument by society.
Have you ever looked into social meritocracy? I see it as the political system which should benefit us the most.
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Good to see your not the sensitive type :welcome:
What does the U.S. Attorney worry about and how did you get in the hot seat
He is worried about his job...
Perhaps this is a very astute observation, and not so far from the truth -- if the homogeneously neurotypical legal profession, and most especially the U.S. Attorney's Office, had to hire people on merit, it is a certainly the savant autistic people whose brains think and solve problems 40% faster would have the hiring edge.
That's why they discriminate, hate us, profile us, and set about trying to make our savant autistic lives "vast wastes" as my neurologist called mine, despite my significant struggle to achieve the accomplishments I have, including my artwork.
Sadly, they do no one any favor, since they ruin people's lives like mine, and at the same time, they are not hiring the best and brightest candidates available, which ultimately cannot help but reflect on poor job performances in their Dept. And there is nothing a savant autistic can do about this plight to bring positive change.
I say fuck them I wouldn't be surprised if they had files on a bunch of people here. My hobbies arouse looks and I'm sure if the cops came to my house the hazmat and bomb squad would come too(military collectibles , at home chemistry). As far as your Doctor that's a tough one but probably for the better did he give a referral?
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Hi EquiisSavant.
:welcome:
I liked your artwork.
We normally never censor anything here, so I don't think you have much to worry about.
When and where did you pass the bar?
Do you have a horse?
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:welcome:
Like Callaway like Your Art Work.
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Hello EquiisSavant. You must have met Gulliver straight after his racing career finished. Do you find he's changed much since then? He looks like a mellow-tempered guy. Other racehorses I've known about will shy at thistles and try to bite you any chance they get, and would definitely not make good candidates for an equine therapy program. :)
"Magnificent" is not too strong a word to describe your art. I found "Migrating Birds at Sunset" in particular to be sublimely beautiful. You have every reason to feel proud.
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Where did you go?
I am sorry. I have been very depressed since my doctor quit me. He was my best friend. Now I have to talk to my autism horse, but unlike my neurologist, my horse lacks his unique sense of humor. And his conversational repertoir is not as vast as my doctors, since he mostly wants to talk about apples and peppermints.
Well, stick around here. We're not always a friendly bunch but I think we tolerate a lot more than most.
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Yeah, I'm wondering the same thing. What got the Tampa Attorney pissed enough to track you to WrongPlanet and contact Alex?
Oh, and welcome. You seem arrogant but also in some ways competent.
If my autism makes others perceive me as "arrogant," I am profoundly sorry. It was not my intention. Given my severe language start in life, it is a miracle I can speak.
Okay. If you haven't already figured out from my post to you on the Drivel, I have no ill will against you. A lot of people (including myself) don't like to hear someone talk so often about how they are a savant and how they've overcome so much, even if it's true. Once or twice is enough and then it starts to sound like bragging.
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Yeah, I'm wondering the same thing. What got the Tampa Attorney pissed enough to track you to WrongPlanet and contact Alex?
Oh, and welcome. You seem arrogant but also in some ways competent.
If my autism makes others perceive me as "arrogant," I am profoundly sorry. It was not my intention. Given my severe language start in life, it is a miracle I can speak.
Okay. If you haven't already figured out from my post to you on the Drivel, I have no ill will against you. A lot of people (including myself) don't like to hear someone talk so often about how they are a savant and how they've overcome so much, even if it's true. Once or twice is enough and then it starts to sound like bragging.
It kinda does man. Unless someone asks about it that is.
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Good to see your not the sensitive type :welcome:
What does the U.S. Attorney worry about and how did you get in the hot seat
He is worried about his job...
Perhaps this is a very astute observation, and not so far from the truth -- if the homogeneously neurotypical legal profession, and most especially the U.S. Attorney's Office, had to hire people on merit, it is a certainly the savant autistic people whose brains think and solve problems 40% faster would have the hiring edge.
That's why they discriminate, hate us, profile us, and set about trying to make our savant autistic lives "vast wastes" as my neurologist called mine, despite my significant struggle to achieve the accomplishments I have, including my artwork.
Sadly, they do no one any favor, since they ruin people's lives like mine, and at the same time, they are not hiring the best and brightest candidates available, which ultimately cannot help but reflect on poor job performances in their Dept. And there is nothing a savant autistic can do about this plight to bring positive change.
I say fuck them I wouldn't be surprised if they had files on a bunch of people here. My hobbies arouse looks and I'm sure if the cops came to my house the hazmat and bomb squad would come too(military collectibles , at home chemistry). As far as your Doctor that's a tough one but probably for the better did he give a referral?
No, my neurologist did not give me a referral. The CARD Autism Center has informed me he is essentially the only neurologist available to take adult autism and savant people in my state. I have been checking, and this seems to be the case. But he did write me in an e-mail before creating the situation as pretext for which he terminated me, that he was establishing an adult autism clinic and autism research at the University, so I do not see why they should not be able to get that clinic up and running full of available adults autism neurologists and other professionals and I should not get to be seen by one of the other adult autism clinic neurologists. If my doctor was not telling the truth about the adult autism clinic that would be ... ? At minimum, research misconduct affecting the University's federal grants ? I have to give him the benefit of the doubt, however, and assume he was truthful and putting all the adult autism clinic and autism research through all the proper channels at the University, so I guess I can write the Governor's Commission On Disabilities to intervene and broker why I should not be a patient at the new adult autism clinic that is being established ? Perhaps I should send the doctor's e-mail about establishing the clinic and my autism DX to the local TV and ask them why I will not be able to be a patient at the new adult autism clinics, and if they think they should not give some coverage to the new adult autism clinic that will be benefitting adults with autism in my area ? Just some thoughts ... trying to get to the bottom of this ...
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Yeah, I'm wondering the same thing. What got the Tampa Attorney pissed enough to track you to WrongPlanet and contact Alex?
Oh, and welcome. You seem arrogant but also in some ways competent.
Okay. If you haven't already figured out from my post to you on the Drivel, I have no ill will against you. A lot of people (including myself) don't like to hear someone talk so often about how they are a savant and how they've overcome so much, even if it's true. Once or twice is enough and then it starts to sound like bragging.
It kinda does man. Unless someone asks about it that is.
If my autism makes others perceive me as "arrogant," I am profoundly sorry. It was not my intention. Given my severe language start in life, it is a miracle I can speak.
So sorry, and didn't mean to offend anyone. I more see it as savant autistic is a description of my role in life. But I could have just called myself a personified autism horse, if that may please you more. Let me know. Certainly don't want to raise anyone's ire here.
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Hi EquiisSavant.
:welcome:
I liked your artwork.
We normally never censor anything here, so I don't think you have much to worry about.
When and where did you pass the bar?
Do you have a horse?
Thank you for the art compliments ! It is a lot of work commandeering the paintbrush. I passed the bar in California, but Calif. and Florida refuse to license me due to my autism. It is awful. They act like no one knows anything about autism! They probably have nightmares about the autistics wearing judicial robes and handling gavels. I don't know what to say. I wish it were otherwise. I would just settle for being a groveling lawyer on the other side of the bench. If it could only be ...
I do have an autism horse. I personify him. Not to drivel any redundant statements, or anything, lest I offend anyone. But I love my horse, and he talks to me !
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Where did you go?
I am sorry. I have been very depressed since my doctor quit me. He was my best friend. Now I have to talk to my autism horse, but unlike my neurologist, my horse lacks his unique sense of humor. And his conversational repertoir is not as vast as my doctors, since he mostly wants to talk about apples and peppermints.
Well what the fuck, brother we're here. This isn't a support forum or anything but we have lots of "conversational repertoir" for you to enjoy. :thumbup:
WTF, thank you. I will try to engage in conversational repertoir, but my autistic language abilities are not very good.
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:welcome:
Like Callaway like Your Art Work.
:plus:
Thanks for the support ! When I put the next piece on my art website, I will give a mention it is there.
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Good to see your not the sensitive type :welcome:
What does the U.S. Attorney worry about and how did you get in the hot seat
He is worried about his job...
Perhaps this is a very astute observation, and not so far from the truth -- if the homogeneously neurotypical legal profession, and most especially the U.S. Attorney's Office, had to hire people on merit, it is a certainly the savant autistic people whose brains think and solve problems 40% faster would have the hiring edge.
That's why they discriminate, hate us, profile us, and set about trying to make our savant autistic lives "vast wastes" as my neurologist called mine, despite my significant struggle to achieve the accomplishments I have, including my artwork.
Sadly, they do no one any favor, since they ruin people's lives like mine, and at the same time, they are not hiring the best and brightest candidates available, which ultimately cannot help but reflect on poor job performances in their Dept. And there is nothing a savant autistic can do about this plight to bring positive change.
:plus:
It goes on in all walks of life. Put it this way, this all starts with school bullying, where the dim use the social rules to come out on top. School bullying would be derided as terrorism if it were done on the international relations level - but inside a state its welcomed by the moronic majority. Democracy is another one of those tools, along with argument by society.
Have you ever looked into social meritocracy? I see it as the political system which should benefit us the most.
I can't say as I disagree ...
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Hello EquiisSavant. You must have met Gulliver straight after his racing career finished. Do you find he's changed much since then? He looks like a mellow-tempered guy. Other racehorses I've known about will shy at thistles and try to bite you any chance they get, and would definitely not make good candidates for an equine therapy program. :)
"Magnificent" is not too strong a word to describe your art. I found "Migrating Birds at Sunset" in particular to be sublimely beautiful. You have every reason to feel proud.
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Yes, racehorses. I should paint some more of them. Gulliver is ok. He likes to go fast, if I let him. But he takes care of me and my autism. I have a long life of riding horses for autism therapy, so I am not a completely incapable rider. I did win a US National Championship when I was 19. But I need to ride for therapy to my autism and other co-existing conditions. Whether it is an ex-racehorse or a pony, I try to be a horse whisperer, so I can just do my therapy. Horses listen to me. I have a way with them. Probably because I personify my horses as my best friends. It is an autistic thing. Gulliver has been my autism therapy horse for over 10 years.
Thank you for the compliments of my art ! I am working on a beach scene in oil pastels of Durban Natal, SA, and also the Peruvian Princess at the Castle (a horse painting) in acrylics, not quite finished yet but soon to be. I am in the sketching stage of a wild horse herd running across a dramatic mountainscape in South America in oil, as well. That one will take me awhile since it is a large canvas.
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:) That is cool, your connection with Gulliver.
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My website:
http://www.equiisautisticsavantartist.webs.com/
I like your site. :)
Thank you. I posted a new painting a day ago or so.
I have new ones I will be posting soon, as well, when I am not experiencing bouts of severe depression over my autism neurologist quitting me and abandoning me without securing a referral for me to another equally qualified autism doctor, leaving me suddenly in need of medical care/treatment and no doctor. I am painting when I can manage it.
I know that feeling. I can't find a psychiatrist at the moment to prescribe some of my meds. I was turned down by two psychiatrists that said my case was "too complicated". Hence my custom title.
Do you live with family? Maybe they can help you.
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My website:
http://www.equiisautisticsavantartist.webs.com/
I like your site. :)
Thank you. I posted a new painting a day ago or so.
I have new ones I will be posting soon, as well, when I am not experiencing bouts of severe depression over my autism neurologist quitting me and abandoning me without securing a referral for me to another equally qualified autism doctor, leaving me suddenly in need of medical care/treatment and no doctor. I am painting when I can manage it.
I know that feeling. I can't find a psychiatrist at the moment to prescribe some of my meds. I was turned down by two psychiatrists that said my case was "too complicated". Hence my custom title.
Do you live with family? Maybe they can help you.
I don't really have much family that can help me. I am still without an adult autism neurologist in Florida. I am still very depressed over my doctor, really missing the great light he shined in my life.
Not trying to be unfriendly to anyone, just extremely down. But I did paint a new painting called "Two Ibis' On The Shore," in Gallery #1, pg. 2 on my EquiisAutisticSavantArtist website !
http://equiisautisticsavantartist.webs.com/
Hopefully, people will like it. The two people who saw it so far thought it was very cool.
Maybe it would make me feel better if I painted a picture of my doctor.
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They are pretty.
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Maybe it would make me feel better if I painted a picture of my doctor.
I don't think it will. You have to try and let that person go. It may be the hardest thing you have ever had to do but holding on to that person will be in vain and it may hurt you more. But that is my opinion.
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Maybe it would make me feel better if I painted a picture of my doctor.
I don't think it will. You have to try and let that person go. It may be the hardest thing you have ever had to do but holding on to that person will be in vain and it may hurt you more. But that is my opinion.
I would paint the picture for myself. I would not do it for the doctor. I am devastated. What he did to me, I don't think I will ever get over it. He meant more to me than anyone in my life. I have not had any real relationship with my husband since then, I have not even been able to kiss him or be touched since what my doctor did. That does not mean I am pursuing him. He is the one losing out. Lost a person who couldn't have thought higher of him as a person, and lost his own integrity. But he must delight in destroying someone's life who only thought the best of him and held him in the highest regards and loved him. There isn't anything worse a person -- much less a trusted doctor -- could do to a person with autism who can count the number of best friends on less than the fingers of one hand and lost one of them who died a horrible way, breach the person's ability to trust and get close to someone, emotionally. Reward the good in the autistic person with utter devastation he knew it would cause -- after promising to be my doctor and my friend for a lifetime. (He promised lifetime medical care in his e-mails).
The only thing that changed was his sudden abandonment after he had to re-confirm my autism diagnosis -- when that happened, he called me a "vast waste," then .. abandoned his patient.
I don't think I will ever be able to trust anyone again or get close to anyone, ever.
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Burn the picture my give you some catharsis
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Thank you Callaway for the compliments on the Ibis' painting. I did that one before the doctor devastation. I have not been able to paint much since then. I did try to finish the one that got severely affected by my spacing out and it turned the sky blue and pink from the extreme emotional shock the doctor delivered to me, but it is the only one, and this devastation has pretty much destroyed my ability to paint like I did when my doctor was my friend. It is called "The Eagles Are Landing," and is in Gallery #1, pg. 2, on my website:
http://equiisautisticsavantartist.webs.com/
I should just give up and be a vast waste, since that's obviously all I am. My doctor was the only one who thought otherwise, until he re-confirmed my autism diagnosis.
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If that doctor could so easily cast you away, then he is not worth the dirt on the bottom of your shoe, IMO. Nobody who can draw and paint like you can could ever be a "vast waste". What does your husband think of this doctor? I think that you are already a better person than he will ever be.
When did he confirm your autism diagnosis the first time and when did he re-confirm it?
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I should just give up and be a vast waste, since that's obviously all I am. My doctor was the only one who thought otherwise, until he re-confirmed my autism diagnosis.
Callaway is correct. Fuck that Dr, he is an uncompassionate POS. Feeling like shit from time to time is part of life on the spectrum unfortunately, so you will have to deal with that. Don't let that Drs negativity screw with your interest in art.
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Wishing you strength in getting through this difficult time, EquiisSavant.
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If that doctor could so easily cast you away, then he is not worth the dirt on the bottom of your shoe, IMO. Nobody who can draw and paint like you can could ever be a "vast waste". What does your husband think of this doctor? I think that you are already a better person than he will ever be.
When did he confirm your autism diagnosis the first time and when did he re-confirm it?
Thank you for the kind, uplifting words, Callaway. My husband is very upset the doctor did this. My husband is very protective of my artwork. He cannot believe any doctor would abandon a patient with autism like this, make the "vast waste" comment, and fail to reinstate me as a patient knowing the extreme depression this has caused. I don't understand why the doctor would just cast me away like this, either, when he spent so much time cultivating such a special relationship for almost a year -- there were appx. 800 e-mails exchanged between us during that time. He knew he was one of the very few people I could actually communicate with in a non-computer format. He did 4 brain scans and never showed me a single one of them. He never explained very well three blood panels that were taken, either. My blood pressure was very high after my Jan. 08 TBI and rising at the point he abandoned me. I am very distressed over all of this.
I had an infantile childhood autism diagnosis, that was adjudicated for adult child support in my parents divorce when I was was 14. My doctor tried numerous times in my opinion to reject that diagnosis or at least he seemed skeptical, but after some testing and the PET scan he had to re-confirm.
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Wishing you strength in getting through this difficult time, EquiisSavant.
Thank you, SleepyDragon.
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I should just give up and be a vast waste, since that's obviously all I am. My doctor was the only one who thought otherwise, until he re-confirmed my autism diagnosis.
Callaway is correct. Fuck that Dr, he is an uncompassionate POS. Feeling like shit from time to time is part of life on the spectrum unfortunately, so you will have to deal with that. Don't let that Drs negativity screw with your interest in art.
PPK, I'm trying my best to keep drawing and painting. It is very hard, because it is reminding me of my doctor. I was always sending him works in process and finished pieces, and he would make the most uplifting comments about them. It's like the only thing that makes all of this not hurt so bad is not to draw or paint. Everytime I try, I burst into tears all over again.
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EquiisSavant, I have been trying to make sense of what your doctor did and trying to reconcile his earlier actions with the later ones.
I know that patients have transference, but I wonder if something like that could have happened to your doctor?
I mean if they expressed inappropriate feelings for a patient, they could lose their license.
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EquiisSavant, I have been trying to make sense of what your doctor did and trying to reconcile his earlier actions with the later ones.
I know that patients have transference, but I wonder if something like that could have happened to your doctor?
I mean if they expressed inappropriate feelings for a patient, they could lose their license.
Callaway, I understand the states and medical board think they can impose such a rule on doctors under the states' parens patrie power, but the issue is not so simple. There were several heated debate threads on one of the Nation's best legal forums about this very issue, and the majority of lawyers who clerked for US Courts of Appeals and US Supreme Court were almost all of the opinion such a rule cannot be sustained against either the US Constitution or some federal statutes.
This is because, as to the constitutional problem, there is a fundamental constitutional right for two people to have such a relationship and to associate. What that means is, the state is required to use the least restrictive means of getting at what it perceives to be the problem it seeks to regulate -- essentially, when you come down to it, undue influence. The law deals with undue influence in numerous other contexts (wills, vulnerable people, children over 14 but under 18, lawyers, accountants, etc.), so there is no reason to expect the law cannot do the same in the doctor-patient relationship context, as well. By imposing such an overbroad rule, the states and medical boards infringe on constitutionally protected activity -- what if there is a doctor-patient relationship that neither person views (and is not in fact) one of undue influence ? What is the harm ? From a legal standpoint, there is none. Whether the relationship is a deep emotional one or a deep friendship or one involving physical touch but not sex or even one involving sex, love, and/or marriage, is not from a constitutional standpoint relevant -- unless there is undue influence. It is possible for laws to be written to create rebuttable presumptions that unless people can prove X, certain relationship conduct is presumed to be undue influence. Then, in that case, the people need to rebut it. But as the rules are currently written, they impose a conclusive irrebuttable presumption, and such type of presumptions are in almost all cases unconstitutional. Florida has already lost on their doctor-patient rule once.
As for such a rule violating a federal statute, now you have a very interesting problem, because no one knows much about autism and Asperger's, but what we are learning is therapy is most helpful if it includes certain things to improve the emotional and social relationship cognition and functioning of the patients with ASC conditions. Therapies like oxytocin, weighted blankets, touching, relationship therapies, all things that are directly contrary to the current rule. Because of this, and because autism and Asperger's are covered disabilities under Title II of the Americans With Disabilities Act, to allow the states and medical board's rule to stand is to deprive this protected class of ASC people the very programs, activities, and services they need and require for the health, safety, and welfare of treating their condition -- i.e., overt unlawful discrimination targeted to the class. As such, the ADA's federal preemption statute would render such doctor-patient relationship rule void and unenforceable upon a person with standing to bring suit for declaratory and injunctive relief.
Now, suppose there is the person who is in a crisis without the relationship -- then an immediate injunction may well be available, e.g., where the rule imposes a breach of the relationship causing suicidal ideation or the patient does not have long to live or something such as that. I can even see such immediate relief applying where the doctor and patient want to marry, the patient has autism or Asperger's and is about to be abandoned on the streets to a certain deterioration in health or even death but where the relationship or marriage would provide a home and care for the ASC person -- and they both want to do this.
I have carefully read the Florida statute and case law, and what I see is the doctor and patient can have the feeling for each other and can even be living together; what they cannot do under the current rule is have a sexual relationship, and kissing is pretty iffy but not necessarily forbidden -- I have not found any case square on point in Florida saying kissing breaks the rule. Moreover, in Florida, the same rule that applies to doctors applies to dentists, and in the case of dentists, they only breach the rule if they use the doctor-patient relationship to induce the sexual relationship. If they do not do exactly this--"use ... to induce," then they can have a sexual relationship without breaking the rule.
But, if there is some question how the state and medical board might view the relationship that causes concern to the doctor, then there does not appear to be any issue having the relationship or even living together without sex, until such time as one or both of the people seek and obtain a declaratory court order allowing them to move the relationship into a sexual one. A declaratory should suffice, because if the state and medical board then violate the declaratory judgment, an injunction would be immediately available. It is also important to note that there are many lawyers out there who would vigorously litigate just such a case pro bono because it is a very significant issue and one most of these lawyers believe the states and medical board are dead wrong on. Moreover, both as to the fundamental constitutional right to have such a relationship and the statutory ADA rights, the state and medical board have the burden of proof to prove a compelling state interest and that no lesser restrictive alternative to get at the harm exists -- it is called strict scrutiny. This is very difficult for a state or medical board to prove and in almost every instance the state/entity will fail. But that does not stop the state and medical board from trying to scare the piss out of the doctor to cause irreparable harm to his patient.
I think what you are referring to as to transference is the doctor's countertransference, although I suppose it is possible for a patient who has some understanding about psychology (innate or learned) to cause a transference to the doctor --whether intentional or unintentional. And, yes, I have thought maybe this did occur with my doctor, although I have not heard one thing from him since he abandoned me despite the utter devastation he knows he caused me that I cannot get over. So I don't know, but not a day goes by I am not struggling against extreme devastating depression over this. But the answer is not for the doctor to run away or devastate the patient -- and by doing so, maybe the doctor even devastates himself. If two people fall in love, then they fall in love and this is a fundamental constitutional right that federal law protects -- as does the ADA. If my doctor did feel this way about me, and he has abandoned the doctor-patient relationship, there is nothing the rule prohibits for him to now pick up and continue the relationship that is not at this point sexual. And even if both have a deep desire to make it sexual, I think two adults can certainly exercise restraint as to that desire until either the 2 years goes by under the existing rule or one or both obtain the court declaratory/and/or injunctive order nullifying the rule's two year period -- especially considering a consent divorce takes only appx. 30 days in Florida to enable the two people to marry each other.
And let's also look at the extent of harm caused by imposing the rule vs not having any rule -- certainly the harm to a person with autism to the point it would make almost any autistic person suicidal to abandon the patient becuse of the rule is far more harm than whatever overbroad paternalism occurs by having such a conclusive irrebuttable rule. While the doctor and patient relationship is cloaked in fundamental constitutional right, just where is there any constitutional right for the state and medical board or some doctors who want to impose their will on everyone else (including other doctors and their patients) to do so ?
I understand my doctor caused transference with me, but what if the transference is part of why I would want a relationship with him or even to marry him ? I liked the transference. I liked a lot of other things about him, too -- everything, in fact. We all fall in love and marry for many different reasons -- do we suppose our constitution allows the states and medical board to start making lists of reasons people cannot marry ? How about if one of them is too tall or too fat or not caucasion or over age 30 ? The fact there is a transference may be cause for imposition of a rebuttable presumption rule, but not in itself cause for a blanket conclusive irrebuttable rule. What the harm really is, when you get to the bottom of it, is when the transference is used to exert undue influence. But if it is not, then where is the harm ?
Moreover, is there a power imbalance ? The doctor may be the doctor and have superior doctor training, but I am a law grad who can litigate and have superior legal training -- such a circumstance does not really suggest a power imbalance. Both are trained in a profession at about the same levels, just different professions.
I fell in love with my doctor from the first moment--before any transference, and, moreover, I actually debated this very issue more with a lawyer relationship in mind even before I met my doctor, see http://volokh.com/posts/1168045584.shtml, http://volokh.com/posts/1168298468.shtml, and http://volokh.com/posts/1169250598.shtml. That, in itself, would tend to be pretty certain proof the doctor did not use the doctor-patient relationship to induce a more romantic relationship with me, at least as between myself and him. I simply fell in love with him. Did he simply fall in love with me? If so, then it is simply, two people who fell in love -- no undue influence, no harm, but actually a huge benefit to both people.
I am also having a really hard time reconciling my doctor's earlier actions with later ones. And this devastates me even more. If my doctor is in love with me, there are ways to have the relationship and still deal with the state and medical board. I still cannot accept deep inside that my doctor from what I came to know about him, was just so cold and callous that he did not care whatsoever about abandoning me. But, as things are, not having seen or heard from him, it is everything I can do to make myself go on from moment to moment. And I have not been able to relate to my husband at all or even touch him, I am so devastated. I cannot even make myself get in a car to go try to see another doctor, because I could not walk in the door, trust one, or even go there without just bursting into tears in front of the new doctor.
I don't know what to say or think. I have never been this devastated in my life. It is how the Earth would be if there were suddenly no Sun.
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I wonder if someone told your doctor to cut off contact with you, that the decision was not his alone.
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I wonder if someone told your doctor to cut off contact with you, that the decision was not his alone.
renaeden, I have also considered that.
However, the doctor is the one with the loyalties and duties to me as his patient that are primary and take precedence over any he owes any other person including his employer, other doctors, and even his relatives. And he knows this !
Knowing the harm cutting me off would cause (at the time the doctor may have been ordered to cut me off), placed and continues to place even now the doctor under a reporting duty as against whomever would have told him to cut me off because of my autism status to report it as a Florida Statutes, Sec. 415.111 criminal abuse of me as his patient. That would include people who might be his employer, whether they are other doctors or lawyers -- or even federal employees or officials because the McDade Amendment (a federal law) specifically legislates that a federal official is not protected from and can still be prosecuted for a Florida state criminal violation under state law (without any regard to their federal status --i.e., doctor can make state of Florida criminal 415.111 report of criminal abuse of a person with autism by a federal official, even a high level federal judge, and even if there is a federal court order; the state AG can prosecute it; the state judge can issue an arrest warrant for the rogue federal official; and the state can seek to extradite that federal official if not located in Florida to stand trial on the state criminal charge for violation of a state criminal law). And that is a requirement of my doctor's license that he report the ones whose act of ordering him to cut off contact with me constitutes the 415.111 violation. If he does not do this and reinstate me, a licensing violation against his own license can be sustained by the Medical Board.
Moreover, I am actually about to file medical licensure removal complaints against two other doctors who might have told him to cut me off, one of which would be a supervisor, and that person is also in a bar admission process so I am in the process of complaining that other doctor against his bar admission both to his law school and the bar examiners. I already set the predicate to complain them by asking the highest level supervising doctor to remedy this problem, and he has refused to respond. So he has it coming, and I don't care if he has an illustrious career and makes over a million dollar salary a year -- his career is about to be complained predicated on a criminal 415.111 abuse of an autistic person. I have already complained one of the lawyers who supervised part of this, the Bar filed the complaint last week -- she has a long career and many appellate cases, but she has violated some pretty serious bar licensing rules and if she is not disciplined on her license, her licensing agency is well aware I will sue them for money damages under Title II of the Americans With Disabilities Act and parade my deformed right foot caused by her bar violations (part of the damage) with my shoes off in front of a jury, because I have sued them before. I am also about to complain another one of the lawyers who supervised for refusing to make the 415.111 criminal reporting of the other lawyer's abuse of my autism.
And, I am also about to sue the state of Florida and Medical Board -- which requires me to also sue my doctor so the injunction will properly lie (not for money damages or med mal) -- for injunctive relief to invalidate the doctor-patient relationship rule and to compel the state of Florida if I am not reinstated to my doctor, to immediately fund and provide qualified adult autism doctors in huge numbers for the adult autism population of Florida. There is precedent for such a 30-day compliance order in a NY Title II ADA case, and in that case, they started holding the officials who failed to obey the 30-day injunction in criminal contempt of court and throwing them in jail. Also I am preparing to sue in same suit to invalidate the $200,000 med mal caps and the $200,000 state of Florida damage award caps under Title II of the Americans With Disabilities Act, because those provisions conflict with the ADA's rights and remedies and were never in compliance by the Florida Legislature with the ADA's Title II self-evaluation requirement to take input of the disabled people before enacting the laws. I have already set the predicate for this lawsuit as well, by making a public records request on the state of Florida, Medical Board and its attorneys at the AG office for their Title II Americans With Disabilities Act self-evaluation of those rules. They have not met the time requirement to provide me their Title II ADA self-eval which is required to be made available immediately.
I am also looking into whether or not my doctor's adult autism clinic funding and research proposals in his e-mails to me was run thru the proper processes under his employer's rules, which I doubt by the very act his employers may have ordered him to cut me off, and in that case (and I can compel them to give me the evidence in a court), I can and will seek to have the federal government terminate every federal grant to both the entire university, its medical school, and all coordinated VA programs. I do my homework and I am not a prodigious savant in the law for nothing -- my doctor's employers wanted a battle and they are getting one.
Whether or not it was my doctor's decision alone or he was instead ordered, does not matter. By the time I get done with the lawsuits and publicity (what they have done to harm an autistic person), everyone involved is going to wish they just let my doctor be my doctor and/or have the relationship we had that I need to treat my autism problems, because when the doctor-patient relationship rule falls along with the med mal and damage caps and the doctor's employer's rule prohibiting him from seeing me privately if they refuse to let him treat me (and those rules must fall under a Title II ADA suit even on summary judgment motion), I am sure all involved will be literal pariahs among the medical establishment not only in Florida but every other state as well -- they will all become known as the people who cause the problems that brought down the lawsuit that opened doctors once again to giant damage awards from the trial lawyers assns. -- and taught all the lawyers how to file many similar lawsuits against the state, its doctors, and Medical Board. I know this, because one of the chief people I have to sue to effect the injunction under the theory of the case just won to compel autism funding in California is running to be the next Governor of the state of Florida and this entire debacle could ruin her career and, late last nite, she has personally signed on to follow my autism postings on Twitter.
I do not have control over the doctor's choice, true. But I do have control over how I intend to respond to this. If the doctor chooses to stupidly go along with whomever might have told him to cut it off, he is an adult and a highly educated one at that, and in that case he will have no one to blame but himself. But I don't have to take this kind of abandonment and extreme harm it is causing me, not to mention having cut off all of my doctors there with some significant health problems now not being treated, without pursuing every legal remedy available to me. I am sure I will find out whether my doctor has any good character whatsoever or is even enough of a doctor and a man to stand up for his patient and reinstate her by telling off whomever may have ordered this to get out of his doctor-patient relationship -- or not.
Even the doctors under federal order to torture the prisoners at GITMO have been required by their Medical Boards not to obey the federal GITMO torture orders or aid in furthering them -- so where is there one single legal foundation for anyone to order my doctor to cut me off knowing the extreme harm this is certain to cause a person with autism ? Because, unfortunately, I have been forced into a position by virtue of my medical condition of having to put him to that choice. And if he loses his medical license over this, that is not even close to the extreme harm he -- on whomever's orders -- has caused and continuing to cause to me. It will sadden me, yes, but the choice that has put me into action -- as well as the choices available to him to stop the trajectory course of my response to remedy the abandonment and extreme harm to my medical condition -- is still resting entirely in his hands because at this point in time, the ball is still in his court.
I have also considered if whomever may have ordered him to cut me off is threatening (if he does not obey their orders to cut me off) to harm his employment, his career, or even possibly (which I don't know the facts if it is even a consideration), HB-1 status. If this is the case, if he did now turn around and stand up for me as his patient and for his relationship with me, I would write performance letters in support of his having done the right thing for his patient for any employer and any Medical Board, and/or litigate in the strongest terms for the protection of his career from the predators on both his career and on me -- I have standing to do this under the associational rules of Title II of the Americans With Disabilities Act and for tortious interference, as well as Florida Statutes, Sec. 415.1111 (punitive damages allowed) because I have suffered personal harm from this myself as the plaintiff. I actually do know of another Nation's leading brain cancer expert with a clinic in a state in which he is licensed who would likely employ him, and as far as the possible threats against his HB-1 status, I have done some immigration law and know immigration lawyers of whom I am sure one of them would help him, as well as I would not hesitate as an American citizen to to marry him because I love him, if it came to threats against HB-1 status because he protected me as his patient and the relationship with me. There is no prohibition under immigration laws to marry someone because you love them and they love you to protect a deep emotional relationship. But, for all I know, he may not feel the same way about me, and this may not even be a concern because maybe there is no HB-1 issue with his employer. I am just trying to think of all the possible ways in which he may have been threatened and ordered to cut me off as his autistic patient.
But again, I don't know the facts. What I do know is the extreme harm this has caused me, that his employer is a public university with a "shall" mandate to serve the public--which they are blatantly breaching while asking for public funding (!), and I am prepared to now begin more vigorous litigation than any I have engaged in before anywhere over all of this. Anyone who knows my lawsuits would not want to be in one, not even his employer. And especially not the way they and their Trustees are tied in to the entire Florida university system, which will cause them to lose funding in relation to other universities once I initiate the litigation. But I have been left without any other remedy. Walking away is not an option, because it will destroy my health, not only my autism treatments and emotional problems, but also pulmonology problems and if I cannot get my feet treated, will likely make me not able to walk eventually due to the deteriotating condition of my right foot injury. I am entitled to receive my health care at my local publicly funded provider !
On the other hand, whomever may have ordered him to cut me off cannot order him not to now contact or see me outside of the doctor-patient relationship and/or dictate his personal choices outside of employer life, even if it is a administrative or court order, I am entitled to due process notice of that order so I can challenge it, since I am the most injured party, and have the standing. There is no administrative or court order, either, than can prevent a doctor who has abandoned a patient from meeting her, holding her hand, talking to her about personal feelings and relationships, doing relationship things together, or even kissing, touching, or hugging without discussions about anything of anykind except the relationship -- those things would not in any case involve the employer's business or the scope of any security concern.
But I am not my doctor, and I am not the one who is making the choice that has initiated (and continues to govern) all of this -- I am only the responder who has been devastated, with all the tools I have available to me to rectify this situation and what is is doing to destroy my life, my health, wellbeing, and devastate me emotionally beyond comprehension. For which, I still don't understand why this happened.
I am completely devastated. I have autism and severe brain conditions objectively on my PET scan, I need the relationship with my doctor, and no one has made any effort to remedy this whatsoever. I have just been left utterly devastated and abandoned. I am going to find out who did this and why, and get a remedy -- if it means, even if he won't reinstate me, for access to all my other doctors there and to an order compelling Florida to immediately make available and fund many more adult autism and savant syndromes doctors with at least equal qualifications of my doctor and compel all insurers doing business in Florida to cover it, and provide me such an autism savant-TBI neurologist who will complete all the things my doctor promised me and spend as much time with me as he did. What more is there to say ?
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What is wrong with your right foot? How did it get injured?
How could you possibly marry your doctor to protect his HB-1 status, since you are already married to your husband?
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What is wrong with your right foot? How did it get injured?
How could you possibly marry your doctor to protect his HB-1 status, since you are already married to your husband?
My right foot got injured in our Jan. 08 car accident. Two of my doctors referred me for specialist and probable surgery a year ago May-June 08. My doctor also examined it in Oct. 08. Then his employer dropped the ball and messed up the billing by refusing to bill our UM insurance carrier, and left my foot deteriorating for months, and now it is permanently deformed, no flexion in the toes and the second toe points down and twists, and because I have trouble walking on it, it is making something now go wrong in my left foot heel area, so I basically have more and more difficulty walking as time is going on.
When my doctor abandoned me, he did so along with the referrals he had made, for which we were trying to get the billing straightened out. I am about to take a video of it all and the trouble I am having walking without shoes on and post it in YouTube because the UM carrier blew it off, too and I need the video for dealing with the UM carrier. When someone has autism, no one helps facilicate the communications, and we don't count, and neither my doctor's employer nor the uM claims rep cared whatsoever about this medical condition. So I have been left in extreme pain and with this deteriorating problem for really, over a year and a half. When I wake up in the am, it is all I can do in the first five minutes of trying to stand and walk on my right foot not to lose my balance and fall. Eventually, if I wrap the ace bandage about it and put on shoes with special grids, I can balance better, but it is tearing up both my feet as this goes on without medical care. The only exercise I can manage is to sit on my autism horse and ride, since it does not require me to walk on my feet. But I can't usually go into most stores or walk long distances, and sometimes, I can't even walk much around our room.
As far as the other question, how do you think two people who are both married to other spouses can marry each other ? In Florida, they divorce their spouses and marry each other. In a consent divorce it takes about 30 days. After a divorce, people can re-marry. It happens all the time. I know, I have law clerked family law for almost 20 years. But I don't know how the doctor feels, I only know how I feel.
I was only speculating whatever the problems are that my doctor may have been threatened with, if he was -- how do I know for sure, since what he did I just completely don't understand ? But I do know about HB-1 status and that usually a doctor who has it has to work for a federal (VA) or state research-professor medical school to keep the status properly. HB-1 status is generally tied to having the employment. It would be quite easy for an employer of a doctor with HB-1 status to threaten the doctor with loss of HB-1 status and deportation if he did not abuse his patient by ordering an abandonment, and I do know I experienced considerable hostility form his employer over my autism, so it would not be out of the realm in my opinion that this could have occurred. It doesn't, however, make the doctor's reporting duties against the employer or licensing violations for the abandoment go away. I don't understand why my doctor abandoned me. I have tried to, but I just don't comprehend why he would have such a special relationship with me, encourage it, exchange appx. 800 emails between us, promise me all sorts of other things, and just suddenly cut me off and abandon me causing me this level of devastation, not for anything can I comprehend it. And the more I try, the more depressed I get.
But, I said the reason I would marry my doctor if I were asked (if he felt the same way about me), is because I am in love with my doctor. I would feel this way with or without any HB-1 issue, conjectural or real. I didn't go looking to fall in love with him. But I did. And I feel this way. And I am very deeply in love with him. That doesn't mean I don't like my husband, but I have never been this deeply in love as with my doctor with anyone before in my entire life. I don't know what to say. This is how I feel, and I am really, really devastated. I needed the light he brought into my life. The transference helped me -- it was the first time in my life I felt joy each and every day. I can't stop drifting off into daydreams hearing his nice calming voice that I long to hear. There are so many things about him that gave me so much happiness. No one ever showed me so much respect. His use of language excited me. Being anywhere near him, strongly attracted me, his smell got me very excited. He had a bizarre sense of humor I loved. Do you want me to keep going on ? Until he abandoned me, he never, never hurt me, just the opposite -- he gave me a very secure place to be, and I really trusted him. And when we interacted, it is almost like it sparked off a huge chemical reaction in the most positive way -- it was exhiliarating. I could communicate with him on a level and in a way I have not been able to communicate with any one single other person in my life--as if I did not have autism. And it is all I can do to want to do anything anymore, because there really isn't anything that stops how depressed I am now every moment of every day since he abandoned me. I couldn't go to the Bar annual meeting, I didn't go see the fireworks, I haven't been able to go to my P/T since May 26th, I just burst into tears and feel so devastated, and it is such a terrible struggle to draw or paint much because it just reminds me of how good he made me feel even about that.
What is there to say ? Even beyond how I feel (my feelings), I don't have a doctor anymore, and all of my doctors have been cut off by this -- pulmonology, OB/GYN, my right foot, other tests -- ECHO, etc., he never showed me any of my 4 brain scans, didn't do the comprehensive neuropsychological testing, and there are other things he promised. And with the severity of my communication problems, I don't know how to replace all the other doctors and tests, but as far as my doctor, I have been informed he is essentially the only available savant adult autism neurologist in my state. There is no replacement for him. So I don't think there are any words to really describe how devastated I am.
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What is wrong with your right foot? How did it get injured?
How could you possibly marry your doctor to protect his HB-1 status, since you are already married to your husband?
My right foot got injured in our Jan. 08 car accident. Two of my doctors referred me for specialist and probable surgery a year ago May-June 08. My doctor also examined it in Oct. 08. Then his employer dropped the ball and messed up the billing by refusing to bill our UM insurance carrier, and left my foot deteriorating for months, and now it is permanently deformed, no flexion in the toes and the second toe points down and twists, and because I have trouble walking on it, it is making something now go wrong in my left foot heel area, so I basically have more and more difficulty walking as time is going on.
When my doctor abandoned me, he did so along with the referrals he had made, for which we were trying to get the billing straightened out. I am about to take a video of it all and the trouble I am having walking without shoes on and post it in YouTube because the UM carrier blew it off, too and I need the video for dealing with the UM carrier. When someone has autism, no one helps facilicate the communications, and we don't count, and neither my doctor's employer nor the uM claims rep cared whatsoever about this medical condition. So I have been left in extreme pain and with this deteriorating problem for really, over a year and a half. When I wake up in the am, it is all I can do in the first five minutes of trying to stand and walk on my right foot not to lose my balance and fall. Eventually, if I wrap the ace bandage about it and put on shoes with special grids, I can balance better, but it is tearing up both my feet as this goes on without medical care. The only exercise I can manage is to sit on my autism horse and ride, since it does not require me to walk on my feet. But I can't usually go into most stores or walk long distances, and sometimes, I can't even walk much around our room.
As far as the other question, how do you think two people who are both married to other spouses can marry each other ? In Florida, they divorce their spouses and marry each other. In a consent divorce it takes about 30 days. After a divorce, people can re-marry. It happens all the time. I know, I have law clerked family law for almost 20 years. But I don't know how the doctor feels, I only know how I feel.
I was only speculating whatever the problems are that my doctor may have been threatened with, if he was -- how do I know for sure, since what he did I just completely don't understand ? But I do know about HB-1 status and that usually a doctor who has it has to work for a federal (VA) or state research-professor medical school to keep the status properly. HB-1 status is generally tied to having the employment. It would be quite easy for an employer of a doctor with HB-1 status to threaten the doctor with loss of HB-1 status and deportation if he did not abuse his patient by ordering an abandonment, and I do know I experienced considerable hostility form his employer over my autism, so it would not be out of the realm in my opinion that this could have occurred. It doesn't, however, make the doctor's reporting duties against the employer or licensing violations for the abandoment go away. I don't understand why my doctor abandoned me. I have tried to, but I just don't comprehend why he would have such a special relationship with me, encourage it, exchange appx. 800 emails between us, promise me all sorts of other things, and just suddenly cut me off and abandon me causing me this level of devastation, not for anything can I comprehend it. And the more I try, the more depressed I get.
But, I said the reason I would marry my doctor if I were asked (if he felt the same way about me), is because I am in love with my doctor. I would feel this way with or without any HB-1 issue, conjectural or real. I didn't go looking to fall in love with him. But I did. And I feel this way. And I am very deeply in love with him. That doesn't mean I don't like my husband, but I have never been this deeply in love as with my doctor with anyone before in my entire life. I don't know what to say. This is how I feel, and I am really, really devastated. I needed the light he brought into my life. The transference helped me -- it was the first time in my life I felt joy each and every day. I can't stop drifting off into daydreams hearing his nice calming voice that I long to hear. There are so many things about him that gave me so much happiness. No one ever showed me so much respect. His use of language excited me. Being anywhere near him, strongly attracted me, his smell got me very excited. He had a bizarre sense of humor I loved. Do you want me to keep going on ? Until he abandoned me, he never, never hurt me, just the opposite -- he gave me a very secure place to be, and I really trusted him. And when we interacted, it is almost like it sparked off a huge chemical reaction in the most positive way -- it was exhiliarating. I could communicate with him on a level and in a way I have not been able to communicate with any one single other person in my life--as if I did not have autism. And it is all I can do to want to do anything anymore, because there really isn't anything that stops how depressed I am now every moment of every day since he abandoned me. I couldn't go to the Bar annual meeting, I didn't go see the fireworks, I haven't been able to go to my P/T since May 26th, I just burst into tears and feel so devastated, and it is such a terrible struggle to draw or paint much because it just reminds me of how good he made me feel even about that.
What is there to say ? Even beyond how I feel (my feelings), I don't have a doctor anymore, and all of my doctors have been cut off by this -- pulmonology, OB/GYN, my right foot, other tests -- ECHO, etc., he never showed me any of my 4 brain scans, didn't do the comprehensive neuropsychological testing, and there are other things he promised. And with the severity of my communication problems, I don't know how to replace all the other doctors and tests, but as far as my doctor, I have been informed he is essentially the only available savant adult autism neurologist in my state. There is no replacement for him. So I don't think there are any words to really describe how devastated I am.
Nice. A whole fucking book. How about just saying this?
My right foot got injured in our Jan. 08 car accident.
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What is wrong with your right foot? How did it get injured?
How could you possibly marry your doctor to protect his HB-1 status, since you are already married to your husband?
My right foot got injured in our Jan. 08 car accident. Two of my doctors referred me for specialist and probable surgery a year ago May-June 08. My doctor also examined it in Oct. 08. Then his employer dropped the ball and messed up the billing by refusing to bill our UM insurance carrier, and left my foot deteriorating for months, and now it is permanently deformed, no flexion in the toes and the second toe points down and twists, and because I have trouble walking on it, it is making something now go wrong in my left foot heel area, so I basically have more and more difficulty walking as time is going on.
When my doctor abandoned me, he did so along with the referrals he had made, for which we were trying to get the billing straightened out. I am about to take a video of it all and the trouble I am having walking without shoes on and post it in YouTube because the UM carrier blew it off, too and I need the video for dealing with the UM carrier. When someone has autism, no one helps facilicate the communications, and we don't count, and neither my doctor's employer nor the uM claims rep cared whatsoever about this medical condition. So I have been left in extreme pain and with this deteriorating problem for really, over a year and a half. When I wake up in the am, it is all I can do in the first five minutes of trying to stand and walk on my right foot not to lose my balance and fall. Eventually, if I wrap the ace bandage about it and put on shoes with special grids, I can balance better, but it is tearing up both my feet as this goes on without medical care. The only exercise I can manage is to sit on my autism horse and ride, since it does not require me to walk on my feet. But I can't usually go into most stores or walk long distances, and sometimes, I can't even walk much around our room.
As far as the other question, how do you think two people who are both married to other spouses can marry each other ? In Florida, they divorce their spouses and marry each other. In a consent divorce it takes about 30 days. After a divorce, people can re-marry. It happens all the time. I know, I have law clerked family law for almost 20 years. But I don't know how the doctor feels, I only know how I feel.
I was only speculating whatever the problems are that my doctor may have been threatened with, if he was -- how do I know for sure, since what he did I just completely don't understand ? But I do know about HB-1 status and that usually a doctor who has it has to work for a federal (VA) or state research-professor medical school to keep the status properly. HB-1 status is generally tied to having the employment. It would be quite easy for an employer of a doctor with HB-1 status to threaten the doctor with loss of HB-1 status and deportation if he did not abuse his patient by ordering an abandonment, and I do know I experienced considerable hostility form his employer over my autism, so it would not be out of the realm in my opinion that this could have occurred. It doesn't, however, make the doctor's reporting duties against the employer or licensing violations for the abandoment go away. I don't understand why my doctor abandoned me. I have tried to, but I just don't comprehend why he would have such a special relationship with me, encourage it, exchange appx. 800 emails between us, promise me all sorts of other things, and just suddenly cut me off and abandon me causing me this level of devastation, not for anything can I comprehend it. And the more I try, the more depressed I get.
But, I said the reason I would marry my doctor if I were asked (if he felt the same way about me), is because I am in love with my doctor. I would feel this way with or without any HB-1 issue, conjectural or real. I didn't go looking to fall in love with him. But I did. And I feel this way. And I am very deeply in love with him. That doesn't mean I don't like my husband, but I have never been this deeply in love as with my doctor with anyone before in my entire life. I don't know what to say. This is how I feel, and I am really, really devastated. I needed the light he brought into my life. The transference helped me -- it was the first time in my life I felt joy each and every day. I can't stop drifting off into daydreams hearing his nice calming voice that I long to hear. There are so many things about him that gave me so much happiness. No one ever showed me so much respect. His use of language excited me. Being anywhere near him, strongly attracted me, his smell got me very excited. He had a bizarre sense of humor I loved. Do you want me to keep going on ? Until he abandoned me, he never, never hurt me, just the opposite -- he gave me a very secure place to be, and I really trusted him. And when we interacted, it is almost like it sparked off a huge chemical reaction in the most positive way -- it was exhiliarating. I could communicate with him on a level and in a way I have not been able to communicate with any one single other person in my life--as if I did not have autism. And it is all I can do to want to do anything anymore, because there really isn't anything that stops how depressed I am now every moment of every day since he abandoned me. I couldn't go to the Bar annual meeting, I didn't go see the fireworks, I haven't been able to go to my P/T since May 26th, I just burst into tears and feel so devastated, and it is such a terrible struggle to draw or paint much because it just reminds me of how good he made me feel even about that.
What is there to say ? Even beyond how I feel (my feelings), I don't have a doctor anymore, and all of my doctors have been cut off by this -- pulmonology, OB/GYN, my right foot, other tests -- ECHO, etc., he never showed me any of my 4 brain scans, didn't do the comprehensive neuropsychological testing, and there are other things he promised. And with the severity of my communication problems, I don't know how to replace all the other doctors and tests, but as far as my doctor, I have been informed he is essentially the only available savant adult autism neurologist in my state. There is no replacement for him. So I don't think there are any words to really describe how devastated I am.
Nice. A whole fucking book. How about just saying this?
My right foot got injured in our Jan. 08 car accident.
My doctor diagnosed me with hypergraphia !!!
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I wish sometimes that I could post like that but have never been able to. It must be nice to feel all those thoughts flow out.
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I wish sometimes that I could post like that but have never been able to. It must be nice to feel all those thoughts flow out.
How does it feel nice for all the thoughts to flow out ? I am still severely depressed, and nothing is any better. All I can think about is how much I miss my doctor, and I wish he would come back. My life is completely devastated, totally ruined, and it is all I can do to want to do anything. I don't feel like I have any hope for anything anymore, and there is nothing that interests me. I just wish he would come back, and I wish he would find me and talk to me and see me again. I try to sleep it off, and when I go to sleep all I can think about is him. When I wake up, I am thinking of him. There is nothing I want do to anymore. I tried to paint on one of my paintings last nite, and it made me think about him, and he isn't here talking to me or seeing me, and it just threw me back into the deepest depression, and so much pain, I just wish I were never born. My life is nothing anyway. He is the only one who ever made me feel like my my life was worth something and like I mattered to anyone -- he made me feel like I mattered to him. I can't find anything that will make me feel better. As I said, it like the Earth with no Sun.
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That's a terrible place to be, Equiis. It mightn't be much consolation at the moment, and you've no doubt had people say this to you already. But no matter how bad you are feeling, you will not feel this way forever. I personally derived much comfort from the Buddhist teachings about attachment. I hope you too are able to find a way through your pain. It's not easy, I know.
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That's a terrible place to be, Equiis. It mightn't be much consolation at the moment, and you've no doubt had people say this to you already. But no matter how bad you are feeling, you will not feel this way forever. I personally derived much comfort from the Buddhist teachings about attachment. I hope you too are able to find a way through your pain. It's not easy, I know.
The only way I will get through the pain is if my doctor comes back. How hard is that ? If my doctor really cares about me, and I think he does, he will find a way to see me in-person.
I posted a new YouTube video of Part I of some of my artwork that is already on my website, but YouTube turns it into a slide show and has better resolution.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s7KxMMKB9zA
I will be uploading Part II when I retake a few digital pics that failed to upload to Part I and add a few new art masterpieces as yet unseen by the World -- I painted many of my new pieces for the beauty and light I see in the World when I think of my doctor. I love him so much.
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That's a terrible place to be, Equiis. It mightn't be much consolation at the moment, and you've no doubt had people say this to you already. But no matter how bad you are feeling, you will not feel this way forever. I personally derived much comfort from the Buddhist teachings about attachment. I hope you too are able to find a way through your pain. It's not easy, I know.
I don't think you have any idea how I am feeling. I was sexually molested by my cousins when I was 4 1/2-5, by my father when I was appx. 14-15. I saved my father's life, only for him to push my mother to self-immolate on his front lawn four days later, which I witnessed -- I watched her die of 3rd degree burns over 100 % of her body. I went thru 4 yrs of psychiatric care -- 2 x a week over this to pull me out of the deepest depression where not a day went by I did not want to kill myself.
My doctor knew about all of this and knew when he suddenly abandoned me like he did, after inducing me to get such a deep emotional attachment with him, he would undo all the previous psychiatric treatment and put me back in that place where I was. I was not having these problems when I came to him, and not until he abandoned me like he did, but I have them now in spades.
If you have never watched your mother-- a parent, set herself on fire and burn to death so horribly -- the worst sudden abandonment possible, then you do not know what you are talking about when you say I will get over my doctor with what he did to re-create the same abandonment. I am not getting over this. He did not even counsel me before the termination, or refer me to another neurologist and for counseling. I don't think you really have any idea the depth of the devastation I am feeling over my doctor, or how depressed I am. He was really the only friend I had and the only person I have really been able to talk to or confide in since she died. I trusted him completely when he promised to be my doctor for my lifetime, and trusted him to help me and protect all my vulnerabilities.
So, please, unless you feel like explaining to him just exactly why I need his therapy for my condition which he was improving tremendously -- nothwithstanding my other feelings for him, please spare me all the excuses that are only making me feel even worse. He completely ripped apart my psyche.
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The moment you are angry with me for my lack of understanding is the same moment you are not grieving the violation of your person, the death of your mother, or the departure of your doctor.
You are quite correct: I don't have any idea how you are feeling. Hell, I don't even keep track of how I myself am thinking and feeling from one moment to the next. I do know, though, that even the most intrusive thoughts, the strongest emotions, do not stay present 24/7/365. It takes a tremendous amount of mental discipline to make a single thought stay continuously present, even for just 10 or 15 minutes.
Your psyche may be damaged, but I repeat: You will not feel this way forever. The way you write and the way you paint encourage me to think that you will find a way through.
I wish you well.
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The moment you are angry with me for my lack of understanding is the same moment you are not grieving the violation of your person, the death of your mother, or the departure of your doctor.
You are quite correct: I don't have any idea how you are feeling. Hell, I don't even keep track of how I myself am thinking and feeling from one moment to the next. I do know, though, that even the most intrusive thoughts, the strongest emotions, do not stay present 24/7/365. It takes a tremendous amount of mental discipline to make a single thought stay continuously present, even for just 10 or 15 minutes.
Your psyche may be damaged, but I repeat: You will not feel this way forever. The way you write and the way you paint encourage me to think that you will find a way through.
I wish you well.
If you thought I felt "anger," then you are light years ahead of me. I have been so out of it, my feelings are one big blur of the most extreme pain, and beyond the pain, I really don't know what feelings I am feeling because I cannot even recognize them. I don't have the ability to keep one thought for 3 minutes without losing the thought whatever it was, much less 10 or 15. It has been this way since my doctor really really hurt me by his abandonment. And you are wrong about staying this way 24/7/365. I was this way for more than 4 years after my Mom died. I have not been able to paint much at all since my doctor did this. The ones I posted I did the week before I thought I would see him when I was estatically looking forward to my visit with him. I really have not done any since. I have not been able to write, either. It is making my husband's law practice fall apart. He has asked for a divorce almost every day since then. I tried to go to my P/T last Fri, first time since May 26th, and I just burst into tears and got quite hysterical in front of my therapist and told her about my doctor -- before what he did, I was going to P/T 2x week. Some days I have not even been able to see my horse. I spend most of the time trying to sleep so I am unconscious and cannot feel the pain, but then I dream about how happy I was when my doctor was still my doctor and I wake up hysterical in tears. And this is how each day has been since he did that to me, like the walking dead. I really don't see a future. So you really don't know what you are talking about.
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... So you really don't know what you are talking about.
I guess not, eh? Tell you what, let's talk again, say, a year from now, and you can tell me then whether or not you are still in exactly the same state that you are in now.
And I still wish you well.
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... So you really don't know what you are talking about.
I guess not, eh? Tell you what, let's talk again, say, a year from now, and you can tell me then whether or not you are still in exactly the same state that you are in now.
And I still wish you well.
I think what you say is anything but.
I have to wonder which one of you referred to my tracking site meter is the fed who is sending information to the federal center for the US government intelligence maintained by Hughes in Wichita, Kansas. I have the IP #s and over half of the hits on my artist website comes from this national intelligence fusion center, and most interestingly concern matters of my doctor abandoning me, not talking to me, bloggers with IP #s tracking to the Wichita center trying to tell me to forget my doctor to increase the pressure on me to kill myself, and a little team of UCLA psychologists -- what ? ... conveniently put on me the moment my doctor was forced to abandon me to see how my mental state was and if I would kill myself over my doctor? So, I have been attacked because of my autism and feds have pressured my doctor to exploit my autism conditions ? How despicable ! My doctor should turn all of them in.
But not to worry -- I already sent all these IP #s not only from here but other places that have attacked me and what has been done to me to the Congressional Intelligence Committees looking into the program Panetta just had to terminate so suddenly. Maybe Congress will want to inquire who/what feds forced my doctor to abandon his autistic patient so feds could exploit her medical condition to try to make her committ suicide. I guess this is how we run National Security in this Country now -- perpetrating little Bush-Cheny terror and GITMO style doctor manipulations on innocent American citizen's autism because our government policy left over from the Bush Administration and Republican GOP doesn't want free speech about the adults with autism and how they need government help.
I think some of the people here and other forums who have tried to dissuade me from how much I need my doctor's psychotherapy are the same plumber team of feds who have blog-hopped me from forum to forum since "AnnTM's" posts on ezboard forums, some of whom initiated vicious attacks on my autism -- and some of the same ones who likely have threatened my doctor to force him to abandon me as a patient to try to make me committ suicide. It is not the first time I have been attacked by feds to try to make me committ suicide, either -- Volokh.com by "whit" masquerading as or actually being Judge James D. Whittemore telling me to go watch the movie CArrie and see the immolation scenes so I would kill myself. Or, how about the raid on my Facebook page of last week by an associate of Judge Kozinki who tried to entrap me to say something bad about the judge (whom I happen to admire) and tried to get me to kill myself. This is starting to get old.
No wonder our federal government isn't catching real terrorist threats to the United States -- they have to run around and attack someone engaging in purely First Amendment speech about the plight of adults with autism and manipulate her doctor and medical care by forcing an abandonment -- all things they know is unlawful activity under National Security laws.
How sick ! Congress should gut the intelligence programs if this is what feds are doing these days -- trying to make people with autism committ suicide by keeping them from their doctors because National policy doesn't like the adult autism problem in this Country and people with autism who speak publicly about it. I WILL find out what feds pressured my doctor and forced him to abandon me to exploit my mental state, and then I'm going to give all the info to Congress Intelligence Committees investigating the Panetta program that was terminated and also sue the bad rogues under Bivens.
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The moment you are angry with me for my lack of understanding is the same moment you are not grieving the violation of your person, the death of your mother, or the departure of your doctor.
You are quite correct: I don't have any idea how you are feeling. Hell, I don't even keep track of how I myself am thinking and feeling from one moment to the next. I do know, though, that even the most intrusive thoughts, the strongest emotions, do not stay present 24/7/365. It takes a tremendous amount of mental discipline to make a single thought stay continuously present, even for just 10 or 15 minutes.
Your psyche may be damaged, but I repeat: You will not feel this way forever. The way you write and the way you paint encourage me to think that you will find a way through.
I wish you well.
I just want to point out that your take on my doctor being so Saintly in his atrocious abandonment of me as his autistic patient, and your assumption that with the crippling foot injury he abandoned me with without care and treatment for over a year on his watch, while he strokes his own self-aggrandizing ego to make himself feel better about loving himself, while not only abandoning someone who really loved him leaving her crippled but also totally emotionally devastated/destroyed -- and a PATIENT no less, a vulnerable one with autism, who completely TRUSTED him, for whom he was the DOCTOR, "will not make me feel this way forever" is astounding ! Especially when you consider THIS video on YouTube of the DAMAGE.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MT5HgBiZjZc
I hope he feels really good and proud of himself as a doctor -- did he ever consider NOT HARMING his patients ? Or don't I count, because HE almost lost control and almost kissed me during our April 2009 visit when he ran around the desk to come take my hand ? (His initative, not mine). He conceals on his bio pages on University of South Florida neurology & psychiatry depts that he is advertising himself elsewhere (Journal of Alzheimers) as being on the faculty of USF Dept. of psychiatry -- what would you call that? Fraud ? Or maybe when he put enough hooks, anchors, and anchor chains in me with his transferences to not only ensure I would fall in love with him but to hold the entire United States fleet -- was it "informed consent" to his practice of psychiatry on me ?
You make me sick. I feel really VIOLATED !!! If he cared about me, he would prove it. He doesn't have the courage to deal with the love he so deliberately induced !!! So why did he do it ? I feel really VIOLATED !!!
And my foot is really crippled and hurts !!!
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I can see by how you walk that your foot still hurts, EquiisSavant.
I really sympathize because I sprained my ankle badly on April 6 and it still hurts too.
I'm still in Physical Therapy for mine. It hurts when I do the exercises, but I think it's helping even though my progress has been slow.
Is the problem that insurance won't pay for physicical therapy visits for you? It looks to me like they would still be able to help you if you could afford to go.
Also maybe a different brace would help support your ankle better while you ride.
Here is the one I am using:
http://www.hely-weber.com/product.php?id=1
I got mine from the office of the orthopedic surgeon I have been seeing, but I also found it online for $29.95:
http://www.ankleshop.com/proddetail.asp?prod=304
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I can see by how you walk that your foot still hurts, EquiisSavant.
I really sympathize because I sprained my ankle badly on April 6 and it still hurts too.
I'm still in Physical Therapy for mine. It hurts when I do the exercises, but I think it's helping even though my progress has been slow.
Is the problem that insurance won't pay for physicical therapy visits for you? It looks to me like they would still be able to help you if you could afford to go.
Also maybe a different brace would help support your ankle better while you ride.
Here is the one I am using:
http://www.hely-weber.com/product.php?id=1
I got mine from the office of the orthopedic surgeon I have been seeing, but I also found it online for $29.95:
http://www.ankleshop.com/proddetail.asp?prod=304
Callaway, it doesn't hurt my foot to ride so long as I am not jumping. I cannot wear any brace under my riding paddock boots, it won't fit. They are special riding boots and I have special stirrups with 4-way flex. The problem is walking, not riding just my one horse.
It is so bad now with the progression and deterioration to the foot that when I get up first thing in the a.m., it has now destroyed my left foot as well, and I almost lose my balance and fall.
My doctor, the one who did the transferences and is being a cowardly rat and autistic patient abandonder, actually examined my foot during Oct. 2008 visit and was very concerned it needed attention timely or might not be able to be fixed. There is nerve damage as well as other damage. It is not just pain or swelling that has not gone away -- knots, but there is also NO toe flexion -- the apparatus that makes you be able to curl and flex toes is gone -- destroyed, if I try to flex my toes, message from brain does not activate apparatus to flex the toes.
Not only does this basically destroy my horse jumping career I was still earning a living from, since if my foot slips in the stirrup due to rambunctious horse on landing from jumps, it jams the toes backwards, and it has no give/flex, so it rips and then excruciating pain beyond pain. Also, in the back part of the walking step, there is no flexion to push off for the next step properly, and that is destroying my left foot from the weight displacement, and is causing further damage to the disc bulges in my lumbar and S1. I also have thoracic scoliosis, and I am sure it is worsening that, as well.
As for the fact of the foot not now being able to be fixed -- do you think I do not have other doctors who have looked at my foot ? They relied on my doctor to follow-through on the timely referral. There are other doctors who have opinions on this !!!!
Why don't we just concede, my chicken-little hiding like a rat because he knows he abused an autistic patient doctor fucked up BIG TIME, and his university and all the other doctors who helped and supervised are going to eat dirt in a jury trial. A little $29 brace is not going to fix this injury -- it is permanent and career ending to a US National Champion in a multi-million dollar Sport of Kings. See my horse jumping pics on my website (Some Autism Horses of my Life and ASC Service Horse, at http://equiisautisticsavantartist.webs.com/), and maybe you will *get* how high my savant autism abilities were, and where they are now -- trashed by a doctor who HARMED HIS PATIENT !!! And made psychiatric transferences on her to induce her to fall in love with him, by falsely advertising he was not a psych on his University of South Florida pages while advertising elsewhere that he was more than skilled as a psychiatrist -- NO INFORMED CONSENT to the psych transferences, yet -- the one thing he was asked to examine and refer for treatment, the foot, went for a year untreated. And -- he NEVER showed me any of my 4 brain scans !!!! THAT is MALPRACTICE and licensure violation 101.
As for why it wasn't paid for, we have at all times had $100 k uninsured motorist coverage available to pay for this, just all the doctor's university had to do was bill the right geographic location of the right office -- their legal counsel fucked up. My husband, a lawyer, says she looks incompetent to practice law and not qualified for her postition at the university -- fails to understand motor vehcicle acident insurance laws to the point she cannot tell when two different geographic locations in two different states are about 1000 miles apart and cannot understand PIP insurance is not the same coverage as uninsured motorist insurance. But the doctor's legal counsel doubled her fuck up -- she had the head legal counsell file and she signed a statement to her licensing agency, The Florida Bar, saying she billed the uninsured motorist and they told her the benefits were exhausted. Do you know what happens when a lawyer makes a false statement to their licensing agency ?
The thing is, the uninsured motorist claims rep already filed a statement subject to false statement laws if it is wrong, to the Florida Dept. of Financial Services stating he was never billed and has never seen the bills from my doctor's university for the uninsured motorist coverage -- so two people have oppposite statements -- who is LYING ?
The doctor's legal counsel is in an inescapable losing tic-tac-toe pattern -- I made a public records request on her to get her proof that what she told The Florida Bar and keeps repeating is true or false. She did not provide me any records whatsoever to prove her statement of having billed the uninsured motorist coverage is true.
And THAT means, either she has no proof and her statement is clearly false to her licensing agency -- or, she has committed something like a second degree criminal misdemeanor in Florida for not turning over the proof response of public records of her billing the uninsured motorist carrier under the Florida public records laws. If she has the public records to prove she billed the uninsured motorist carrier, it is something like a second degree misdemeanor under Florida law for her not to provide those records to me in response to my public records request I made on her !!!
In sum, either the doctor's legal counsel's lie to her licensing agency or her criminal misdemeanor violation of Florida public records laws -- one or the other, was the cause of my treatment not getting paid to provide me the timely foot care on my doctor's referral, which was in writing in his e-mails.
And, the doctor also wrote several e-mails that he was personally going to ensure the billing got fixed -- he did not get it fixed, he is personally responsible, and then he abandoned me.
I call that the quick road to loss of a medical license.
And why should I care about him -- has he shown me one thing to demonstrate he cares about me whatsoever ?
If he doesn't do the right thing to reinstate his patient and ensure the HARM he and others there caused a vulnerable autistic patient of his, then HE has it coming with his licensing board and in front of a jury.
And he can explain THAT -- what he did and all his transferences, trying to kiss me, and false info about being a psychiatrist, to his wife and kids. Because when the publicity and lawsuits (shit) hits the fan, they are going to find out sooner or later.
He won't have ONE person in the World who thinks he is anything but a dog when this is over -- and rightfully so. HE did this !!!!! I tried to amicably workout a reinstatement to fix the harm. And on a personal level -- all the hair jazz he does to make himself so handsome won't attract any women when they find out he is not even a man !!
A real man -- and a real doctor -- would not have done this and would not have let it go.
Moreover, how ridiculous to think a $29 brace can fix my foot anymore than a $29 lasoo can take out Osama Bin Laden to save the billions of dollars of military fortunes the U.S. has spent trying to catch him.
Just concede -- my doctor fucked up !!!!
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When we look at the video of EquissSavant's right foot injury and how the doctor she trusted with her life and his entire university fucked up, it is even more important to consider when evaluating what kind of character this doctor has as a doctor and a man, that, when he abandoned his vulnerable autistic patient causing psychiatric devastation, attachment splits to a person with autism deficits, and over a year delay resulting in his referral for treatment to her right foot deformity injury becoming untimely (then abandoned her entirely) -- a jury is going to see not only her art career and bar admission torn down to nothing, but her lifetime U.S. National Champion horse jumping career as well that was so STELLAR she even got trophy presentations from the United States Marines !!!
On her Facebook Wall:
http://www.facebook.com/EquiisAutisticSavant.mkdaypetrano
In the Autism Horses of a Lifetime link section at:
http://equiisautisticsavantartist.webs.com/
No $29 brace well-wishes that have already been rejected by other doctors as not helpful to fix her foot is going to fix these injuries to her U.S. National Champion, prodigious savant autistic career that a jury somewhere will inevitably consider.
It takes the courage and conviction of her doctor to do what's right and help her !!! She was his autistic patient who put her complete trust in him of protecting and nurturing her very life !!! Why does he lack the backbone to stand up to the inhumane supervisors who run his medical establishment -- or treat her at his private clinic as he promised ?
Sometimes, people's acts speak louder than their words.
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That doctor you speak of was a psych/neuro doctor? He would not be qualified to do anything about your foot, if that is the case. A GP who could refer you on to a physio or other specialist for foot injuries would have been better.
It is not too late to have proper treatment for your foot, by the way. Don't give up on getting treatment for it.
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That doctor you speak of was a psych/neuro doctor? He would not be qualified to do anything about your foot, if that is the case. A GP who could refer you on to a physio or other specialist for foot injuries would have been better.
It is not too late to have proper treatment for your foot, by the way. Don't give up on getting treatment for it.
My doctor was a neurologist -- he examined my foot and told me it was a neurological problem. He's not qualified -- according to you, but not to him ? I guess you must be a doctor with more qualifications than him ...
I also stated my doctor told me and advertised on the university's website he was a neurologist -- did not disclose he was a psych, and never told me that either, or got informed consent from me to do psych on me. Meanwhile, he was advertising on another Journal that he was on faculty of university as a psych -- which according to his not being listed on university website as a psych, means he wasn't as he claimed to the journal -- i.e. false advertising. I asked a rhetorical question any lawyer would know -- is that fraud ? The answer is yes, as well as lack of informed consent. Maybe you should check out Florida Medical Bd cases -- they do take away medical licenses for false advertising.
I don't have a GP. My doctor was also a caregiver to me in that he was facilitating all of my communications for getting other doctors and to get appts with them -- now that he abandoned me, I have no caregiver, no facilitated communication, and no way to get another doctor. I cannot use telephones or paper print, and Florida doctors do not use computer-only communication. So not only was I abandoned and have no doctor, but no way of getting another doctor.
So because he abandoned me with autism and severe vulnerabilities--communication deficits, I am just basically abused and fucked. And that's why it has been a year and a half, and why I will never get the care for my foot now -- due to his abandonment. He told me right up to the abandonment that he was personally getting the billing straightened out -- so I could get his foot referral to fix my foot. He wrote this in e-mails -- so he is directly at fault for my foot now and no way to get another doctor for it, and for all the other things he promised, and to replace all my other 4-5 doctors. His abandonment terminated ALL of my doctors because he botched up his psychiatric tranferences on me and then abandoned me to punish me for his own screw-ups in how he handled my care, deliberately making me suicidal. All while he was failing to inform me he was a psych and while falsely advertising elsewhere that he was.
What other facts would you like to make up about my autism condition-communication deficits and about my doctor ? He exchanged btw us over 800 e-mails. I cannot even communicate with my husband like I could with my doctor -- I was a fairly non-verbal child, very locked in. My doctor just had an ability to communicate with me that less than three people in my entire life have had.
But maybe you are my doctor or one of his autism abuser co-horts blogging here to make up excuses -- does this make you feel good and proud ? Not everyone can communicate like *normal* people or even most Aspies. I am not even the one who facilicated the communication to get my doctor in the first place -- I only was able to communicate with him once he accepted me as a patient and I got his e-mail and we began e-mailing.
My foot is deformed now due to my doctor's universitys' and my doctor's abandonment -- I am just royally fucked. And obviously my doctor practices medicine by fucking/causing extreme harm to his patients without any care or concern whatsoever -- I know because he did it to me.
And I TRUSTED him !!!!!!!!!!!!
If I had never met him, I would not now feel like I don't want to live. If I followed your autism-communication-deficit-ignorant advice, I would live with my foot like this deteriorating forever. No one would want to live this way.
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Here is just a sampling of e-mails taken from my reply to one of my complaints demonstrating my doctor was a caregiver for me facilitating all my communications to get other doctors and my appts with them -- this is why his abandonment is DEVASTATING:
As early as September 15, 2008 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), Dr. Hoffmann recognized the need for himself and his assistance Diane Clancy to facilitate Complainant’s severely autism limited communication access to making appointments outside of Dr. Hoffmann’s by stating “Thanks for the update. I will ask Diane Clancy to help and assist with the appointments.”
In a second communication the same day of November 11, 2008 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), 7:11 pm, Dr. Hoffmann acknowledged helping facilitate Complainant’s referral to another doctor: “…in my opinion is to change to another doctor which I am helping you with. Your health is of paramount importance….”
On November 13, 2008 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), 5:20 am, Dr. Hoffmann followed through on facilitating Complainant’s scheduling of appointments with other doctors: “I will find out this morning what the status is with the appointment with Dr Rumbak. It should not have taken this long”.
The following day, on November 14, 2008 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), 6:02 am, Dr. Hoffmann emphasized his efforts to handle and facilitate Complainant’s appointments with other doctors increasing her deep emotional autism dependence on him to handle communications access for all her medical care, “I will be at the South Tampa Campus this morning and will speak to Diane, and try and find Dr Rumbak myself and assist with the arrangements. I am very sorry you are having all this unecessary bother. I will certainly try and expedite it all for you”.
In a second communication the same day of November 14, 2008 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), Dr. Hoffmann followed up further with his extensive personal efforts to handle and facilitate Complainant’s appointments with her other doctors to overcome her severe autism communication impairments, re-enforcing her deep emotional dependence on him to handle all arrangements for her medical treatment, “No problems at all. I tracked down Dr Rumbak at TGH today and spoke personally with him about you. He will be happy to see you…. Diane Clancy was supposed to talk to you today about the updated arrangements - I spoke with her face to face as well this am.”
On November 18, 2008 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), Dr. Hoffmann reported back that he had made additional efforts to facilitate communication for Complainant to get an appointment with Dr. Rumbak.
In a second communication the same day of November 18, 2008 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), 7:15 p.m., Dr. Hoffmann further facilitated Complainant’s appointment to see Dr. Rumbak.
On November 26, 2008 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), 7:23 p.m., Dr. Hoffmann again responded to Complainant’s panicked e-mail about being shouted-down due to USF not accommodating her autism hyperacusia cortical hearing impairment resulting in triggering her TLE syndromes: “Sorry to hear that. Do you not agree wherever we go these days the places and people abound with bad manners ?!. I will speak to Dr Rumbak as soon as I can round him up and ask him or his staff to communicate with you via email”.
On December 3, 2008 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), Dr. Hoffmann induced yet more deep emotional dependency of Complainant on him for his dual caregiver role by beginning to offer her reassurance he would never stop talking to her or abandon her and was continuing to facilitate her appointments with other doctors: “No not alt all. So many people have been away including Diane Clancy over Thanksgiving. I will make sure she gets your appointments scheduled finally”.
In a third communication the same day of December 5, 2008 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), Dr. Hoffmann copied Complainant on his communication to his assistant to facilitate communication for her to set appointments with other doctors at USF: “Ms Petrano is having much difficulty with the people setting up the appointments for her test requested by Dr Rumbak. Can you please assist on her behalf and mine”.
In a fourth communication the same day of December 5, 2008 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), Dr. Hoffmann promised further special facilitation of arrangements for Complainant’s medical care: “Yes certainly. I have made many inquiries regarding suitable neuropsychologists and will be interviewing one or two in the near future personally on your behalf”.
On January 12, 2009 (via e-mail sent to Complainant), 7:52 p.m., Hoffmann responded to Complainant’s frustration trying to get the ECHO test scheduled for Dr. Rumbak: “Thanks for the update Ms Petrano I will be letting her know ASAP”
Despite this caregiving facilitated communication responsibility/role my doctor took on because of my severe autism vulnerabilities, he never (1.) showed me any of my 4 brain scans he had done, (2.) never got my neuropsychological testing in over TEN months after he promised to make a prompt referral, (3.) never got the PET imaging scan done, (4.) never wrote the medical literature on me he promised, (5.) never got my referral back to sleep study doctor, (6.) never followed thru on the ECHO test arrangements, and left my heart unchecked with rising blood pressure at time of the abandonment, (7.) never created the adult autism clinics he promised me for the lifetime care he promised me, (8.) never wrote the comprehensive report he promised me, (9.) never wrote the court, bar admission, and employer accommodations report he promised me or the testimony in court he promised me, (10.) never got the billing fixed as he promised me, so I could go to the referrals back to OB/GYN and for fixing my right foot, (11.) never got the HIPAA records errors fixed as he promised me, (12.) never made the PTSD referral he promised me, (13.) never made the psych referral he promised me, (14.) never had the additional DTI readings and values done he promised me, (15.) never had the autism assistance referral he promised me, (16.) never made the referral back to Rumbak for more inhalent as he promised me, (17.) never made the language-music-sound-prosody-etc referral for therapy he promised me, (18) broke his absolute promise NEVER to abandon me.
Shall I attach all 300 or more e-mails so you can see the extent of HARM ?
Why do you think I am beyond DEVASTATED !!!!!!!! My doctor facilitated my autism inability to communicate to anyone to overcome that by personally handling all the communications to make all my medical care possible.
He abandoned me -- and I am just ... fucked.
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Why do you reply to people like you have a stick up your arse?
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Why do you reply to people like you have a stick up your arse?
Why do you say that to a person with an autism developmental disability and a foot practically falling off from a deformity injury caused by abandonment by her doctor ? Because you have a sadistic sense of pleasure in abusing such a person ?
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Why do you reply to people like you have a stick up your arse?
Why do you say that to a person with an autism developmental disability and a foot practically falling off from a deformity injury caused by abandonment by her doctor ? Because you have a sadistic sense of pleasure in abusing such a person ?
No, I think that she's just curious why you react so negatively to some of the people who have responded to you in this thread and offered suggestions.
I know that you are in a great deal of pain and of course nobody here could possibly know as much about your situation as you do, but I don't think that any of them has had any bad intent toward you so it's not necessary to bite their heads off.
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Why do you reply to people like you have a stick up your arse?
Why do you say that to a person with an autism developmental disability and a foot practically falling off from a deformity injury caused by abandonment by her doctor ? Because you have a sadistic sense of pleasure in abusing such a person ?
I'm not sadistic and I don't think I get any pleasure out of abusing people, but you can think that if you like.
Your posts were too long for me to read so I just skimmed through them - I don't know what the situation is with you and your doctor and I have an ASD myself, so I don't get off on "abusing" people who also do.
Actually, I thought about editing my question afterwards, as I thought you'#d probably take it badly. But I couldn't be arsed finding the thread and decided there's no point as you'll get worse than that on the internet if this is how you talk to people.
I just don't like how you've responded to a couple of people in here, so I asked.
People were trying to help you, and you seemed to throw it back in their face as if your problems are worse than anyone else's.
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Also I don't see what your foot has to do with it. I broke my leg once.
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Why do you reply to people like you have a stick up your arse?
Why do you say that to a person with an autism developmental disability and a foot practically falling off from a deformity injury caused by abandonment by her doctor ? Because you have a sadistic sense of pleasure in abusing such a person ?
Given what your responses have been it is a legitimate question. Soph is absolutely not a sadist and you are behaving like a jackass.
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That doctor you speak of was a psych/neuro doctor? He would not be qualified to do anything about your foot, if that is the case. A GP who could refer you on to a physio or other specialist for foot injuries would have been better.
It is not too late to have proper treatment for your foot, by the way. Don't give up on getting treatment for it.
My doctor was a neurologist -- he examined my foot and told me it was a neurological problem. He's not qualified -- according to you, but not to him ? I guess you must be a doctor with more qualifications than him ...
I thought that psych neurologists are different than neurologists that deal with injury? One doctor does not deal with everything, that is why we see different doctors for different things. Your doctor erred but you already know that.
I don't have a GP. My doctor was also a caregiver to me in that he was facilitating all of my communications for getting other doctors and to get appts with them -- now that he abandoned me, I have no caregiver, no facilitated communication, and no way to get another doctor. I cannot use telephones or paper print, and Florida doctors do not use computer-only communication. So not only was I abandoned and have no doctor, but no way of getting another doctor.
Am wondering whether you husband can organise a GP for you?
What other facts would you like to make up about my autism condition-communication deficits and about my doctor ?
Nothing really. I think we all have enough information on this topic now. And I don't recall making anything up.
But maybe you are my doctor or one of his autism abuser co-horts blogging here to make up excuses -- does this make you feel good and proud ? Not everyone can communicate like *normal* people or even most Aspies.
No I am not your doctor or one of his cohorts. I have been a member on this forum for a few years and I am autistic as well.
Do you use a communication device or something like that? Is speaking difficult for you? It is for me sometimes and am curious about how it is for you.
If I followed your autism-communication-deficit-ignorant advice, I would live with my foot like this deteriorating forever. No one would want to live this way.
Of course not. That is why people here have suggested ways of getting help for yourself. This is not a support site yet you are getting some support here. We could have told you to bugger off but we haven't.
I really believe you can get support for yourself but you may have to try a different way of getting it than what you have thought of. Catastrophising is not doing you any good.
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My husband doesn't help me. Why do you think my doctor was facilitating the communication? I don't use paper print or telephones. My doctor is the only doctor in 53 years I found who would use computers to talk to me, and not use telephones or paper print. Any of you who think it is so easy to navigate when you can only use computer, good luck. It is impossible and I have tried before many times to apply for benefits, get doctors, all sorts of things, and been unable due to their not using paperless Internet computer communication, and not using telephones. This even includes food stamps and social security disability. If you think otherwise, I would not believe your credibility of having actually gone thru it. So I don't see any helpful suggestions, just things that would not be possible. Sorry. And if it is offensive for everyone else to be so much higher functioning in terms of communication, good for you. You are lucky. That is not how it is for me. I am very locked in with ability to communicate.
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I think you need to stop assuming that our lives are fantastic because we don't have the same problems that you have.
I have difficulties that you don't have, but I don't then claim my life is worse and you're a big nasty person for not understanding how terrible my life is.
How is renaeden or sleepydragon or anyone else on here supposed to know what is and isn't possible for you? That's why they're called suggestions. All people can do is suggest thwat THEY think might help you.
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EquiisSavant, what did you do before computers?
How did you meet and marry your husband? Is he autistic as well?
Soph is right, some of us have major difficulties with things, just because you don't know about them doesn't mean they aren't there.
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I think you need to stop assuming that our lives are fantastic because we don't have the same problems that you have.
I have difficulties that you don't have, but I don't then claim my life is worse and you're a big nasty person for not understanding how terrible my life is.
How is renaeden or sleepydragon or anyone else on here supposed to know what is and isn't possible for you? That's why they're called suggestions. All people can do is suggest thwat THEY think might help you.
Why do you project a moral or emotional value onto objects that are autism communication barriers ? A barrier is a barrier -- if you cannot overcome it, then your life is devastating. My doctor was helping me overcome those barriers.
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EquiisSavant, what did you do before computers?
How did you meet and marry your husband? Is he autistic as well?
Soph is right, some of us have major difficulties with things, just because you don't know about them doesn't mean they aren't there.
Before computers I did not communicate. Lost jobs, friends, etc because I could not use paper print or telephones very well. But I was beating IBM mainframe computers at 3-D tic-tac-toe when I was 7 -- so we have had computers for a long time.
I met my husband over the Internet. He is not autistic. He has TBI. My doctor I perceive to be an Aspie -- we communicate on the same wavelength, Not so my husband or most others.
I didn't say other posters do not have problems. But none of you seem as locked in as I am with communication barriers.
I really dont know how someone without these barriers can understand them. I have been trying to explain it for most of my life. My doctor is the only one who understood.
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EquiisSavant, if your doctor was helping you overcome those barriers then that shows that you CAN overcome them.
Your doctor is no superman - if he could help you overcome them, then I'm sure you can find other ways to try and overcome them again, without him.
edit: and I actually mean this in a supportive way, although you will probably assume I'm just some idiot who doesn't understand your problems.
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EquiisSavant, if your doctor was helping you overcome those barriers then that shows that you CAN overcome them.
Your doctor is no superman - if he could help you overcome them, then I'm sure you can find other ways to try and overcome them again, without him.
edit: and I actually mean this in a supportive way, although you will probably assume I'm just some idiot who doesn't understand your problems.
There is no one else who can help me overcome these barriers. My husband refuses to do it, help me, and my doctor know this. And there is NO one else. My doctor was making many telephone calls and personal visits to facilicate the communication for me to get referrals to other doctors and arrange their appts. The appts he did not facilicate for me did not get made so I could not get medically necessary tests and see my doctors -- like the return to sleep study, the ECHO test, and appt. in pulmonology for more inhalent. I can't use telephones or paper print, so I can't do this myself, independently. When my doctor didn't do it, facilicate communication for me, it did not get done. So if I now have NO one to do this for me, and I can't do it --- how, exactly, is it I am supposed to overcome the barriers ? I have gone 20 years not being able to overcome the same barriers to get my bar admission, my doctor was the first person in 20 years who actually said/promised he would help me. Now I am supposed to wait another 20 years -- or maybe NEVER ? My doctor was the only doctor I have been able to actually communicate with I ever had in my 53 years. And, I am supposed to magically go {{{poof}}} and overcome barriers in the figment of your imagination that in cold, hard reality, I cannot overcome ? I don't think some of you understand what "locked-in" means.
I was a childhood incest sexual abuse victim, with autism. My doctor had fiduciary duties to me, and standard of care for such a patient is under no circumstances to commit any abandonment -- he is under duty to work thru the feelings his very strong, purposeful psychiatric psychotherapy transferences and countertransferences induced. Otherwise, he causes even more fragmentation and dissociated states -- in an autism and childhood incest sexual molestation context in which disassociation is already inherent in the underlying condition. When he took on an autistic patient, he knew (and the knowledge can be imputed to him & his University) that appx. 70% of people with autism have childhood sexual molestation/incest victimization issues, and that treatment of such a patient is -- standard of care requires -- very long-term, years, if not a lifetime.
What his supervisors advised him to do (in addition to inhumanely leaving the foot injury untreated) was retraumatize the previous childhood incest abandonment injuries by abandoning the person who has been damaged by repeated abandonments. And one, for whom, the incest trauma was even more amplified by the fact of being autistic and locked-in. That is not only sexual harassment of an autistic woman by the doctor's supervisors who forced him off contrary to medical ethics and legal requirements for his patient's particular condition, but would be like a stroke doctor treating a stroke by recklessly inducing an unnecessary catastrophic stroke bleed into the entire brain from every major brain artery and all brain vessels at once, destroying all brain cells/tissue, killing the patient.
If my doctor is so weak sexually he can't help his patient by continuing the psychotherapy and other medical treatment, then why did he mishandle such strong transferences and countertransferences in a known autistic former childhood incest sexual abuse victim for whom HE is the only one she can actually communicate with ? And if my doctor is not weak sexually, then what is his problem with being the doctor his extremely vulnerable, autistic, locked-in, traumatized patient needs to complete her healing over the long-term as he promised her ?
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And, I am supposed magically go {{{poof}}} and overcome barriers in the figment of your imagination that in cold, hard reality, I cannot overcome ? I don't think some of you understand what "locked-in" means.
This is the kind of response that made me comment in this thread. People were trying to help you and all you do is throw it back in their face like this. Why?
that appx. 70% of people with autism have childhood sexual molestation/incest victimization issues
Where did you get these figures?
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Can you explain what "locked-in" means to you?
What do you mean by paper print? Do you mean handwriting?
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:gotowp: The Haven @ Wrong Planet is specifically for incessant whining with no intent to address problems you have. I used to think Tim_Tex was the Champion whiner there but you can displace him without breaking a sweat.
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tbh PPK is right. I don't wanna be too harsh on you as you've obviously had a lot of shit happen to you (I think child abuse is one of the most evil acts anyone can commit) and you're clearly very autistic. But that's no excuse to be an asshole to people.
What I was saying is that if your doctor could help you, then surely it is POSSIBLE that someone else could help you as well. Your doctor was only human you know. I have shit going on in my life, some of which can't really be fixed, but you still have to try. And you can't just blame it all on someone else and throw shit at anyone who tries to help you.
If you're not prepared to even consider the possibility that you CAN fix things yourself, then you don't even have a right to whine about your problem IMO. I used to whine a lot, and still do sometimes, but at least I accept that it's ultimately up to me to fix things. Most of us here have our own problems. Yeah we might not have been abused, but we still have shit to deal with. Anyone would think yours was the worst life in the world.
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And, I am supposed magically go {{{poof}}} and overcome barriers in the figment of your imagination that in cold, hard reality, I cannot overcome ? I don't think some of you understand what "locked-in" means.
This is the kind of response that made me comment in this thread. People were trying to help you and all you do is throw it back in their face like this. Why?
that appx. 70% of people with autism have childhood sexual molestation/incest victimization issues
Where did you get these figures?
Numerous articles say rate is 70 %, incl. several research articles.
Telling someone they "can" "overcome" physical paper print and telephone and speaking in-person barriers when they physically (brain organics) cannot do it, is no help or support. It is cruelty. No different than telling a quadraplegic they "can" get up out of their wheelcharis and "walk up stairs."
What you can't accept is your advice is wrong, and my doctor has really violated, and will continue to violate me until he comes back and reinstatements me . He told me he was developing a private clinic and would see me there, before his supervisors made him cut me off -- the ones he called "despots." If he is creating a private clinic, he does not need their say-so to reinstatement me -- he can simply do it. I am not going away re: the violations. There IS no other doctor I can go to, and I will proceed to file more complaints, lawsuits, free speech, whatever it takes to get the medical care I NEED. Unfortunately, God apparently only made one of him for all the adults with autsm in my area.
But having one special doctor is not unique to my savant autism -- my brother-in-law has a very special unique one cancer doctor and travels to KY to see him. His doctor has put his glioblastoma IV into remission for over 6 years so far, after the other doctors did two brain surgeries, removed two parts of softball sized malignant brain tumors, and abandoned him with only 3 months or less to live in 2003.
Sometimes, for a particular patient, there IS only one doctor who can provide the medical care and treatment the person NEEDS to live.
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tbh PPK is right. I don't wanna be too harsh on you as you've obviously had a lot of shit happen to you (I think child abuse is one of the most evil acts anyone can commit) and you're clearly very autistic. But that's no excuse to be an asshole to people.
What I was saying is that if your doctor could help you, then surely it is POSSIBLE that someone else could help you as well. Your doctor was only human you know. I have shit going on in my life, some of which can't really be fixed, but you still have to try. And you can't just blame it all on someone else and throw shit at anyone who tries to help you.
If you're not prepared to even consider the possibility that you CAN fix things yourself, then you don't even have a right to whine about your problem IMO. I used to whine a lot, and still do sometimes, but at least I accept that it's ultimately up to me to fix things. Most of us here have our own problems. Yeah we might not have been abused, but we still have shit to deal with. Anyone would think yours was the worst life in the world.
Good, if you're voting that I should die because I CANNOT do as you suggest, and there is NO other doctor who can help or has been one for over 53 years, then I am already overwhelmingly feeling this way. No one would miss me anyway. No one wants the people who are just too inconvenient because their limitations are so great. The World would be better off without me. I think 53 years of trying and not being able to "fix" things is long enough to prove I CANNOT.
But all of you can rightly count your blessings you are so much more high functioning that I am. At least you can dance thru life without such problems.
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:gotowp: The Haven @ Wrong Planet is specifically for incessant whining with no intent to address problems you have. I used to think Tim_Tex was the Champion whiner there but you can displace him without breaking a sweat.
I was banned from WP after my doctor was posting over there under anonymous IDs how he was obsessed with me and crossing boundaries, and I recognized his posts.
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OK so SleepyDragon, renaeden, Callaway etc are all cruel? Ireally don't think so. They're about the least cruel people I've come across on these sites.
How are you going to die?
See, you're doing it again. I'm so much more high-functioning than you so my life is really easy is it?
My life is not easy at all. I have to struggle through it though and do the best that I can. And I've made a lot of progress.
Hell you are married, you have had jobs. How have you managed all that before?
Stop feeling sorry for yourself and giving people shit for trying to help you. How they hell are THEY supposed to know what will and will not work for you? They've never met you. Just like you've never met us, so quit making assumptions about how easy our lives are.
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:gotowp: The Haven @ Wrong Planet is specifically for incessant whining with no intent to address problems you have. I used to think Tim_Tex was the Champion whiner there but you can displace him without breaking a sweat.
I was banned from WP after my doctor was posting over there under anonymous IDs how he was obsessed with me and crossing boundaries, and I recognized his posts.
You got banned from wp because your doctor was crossing boundaries?
OK are you someone's sockpuppet or are you making this up?
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Are you really sure you want to sue your doctor, EquiisSavant? I think that you may be able to ruin his personal life and maybe even his medical practice with your lawsuits, but I don't think that a judge would force him to reinstate you as a patient. To defend him from this lawsuit, his lawyers will probably paint him as a caring doctor who did a lot more for you than other doctors have and they will probably paint you as a difficult and demanding patient who became impossible for him to deal with. At least that is what I guess they would do. How would you defend him if you were his lawyer?
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Can you explain what "locked-in" means to you?
What do you mean by paper print? Do you mean handwriting?
If you have to ask, you really have no clue about people who were severely autistic and non-verbal, do you ?
I cannot read or write anything understandable on or use paper print -- any communication of hard copy paper print of any kind from business card to sheets of paper to paper forms to magazines to faxes, etc. are completely unusable for me. This applies to any kind of print font and handwriting. I cannot even read my own handwriting on print paper.
I cannot use telephones. I cannot speak with more than 99% of people in-person -- it is like speaking gibberish to them when I speak. They cannot understand me.
The only thing that works for me to communicate is Internet computer formats. I think my doctor was an Aspie -- on the spectrum like me -- and for that reason has the unique ability to communicate with me. He is also educated and does research in savants, another reason he can uniquely communicate with me not only via computer but in-person.
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Can you read books, EquiisSavant?
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Are you really sure you want to sue your doctor, EquiisSavant? I think that you may be able to ruin his personal life and maybe even his medical practice with your lawsuits, but I don't think that a judge would force him to reinstate you as a patient. To defend him from this lawsuit, his lawyers will probably paint him as a caring doctor who did a lot more for you than other doctors have and they will probably paint you as a difficult and demanding patient who became impossible for him to deal with. At least that is what I guess they would do. How would you defend him if you were his lawyer?
Excuse me -- I do think when a judge sees the blatant sexual harassment two of my doctors lawyers, his supervising Dean, and another doctor he referred me to did to his severely autistic patient with history of childhood incest sexual abuse by people in trust positions -- and further see his lawyers two 1st degree misdemeanor acts (still presently existing) for violating Florida public records laws to his severely autistic patient -- a judge would have no problem at all entering injunctive relief against the doctor to reinstate me, especially since he is the only available adult savant autism doctor in my area and the one who began autism psychiatry therapies to a childhood incest sexual abuse victim with a TBI and such severe language-communication impairments she can really communicate to no one else and wrote in writing in e-mail he was promising life-long care.
And I do think a judge will be more than ready to sign such an order when he sees the fraud and deceit of my doctor's supervisors and lawyers committed by allowing him to advertise himself as a psychiatrist elsewhere but not on his employer's website -- so his supervisors and lawyers kept his severely autistic patient from disclosures of his status as a psychiatrist, while he was conducting psychiatry on her, without (obviously) informed consent. His supervisors and lawyers never even gave me Internet computer informed consent notices I could read to understand for any of my treatment there with any of my doctors, they are so autism-hostile to patients with autism that they even violated their own University Policy to obey Title II of the Americans With Disabilities Act and accommodate autism-disabilities !!! Violation of such Policy by my doctor's supervisors and lawyers is cause for their termination from employment at that University according to their OWN Policies.
But, as I said, if he refuses to reinstate and wants to inflict this severity of harm on his autistic patient who trusted him and NEEDS his care, then I have no problem returning the same by asking the medical board to revoke his medical license. I already have the complaint 3/4 completed.
I really DON'T have to take patient abandonment. I CAN ask to have his license revoked. What good is it anyway if all he does is goes around destroying patient's lives who trusted him and were nice and respectful to him ? Let them license a better more compassionate doctor in his place who will reinstate his patients if they have the extreme NEED. It might not help me, but it will help so many others -- if he did this to me, I will not be the first or the last patient whose life he will he will trash/destroy. The medical board will just be protecting the public safety and well-being to revoke his license if he is the kind of destructive doctor to his patients I have seen so far -- since end of May with the psychiatric destruction he caused his severely autistic patient.
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Can you read books, EquiisSavant?
No. Not unless they are e-books, online on the Internet/computer formats. I cannot read any paper print books.
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Can you explain what "locked-in" means to you?
What do you mean by paper print? Do you mean handwriting?
If you have to ask, you really have no clue about people who were severely autistic and non-verbal, do you ?
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Why can't you read anything on paper btw? And this is a genuine question, not an attack.
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OK so SleepyDragon, renaeden, Callaway etc are all cruel? Ireally don't think so. They're about the least cruel people I've come across on these sites.
How are you going to die?
See, you're doing it again. I'm so much more high-functioning than you so my life is really easy is it?
My life is not easy at all. I have to struggle through it though and do the best that I can. And I've made a lot of progress.
Hell you are married, you have had jobs. How have you managed all that before?
Stop feeling sorry for yourself and giving people shit for trying to help you. How they hell are THEY supposed to know what will and will not work for you? They've never met you. Just like you've never met us, so quit making assumptions about how easy our lives are.
I am married to a caretaker who cooks my meals in exchange for marital sex. I guess that should make me feel good as a severely autistic survivor of childhood incest sexual abuse.
What jobs do you think I have held ? Not many -- ONLY ones where I was allowed to use computers with my speech recognition device, and no paper print or telephones or in-person speaking to other people -- unless it was rehearsed appellate argument or something. When my doctor saw my Social Security lifetime printout, was when he called my life a "vast waste," because unlike you, he SAW that I cannot hold jobs without the extensive austism disability accommodations that he was going to testify in courts that other employers, prof. atty licensing, and the courts themselves should have to give me so I CAN work.
EVERY job I have tried to do without accommodations, I get fired as soon as I get hired when they see I cannot do it without the extensive accommodations.
I met my husband-caretaker over the Internet.
Again, you really don't understand severe autism that results in a locked-in state. My doctor was the KEY to freedom from that state.
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:gotowp: The Haven @ Wrong Planet is specifically for incessant whining with no intent to address problems you have. I used to think Tim_Tex was the Champion whiner there but you can displace him without breaking a sweat.
I was banned from WP after my doctor was posting over there under anonymous IDs how he was obsessed with me and crossing boundaries, and I recognized his posts.
You got banned from wp because your doctor was crossing boundaries?
OK are you someone's sockpuppet or are you making this up?
I got banned because evidence was written there by my doctor or at his direction admitting to his sexualized romantic boundary violations with me. I am not making anything up, and I am not a sockpuppet. I recognized it was his writing in the posts. We exchanged over 800 e-mails btw us -- I can recognize his writing.
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Why can't you read anything on paper btw? And this is a genuine question, not an attack.
I can't see it or understand the letter-symbols when they are presented on print paper mediums due to the hypoperfusion objectively in my brain (on PET scan). This is why it is analogous to telling a quadraplegic to get up out of his wheelchair and walk when he has an objectively demonstrated severed spinal cord and it would be impossible.
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Why can't you read anything on paper btw? And this is a genuine question, not an attack.
I can't see it or understand the letter-symbols when they are presented on print paper mediums due to the hypoperfusion objectively in my brain (on PET scan). This is why it is analogous to telling a quadraplegic to get up out of his wheelchair and walk when he has an objectively demonstrated severed spinal cord and it would be impossible.
So how does holding a book cause decreased blood flow to your brain? That, and the fact the only you understand autism, just sounds like trollish bullshit to me.http://medical-dictionary.thefreedictionary.com/Hypoperfusion (http://medical-dictionary.thefreedictionary.com/Hypoperfusion)
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Why can't you read anything on paper btw? And this is a genuine question, not an attack.
I can't see it or understand the letter-symbols when they are presented on print paper mediums due to the hypoperfusion objectively in my brain (on PET scan). This is why it is analogous to telling a quadraplegic to get up out of his wheelchair and walk when he has an objectively demonstrated severed spinal cord and it would be impossible.
So how does holding a book cause decreased blood flow to your brain? That, and the fact the only you understand autism, just sounds like trollish bullshit to me.http://medical-dictionary.thefreedictionary.com/Hypoperfusion (http://medical-dictionary.thefreedictionary.com/Hypoperfusion)
I don't pick up or hold books, to get to that subsequent step you propose, since I cannot overcome the first step -- which is to be able to read, see, and understand the paper print letter-symbols in them.
What you propose is as cruel as the irrationality of asking a quadraplegic why gazing up a flight of stairs from his wheelchair severed his spinal cord making him unable to walk up those stairs.
I think you are a fed -- only a fed who interfered with my doctor-patient relationship would continue to post things against a severely autistic patient being re-instated to the autism doctor she NEEDS for her medical care and treatment. You are definitely NOT a doctor who, in adhering to the Hippocratic Oath, would have to reinstate this patient.
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Okay, you got me EquiisSavant. Contrary to what I have repeatedly stated on this website I am not really a Doctor. :o It took your great powers of perception to realize that I am not a Doctor and that I am a Federal Agent. :police: I used to be in what was the Mattress Police until we got rolled in with the rest of DHS. We are so secretive that I don't even carry a Badge or collect a check from Uncle Sam.
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I am married to a caretaker who cooks my meals in exchange for marital sex. I guess that should make me feel good as a severely autistic survivor of childhood incest sexual abuse.
You know you sure use sarcasm a lot for someone who is autistic. I question your diagnosis. Please don't use sarcasm on me. I am a poor aspie and I have manflu. How dare you be so cruel as to use sarcasm when replying to me, a poor aspie with manflu? You obviously don't understand autism at all!
And btw, how was I supposed to know your marriage is shit? I don't assume everyone's marriage is merely an exchange of coooking for sex, although perhaps I should. Why did you marry him then if it's so shit? I guess your autistm made you do it?
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Okay, you got me EquiisSavant. Contrary to what I have repeatedly stated on this website I am not really a Doctor. :o It took your great powers of perception to realize that I am not a Doctor and that I am a Federal Agent. :police: I used to be in what was the Mattress Police until we got rolled in with the rest of DHS. We are so secretive that I don't even carry a Badge or collect a check from Uncle Sam.
There is a difference btw stating you are in fact those things or not as a proven evidentiary matter, and making the suggestion you are those things or not to get you to confess. You would not be the first or last witness to confess my autism status and purely First Amendment free speech and/or association has been targeted for harassment by the Bush Administration and some rogues who remained on the fed payroll since then.
But if you don't want to confess, that's what a DOE Bivens action is for -- we get to find out witnesses names if they are material to a particular case, as it is drafted and alleged.
Whether or not you are what I suspect I am likely to find in a discovery process, which makes the idea of outing you rather boring, is irrelevant to the display to everyone you have put on that although you are no savant, you are definitely an "idiot." And that really has captured more of my autistic interest.
What makes you think I even know what sarcasm is/looks like/can identify it, etc ? I cannot even grammatically dissect the most simple elementary sentence -- I would fail 2nd grade grammar tests. Most of the time I can't even tell what is a noun from what is a verb if I see a simply sentence. I can only use language from having learned it from hearing patterns my parents spoke when I was very small -- maybe they were whatever is sarcastic that you say I am doing, and I just picked up their patterns of speaking ? I also learned Arabic this way, since the prof was unable to get us any textbook the first semester for 12 weeks into the class -- so we learned it the way a parent teaches a baby, beginning with pointing and saying sounds-words for objects. I could speak Arabic long before I could write it.
I really don't think you understand my savant autism condition, and the neurology, and this keeps resulting in your projecting from your own much higher level -- seemingly so neurotypical, too I might add -- all sorts of more generalized skills and abilities maybe you have, that are not in fact the highly uneven savant autism splinter skills and abilities in paradox of the severe deficits that defines my condition. If you understood my condition, you would not even have suggested the idea I can recognize sarcasm.
Besides learning language from spoken patterns of my parents at a very young age, the remainder of my language abilities came from what happens when you subject an autistic to the rigors of LAW SCHOOL !!! That still does not mean I have sufficiently high language cognition to recognize or identify sarcasm !!
If my doctor had not dumped/abandoned his rare savant level autistic patient, maybe he would have instead been known for being the brillliant doctor who contributed advanced research to the database of autism of how the language abilities of people with autism can be brought to such high levels as to pass law school and a performance-based bar exam, yet still contain many of the deficits of language inherent in the autism condition.
And I KNOW any English teacher at the level of undergrad English could spot many such of these deficits in my language if they really tested it and looked, because in undergrad college they DID -- like if you tell me to diagram a sentence and instruct me to point out the noun, verb, object, direct object, adverb, etc., I am LOST. I don't recognize/identify sarcasm, irony, metaphor, and many other higher levels of speech or, should I say, writing conventions -- I am LOST. The fact I picked up speech patterns of parents who did understand these things, only means that simple narrow fact, for which you continue to err by attempting (invalidly) to extrapolate it to everything, when that is not how the uneven autism abilities work.
As mentioned, the only relevant characteristic I have seen so far is that which identifies you as a non-savant "idiot," cruel antagonist out to see how many things you can find wrong and not to like about my autism and me because of my condition. Somehow, the word "provocateur" also comes to mind.
Don't you have a little brother you can pick on ?
I have enough autism doctor abandonment problems of my own right now to be your objective for some sadistic bullying game play.
If you don't have a little brother to pick on, why can't you just hold it in, suck it up, be nice, and exhibit some good manners ?
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Don't you have a little brother you can pick on ?
You're a complete faggot. Go fuck yourself you amazing autistic savant.
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appx. 70% of people with autism have childhood sexual molestation/incest victimization issues
I seriously doubt this. Proof, please.
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There is a difference btw stating you are in fact those things or not as a proven evidentiary matter, and making the suggestion you at those things or not to get you to confess. You would not be the first or last witness to confess my autism status and purely First Amendment free speech and/or association has been targeted for harassment by the Bush Administration and some rogues who remained on the fed payroll since then.
But if you don't want to confess, that's what a DOE Bivens action is for -- we get to find out witnesses names if they are material to a particular case, as it is drafted and alleged.
Whether or not you are what I suspect I am likely to find in a discovery process, which makes the idea of outing you rather boring, is irrelevant to the display to everyone you have put on that athough you are no savant, you are definitely an "idiot." And that really has captured more of my autistic interest.
:bigcry: So what are you taking me to court for? Being a big meanie on the internet? Here is more evidence to take to court. :finger:
Besides learning language from spoken patterns of my parents at a very young age, the remainder of my language abilities came from what happens when you subject an autistic to the rigors of LAW SCHOOL !!! That still does not mean I have sufficuently high language cogntition to recognize or identify sarcasm !!
Then I suspect you'll be a far cry from David Boies in open court.
As mentioned, the only relevant characteristic I have seen so far is that which identifies you as a non-savant "idiot," cruel antagonist out to see how many things you can find wrong and not to like about my autism and me because Iof my condition.
Don't you have a little brother you can pick on ?
It is not about your autism, it is about your rude conduct. Yes I do have younger brothers to pick on but they don't post here and I am afraid they will hire you or David Boies to sue me if I pick on them.
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Oh, and btw, EquiisSavant, what do you hope to achieve here at I2? Sympathy seems to be a bit optimistic now, as people have been trying to help but you've refused to listen, telling everyone that they're so much higher-functioning than you are.
To me that's very arrogant. You don't know more about their difficulties than they know about yours.
Actually that's not entirely true cos your difficulties are everything you talk about.
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I am married to a caretaker who cooks my meals in exchange for marital sex. I guess that should make me feel good as a severely autistic survivor of childhood incest sexual abuse.
You know you sure use sarcasm a lot for someone who is autistic. I question your diagnosis. Please don't use sarcasm on me. I am a poor aspie and I have manflu. How dare you be so cruel as to use sarcasm when replying to me, a poor aspie with manflu? You obviously don't understand autism at all!
And btw, how was I supposed to know your marriage is shit? I don't assume everyone's marriage is merely an exchange of coooking for sex, although perhaps I should. Why did you marry him then if it's so shit? I guess your autistm made you do it?
Don't tell me you have been leading the Gay Rights Petition drives in California so long you forgot one of the other reasons people get married -- they like to fuck. I hope my honest and direct manner of autistic speaking doesn't offend you.
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I am married to a caretaker who cooks my meals in exchange for marital sex. I guess that should make me feel good as a severely autistic survivor of childhood incest sexual abuse.
You know you sure use sarcasm a lot for someone who is autistic. I question your diagnosis. Please don't use sarcasm on me. I am a poor aspie and I have manflu. How dare you be so cruel as to use sarcasm when replying to me, a poor aspie with manflu? You obviously don't understand autism at all!
And btw, how was I supposed to know your marriage is shit? I don't assume everyone's marriage is merely an exchange of coooking for sex, although perhaps I should. Why did you marry him then if it's so shit? I guess your autistm made you do it?
Don't tell me you have been leading the Gay Rights Petition drives in California so long you forgot one of the other reasons people get married -- they like to fuck. I hope my honest and direct manner of autistic speaking doesn't offend you.
ok who are you really? bc? pea?
Because you've actually done well with this, you got me :laugh:
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Don't you have a little brother you can pick on ?
You're a complete faggot. Go fuck yourself you amazing autistic savant.
Unfortunately, I cannot fuck myself in the solitary sense, because I was born a savant autistic --- not a Hermaphrodite !!!
I am also pretty sure -- even without having ever crossed the ultimate sexual point of no return -- my doctor can back THAT up due to my PET scan superlative autistic brain !!!
Has ANYONE ever see a Hermaphrodite who has a PET scan showing childhood autism pattern of bilateral temporal parietal SAVANT hypoperfusion, anyway ?????
Show me JUST ONE !!! Pleeeaaaassse ... O, pleeeaaasssseeee ????
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You could just settle for getting airtight with a standard issue Hermaphrodite, your Doctor and your husband.
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Nothing wrong with being intersex
You are not an autistic savant :zoinks:
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Oh, and btw, EquiisSavant, what do you hope to achieve here at I2? Sympathy seems to be a bit optimistic now, as people have been trying to help but you've refused to listen, telling everyone that they're so much higher-functioning than you are.
To me that's very arrogant. You don't know more about their difficulties than they know about yours.
Actually that's not entirely true cos your difficulties are everything you talk about.
No one has tried to help in the proper way to help a person with severe autism language deficits who is locked in; the only advice offered has been the social model for how non-locked-in autistics can be helped. Where is Amanda Bags ?? Or Carly ?? Oh, maybe you don't like them, just like some people here don't like me, because we are part of a sub-category of autism who are locked-in communicators and we talk about our plight.
I think what makes the wrong-social model advice offerers so mad (and you, as their friend), is the fact they were wrong. And THAT insulted them. Being wrong.
I never said I know more about their conditions, so don't put words I did not say in my mouth.
But I DO know the most important fact about their conditions that directly affects their ability to understand locked-in autistic communicators, and that is -- THEY are not similar locked in autistic communicators, or they would not have mis-understood any part of having such a terrible deficit.
It is not the kind of deficit you easily forget about or how extensive it is -- because if you have it you live each and every moment of every day in a neurotypical structured-society, confronting: every piece of print paper, every print paper form, print paper fax, print paper business card, print paper menu, print paper book, print paper newspaper, print paper parking garage ticket, every print paper contract, every print paper notice, every print or handwritten paper letter, every print paper chart, every print paper bank book ledger, every print paper sign posters, every print paper sale price tag, every print paper or on bottles/containers list of ingredients on food products, pesticides, and horse stuff, every print paper clothing size tag, every print paper "On-Sale Clearance" sign, every print paper test, etc etc -- then you would NOT fail to understand one thing of what communication obstacles you get put through every day of your life that are sheer TORTURE.
In don't know where you went to law school, but where I went to law school, correcting stereotypes, misconceptions, and misunderstandings of a persons autism condition and the barriers/obstacles to it that are imposed was not called "arrogance;" it was called Civil Rights.
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Nothing wrong with being intersex
You are not an autistic savant :zoinks:
I have a savant autism DX from my doctor. Do you know more than he does ?
Or are you OMNISCIENT ??!! And a Diety ?!
If so, and only if so, will I prostrate myself on the ground you are about to walk on !!!
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No one has tried to help in the proper way to help
lol
So just because people who've never met you aren't able to make your life brilliant, that means it's not a proper attempt to help?
Your diagnosis is wrong
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You could just settle for getting airtight with a standard issue Hermaphrodite, your Doctor and your husband.
That suggestion would be probably appeal far more to my husband, than my Doctor or I. But, don't let me speak for my Doctor, since I thought he was going to kiss me !!! And it was a great disappointment that while his lips were quivering as he was trying to restrain his own obsessions for me, he didn't !!! His abilities with psychiatry induced a VERY strong transference on me -- and I liked it !!!
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No one has tried to help in the proper way to help
lol
So just because people who've never met you aren't able to make your life brilliant, that means it's not a proper attempt to help?
Your diagnosis is wrong
Says you. Since my doctor abandoned me, his DX savant autism PET scan childhood autism pattern of bilateral temporal parietal SAVANT hypoperfusion stands. I believe it is res judicata.
You also switched sets --- we were discussion what would help reinstate my doctor, not what people can "make [my] life brillliant."
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appx. 70% of people with autism have childhood sexual molestation/incest victimization issues
I seriously doubt this. Proof, please.
I'll dig it out, but it may take me a couple days -- it is on a CD my husband has. But, I will post it when I get it. And the the statistical research study methodology criticisms can begin. I don't have a problem with scientific proof, DXs, or evidence -- only with blowhards who make up contrary completely unsupported attacks on my savant autism DX out of the air coming from their a$$holes.
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It is not the kind of deficit you easily forget about or how extensive it is -- because if you have it you live each and every moment of every day in a neurotypical structured-society, confronting: every piece of print paper, every print paper form, print paper fax, print paper business card, print paper menu, print paper book, print paper newspaper, print paper parking garage ticket, every print paper contract, every print paper notice, every print or handwritten paper letter, every print paper chart, every print paper bank book ledger, every print paper sign posters, every print paper sale price tag, every print paper or on bottles/containers list of ingredients on food products, pesticides, and horse stuff, every print paper clothing size tag, every print paper "On-Sale Clearance" sign, every print paper test, etc etc -- then you would NOT fail to understand one thing of what communication obstacles you get put through every day of your life that are sheer TORTURE.
No, but I did stay at a Holiday Inn before. :violin:
In don't know where you went to law school, but where I went to law school, correcting stereotypes, misconceptions, and misunderstandings of a persons autism condition and the barriers/obstacles to it that are imposed was not called "arrogrance;" it was called Civil Rights.
As unlikely as it may seem to you I didn't actually go to Law School, however I did advise the Abu Ghraib Prison Staff on proper structure of the Iraqi Naked Piles to maximize the Performance Art aspects of the practice while simultaneously preventing injury to the paticipants. :angel:
You could just settle for getting airtight with a standard issue Hermaphrodite, your Doctor and your husband.
That suggestion would be probably appeal far more to my husband, than my Doctor or I. But, don't let me speak for my Doctor, since I thought he was going to kiss me !!! And it was a great disappointment that while his lips were quivering as he was trying to restrain his own obsessions for me, he didn't !!! His abilities with psychiatry induced a VERY strong transference on me -- and I liked it !!!
That is sweet that you had such a bond, maybe after you get him in the sack you can ease into the part of your hubby and the hermaphrodite/shemale jumping in.
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I'm gonna go and watch some autism porn, brb
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Oh, and btw, EquiisSavant, what do you hope to achieve here at I2? Sympathy seems to be a bit optimistic now, as people have been trying to help but you've refused to listen, telling everyone that they're so much higher-functioning than you are.
To me that's very arrogant. You don't know more about their difficulties than they know about yours.
Actually that's not entirely true cos your difficulties are everything you talk about.
No one has tried to help in the proper way to help a person with severe autism language deficits who is locked in; the only advice offered has been the social model for how non-locked-in autistics can be helped. Where is Amanda Bags ?? Or Carly ?? Oh, maybe you don't like them, just like some people here don't like me, because we are part of a sub-category of autism who are locked-in communicators and we talk about our plight.
First of all, Intensity is not a support site. It wasn't designed to be one and the only support you'll get is completely voluntary, meaning that you'll have to deserve it. If you hope to hear sympathetic voices ooh-ing and ah-ing your plight, you'll be disappointed unless you also acknowledge that they may have valid points different to the ones you've come up with.
Second, why amanda doesn't post here (or that other one) I don't know. Maybe they don't know about I2, maybe they don't like it. I have no opinions of them other than what little I know of Amada after talking to her at Gestalt. Don't assume that I don't like them and don't make it sound as if I don't.
Third, you get what you deserve. Talk about your plight, as you call it, without giving something back and the best you can hope for is a yawn and a dead thread.
I think what makes the wrong-social model advice offerers so mad (and you, as their friend), is the fact they were wrong. And THAT insulted them. Being wrong.
Nope, I'm pretty sure what insulted them was your attitude. It certainly annoys the fuck out of me now.
I never said I know more about their conditions, so don't put words I did not say in my mouth.
Then don't act as if you know--now you assume they are much more high-functioning than you are, without actually knowing anything about them. You belittle their problems because indirectly you pretend to know that your problems will always be far worse than theirs can ever be. It's a pissy attitude at best and complete ignorance at worst. Or maybe it's the other way around.
But I DO know the most important fact about their conditions that directly affects their ability to understand locked-in autistic communicators, and that is -- THEY are not similar locked in autistic communicators, or they would not have mis-understood any part of having such a terrible deficit.
In your opinion, observed from your perspective, your POV. As for objective facts, you have yet to touch them.
if that's how you work as a lawyer your opponents should be pretty safe.
It is not the kind of deficit you easily forget about or how extensive it is -- because if you have it you live each and every moment of every day in a neurotypical structured-society, confronting: every piece of print paper, every print paper form, print paper fax, print paper business card, print paper menu, print paper book, print paper newspaper, print paper parking garage ticket, every print paper contract, every print paper notice, every print or handwritten paper letter, every print paper chart, every print paper bank book ledger, every print paper sign posters, every print paper sale price tag, every print paper or on bottles/containers list of ingredients on food products, pesticides, and horse stuff, every print paper clothing size tag, every print paper "On-Sale Clearance" sign, every print paper test, etc etc -- then you would NOT fail to understand one thing of what communication obstacles you get put through every day of your life that are sheer TORTURE.
Poor you. Happy now?
In don't know where you went to law school, but where I went to law school, correcting stereotypes, misconceptions, and misunderstandings of a persons autism condition and the barriers/obstacles to it that are imposed was not called "arrogrance;" it was called Civil Rights.
Surprisingly, again you assume too much. I don't live in the same country as you do and I never went to law school. I stand by my description of your behaviour so far: arrogance, also known as a pissy attitude,
Where did you study astronomy?
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There is a difference btw stating you are in fact those things or not as a proven evidentiary matter, and making the suggestion you at those things or not to get you to confess. You would not be the first or last witness to confess my autism status and purely First Amendment free speech and/or association has been targeted for harassment by the Bush Administration and some rogues who remained on the fed payroll since then.
But if you don't want to confess, that's what a DOE Bivens action is for -- we get to find out witnesses names if they are material to a particular case, as it is drafted and alleged.
Whether or not you are what I suspect I am likely to find in a discovery process, which makes the idea of outing you rather boring, is irrelevant to the display to everyone you have put on that athough you are no savant, you are definitely an "idiot." And that really has captured more of my autistic interest.
:bigcry: So what are you taking me to court for? Being a big meanie on the internet? Here is more evidence to take to court. :finger:
Besides learning language from spoken patterns of my parents at a very young age, the remainder of my language abilities came from what happens when you subject an autistic to the rigors of LAW SCHOOL !!! That still does not mean I have sufficuently high language cogntition to recognize or identify sarcasm !!
Then I suspect you'll be a far cry from David Boies in open court.
As mentioned, the only relevant characteristic I have seen so far is that which identifies you as a non-savant "idiot," cruel antagonist out to see how many things you can find wrong and not to like about my autism and me because Iof my condition.
Don't you have a little brother you can pick on ?
It is not about your autism, it is about your rude conduct. Yes I do have younger brothers to pick on but they don't post here and I am afraid they will hire you or David Boies to sue me if I pick on them.
I said you were too boring to take to court -- a vast waste of time.
I have no idea who David Boies is -- I was made to read 24/7, and not allowed any TV, radios, movies, etc -- no American culture. If you are going to insult a savant autistic, at least learn to speak in autism so you can be understood !!!
You are REALLY such a neurotypical -- so good at hitting the #1 autism issue spotter "the core" feature of autism's social-cognition communication deficit inability to encode emotion to words EVERY SINGLE neurotypical misinterprets as "rudeness." They are one and the same. Why don't you just call my autism an "EPIDEMIC ??!"
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I love the insult: "you're such a neurotypical". Sig material.
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Oh, and btw, EquiisSavant, what do you hope to achieve here at I2? Sympathy seems to be a bit optimistic now, as people have been trying to help but you've refused to listen, telling everyone that they're so much higher-functioning than you are.
To me that's very arrogant. You don't know more about their difficulties than they know about yours.
Actually that's not entirely true cos your difficulties are everything you talk about.
No one has tried to help in the proper way to help a person with severe autism language deficits who is locked in; the only advice offered has been the social model for how non-locked-in autistics can be helped. Where is Amanda Bags ?? Or Carly ?? Oh, maybe you don't like them, just like some people here don't like me, because we are part of a sub-category of autism who are locked-in communicators and we talk about our plight.
First of all, Intensity is not a support site. It wasn't designed to be one and the only support you'll get is completely voluntary, meaning that you'll have to deserve it. If you hope to hear sympathetic voices ooh-ing and ah-ing your plight, you'll be disappointed unless you also acknowledge that they may have valid points different to the ones you've come up with.
Second, why amanda doesn't post here (or that other one) I don't know. Maybe they don't know about I2, maybe they don't like it. I have no opinions of them other than what little I know of Amada after talking to her at Gestalt. Don't assume that I don't like them and don't make it sound as if I don't.
Third, you get what you deserve. Talk about your plight, as you call it, without giving something back and the best you can hope for is a yawn and a dead thread.
I think what makes the wrong-social model advice offerers so mad (and you, as their friend), is the fact they were wrong. And THAT insulted them. Being wrong.
Nope, I'm pretty sure what insulted them was your attitude. It certainly annoys the fuck out of me now.
I never said I know more about their conditions, so don't put words I did not say in my mouth.
Then don't act as if you know--now you assume they are much more high-functioning than you are, without actually knowing anything about them. You belittle their problems because indirectly you pretend to know that your problems will always be far worse than theirs can ever be. It's a pissy attitude at best and complete ignorance at worst. Or maybe it's the other way around.
But I DO know the most important fact about their conditions that directly affects their ability to understand locked-in autistic communicators, and that is -- THEY are not similar locked in autistic communicators, or they would not have mis-understood any part of having such a terrible deficit.
In your opinion, observed from your perspective, your POV. As for objective facts, you have yet to touch them.
if that's how you work as a lawyer your opponents should be pretty safe.
It is not the kind of deficit you easily forget about or how extensive it is -- because if you have it you live each and every moment of every day in a neurotypical structured-society, confronting: every piece of print paper, every print paper form, print paper fax, print paper business card, print paper menu, print paper book, print paper newspaper, print paper parking garage ticket, every print paper contract, every print paper notice, every print or handwritten paper letter, every print paper chart, every print paper bank book ledger, every print paper sign posters, every print paper sale price tag, every print paper or on bottles/containers list of ingredients on food products, pesticides, and horse stuff, every print paper clothing size tag, every print paper "On-Sale Clearance" sign, every print paper test, etc etc -- then you would NOT fail to understand one thing of what communication obstacles you get put through every day of your life that are sheer TORTURE.
Poor you. Happy now?
In don't know where you went to law school, but where I went to law school, correcting stereotypes, misconceptions, and misunderstandings of a persons autism condition and the barriers/obstacles to it that are imposed was not called "arrogrance;" it was called Civil Rights.
Surprisingly, again you assume too much. I don't live in the same country as you do and I never went to law school. I stand by my description of your behaviour so far: arrogance, also known as a pissy attitude,
Where did you study astronomy?
No one here has offered any valid workable solution to the communication obstacles -- there are computer Internet superhighway sinkholes and abysses, that make the ability to overcome the barriers impossible. If EVERY one/EVERY place had to use computers to communicate instead of telephones and paper print I could perfectly help myself do every thing and be 100% independent. Until someone proposes a valid solution for that, the default is having to rely on another person to interpret/translate or who can understand my communication and meaning outside of a computer -- in my life, there have only been 3 such people: one lives 3000 miles away, the other deceased 15 years ago, and the third is my doctor.
Moreover, the one thing about astronomy I know is, there is Heaven and Earth and my mother who was one of the three who could communicate with me is on the other side, having suicided over being forced to be my autism court accommodatation 15 years ago. There is NO ONE else except my doctor. And I have not initiated "jumping into the sack" with him -- you really don't know my ability to exercise restraint. That is why it is still proper for him to reinstate me.
And, since you are such a proof-meister, whose to say your pissy reaction to my plight is not wholly unrelated to me instead of just your disgust that it is FRIDAY !!!! You might just be acting out of deeper emotions that have nothing to do with me !! For all I know, your last girlfriend dumped you on a Friday, and every Friday evening you take it out on the World !! But, I forgive you.
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lol Heaven/astronomy :lol:
Who are you really btw?
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I love the insult: "you're such a neurotypical". Sig material.
Maybe your Aspie skills and abilities have risen so high you hit Nirvana !!!
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In don't know where you went to law school, but where I went to law school, correcting stereotypes, misconceptions, and misunderstandings of a persons autism condition and the barriers/obstacles to it that are imposed was not called "arrogance;" it was called Civil Rights.
Except that you're not merely correcting people; you're attacking them, either sarcastically sniping at them or throwing out paranoid accusations. At any rate, you can't fault people here for trying to help you, misguided as you believe it is. Even if you feel no one here can truly comprehend your situation, which may be true, I think it's legitimate for people to ask you questions about the situation, in an attempt to offer you more useful advice. But you react viciously to even those simple, innocuous questions, accusing the people asking of being ignorant (at best) or malicious. No one is trivializing your plight; the negative reaction you've received has been to this behavior.
As several people, especially Callaway and Renaeden, have demonstrated, some here are (were?) willing to try to help you with your doctor, but you're not explaining how they should go about it, nor do you seem willing to concede the possibility that you won't be able to have him reinstated, whether or not there was any sexual history between you.
Anyway, as others in this thread have said, it's difficult to understand why you're continuing to post on here. You solicit help, reject people's efforts at such, and then claim help is impossible in the first place, except from your doctor. If you just want to vent about the situation, that's a different story, but you are frankly sending a lot of mixed messages.
You could just settle for getting airtight with a standard issue Hermaphrodite, your Doctor and your husband.
That suggestion would be probably appeal far more to my husband, than my Doctor or I. But, don't let me speak for my Doctor, since I thought he was going to kiss me !!! And it was a great disappointment that while his lips were quivering as he was trying to restrain his own obsessions for me, he didn't !!! His abilities with psychiatry induced a VERY strong transference on me -- and I liked it !!!
The new single from Katy Perry: I Experienced Obsessive Romantic Transference With My Lips-Quivering, Deadbeat Psychiatrist (and I Liked it)!
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I said you were too boring to take to court -- a vast waste of time.
Not very committed to exposing me for the Federal Agent that I am anymore?.
I have no idea who David Boies is -- I was made to read 24/7, and not allowed any TV, radios, movies, etc -- no American culture. If you are going to insult a savant autistic, at least learn to speak in autism so you can be understood !!!
One of the better known Attorneys practicing law, his career as a nationally known Attorney dates back over 30 years. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/David_Boies (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/David_Boies) I can't think of any reason why a Law School Graduate should know that name. I guess Richard "Racehorse" Haynes, Alan Dershowitz, Melvin Belli and Laurence Tribe were not mentioned at your Law School either? I call BULLSHIT, you are either a fucking liar about attending Law School or you really are too fucking stupid to practice Law.
You are REALLY such a neurotypical -- so good at hitting the #1 autism issue spotter "the core" feature of autism's social-cognition communication deficit inability to encode emotion to words EVERY SINGLE neurotypical misinterprets as "rudeness." They are one and the same. Why don't you just call my autism an "EPIDEMIC ??!"
I'll try to use that in a sentence. I hope there is not an epidemic of autistic(?) dumbasses who have not heard of Al Gores Attorney from the contested 2000 Presidential Election, the man who also was the Justice Departments lead Attorney of Record in the not so well known ( to you anyway ) United States v. Microsoft case who are claiming to be Attorneys running around.
BTW horsekisser I am done with this thread, you can have the last word on me.
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YOU. DON'T. HAVE. AUTISM! For fuck's sake EquiisSavant. Sorry but you're clearly either bullshitting or severely misdiagnosed by your doctor. Your behavior and characteristics do not reflect Autism at all. You have delusional thinking, tendencies to argue regardless of intent, conspiracy centric thinking, feel that people are out to get you, strange behavioral and typing style, etc that even deviates deeper from paranoia that Autistic people might have.
You clearly have paranoid schizophrenia and are out desperately seeking for attention. Seek professional help immediately.
Don't bother polluting my eyes with your ramblings, because unlike most other people here, I couldn't honestly give a fuck about your problems; Shit sucks, move on I say. It's only when you started to attack other users here I knew something was terribly wrong. At first I thought you were a troll, but no, not even a dedicated troll can be that good. But then I realized that you match more of the criteria for Paranoid Schizophrenia than Autism.
So sort your fucking life out, you clearly need a new doctor and some sort of anti-psychotic medication.
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You got 99 problems, but autism ain't one of them.
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YOU. DON'T. HAVE. AUTISM! For fuck's sake EquiisSavant. Sorry but you're clearly either bullshitting or severely misdiagnosed by your doctor. Your behavior and characteristics do not reflect Autism at all. You have delusional thinking, tendencies to argue regardless of intent, conspiracy centric thinking, feel that people are out to get you, strange behavioral and typing style, etc that even deviates deeper from paranoia that Autistic people might have.
You clearly have paranoid schizophrenia and are out desperately seeking for attention. Seek professional help immediately.
Don't bother polluting my eyes with your ramblings, because unlike most other people here, I couldn't honestly give a fuck about your problems; Shit sucks, move on I say. It's only when you started to attack other users here I knew something was terribly wrong. At first I thought you were a troll, but no, not even a dedicated troll can be that good. But then I realized that you match more of the criteria for Paranoid Schizophrenia than Autism.
So sort your fucking life out, you clearly need a new doctor and some sort of anti-psychotic medication.
Wow, an Aspie gang-fucking against another spectrumite. I have a savant autism DX. My doctor is an international brain expert and does r-TMS savant research. He is very highly acclaimed in his field. I also have an actual cut girth, an actual tampered counterfeit driver's license, actual blog posts by an 11th Circuit law clerk named Elizabeth Oyer assigned to a judge on my cases admitting to tampering with my cases by means of ex parte information, an actual police report of her attempting to board our vessel home at appx. 3 am in 2003, all of it reviewed and accepted as true by a Bar member -- delusions and paranoia are excluded on differential analysis under DSM-VI-R when there is objective existing evidence to ground the legal inferences. So you can stuff your mudslinging efforts to deliberately and falsely portray my HFA savantism as something else. Paranoid schizophrenics don't have prodigious savant art abilities -- Oh, but you didn't think about that, right ? You just don't like the fact my doctor correctly called the DX as what it is -- HFA savant.
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lulz, you fail to realize it, but you just prove my point that you're a paranoid schizophrenic, have a nice day you nutcase. ;D
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In don't know where you went to law school, but where I went to law school, correcting stereotypes, misconceptions, and misunderstandings of a persons autism condition and the barriers/obstacles to it that are imposed was not called "arrogance;" it was called Civil Rights.
Except that you're not merely correcting people; you're attacking them, either sarcastically sniping at them or throwing out paranoid accusations. At any rate, you can't fault people here for trying to help you, misguided as you believe it is. Even if you feel no one here can truly comprehend your situation, which may be true, I think it's legitimate for people to ask you questions about the situation, in an attempt to offer you more useful advice. But you react viciously to even those simple, innocuous questions, accusing the people asking of being ignorant (at best) or malicious. No one is trivializing your plight; the negative reaction you've received has been to this behavior.
As several people, especially Callaway and Renaeden, have demonstrated, some here are (were?) willing to try to help you with your doctor, but you're not explaining how they should go about it, nor do you seem willing to concede the possibility that you won't be able to have him reinstated, whether or not there was any sexual history between you.
Anyway, as others in this thread have said, it's difficult to understand why you're continuing to post on here. You solicit help, reject people's efforts at such, and then claim help is impossible in the first place, except from your doctor. If you just want to vent about the situation, that's a different story, but you are frankly sending a lot of mixed messages.
You could just settle for getting airtight with a standard issue Hermaphrodite, your Doctor and your husband.
That suggestion would be probably appeal far more to my husband, than my Doctor or I. But, don't let me speak for my Doctor, since I thought he was going to kiss me !!! And it was a great disappointment that while his lips were quivering as he was trying to restrain his own obsessions for me, he didn't !!! His abilities with psychiatry induced a VERY strong transference on me -- and I liked it !!!
The new single from Katy Perry: I Experienced Obsessive Romantic Transference With My Lips-Quivering, Deadbeat Psychiatrist (and I Liked it)!
I can pursue legal channels to have my doctor reinstated, or, request the alternative relief of revocation of his license. He really violated me. The most significant of them being the abandonment. If he doesn't want to remedy and heal what he did, then why shouldn't he lose his license so he doesn't harm someone else this way ? Even people who harm someone, if that person fixes the harm, no one can fault the initial harm because in the end they stepped forward and did the right thing to fix the harm. But when there are two wrongs that cause extreme harm without any effort to redress it -- the violations, then abandonment without fixing the damage, that's when the person has liability and/or licensure revocation coming. I may yet have to accept that he may not be reinstated, but he may have to accept revocation of his license. Then we can all learn to accept that which we cannot change -- and be happy. When I am without my doctor, and he is without his license, then we can all give thanks that such adversity built character. Him, me, and everyone else.
I did not "fault" people for trying to help me and trying to give me support. I said I appreciated that. But I also countered that the suggestions offered so far were not workable. I thought maybe there might be more or better solutions people could think up -- but offering up a social model that does not consider severe lock-in autism communication is not in that category. Like "just get another doctor." "You CAN overcome the barriers like everyone else who can use paper print and talk on telephones." etc. Helpful advice is advice more fitting the severity of the locked-in state of my communication and the trust issues of doctors.
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I said you were too boring to take to court -- a vast waste of time.
Not very committed to exposing me for the Federal Agent that I am anymore?.
I have no idea who David Boies is -- I was made to read 24/7, and not allowed any TV, radios, movies, etc -- no American culture. If you are going to insult a savant autistic, at least learn to speak in autism so you can be understood !!!
One of the better known Attorneys practicing law, his career as a nationally known Attorney dates back over 30 years. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/David_Boies (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/David_Boies) I can't think of any reason why a Law School Graduate should know that name. I guess Richard "Racehorse" Haynes, Alan Dershowitz, Melvin Belli and Laurence Tribe were not mentioned at your Law School either? I call BULLSHIT, you are either a fucking liar about attending Law School or you really are too fucking stupid to practice Law.
You are REALLY such a neurotypical -- so good at hitting the #1 autism issue spotter "the core" feature of autism's social-cognition communication deficit inability to encode emotion to words EVERY SINGLE neurotypical misinterprets as "rudeness." They are one and the same. Why don't you just call my autism an "EPIDEMIC ??!"
I'll try to use that in a sentence. I hope there is not an epidemic of autistic(?) dumbasses who have not heard of Al Gores Attorney from the contested 2000 Presidential Election, the man who also was the Justice Departments lead Attorney of Record in the not so well known ( to you anyway ) United States v. Microsoft case who are claiming to be Attorneys running around.
BTW horsekisser I am done with this thread, you can have the last word on me.
I do know who Melvin Belli is -- he was the lawyer my former attorney disbarred.
Why would I need to know Gore's lawyer, when I had the pleasure of experiencing President Bush's 2000 Presidential Election lawyer who was hired on the other side of one of my cases ? I don't get my knowledge of Whos-Whos lawyers from wikipedia, I usually check Martindale Hubbel and bar membership pages.
I never claimed to be an attorney -- I said I have tried to become an attorney for 20 years but been refused access because of my autism and their refusal to licensing a person with autism.
Sorry to see your retreat -- you were interesting to talk to before your meltdown.
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You got 99 problems, but autism ain't one of them.
My doctor staked his license and reputation on DX of me with savant HFA. He also stated in writing that I do not have schizophrenia. I don't think, like other cookbook readers here, he mixed and matched symptoms like a recipe -- he is a doctor and has the qualifications to make the DX.
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EquiisSavant:
To get to know Intensity2 You may need post on other subjects.
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EquiisSavant:
To get to know Intensity2 You may need post on other subjects.
Again ... the Autism Savant Paradox strikes !!! I'm afraid I am VERY narrowly restricted to a VERY narrow range of interests, consisting of approximately two: getting reinstated to my doctor/medical care, and my autism horse.
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I do know who Melvin Belli is -- he was the lawyer my former attorney disbarred.
The Melvin Belli referenced here http://calbar.ca.gov/calbar/2cbj/96aug/art19.htm (http://calbar.ca.gov/calbar/2cbj/96aug/art19.htm) in The California Bar Journal if that is official enough for your wanna be Lawyer self, is who I was referring to. While there were legal problems at the end of his life he was not disbarred. Given his list of famous, and infamous, clients and the well publicized cases he was associated with as well as his attention whore personality I would expect any real Law School Graduate to have at least heard of him. As a self proclaimed savant with an interest in Law you haven't learned much in twenty years.
This one, Melvin Caeser Belli, was his son and he was suspended for a period of one year, but not disbarred according to this article. http://www.calbar.ca.gov/calbar/2cbj/99dec/attdisc.htm (http://www.calbar.ca.gov/calbar/2cbj/99dec/attdisc.htm) He is #5 down the page, again the source is The California Bar Journal. But since you claim to be a savant with an interest in Law I find your admission of ignorance as to Boies identity within the Legal community to smell like a big pile of Bullshit.
Why would I need to know Gore's lawyer, when I had the pleasure of experiencing President Bush's 2000 Presidential Election lawyer who was hired on the other side of one of my cases ? I don't get my knowledge of Whos-Whos lawyers from wikipedia, I usually check Martindale Hubbel and bar membership pages.
Your claim to being a savant with an interest in Law is why I would expect you to know something about a legal action as dramatic as that one.
I never claimed to be an attorney -- I said I have tried to become an attorney for 20 years but been refused access because of my autism and their refusal to licensing a person with autism.
Or, more likely, because if you don't know the first thing about the Supreme Court actions and Ruling about the 2000 Presidential Election you are probably remiss in other areas of study as well.
Sorry to see your retreat -- you were interesting to talk to before your meltdown.
I'm recovered already. Apparently I bounce back better than you do.
EquiisSavant:
To get to know Intensity2 You may need post on other subjects.
Again ... the Autism Savant Paradox strikes !!! I'm afraid I am VERY narrowly restricted to a VERY narrow range of interests, consisting of approximately two: getting reinstated to my doctor/medical care, and my autism horse.
Perhaps if you would apply that savant mind to your Law Studies you could actually qualify for and pass the Bar Exam. What do you have to lose? You have already lost the Doctor of your dreams. Forget that crap, my next post makes it moot. And for anyone on this site who looks down on researching and calling others on their posts. :finger:
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So first you post this.
In my case, I also graduated law school and passed the hardest bar examination in the U.S., and I surmise my prodigious savant autism-with-law degree somehow threatens the power elite and gets in the craw of the homogeneously neurotypical U.S. Attorneys Dept.
And then you backpedal with this.
I never claimed to be an attorney -- I said I have tried to become an attorney for 20 years but been refused access because of my autism and their refusal to licensing a person with autism.
Sorry to see your retreat -- you were interesting to talk to before your meltdown.
You did, in effect, call me back to this thread but I will still do a mea culpa for being a hypocrite and posting here after I said I was done if TCO shows up to call me on it. You are a proven liar. In the future you should keep a lie sheet so you don't trip over your own posts. Trying to claim that you passed hardest Bar exam in the US subsequent to Graduating Law School but that you never claimed to be a Lawyer will require better mental gymnastics then arguing over "what the meaning of the word is is." Here is a youtube video to jog your memory in case you don't know where that quotation came from.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4XT-l-_3y0 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4XT-l-_3y0)
You are full of shit Horsekisser.
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EquiisSavant said in a post a bit after the first one you quoted that even though she passed the bar in California, both California and Florida refused to license her as an attorney due to her autism, which would explain the apparent contradiction, PPK.
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I do know who Melvin Belli is -- he was the lawyer my former attorney disbarred.
The Melvin Belli referenced here http://calbar.ca.gov/calbar/2cbj/96aug/art19.htm (http://calbar.ca.gov/calbar/2cbj/96aug/art19.htm) in The California Bar Journal if that is official enough for your wanna be Lawyer self, is who I was referring to. While there were legal problems at the end of his life he was not disbarred. Given his list of famous, and infamous, clients and the well publicized cases he was associated with as well as his attention whore personality I would expect any real Law School Graduate to have at least heard of him. As a self proclaimed savant with an interest in Law you haven't learned much in twenty years.
This one, Melvin Caeser Belli, was his son and he was suspended for a period of one year, but not disbarred according to this article. http://www.calbar.ca.gov/calbar/2cbj/99dec/attdisc.htm (http://www.calbar.ca.gov/calbar/2cbj/99dec/attdisc.htm) He is #5 down the page, again the source is The California Bar Journal. But since you claim to be a savant with an interest in Law I find your admission of ignorance as to Boies identity within the Legal community to smell like a big pile of Bullshit.
Why would I need to know Gore's lawyer, when I had the pleasure of experiencing President Bush's 2000 Presidential Election lawyer who was hired on the other side of one of my cases ? I don't get my knowledge of Whos-Whos lawyers from wikipedia, I usually check Martindale Hubbel and bar membership pages.
Your claim to being a savant with an interest in Law is why I would expect you to know something about a legal action as dramatic as that one.
I never claimed to be an attorney -- I said I have tried to become an attorney for 20 years but been refused access because of my autism and their refusal to licensing a person with autism.
Or, more likely, because if you don't know the first thing about the Supreme Court actions and Ruling about the 2000 Presidential Election you are probably remiss in other areas of study as well.
Sorry to see your retreat -- you were interesting to talk to before your meltdown.
I'm recovered already. Apparently I bounce back better than you do.
EquiisSavant:
To get to know Intensity2 You may need post on other subjects.
Again ... the Autism Savant Paradox strikes !!! I'm afraid I am VERY narrowly restricted to a VERY narrow range of interests, consisting of approximately two: getting reinstated to my doctor/medical care, and my autism horse.
Perhaps if you would apply that savant mind to your Law Studies you could actually qualify for and pass the Bar Exam. What do you have to lose? You have already lost the Doctor of your dreams. Forget that crap, my next post makes it moot. And for anyone on this site who looks down on researching and calling others on their posts. :finger:
I wasn't referring to a Calf. Disbarment. So why would you look in Calif. journals ?
If your information about the "Doctor of [my] Dreams" having been "lost" is as faulty as your information about my bar pass status, I would not be surprised to see my doctor reinstate me. I already took and passed the California bar exam in July 1997 -- I am not needing to "finish law studies" or "qualify for and pass the bar exam."
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So first you post this.
In my case, I also graduated law school and passed the hardest bar examination in the U.S., and I surmise my prodigious savant autism-with-law degree somehow threatens the power elite and gets in the craw of the homogeneously neurotypical U.S. Attorneys Dept.
And then you backpedal with this.
I never claimed to be an attorney -- I said I have tried to become an attorney for 20 years but been refused access because of my autism and their refusal to licensing a person with autism.
Sorry to see your retreat -- you were interesting to talk to before your meltdown.
You did, in effect, call me back to this thread but I will still do a mea culpa for being a hypocrite and posting here after I said I was done if TCO shows up to call me on it. You are a proven liar. In the future you should keep a lie sheet so you don't trip over your own posts. Trying to claim that you passed hardest Bar exam in the US subsequent to Graduating Law School but that you never claimed to be a Lawyer will require better mental gymnastics then arguing over "what the meaning of the word is is." Here is a youtube video to jog your memory in case you don't know where that quotation came from.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4XT-l-_3y0 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4XT-l-_3y0)
You are full of shit Horsekisser.
So much for our schools teaching people to read calendar anymore. If they did, I am sure you could grasp the fact my law school graduation in June 1990 was BEFORE my July 1997 Calif. bar exam pass. I am not an attorney, however. It doesn't matter if you pass the bar exam, they still won't license a person with autism. I have stated no lies.
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EquiisSavant said in a post a bit after the first one you quoted that even though she passed the bar in California, both California and Florida refused to license her as an attorney due to her autism, which would explain the apparent contradiction, PPK.
Thank you Callaway. I did appreciate your trying to help, before. I just have barriers I can't overcome, though. And I really need reinstatement to my doctor.
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So much for our schools teaching people to read calendar anymore. If they did, I am sure you could grasp the fact my law school graduation in June 1990 was BEFORE my July 1997 Calif. bar exam pass. I am not an attorney, however. It doesn't matter if you pass the bar exam, they still won't license a person with autism. I have stated no lies.
Okay I have managed to find the California standards for schooling, morals etc for prior to taking the exam. But once a person has passed the Bar Exam in California besides paying dues or assessments what is involved? You have mentioned Attorney Generals and what I saw in the California State Bar website indicates that the "California Supreme Court exercises inherent jurisdiction over the practice of law in California." There is no mention of US Attorneys or the California Attorney General having any jurisdiction in this area. http://calbar.ca.gov/calbar/pdfs/rules/Rules_Title4_Div1-Adm-Prac-Law.pdf (http://calbar.ca.gov/calbar/pdfs/rules/Rules_Title4_Div1-Adm-Prac-Law.pdf)
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So much for our schools teaching people to read calendar anymore. If they did, I am sure you could grasp the fact my law school graduation in June 1990 was BEFORE my July 1997 Calif. bar exam pass. I am not an attorney, however. It doesn't matter if you pass the bar exam, they still won't license a person with autism. I have stated no lies.
Okay I have managed to find the California standards for schooling, morals etc for prior to taking the exam. But once a person has passed the Bar Exam in California besides paying dues or assessments what is involved? You have mentioned Attorney Generals and what I saw in the California State Bar website indicates that the "California Supreme Court exercises inherent jurisdiction over the practice of law in California." There is no mention of US Attorneys or the California Attorney General having any jurisdiction in this area. http://calbar.ca.gov/calbar/pdfs/rules/Rules_Title4_Div1-Adm-Prac-Law.pdf (http://calbar.ca.gov/calbar/pdfs/rules/Rules_Title4_Div1-Adm-Prac-Law.pdf)
What exactly is it you want to know ? California refuses to license a person with autism who requires assistive technology and paperless Internet computer formats. The California Supreme Court Chief Justice refuses autism access, so there has been -- and without autism access never will be -- no final bar admission decision/certification whatsoever. Chief Justice instructed his Clerk to tell my husband, "No, we're not going to license people like that [autism]." The United States Supreme Court says I am entitled to a final decision -- California Supreme Court's Chief Justice refuses to give me one or even allow the entire court of all the Justices to hear it (petition requesting final decision/certification be entered one way or the other).
It is the same exact problem I have with needing reinstatement to my doctor -- facilitated communication access to overcome my locked-in state.
I passed the bar exam with extensive accommodations, I know the material. I just need the California Supreme Court access. They refuse to give it to me. My doctor, who knows my autism locked-in status and communication deficits firsthand, was going to testify for me to overcome the bar admisson barrier. In Florida, too.
But all of it's gone -- my doctor, my psychotherapy, my bar admission.
I did not do anything wrong justifying this extent of abandonment/devastation -- my doctor was ethically required to work through the childhood incest sexualized trauma transference feelings I am having for him that he induced:
Welfel (2002) stated that a failure to continue needed psychotherapy services is “abandonment” and is inappropriate. Psychotherapists may not stop conducting therapy on a “whim” or out of dislike for, or anger at, a patient. The etiological function of incestuous trauma is such that during the psychiatric/ psychotherapuetic treatment of adult female patients, a sadomasochistic fixation on the original incestuous sexual abuser becomes massively repeated in the transference with the male analyst. Compounding the neurotic sequelae of incestuous trauma is an earlier, even more severe, trauma linked to maternal deprivation. Jilien Bigras, Incestuous Repetitions: Some Technical Considerations, p. 174. “The compulsion to repeat the trauma, … constitutes the major transference process to be worked through.” Bigras, Incestuous Repetitions: Some Technical Considerations, in Howard B. Levine, Adult Analysis Of Childhood Sexual Abuse, (Analytic Press: Hillsdale, NJ, 1998), at p. 175.
As I said, I can restrain myself from "jumping into the sack" with my doctor, even if he cannot control his impulses -- why would I want him to lose his license it takes to get my bar admission ? He is under a fiduciary duty to reinstate me.
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If it's any usefulness PPK or to anyone, her Doctor's name is Dr. Michael W. Hoffmann, M.D.
Here's his profile: http://health.usf.edu/medicine/neurology/faculty/hoffmann.htm (http://health.usf.edu/medicine/neurology/faculty/hoffmann.htm)
Also her real life name is Mary Katherine Day-Petrano (found it on Youtube).
PROTIP: Never use your real life name in association to your active username, ever. Considering that you willfully posted your real life name online for everyone to see, it's fair game.
But I felt bad about what I said before, and decided to do some actual research into this matter myself to be fair. So I googled her real life name with "Court Cases" added to the search text. They are various court cases/statements mentioning her name, and I decided to provide some links here for easy access (it would take too long to find everything):
http://www.floridasupremecourt.org/clerk/briefs/2005/1001-1200/05-1181_JurisAnsCityofLargo.pdf (http://www.floridasupremecourt.org/clerk/briefs/2005/1001-1200/05-1181_JurisAnsCityofLargo.pdf)
http://www.floridasupremecourt.org/clerk/briefs/2005/1001-1200/05-1181_JurisIni.pdf (http://www.floridasupremecourt.org/clerk/briefs/2005/1001-1200/05-1181_JurisIni.pdf)
http://fl.findacase.com/research/wfrmDocViewer.aspx/xq/fac.%5CFDCT%5CMFL%5C2006%5C20060109_0000077.MFL.htm/qx (http://fl.findacase.com/research/wfrmDocViewer.aspx/xq/fac.%5CFDCT%5CMFL%5C2006%5C20060109_0000077.MFL.htm/qx)
http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/8:05-cv-01182-16-MDFL.pdf (http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/8:05-cv-01182-16-MDFL.pdf)
http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/176614-MDFL.pdf (http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/176614-MDFL.pdf)
http://www.law.fsu.edu/library/flsupct/sc04-101/04-101commentsmary.pdf (http://www.law.fsu.edu/library/flsupct/sc04-101/04-101commentsmary.pdf)
http://www.jud6.org/LegalCommunity/LegalPractice/opinions/appellatedivisionopinions/2005/03-13%20APANO%20Petrano.htm (http://www.jud6.org/LegalCommunity/LegalPractice/opinions/appellatedivisionopinions/2005/03-13%20APANO%20Petrano.htm)
http://www.jud6.org/LegalCommunity/LegalPractice/opinions/appellatedivisionopinions/2005/03-44%20APANO%20Petrano.htm (http://www.jud6.org/LegalCommunity/LegalPractice/opinions/appellatedivisionopinions/2005/03-44%20APANO%20Petrano.htm)
I'll let you guys research the rest and judge for yourselves. But these documents should be very interesting to read, that's all I can say...
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So much for our schools teaching people to read calendar anymore. If they did, I am sure you could grasp the fact my law school graduation in June 1990 was BEFORE my July 1997 Calif. bar exam pass. I am not an attorney, however. It doesn't matter if you pass the bar exam, they still won't license a person with autism. I have stated no lies.
I read calendar just fine. So you passed the Bar here in California in 1997 and have been busy losing cases over $80 Traffic Fines in Florida rather than take the battle to the California Supreme Court? You got me there EquiiisSavant, that makes no more sense to me than your irrationally accusing me of being a Fed.
What exactly is it you want to know ? California refuses to license a person with autism who requires assistive technology and paperless Internet computer formats. The California Supreme Court Chief Justice refuses autism access, so there has been -- and without autism access never will be -- no final bar admission decision/certification whatsoever. Chief Justice instructed his Clerk to tell my husband, "No, we're not going to license people like that [autism]." The United States Supreme Court says I am entitled to a final decision -- California Supreme Court's Chief Justice refuses to give me one or even allow the entire court of all the Justices to hear it (petition requesting final decision/certification be entered one way or the other).
What I did want to know was where in the process of admission to the CA State Bar things fell apart for you. But now that I see from Singularity's post that you have kept yourself busy trying to get $3.5 million from your neighbor and appealing $80 traffic tickets on the other side of the country it doesn't appear that you know how to pick your battles anyway. :bangbang:
1)The Bush Administration and the Clinton Administration that ran the country when you actually passed the Bar have nothing to do with appointing members to the California Supreme Court. I bring this up because you seem to believe that US Attorneys place a high priority on preventing you from having a Law practice. Your quarrel actually seems to be with the California Supreme Court.
2)The figure of 45 million autistic adults in the US that you posted seems farfetched.
3)I am not a Fed but if you prefer to believe that you are so important that I was registered here almost a year prior to you just in case you showed up then run with it.
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HFA savant.
How are you HFA if you can't do anything?
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EquiisSavant:
To get to know Intensity2 You may need post on other subjects.
Again ... the Autism Savant Paradox strikes !!! I'm afraid I am VERY narrowly restricted to a VERY narrow range of interests, consisting of approximately two: getting reinstated to my doctor/medical care, and my autism horse.
Don't forget baiting and trolling.
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EquiisSavant:
To get to know Intensity2 You may need post on other subjects.
Again ... the Autism Savant Paradox strikes !!! I'm afraid I am VERY narrowly restricted to a VERY narrow range of interests, consisting of approximately two: getting reinstated to my doctor/medical care, and my autism horse.
Don't forget baiting and trolling.
:yawn:
No, the rule of construction for my list was ejusdem generis -- thus, the rule would exclude from inclusion in the list your pro-offered items because yours are not 'like/kind.' See generally, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Statutory_interpretation
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You are not an autistic savant :moon:
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If it's any usefulness PPK or to anyone, her Doctor's name is Dr. Michael W. Hoffmann, M.D.
Here's his profile: http://health.usf.edu/medicine/neurology/faculty/hoffmann.htm (http://health.usf.edu/medicine/neurology/faculty/hoffmann.htm)
Also her real life name is Mary Katherine Day-Petrano (found it on Youtube).
PROTIP: Never use your real life name in association to your active username, ever. Considering that you willfully posted your real life name online for everyone to see, it's fair game.
But I felt bad about what I said before, and decided to do some actual research into this matter myself to be fair. So I googled her real life name with "Court Cases" added to the search text. They are various court cases/statements mentioning her name, and I decided to provide some links here for easy access (it would take too long to find everything):
http://www.floridasupremecourt.org/clerk/briefs/2005/1001-1200/05-1181_JurisAnsCityofLargo.pdf (http://www.floridasupremecourt.org/clerk/briefs/2005/1001-1200/05-1181_JurisAnsCityofLargo.pdf)
http://www.floridasupremecourt.org/clerk/briefs/2005/1001-1200/05-1181_JurisIni.pdf (http://www.floridasupremecourt.org/clerk/briefs/2005/1001-1200/05-1181_JurisIni.pdf)
http://fl.findacase.com/research/wfrmDocViewer.aspx/xq/fac.%5CFDCT%5CMFL%5C2006%5C20060109_0000077.MFL.htm/qx (http://fl.findacase.com/research/wfrmDocViewer.aspx/xq/fac.%5CFDCT%5CMFL%5C2006%5C20060109_0000077.MFL.htm/qx)
http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/8:05-cv-01182-16-MDFL.pdf (http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/8:05-cv-01182-16-MDFL.pdf)
http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/176614-MDFL.pdf (http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/176614-MDFL.pdf)
http://www.law.fsu.edu/library/flsupct/sc04-101/04-101commentsmary.pdf (http://www.law.fsu.edu/library/flsupct/sc04-101/04-101commentsmary.pdf)
http://www.jud6.org/LegalCommunity/LegalPractice/opinions/appellatedivisionopinions/2005/03-13%20APANO%20Petrano.htm (http://www.jud6.org/LegalCommunity/LegalPractice/opinions/appellatedivisionopinions/2005/03-13%20APANO%20Petrano.htm)
http://www.jud6.org/LegalCommunity/LegalPractice/opinions/appellatedivisionopinions/2005/03-44%20APANO%20Petrano.htm (http://www.jud6.org/LegalCommunity/LegalPractice/opinions/appellatedivisionopinions/2005/03-44%20APANO%20Petrano.htm)
I'll let you guys research the rest and judge for yourselves. But these documents should be very interesting to read, that's all I can say...
Thank you for listing all the court cases in which I was forced to litigate WITHOUT AUTISM ACCOMMODATIONS cases in paper print I cannot see to read or understand, telephones I cannot use to call the court or schedule a telephonic hearing, and CART realtime computer assisted real time transcription in the courtrooms, all of which the entirety of my medical history as written by my doctors would tell you I require in order to be able to understand and follow the speech and written communications involved in every aspect of those cases inside and outside the courthouse from start to finish -- in order to make your post not recklessly defamatory, please breakdown your list into columns of which ones of those cases I was fully autism access accommodated (all you put on my list from start to finish of the case) vs in the other column the cases where I was not. You need to make your correction because under prevailing United States Supreme Court precedent, Tennessee v. Lane, 541 U.S. 509 (2004), and Florida Consitution, Art. I, sec. 21, 'ALL' people in Florida have the unfettered state and federal Constitutional right to access to the courts "with" "necessary" "effective communication" "auxiliary aids and services" and "removal of architectural, communication, and transportation barriers" for autism/Asperger's and related conditions. 42 U.S.C. Sec. 12101, 12131-12134, 12201-12203, 28 C.F.R. pt. 35 & 35.130(b)(7), (b)( eight), 35.160.
The failure to provide reasonable accommodations … constitutes discrimination under the ADA. Pritchard v. Southern Company Services, No.95-6312 at n.5 (11th Cir. 1996). Rendon v. Valleycrest Productions, Ltd., No. 01-11197 (11th Cir. 2002) (appropriate accommodations to overcome mobility barriers required); Agranoff v. Law School Admission Council, Inc., 97 F.Supp.2d 86, 88 (D.Mass 1999) (extra time required to avert irreparable harm for person who suffered from a neurological condition that cause severe cramping and fatigue of his hand when writing or holding a pen); Bennett-Nelson v. Louisiana Board of Regents, No. 03-31198, at 2-3 (5th Cir. Nov. 28, 2005) (disabled hearing impaired plaintiffs alleged the defendant University denied them equal access to education by failing to provide reasonable accommodations and auxiliary aids and services, sign language interpreters and note takers, as well as certain study aids, in a timely and effective manner.)
Rendon v. Valleycrest Productions, Ltd., No. 01-11197 (11th Cir. 2002), covers both tangible barriers, that is, physical and architectural barriers that would prevent a disabled person from entering a public entity’s facilities and accessing its services, programs, and/or activities, See 42 U.S.C. §12131(2), and intangible barriers, such as eligibility requirements and screening rules or discriminatory policies and procedures that restrict a disabled person's ability to enjoy the defendant entity’s services, programs, and/or activities, See 42 U.S.C. §§12132, 12134; 28 C.F.R. §35.130(a), (b)(1)(i), (ii), (iii), (iv), (v), (vii), (b)(3)(i), (ii), (iii), (b)(7), (b)(6), (b)( eight), (d), (f), & (g).
The Eleventh Circuit also observed in Ass’n of Disabled Americans, Case No. 02-10360 (11th Cir. 2005), “In Tennessee v. Lane, the Supreme Court identified that Title II seeks to enforce the Fourteenth Amendment’s ‘prohibition on irrational discrimination.’ 124 S.Ct. at 1998. Additionally, …Title II seeks to enforce the constitutional guarantees under the Due Process Clause of the Fourteenth Amendment and the Confrontation Clause of the Sixth Amendment in the context of access to the courts. Id. The Lane Court concluded that these heightened rights are subject to ‘more searching review.’ Id. …[n.2] [T]he rights [of access to the courts] at stake in Lane were fundamental…” In terms of communication breakdown gaps that violate due process, the 11th Circuit established the analytical framework for ascertaining if there was discrimination, here: Bircoll v. Miami-Dade County, 480 F.3d 1972 (11th Cir. 2007).
In sum, when you separate your list into the two columns of the defamation vs. First Amendment-protected cases you have listed to make your statements about me truthful, you need to follow those contraints that define in what circumstances even a posted court case opinion you find posted on the Internet is discrimination against autism --
... because if it is and you make a post without saying the court case result was based on autism discrimination that violated all of the above definitional rules, then you have only told 1/2 the truth -- and half-truths can be legally actionable as defamation -- even to a public figure. Given your scholarly efforts to dig up the rule of law, I am sure that while you or others might like to tell me to go fuck myself or call my savant autism a faggot, you would not necessarily cross the line into a reckless defamation that is not protected speech under the First Amendment. Since I am rather enjoying the skills of the debaters here, I'll give you the benefit of the doubt !!!
Next, if you have some unwritten rules about the Internet that are not posted in accessible print types-styles, font sizes, and with the right color contrasts AND can show you sent that sent to an autistic person's e-mail box to provide notice and alert the person, then I would say your cited unwritten rule is discriminatory against autism and actionable on a lawsuit -- if someone decided to bring one. I am only pointing this out, because not only are all rules including unwritten rules subject to the Americans With Disabilities Act "effective communications" mandates, but ANYTHING on Internet websites and such including TOS, are not enforceable if the proper accommodations are not given to an autistic person so she can see, read, and understand them. e.g., Douglas v. U.S. District Court, 495 F.3d 1062 (9th Cir. 2007).
Finally, the most salient fact is, what is the first-in-time court case/event regarding my autism to be given "Full Faith and Credit" res judicata recognition by a state or federal court of agency ? Feb. 1970, adjudication of adult child support for my autism, given Full Faith and Credit when my father married my step-mother in CT, and upheld by California Superor Court in a case. Every later-in-time case MUST recognize and give effective communications accommodations (as I listed my doctors say I requires, above) for my autism spectrum condition which they were required by U.S. Constitution, res judicata rules, and statutes of repose to recognize.
If you are stlill having trouble in your efforts to navigate the law governing the statements you have posted about me, might I suggest you brush up on your legal research skills before losing all impulse control in your haste to post just anything nasty you can find about a severely autistic person on the Internet ?
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How dare anyone ever disagree with a severely autistic person??? :lol:
You do realise that mosr of us here are autistic too? Yes we might not have the communication problems that YOU have, but that does not mean that our lives are loads better than yours, or that you are in any way entitled to special treatment by us just becuase you're an autistic savant.
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because if it is and you make a post without saying the court case result was based on autism discrimination that violated all of the above definitional rules, then you have only told 1/2 the truth -- and half-truths can be legally actionable as defamation -- even to a public figure. Given your scholarly efforts to dig up the rule of law, I am sure that while you or others might like to tell me to go fuck myself or call my savant autism a faggot, you would not necessarily cross the line into a reckless defamation that is not protected speech under the First Amendment. Since I am rather enjoying the skills of the debaters here, I'll give your the benefit of the doubt !!!
omg are you going to sue me? :bigcry:
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So much for our schools teaching people to read calendar anymore. If they did, I am sure you could grasp the fact my law school graduation in June 1990 was BEFORE my July 1997 Calif. bar exam pass. I am not an attorney, however. It doesn't matter if you pass the bar exam, they still won't license a person with autism. I have stated no lies.
I read calendar just fine. So you passed the Bar here in California in 1997 and have been busy losing cases over $80 Traffic Fines in Florida rather than take the battle to the California Supreme Court? You got me there EquiiisSavant, that makes no more sense to me than your irrationally accusing me of being a Fed.
What exactly is it you want to know ? California refuses to license a person with autism who requires assistive technology and paperless Internet computer formats. The California Supreme Court Chief Justice refuses autism access, so there has been -- and without autism access never will be -- no final bar admission decision/certification whatsoever. Chief Justice instructed his Clerk to tell my husband, "No, we're not going to license people like that [autism]." The United States Supreme Court says I am entitled to a final decision -- California Supreme Court's Chief Justice refuses to give me one or even allow the entire court of all the Justices to hear it (petition requesting final decision/certification be entered one way or the other).
What I did want to know was where in the process of admission to the CA State Bar things fell apart for you. But now that I see from Singularity's post that you have kept yourself busy trying to get $3.5 million from your neighbor and appealing $80 traffic tickets on the other side of the country it doesn't appear that you know how to pick your battles anyway. :bangbang:
1)The Bush Administration and the Clinton Administration that ran the country when you actually passed the Bar have nothing to do with appointing members to the California Supreme Court. I bring this up because you seem to believe that US Attorneys place a high priority on preventing you from having a Law practice. Your quarrel actually seems to be with the California Supreme Court.
2)The figure of 45 million autistic adults in the US that you posted seems farfetched.
3)I am not a Fed but if you prefer to believe that you are so important that I was registered here almost a year prior to you just in case you showed up then run with it.
Thx PPK for sharing your unresearched comments and opinions in the thought-in-process phase of your thinking process.
I do have a cite for the 45 M figure, and while I also was skeptical it might be on the high side, it nevertheless is a posted statistic floating around out there in the autism World. But, it is also important to note that US government has no contrary figure to propose, since they have not undertaken a real count of the numbers of adults with autism in the U.S., and not in Florida, either. I will try to find the cite.
Also, when you are assigning weight to your assumptions about my so-called "strategy" choices of where to litigate, you may want to shift your paradigm a bit to the features of locked in autism, since I purely litigated where I was getting ANY even the remotest amount of autism access help -- even where it fell through before a case was complete, to try to overcome the autism communication barriers existing in all these courts. In sum, it was not about faulty "strategic" judgment call; it was about whether or not the particular court had built ramps and an autism entrance to the courthouse and autism access in their clerk's offices and courtrooms in paperless, telephone-less, Internet computer real time.
If you can't get in through the door of the courthouse -- there is a MAJOR lack of Access to the Court-Due Process-Equal Protection problem (and as btw CA anf FL, add: the Privileges and Immunities clause).
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You are not an autistic savant :moon:
I have DX high functioning autism with savant abilities in art and the law, underlying PET sca with objective bil-alteral temporal parietal hypoperfusion.
But I guess when you are making up your unbelievable (!!!) Internet diagnosis, you looked inside my brain to support it ? Or did you use your imagnation together with getting it off the recipes for LULZ on Encyclopedia Dramatica ?!!
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How dare anyone ever disagree with a severely autistic person??? :lol:
You do realise that mosr of us here are autistic too? Yes we might not have the communication problems that YOU have, but that does not mean that our lives are loads better than yours, or that you are in any way entitled to special treatment by us just becuase you're an autistic savant.
Did I ever complain that anyone was disagreeing with me ? My problem was with receiving only unworkable suggestions, and when I said they were not really applicable and were unworkable for a locked-in autistic in an effort to elicit more creative and possibly effective solutions that had not up to that point been mentioned, a bar room brawl ensued ...
And I am still not re-instated to my doctor !!!
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because if it is and you make a post without saying the court case result was based on autism discrimination that violated all of the above definitional rules, then you have only told 1/2 the truth -- and half-truths can be legally actionable as defamation -- even to a public figure. Given your scholarly efforts to dig up the rule of law, I am sure that while you or others might like to tell me to go fuck myself or call my savant autism a faggot, you would not necessarily cross the line into a reckless defamation that is not protected speech under the First Amendment. Since I am rather enjoying the skills of the debaters here, I'll give your the benefit of the doubt !!!
omg are you going to sue me? :bigcry:
I think you have more to worry about that tweater over there on the Twitter autism column who goes under the moniker "whocanisue." When I sue, I just do it. We, in the united States, have a purely First Amendment right to petition our courts (sue). Some of the autistic and Aspie Founding Fathers saw to it. You have a problem with the rule of law ?
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when I said they were not really applicable and were unworkable for a locked-in autistic in an effort to elicit more creative and possibly effective solutions that had not up to that point been mentioned
Except this is not what you said. If that's what you'd said then no one would have had a problem with you. You went all "I really don't think you understand... you've obviously never been through what I've been through... I'm a poor autistic savant... you're much higher functioning than me, lucky you..." etc etc etc
You're no better than anyone else here
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And I am still not re-instated to my doctor !!!
And what do you expect us to do about that?
Seriously, what are you here for?
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when I said they were not really applicable and were unworkable for a locked-in autistic in an effort to elicit more creative and possibly effective solutions that had not up to that point been mentioned
Except this is not what you said. If that's what you'd said then no one would have had a problem with you. You went all "I really don't think you understand... you've obviously never been through what I've been through... I'm a poor autistic savant... you're much higher functioning than me, lucky you..." etc etc etc
You're no better than anyone else here
I have severe autism communication deficits !!! I told all of you that when I was invited to Introduce myself.
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And I am still not re-instated to my doctor !!!
And what do you expect us to do about that?
Seriously, what are you here for?
My feelings and emotions about my doctor were part of my Introduction, since I own my feelings/emotions. But if some here don't own their feelings/emotions, I am just wondering if there is any help for you ?
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What are you talking about?
You do not have autism
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I have to go ride my autism horse now. I am trying to re-take the transferences my doctor hijacked from my horse and give them back, so I can share my innermost feelings and emotions with my autism horse again. But, it hasn't been working -- as mentioned, the transferences my doctor's psychiatry/psychotherapy created were VERY strong.
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What are you talking about?
You do not have autism
I have a DX of high functioning autism with savant abilities in art and the law -- res judicata, facts adjudicated in April 09 by USBJ K. Rodney May by his act of providing me CART realtime in his courtroom.
Unless you have a second opinion PET scan and autism tests and other autism diagnostics on me from my doctor -- who ran off and abandoned me as his patient after he tried to kiss me, your statement is recklessly defamatory.
THAT's 'what I'm talking about.'
But, since no one has any solution for getting me reinstated to my doctor, in terms of the autism DX, you will just have to DEAL with it !!
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Thx PPK for sharing your unresearched comments and opinions in the thought-in-process phase of your thinking process.
And how much research did you bother putting into accusing me of being a Federal cop?
I do have a cite for the 45 M figure, and while I also was skeptical it might be on the high side, it nevertheless is a posted statistic floating around out there in the autism World. But, it is also important to note that US government has no contrary figure to propose, since they have not undertaken a real count of the numbers of adults with autism in the U.S., and not in Florida, either. I will try to find the cite.
I would like to see that. With numbers as high as that I doubt there would be so many aspies/auties who state they haven't met other aspies posting @ zOMG Aspies, Intensity Squared and WP. I remain highly skeptical.
Also, when you are assigning weight to your assumptions about my so-called "strategy" choices of where to litigate, you may want to shift your paradigm a bit to the features of locked in autism, since I purely litigated where I was getting ANY even the remotest amount of autism access help -- even where it fell through before a case was complete, to try to overcome the autism communication barriers existing in all these courts. In sum, it was not about faulty "strategic" judgment call; it was about whether or not the particular court had built ramps and an autism entrance to the courthouse and autism access in their clerk's offices and courtrooms in paperless, telephone-less, Internet computer real time.
It's your time and it was you the Court mentioned as being known locally for filing frivilous suits. Being known for that will tend to impugn your credibility.
If you can't get in through the door of the courthouse -- there is a MAJOR lack of Access to the Court-Due Process-Equal Protection problem (and as btw CA anf FL, add: the Privileges and Immunities clause).
Sure, but because you can try to make a disability rights case out of an $80 traffic ticket doesn't necessarily mean that you should. The Court seemed unenthusiastic and unsympathetic to your appeal in that case.
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Since you know a lot about the law even if you aren't an attorney, I wonder if I could ask you your opinion about the law, EquiisSavant?
My friend's young teenage son has AS. He was out riding his bike one day, when a bully who had bullied him before told him that he had to give him his bike "or else".
Fearing for his personal safety, her son got off the bike and the bully took it. Then he walked home and told his parents what had happened and they took him to the police station to make a complaint. The police said that there was nothing they could do even though her son could identify the bully because her son voluntarily gave the bullly his bike.
Were the police correct in their assessment, or did the bully steal the bike?
To make it even worse, they later drove by the bully's house, saw the bike in his yard and took it back. When the police called them to follow up and they told them about this, the police said that they could be the ones who got into trouble for taking the bike back, not the bully bike thief.
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Once again it sounds like Swedish cops. Makes me very disappointed.
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Since you know a lot about the law even if you aren't an attorney, I wonder if I could ask you your opinion about the law, EquiisSavant?
My friend's young teenage son has AS. He was out riding his bike one day, when a bully who had bullied him before told him that he had to give him his bike "or else".
Fearing for his personal safety, her son got off the bike and the bully took it. Then he walked home and told his parents what had happened and they took him to the police station to make a complaint. The police said that there was nothing they could do even though her son could identify the bully because her son voluntarily gave the bullly his bike.
Were the police correct in their assessment, or did the bully steal the bike?
To make it even worse, they later drove by the bully's house, saw the bike in his yard and took it back. When the police called them to follow up and they told them about this, the police said that they could be the ones who got into trouble for taking the bike back, not the bully bike thief.
Callaway, I don't give legal advice. I'm not a licensed lawyer.
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Thx PPK for sharing your unresearched comments and opinions in the thought-in-process phase of your thinking process.
And how much research did you bother putting into accusing me of being a Federal cop?
I do have a cite for the 45 M figure, and while I also was skeptical it might be on the high side, it nevertheless is a posted statistic floating around out there in the autism World. But, it is also important to note that US government has no contrary figure to propose, since they have not undertaken a real count of the numbers of adults with autism in the U.S., and not in Florida, either. I will try to find the cite.
I would like to see that. With numbers as high as that I doubt there would be so many aspies/auties who state they haven't met other aspies posting @ zOMG Aspies, Intensity Squared and WP. I remain highly skeptical.
Also, when you are assigning weight to your assumptions about my so-called "strategy" choices of where to litigate, you may want to shift your paradigm a bit to the features of locked in autism, since I purely litigated where I was getting ANY even the remotest amount of autism access help -- even where it fell through before a case was complete, to try to overcome the autism communication barriers existing in all these courts. In sum, it was not about faulty "strategic" judgment call; it was about whether or not the particular court had built ramps and an autism entrance to the courthouse and autism access in their clerk's offices and courtrooms in paperless, telephone-less, Internet computer real time.
It's your time and it was you the Court mentioned as being known locally for filing frivilous suits. Being known for that will tend to impugn your credibility.
If you can't get in through the door of the courthouse -- there is a MAJOR lack of Access to the Court-Due Process-Equal Protection problem (and as btw CA anf FL, add: the Privileges and Immunities clause).
Sure, but because you can try to make a disability rights case out of an $80 traffic ticket doesn't necessarily mean that you should. The Court seemed unenthusiastic and unsympathetic to your appeal in that case.
Glad to hear you call autism faciliated communications access lawsuits "frivolous." Other than my own case, I have never seen any facilicated communication autism case where the locked-out autistic person was forced without the facilicated communication to communicate without a lawyer and language interpreter -- I guess a few grunts, smiles, and odd expressions lets our courts know whatever gibberish comes out of an autistic person's mouth or pen is expected to be "frivolous" because what else can you call autistic mumbo-jumbo you can't understand ? You are a real shining star.
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Since you know a lot about the law even if you aren't an attorney, I wonder if I could ask you your opinion about the law, EquiisSavant?
My friend's young teenage son has AS. He was out riding his bike one day, when a bully who had bullied him before told him that he had to give him his bike "or else".
Fearing for his personal safety, her son got off the bike and the bully took it. Then he walked home and told his parents what had happened and they took him to the police station to make a complaint. The police said that there was nothing they could do even though her son could identify the bully because her son voluntarily gave the bullly his bike.
Were the police correct in their assessment, or did the bully steal the bike?
To make it even worse, they later drove by the bully's house, saw the bike in his yard and took it back. When the police called them to follow up and they told them about this, the police said that they could be the ones who got into trouble for taking the bike back, not the bully bike thief.
Callaway, I don't give legal advice. I'm not a licensed lawyer.
I wasn't looking for legal advice. My friend isn't suing the police department. I just wanted your opinion as to whether or not the bully stole the bike from my friend's son or if the police were correct that he voluntarily gave it to hm.
I think that by their logic carjackers don't actually steal people's cars, the owners just give them their cars voluntarily when the carjackers order the owners to get out.
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He stole it, of course. The lazy pigs just didn't want to do anything to take back a bike stolen from an Autie boy. They just wanted to continue drinking coffee and eating donuts. :thumbdn:
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but donuts are gooooooooooooood...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mbs64GvGgPU
BORK BORK BORK
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He stole it, of course. The lazy pigs just didn't want to do anything to take back a bike stolen from an Autie boy. They just wanted to continue drinking coffee and eating donuts. :thumbdn:
That's what I thought as well, but the police telling the parents that they could be the ones getting into trouble for taking the bike back instead of the bikejacker was just crazy.
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He stole it, of course. The lazy pigs just didn't want to do anything to take back a bike stolen from an Autie boy. They just wanted to continue drinking coffee and eating donuts. :thumbdn:
That's what I thought as well, but the police telling the parents that they could be the ones getting into trouble for taking the bike back instead of the bikejacker was just crazy.
Like Swedish cops. Cops are swines.
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Glad to hear you call autism faciliated communications access lawsuits "frivolous."
As can be seen in the quoted post below what I did was note that the Court mentioned that you are known locally for filing frivilous lawsuits. Was that assesment not in some of the Court documents that Singularty posted links to?
It's your time and it was you the Court mentioned as being known locally for filing frivilous suits. Being known for that will tend to impugn your credibility.
Am I incorrect in believing that having a reputation for filing frivilous lawsuits can impugn a persons credibility?
You are a real shining star.
Thank you. :thumbup: Now, will you answer the question about how much research you put into determining that I am a Federal Cop?
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In Sweden most of those lawsuits would be impossible in the first place. You ahve a good legal system in the US.
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Here, they usually make people pay for court costs up front to discourage them from filing too many lawsuits, but sometimes the courts make exceptions if someone is nearly destitute, so an inmate in prison, for example, could file a lawsuit.
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Here, they usually make people pay for court costs up front to discourage them from filing too many lawsuits, but sometimes the courts make exceptions if someone is nearly destitute, so an inmate in prison, for example, could file a lawsuit.
Civil lawsuits in Sweden are usually paid by the ones losing them, though criminal lawsuits are paid by the state.
We don't have the same tradition of compensation for unjust treatment by courts and authorities as you have in America. 3 years innocent in the worst prison in Sweden would give you about 3 million kronor~US$375000.
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Here, they usually make people pay for court costs up front to discourage them from filing too many lawsuits, but sometimes the courts make exceptions if someone is nearly destitute, so an inmate in prison, for example, could file a lawsuit.
Civil lawsuits in Sweden are usually paid by the ones losing them, though criminal lawsuits are paid by the state.
We don't have the same tradition of compensation for unjust treatment by courts and authorities as you have in America. 3 years innocent in the worst prison in Sweden would give you about 3 million kronor~US$375000.
That's the same here, so if I bring a civil lawsuit against someone and win, my court costs would usually be reimbursed by the defendant. If I lose, of course I bear my own court costs.
My husband once went to small claims court and sued a driver who failed to yield right of way at a stop sign and hit him, because her insurance company refused to pay him enough money to fix his car and he couldn't sue them. He paid the court costs up front when he filed the lawsuit, but he wound up being reimbursed by the insurance company when they lost.
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Glad to hear you call autism faciliated communications access lawsuits "frivolous."
As can be seen in the quoted post below what I did was note that the Court mentioned that you are known locally for filing frivilous lawsuits. Was that assesment not in some of the Court documents that Singularty posted links to?
It's your time and it was you the Court mentioned as being known locally for filing frivilous suits. Being known for that will tend to impugn your credibility.
Am I incorrect in believing that having a reputation for filing frivilous lawsuits can impugn a persons credibility?
That's why I posted them because I knew something was suss about her. People here need to know the truth as written in those court documents in order to make a fair assessment.
Apparently she has an alleged notorious history on the internet too for causing trouble when people disagree with her or challenge her. I provide one link to show a clear example of this and considering her behavior on here, well it's intriguingly similar. Read all the pages, and you'll see what I mean (she is alleged to be Black Knight via citing her name in her own posts.):
http://debatebothsides.com/showthread.php?t=39438 (http://debatebothsides.com/showthread.php?t=39438)
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Yeah thanks for posting that Singularity.
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Yeah thanks for posting that Singularity.
Your welcome.
And to think, if she would have been nice and respectful to other members here who were trying to help; I wouldn't have even wasted my time on her. :zoinks:
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Yeah I was done posting as well until she started slinging shit at renaeden, SleepyDragon and Soph for no good reason.
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I found this post from the same website, explaining why she is not a lawyer even though she passed the bar in California. They revoked her good moral character clearance when she lost her home. How old was your daughter when this all happened, EquiisSavant?
I am disabled, autistic. I also have traumatic brain injury from my father bashing my head against his walls to cover up drugging me and sexually abusing me when I was a minor child.
I have lived a life of Hell on Earth, no affordable housing. Lived in my car, in vineyards in California at nite, and in a rat infested chinchilla barn with no toilet, heat, or food facilities.
I tried to pull myself up by my bootstraps. Went to college on student loans, $200,000 at last count. Fought valiantly to graduate law school.
My father, who bashed my head, could not let the defective child become a lawyer and expose his National Security surveillance work for IBM. So he spent $100,000 on five attorneys and a family law psychologist to abuse me in the California courts in a grandparent visitation, taking away complete custody over my daughter just because he "could provide better" on his $12,600 per month income than I could being disabled -- never any finding of parental unfitness on my part.
The California courts refused to provide my necessary reasonable accommodations to access the courts to fight for my daughter, so my mother tried to help scribe my pleadings for me. Allowing a defective disabled autistic to actually participate in court was too much for the Court system and the attorneys, so they caused my mother (who was my caretaker and financial provider) to set herself on fire and die on my father's front law with public protest signs over the abuse, which I witnessed acquiring PTSD.
Immediately after she died, I was thrown on the streets homeless with no replacement caretaker or financial support of any kind. It was a terror-filled torture I cannot begin to describe. I begged everyone I still knew to help me get pleadings scribed to put before the California court that killed her to ask my father to pay disability adult child support, since after my mother died he was my only available guardian for purposes of my ability to communicate with courts and agencies for disability benefits.
The California courts have never in 16 years given me a day for that hearing, ever.
My father hired new attorneys to threaten me, knowing he was my guardian and had fiduciary duties to assist me with obtaining the disability adult support from him, who threatened that if I did not sign a paper dropping my necessary disability support, my father would destroy my California bar admission.
Immediately after my mother died, the California Bar revoked my previously granted good moral character clearance because I was disabled and my mother had self-immolated and I lost my caretaker and financial supporter. Even though I fought with them for 7 long years to get my necessary reasonable accommodations, and finally when I got them on the 4th bar examination and passed, they ruled I was not of the moral character to be allowed to become a California lawyer because I kept being homeless due to no housing in that area of California anyone on SSI disability could afford and because without a speech recognition assistive device I was unable to perform the tasks of working. They approved the good moral character of a murderer with 17 felony convictions who stabbed to death with scissors his sister.
When I tried to appeal, I was never to this day, 16 years later, allowed to have my appeal pleadings docketed, never given any appeal review, and they simply closed my case in a non-final status. When I asked the California Supreme Court for reasonable accommodations to file a petition to get an order requiring the appeal to be heard, I was told by the Clerk of Court on instructions of the Chief Justice Ronald M. George that people without arms, quadraplegics, and people with autism/learning disabilities who use speech recognition will not be licensed as attorneys in California.
I fled to Florida, to try to get my bar admission there. My father surreptitiously followed me closeby concealing himself just over the border in Georgia, and continued to prey on my daughter and myself to make sure I never get my bar admission.
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Since you know a lot about the law even if you aren't an attorney, I wonder if I could ask you your opinion about the law, EquiisSavant?
My friend's young teenage son has AS. He was out riding his bike one day, when a bully who had bullied him before told him that he had to give him his bike "or else".
Fearing for his personal safety, her son got off the bike and the bully took it. Then he walked home and told his parents what had happened and they took him to the police station to make a complaint. The police said that there was nothing they could do even though her son could identify the bully because her son voluntarily gave the bullly his bike.
Were the police correct in their assessment, or did the bully steal the bike?
To make it even worse, they later drove by the bully's house, saw the bike in his yard and took it back. When the police called them to follow up and they told them about this, the police said that they could be the ones who got into trouble for taking the bike back, not the bully bike thief.
Callaway, I don't give legal advice. I'm not a licensed lawyer.
I wasn't looking for legal advice. My friend isn't suing the police department. I just wanted your opinion as to whether or not the bully stole the bike from my friend's son or if the police were correct that he voluntarily gave it to hm.
I think that by their logic carjackers don't actually steal people's cars, the owners just give them their cars voluntarily when the carjackers order the owners to get out.
The way you have framed/phrased the question is classic for a UPL. You have framed/phrased it to ask me to give you legal advice, which I cannot give you because I am not licensed as a lawyer. I am sorry.
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Glad to hear you call autism faciliated communications access lawsuits "frivolous."
As can be seen in the quoted post below what I did was note that the Court mentioned that you are known locally for filing frivilous lawsuits. Was that assesment not in some of the Court documents that Singularty posted links to?
It's your time and it was you the Court mentioned as being known locally for filing frivilous suits. Being known for that will tend to impugn your credibility.
Am I incorrect in believing that having a reputation for filing frivilous lawsuits can impugn a persons credibility?
You are a real shining star.
Thank you. :thumbup: Now, will you answer the question about how much research you put into determining that I am a Federal Cop?
I would love to entertain you, but your knowledge of the Rules of Procedure and Rules of Evidence are woefully lacking. If it were not so, you would realize before you can make a "frivolous" finding, first you have to ensure the person can actually communicate what his or her case is about. If brain scan shows objectively that they could not, then you have not met the threshold determination predicate for you to move on to address the second step, which is the "frivolity" issue which you seek to raise.
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I found this post from the same website, explaining why she is not a lawyer even though she passed the bar in California. They revoked her good moral character clearance when she lost her home. How old was your daughter when this all happened, EquiisSavant?
I am disabled, autistic. I also have traumatic brain injury from my father bashing my head against his walls to cover up drugging me and sexually abusing me when I was a minor child.
I have lived a life of Hell on Earth, no affordable housing. Lived in my car, in vineyards in California at nite, and in a rat infested chinchilla barn with no toilet, heat, or food facilities.
I tried to pull myself up by my bootstraps. Went to college on student loans, $200,000 at last count. Fought valiantly to graduate law school.
My father, who bashed my head, could not let the defective child become a lawyer and expose his National Security surveillance work for IBM. So he spent $100,000 on five attorneys and a family law psychologist to abuse me in the California courts in a grandparent visitation, taking away complete custody over my daughter just because he "could provide better" on his $12,600 per month income than I could being disabled -- never any finding of parental unfitness on my part.
The California courts refused to provide my necessary reasonable accommodations to access the courts to fight for my daughter, so my mother tried to help scribe my pleadings for me. Allowing a defective disabled autistic to actually participate in court was too much for the Court system and the attorneys, so they caused my mother (who was my caretaker and financial provider) to set herself on fire and die on my father's front law with public protest signs over the abuse, which I witnessed acquiring PTSD.
Immediately after she died, I was thrown on the streets homeless with no replacement caretaker or financial support of any kind. It was a terror-filled torture I cannot begin to describe. I begged everyone I still knew to help me get pleadings scribed to put before the California court that killed her to ask my father to pay disability adult child support, since after my mother died he was my only available guardian for purposes of my ability to communicate with courts and agencies for disability benefits.
The California courts have never in 16 years given me a day for that hearing, ever.
My father hired new attorneys to threaten me, knowing he was my guardian and had fiduciary duties to assist me with obtaining the disability adult support from him, who threatened that if I did not sign a paper dropping my necessary disability support, my father would destroy my California bar admission.
Immediately after my mother died, the California Bar revoked my previously granted good moral character clearance because I was disabled and my mother had self-immolated and I lost my caretaker and financial supporter. Even though I fought with them for 7 long years to get my necessary reasonable accommodations, and finally when I got them on the 4th bar examination and passed, they ruled I was not of the moral character to be allowed to become a California lawyer because I kept being homeless due to no housing in that area of California anyone on SSI disability could afford and because without a speech recognition assistive device I was unable to perform the tasks of working. They approved the good moral character of a murderer with 17 felony convictions who stabbed to death with scissors his sister.
When I tried to appeal, I was never to this day, 16 years later, allowed to have my appeal pleadings docketed, never given any appeal review, and they simply closed my case in a non-final status. When I asked the California Supreme Court for reasonable accommodations to file a petition to get an order requiring the appeal to be heard, I was told by the Clerk of Court on instructions of the Chief Justice Ronald M. George that people without arms, quadraplegics, and people with autism/learning disabilities who use speech recognition will not be licensed as attorneys in California.
I fled to Florida, to try to get my bar admission there. My father surreptitiously followed me closeby concealing himself just over the border in Georgia, and continued to prey on my daughter and myself to make sure I never get my bar admission.
The only relevant and material fact is -- did any court or anyone in California provide effective autism accommodations for the objectively demonstrated bi-laterial temporal parietal hypoperfision functionality of my brain ? If not, ALL other considerations, complaints, and criticisms fall by the wayside.
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I think that it's sad that your dad tried to take your daughter away from you, especially given the fact that he had molested you when you were a child.
She is an adult now?
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I would love to entertain you, but your knowledge of the Rules of Procedure and Rules of Evidence are woefully lacking. If it were not so, you would realize before you can make a "frivolous" finding, first you have to ensure the person can actually communicate what his or her case is about. If brain scan shows objectively that they could not, then you have not met the threshold determination predicate for you to move on to address the second step, which is the "frivolity" issue which you seek to raise.
First off you continue to avoid answering how much research you put into deciding to call me a Federal Cop.
Secondly in terms of frivolous suits I mention that because the term is used by the court in the case linked below.
From page 10 of 13, "Finally, Plaintiffs have a long history of filing non-meritous litigation in this judicial district. The court is aware of at least six in forma pauperis requests of Plaintiffs that have been denied by judges in the middle district of Florida due to the frivolousness of the claims asserted,". Without a Law Degree I am able to read what United States Magistrate Judge Elizabeth Jenkins wrote in the case linked below. She used the term frivolous, so spin it how you want to, but it is there in black and white.
http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/8:05-cv-01182-16-MDFL.pdf (http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/8:05-cv-01182-16-MDFL.pdf)
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I would love to entertain you, but your knowledge of the Rules of Procedure and Rules of Evidence are woefully lacking. If it were not so, you would realize before you can make a "frivolous" finding, first you have to ensure the person can actually communicate what his or her case is about. If brain scan shows objectively that they could not, then you have not met the threshold determination predicate for you to move on to address the second step, which is the "frivolity" issue which you seek to raise.
First off you continue to avoid answering how much research you put into deciding to call me a Federal Cop.
I think you are far too narcissistic for me ! I have never dated a law enforcement officer in Uniform -- even though I did once french kiss one !! But, I already told you, the void in my heart has already been filled by the doctor of my dreams, and there is no room for another. Please don't be sad or cry.
Secondly in terms of frivolous suits I mention that because the term is used by the court in the case linked below.
From page 10 of 13, "Finally, Plaintiffs have a long history of filing non-meritous litigation in this judicial district. The court is aware of at least six in forma pauperis requests of Plaintiffs that have been denied by judges in the middle district of Florida due to the frivolousness of the claims asserted,". Without a Law Degree I am able to read what United States Magistrate Judge Elizabeth Jenkins wrote in the case linked below. She used the term frivolous, so spin it how you want to, but it is there in black and white.
http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/8:05-cv-01182-16-MDFL.pdf (http://www.websupp.org/data/MDFL/8:05-cv-01182-16-MDFL.pdf)
Wow. I only wish my brain language center hypoperfusion (less blood flow) would have made it possible for me to read the black & white print then -- and now !!! Unfortunately, just as a law degree is not a valid means to calculate the income of an autistic adult, neither is a law degree a proper criteria from which to determine if a person can see to read. Maybe if I could have seen to read what I wrote, it might have made sense, and my autism savant paradox would not have been called the savant syndrome slur word for how people who discriminate against autism view the value and worth of our savant abilities: "frivolous." You can look it up ..."frivolous" is a savant autism slur same as the "N-----" word is for race based classifications. The fact an officer of one of our courts would have used an autism savant slur in an American courtroom truly saddens me.
This is why I advocated "Autism Education for the Federal Judiciary" on Twitter.
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I think that it's sad that your dad tried to take your daughter away from you, especially given the fact that he had molested you when you were a child.
She is an adult now?
Thank you Callaway. My father did more than molest me.
He pushed my hand down on radiators to blister them when he "played" with me. He allowed me to be molested by my cousins when I was very young. Then by him as a young teenager; he drugged me with quaaludes and seconal to do it -- the same stuff he got caught with, prosecuted for, and almost convicted -- until my Mother testified for him. He incested his adopted sister when she was 14, according to my Mom's dying declarations. When my daughter was 14, he started grooming her. When I tried to protect her, he bashed my head into his walls about 40 times like a battering ram, tore 1/3 of the hair off my scalp, sizeable contusions, and gave me a significant brain injury (TBI) from which I was very severely disabled for at least 4 years if not longer. When my Mom tried to help me protect both myself and my daughter from him, he triggered my Mom to committ suicide on his front lawn. He was ordered to pay adult child support for my autism; he never paid any of it. Instead, he and my step-mother (who writes children's books), funneled it thru several fancy trusts for their upper-end lifestyle, and left me without the autism support. Just to make sure I would never be able to help myself, he testified against my bar admission saying I was bad for not letting him prey on and harm my autism even more. He subjected my daughter to seeing her grandmother die of 3rd degree burns over 100% of her body.
Thank you for saying you think its sad. Without autism court access there is nothing I can do against this kind of predator conduct on my autism. My daughter and I just have to live with it. My daughter is now about 30. She is still having trouble finding and establishing any kind of solid relationship with a man after seeing what her grandfather did to her grandmother. But at least she has a good relationship with me, and hopefully someday she will heal from all this I hope.
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hello and welcome
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hello and welcome
Thank you, richard. I wish I could be everyone's friend here. I didn't want the Equiis part of my Savant to leave too many hoof prints on anyone's turf as I galloped in.
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hello and welcome
Thank you, richard. I wish I could be everyone's friend here. I didn't want the Equiis part of my Savant to leave too many hoof prints on anyone's turf as I galloped in.
Oh don't worry, my overconfident friend. You aren't man enough to trample anyones feelings. :thumbup:
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I swear EquiisSavant is female ??? If not then my bad :lol:
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Yeah she is
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I swear EquiisSavant is female ??? If not then my bad :lol:
In that case, shes gonna need to post tits.
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hello and welcome
Thank you, richard. I wish I could be everyone's friend here. I didn't want the Equiis part of my Savant to leave too many hoof prints on anyone's turf as I galloped in.
Oh don't worry, my overconfident friend. You aren't man enough to trample anyones feelings. :thumbup:
Why should I try to be "man enough" ? When I am not a man, but merely a female with an "extreme male brain" !!!
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I swear EquiisSavant is female ??? If not then my bad :lol:
In that case, shes gonna need to post tits.
If I do, does that mean everyone will come back and talk to me ?
Where did everybody go ? I have experienced parallel activities in autism & Asperger's before, but ... it gets LONELY !!!
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No, it just means they'll be back to see your tits.
Post something of interest and people might respond. Participate in other threads, maybe?
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No, it just means they'll be back to see your tits.
Post something of interest and people might respond. Participate in other threads, maybe?
This.
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Some of the Games threads are easy to participate in. It is a good place to start for a bit of fun.
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No, it just means they'll be back to see your tits.
Post something of interest and people might respond. Participate in other threads, maybe?
This.
That?
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No, it just means they'll be back to see your tits.
Post something of interest and people might respond. Participate in other threads, maybe?
This.
That?
and the other.
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No, it just means they'll be back to see your tits.
Post something of interest and people might respond. Participate in other threads, maybe?
This.
That?
and the other.
In the middle?
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I think my doctor has been covertly communicating with me on my FB page -- beginning around July 26th, and posted the following -- among many other things (the naked picture looks a lot like what I would look like with my clothes off):
http://is-is.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=315285&op=1&view=all&subj=240816045216&aid=-1&auser=0&oid=240816045216&id=1634103149
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M1k3cyxphcQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GLVp4JWAk3Y
After I subsequently sent a letter directly to him telling him his abandonment of me as a patient was unethical and devastating to my life, he is now all of a sudden as of today, not speaking to me thru the covert ID on my FB page (I believe it is him--knew too many very intimate details & worked on my brain condition as if he knew what was in my scans). I really liked his attention and videos, but I am now even more severely depressed and devastated.
If my doctor is in love with me, why is he playing games like this with my feelings and emotions, ones that are ruining my life -- if he is in love with me, why doesn't he either reinstate me as a patient or come be with me and have a relationship ? I am not getting over this. I am so in love with him, I am having a really hard time dealing with this. Why would he send me these things and not come to me in-person in some way ?
I am so beyond devastated.
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Going by the Youtubes, I would say your doctor seems pretty creepy.
You are already married as well.
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Going by the Youtubes, I would say your doctor seems pretty creepy.
You are already married as well.
If he is not allowed to be my doctor and have such a personal love relationship, maybe he would go to YouTubes to keep the emotional bond going. It is just, if he is in love with me and I with him, why doesn't he just stop the games and come for me ?
As far as my being married,, I don't think for much longer. My husband wants a divorce over my doctor's abandonment and the devastation it has done to me. It is pretty irreparable. I'm lucky I am not sleeping in my car tonite, literally.
My life is pretty much completely ruined.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N9R6rlru7ds
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JNj9UJmAnC4
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that monkey is hot!
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People think its funny. I am still very depressed and devastated. I am going to go ahead and complain my doctor to the medical board. Four brain scans not even shown to me. My foot is so deformed, and no help. Screw his license if this is what kind of a person he is. He made me think he cared about me, but I have completely lost all my trust in doctors, people, and basically humanity. If he cared about his patients, he would not leave me to suffer. I wish I had never met him -- I did not feel this way before. All meeting him did was destroy and ruin my life. Now THERE is a Great legacy for a doctor.
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that sucks. we dont think its funny, at least i dont. were just spaming, its nothing against you. :beware:
i recomend a second opinion, then a third
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that sucks. we dont think its funny, at least i dont. were just spaming, its nothing against you. :beware:
i recomend a second opinion, then a third
Speak for yourself. There's my opinion lol. :zoinks:
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Im still as depressed over my Autism doctor as I was before.
I dont understand why law enforcement and the FBI forced him off, why they are running an account under Hootsuite from which they trampled all over my art website, why they are interfering with my Social Security, my Autism doctor, and a number of other things thru the Hootsuite account, and why they are distributing articles and attacks on me on Twitter thru the Hootsuite account. I got their IP #s on my website tracker.
Apparently they have people where I live interfering with my computer and photographing me inside my room, and when I go out -- come & go. I was also informed by a witness that the FBI instigated the foundering of my Autism horse. A few nites ago, gasoline was poured all around the barn where my Autism horse is, and immedately after I got back home, fire videos with a gas tank was put by my FB page by my autism doctor's ID on my FB page.
Three of my Autism computers I used for facilicated communication have been destroyed and/or damaged, and one time I was threated with them writing it was going to be CIPAV'd.
Is the FBI allowed to obstruct Americans With Disabilities Act lawsuits, run repeated entrapment on Autism people they know have severe non-verbal communication problems, obstruct an Autism person's entitlement Social Security case, destroy known Autism communication devices, attack an Autism therapy horse, force an Autism person's doctor to abandon her medical care with injuries & medical need, and threaten and autism person with gasoline both by smell, close proximity, and videos ?
I got 6-7 electronic signatures of my Autism doctor's neurology dept at his university from the stuff his FB ID posted on my FB page. I just want to know why the FBI would do this -- did the FBI put my Autism doctor up to using the transferences to induce me to fall in love with him and tell him to almost kiss me ?
I am an autistic savant, I have a lot of trouble communicating with anyone -- why would my Autism doctor do this to me ? Why is a fed account on Hootsuite involving the CIA, FBI, Social Security, and others (Nationwide Insurance company trampled my website at the same time as Hootsuite), manipulating my efforts to speak out about my Autism plight and obstructing all my Social Security entitlements, my two personal injury cases involving Nationwide -- and why did they manipulate my Autism doctor to force him to abandon me ?
I have a log I printed out and mailed to a few friends of the number of law enforcement entrapments on me dating back to 2002-2003 right after I first asked Florida courts for Autism access in my ADA lawsuits, the newer IP #s of Hootesuite IDs, and the Autism doctor's neurology dept. electronic signatures.
My Autism doctor told me he was my TREATING doctor -- how can he be working for the FBI / CIA and whomever all is on the Hootsuite account that has been involved in these attacks on me WHEN HE WAS MY TREATING DOCTOR ? How could he be my TREATING Autism doctor and let the FBI or other feds MANIPULATE HIS MEDICAL TREATMENTS FOR ME AND FORCE HIM TO ABANDON ME ?
Did the FBI tell him to sexually harass me and TRY TO KISS ME ??? Because Im an autistic savant ? Because I have AUTISM ?
I am still so devastated over all this -- so devastated, I cant communicate with anyone. All I can do is paint.
The FBI and other fed Hootsuite attacks have obstructed commerce of my artworks, too, and ability to find any work. Not just my Social Security benefits and two Nationwide cases.
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is the word autism a word filter?
what is an autism horse?
and why is big brother out to get this person?
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I still have not seen any of my four brain scans, and my right foot is still very deformed. Now I also have a broken off tooth from not getting the TMJ treatment I still need. My Autism doctor put false statements I didnt know about in my insurance billing forms and refused to correct them -- falsifying who referred me to him. It was the Miami AUTISM Card Center, not another doctor at his university/TGH. I cant get medical care at all because of this.
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that is interesting stuff.
but it didn't answer any of my querries.
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I wish I could have my autism doctor back -- he is the only one who understood my savant autism, and the only person I have been able to communicate with and be understood and understand. Im non-verbal if I dont have specific Internet Autism accomodations -- or this particular Autism doctor who was able to break through my shell.
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i quit
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is the word autism a word filter?
what is an autism horse?
and why is big brother out to get this person?
You might want to read through some older posts.
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is the word autism a word filter?
what is an autism horse?
and why is big brother out to get this person?
No, the word autism isn't in the word filter.
An autism horse is a pet working horse owned by a person who has autism that helps them sort of like a seeing-eye-dog helps a blind person.
I don't know why big brother is out to get EquiisSavant, but she was nearly an attorney who was blocked from joining the bar and she has instigated lots of lawsuits.
I don't know, but that might possibly be a reason for some people to be after her.
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word filters are hilarious. I missed the ones here
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word filters are hilarious. I missed the ones here
Yeah, we need some new ones.
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word filters are hilarious. I missed the ones here
Yeah, we need some new ones.
I can say with pride, that I revived that tradition when I was an Admin. 8)
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Callaway, one reason I am being targeted is because I am an Autistic savant, and at least one of them wrote that she wants to BE me. It didn't help that they obviously put my Autism doctor on me (when he told me he was my treating doctor) to peek inside my brain, and he wanted to kiss me. Or that I wanted him to - and still do.
I sketched another horse awhile ago while I was thinking about how uplifting and inspiring he was, HERE:
http://equiisautisticsavantartist.webs.com/apps/photos/photo?photoid=67077265 (http://equiisautisticsavantartist.webs.com/apps/photos/photo?photoid=67077265)
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I really miss him, and I want him to come back
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That's a very pretty horse.
I know that you miss him and want him to come back, but I think you need to accept that he isn't coming back.
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That's a very pretty horse.
I know that you miss him and want him to come back, but I think you need to accept that he isn't coming back.
No, I don't believe that. I have never been wrong, either. It is a savant ability.
For some reason, he let me back on WP - sent me a link to show me I was allowed to go back on.
I believe he is coming back. Just like I knew I would win Horse-of-the-Year when everyone else said it would never happen, long before what I knew and believed did come true. Again, it is a savant ability.
He is coming back.
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Sometimes I love the bots. This was one of the greatest things I have ever read. I really hope she comes back. :viking:
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Maybe recall seeing on wp as well. Breaks my heart and don't know how to respond.
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wow..what a crazy intro
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Oh, please, not this one.
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It's a cliché image, but seriously it sums up my feelings on seeing this bumped.
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This is like watching a very bad traffic accident and not being able to turn away. Yikes!
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My favourite part was when I found those court documents. :laugh:
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My favourite part was when I found those court documents. :laugh:
:2thumbsup:
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Soph's manflu and autism porn comments were top notch too Nexus. :2thumbsup:
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WOW!! This was a pretty convincing troll. Probably one of the best we've had.
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Her site is still up and running so I don't know about her being a troll.
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Some people are tragic.
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tl;dr
Whackjob