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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #75 on: March 07, 2008, 03:14:56 PM »
 :(

i have Neopets too but i can't feed them... or i couldn't the last time i checked. i'm gonna try again, i hope i remember the pass.
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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #76 on: March 07, 2008, 03:16:10 PM »
mine were starving when i logged on the other day (for the first time since last summer :orly: ), so i fed them

starbuline has three
i have 2

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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #77 on: March 07, 2008, 03:17:16 PM »
I don't even remember my username  :lol:

I had them ages ago too.

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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #78 on: March 07, 2008, 03:19:43 PM »
Oh, that makes me feel bad.  :( 

Last night I went to bed feeling guilty about all I didn't do for her.  That skater guy's post was so funny, but it started making me think about how much I could have done.  It makes me feel gross.

Don't want to get YOU started on her again, Soph.  You are doing better, I can tell.  It's my turn to feel like shit - I didn't feel like shit enough earlier, I don't think.
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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #79 on: March 07, 2008, 03:20:19 PM »
i think i have 3... or 4. i can't remember. :lol:
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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #80 on: March 07, 2008, 03:23:20 PM »
Oh, that makes me feel bad.  :( 

Last night I went to bed feeling guilty about all I didn't do for her.  That skater guy's post was so funny, but it started making me think about how much I could have done.  It makes me feel gross.

Don't want to get YOU started on her again, Soph.  You are doing better, I can tell.  It's my turn to feel like shit - I didn't feel like shit enough earlier, I don't think.
you shouldn't feel shit
it was my responsibility to look after her, i have a reason to feel guilty - you shouldn't do
there are a lot of people who actively contributed to her depression. people who were nice to her but now think they should have done things differently, shouldn't feel guilt instead - you weren't to know what was going to happen

it makes me feel shit too
the dinosaur picture looks sad, but in a cute way and doesn't mean anything to most people
it's more than that though
it mad me feel sad when i logged on there and saw all hers crying
it sounds silly though

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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #81 on: March 07, 2008, 03:29:43 PM »
You shouldn't feel shit, you weren't to know what was going to happen either.

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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #82 on: March 07, 2008, 03:30:57 PM »
i was though
but i'll shut up now before i start whining again lol

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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #83 on: March 07, 2008, 03:33:29 PM »
You knew she was depressed, you didn't know that she will kill herself.

It was her own decision.

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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #84 on: March 07, 2008, 03:42:35 PM »
sigh. there's no use blaming anyone. Soph, i know you think you could have changed things but is there any point in blaming yourself?  on top of all the pain you shouldn't add guilt. you don't deserve that.
"I think everybody has an asshole component to their personality. It's just a matter of how much you indulge it. Those who do it often form a habit. So like any addiction, you have to learn to overcome it."
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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #85 on: March 07, 2008, 03:46:50 PM »
Soph, you are going to be ok.  We're always here for you.  And I think it's good that you told the doctor everything that's been going on.

That Neopet IS really sweet.  I knew there was something special about him.   :laugh:

I will get back on topic...

I would like to be in Mexico right now, drinking margaritas.  :)
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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #86 on: March 07, 2008, 03:50:15 PM »
i think it's good you got things off your chest, Soph. it is hard to grieve for someone in secret.
"I think everybody has an asshole component to their personality. It's just a matter of how much you indulge it. Those who do it often form a habit. So like any addiction, you have to learn to overcome it."
~Lord Phlexor

"Sometimes stepping on one's own dick is a memorable learning experience."
~PPK

"We are all the sum of our tears. Too little and the ground is not fertile and nothing can grow there; too much, the best of us is washed away."
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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #87 on: March 07, 2008, 03:53:56 PM »
yeah i think it is good
my mum and my family knows something happened in october, but i never told them what

i still want to be in san francisco

someone from near where sophie lives sent me some things from there today, which was really awesome
and she sent pictures of around that area. i wish i could afford to live there one day :(
Soph, you are going to be ok.  We're always here for you.  And I think it's good that you told the doctor everything that's been going on.

thanks :)

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That Neopet IS really sweet.  I knew there was something special about him.   :laugh:
i've got pictures of the other 2 she had, they're really cute. i'll post them in a minute
this guy looked so sad though. she set his interests to "bullying others" lol

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I would like to be in Mexico right now
running from the law? :P

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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #88 on: March 07, 2008, 03:54:37 PM »
i think it's good you got things off your chest, Soph. it is hard to grieve for someone in secret.
Yep.  That's why I think you're really going to feel better going forward.  Venting all that to the doctor had to be such a relief.  I don't know how you stood it so long.
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Re: Where/who do you want to be right now?
« Reply #89 on: March 07, 2008, 03:55:23 PM »
neither do i tbh
i have no idea how i got from there (october/november) to here
i was such a fucking mess, i hardly remember that month