The Importance of Being Jack

[Adam]

I know I've already told you, but if I were young I'd want to be your best friend. Thanks again, Adam.

Thank you! there's no need to thank me tho as I'm only explaining what actually happened. I hope you can see it the same way everyone else is now. And I hope you don't leave over this

[Osensitive1]

I still can't help but feel I've taken something important from you, adam. And my wanting to leave isn't completely about you, it's a culmination of things over the years, all very related and similar; this just brought it to a head. I've been very careful to be impersonal here to avoid doing it again; though not sure if I have or not.

[Osensitive1]

Detrimental???  How???

In very personal ways, oblivious to me, until maybe years later.

[Osensitive1]

You're one of the most nicest, rational and most corteous people on this board and there is absolutely nothing you have to feel guilty for. Occasionally I feel similar to you in that I think I'm a toxic person, a ruiner who injects poison into everything I'm a part of. But I can tell you, you are NONE of those things.

Thank you, Sinnocent. That's really nice of you to say. Your post have three threes.

[Osensitive1]

Also, just look at me!  I've been in your shoes before except with me it's not that I'm undiagnosed, I'm just an NT

I've trolled this place in the past and I'm still here.  It was a shit thing to do (though highly amusing at the time) but it's in the past now.  People shouldn't be judged by their neurology but by who they are as a whole.  You're a lovely person and one who's opinion I usually like to read.  Just because you're undiagnosed or a parent of an Aspie, doesn't mean you don't have the right to post here because of one thing you did once in the past. 

Thanks, binty. I know it's not about who I am; it's about who I want to be. I think I once told you how that works.

[Osensitive1]

Jack,

It takes a lot to take this site down. Pyraxis said it all and far better than I feel able to, right now, but there is no way you'd be able to do that. I think you are a positive force in the communities where you participate and I find it impossible to believe you could bring down this place, or that you were responsible for zOMG's demise. The explanation for the latter is probably a lot simpler than that from what I have gathered from Adam.

I think you have this whole thing wrong. I realise you feel guilty, but it is completely undeserved and you'd be sorely missed if you left. I know I would.

That said, people sometimes fuck up. I know I do, and I know I have hurt people I care about online, but I doubt anything would be better by me leaving. I try to learn from my mistakes and move on, and if I can do it, I know you can.

Thanks, odeon. I'm not worried I'll harm your site; this is about people. I do try to learn from my mistakes, although when it comes to people, I don't realize I'm making them.

[Osensitive1]

Add me to the list of people who don't see you as detrimental.

Thank you, Puppet Sock Penguin.

[Adam]

But do you want to live your life like that though? (ok, online life, but still). Leaving and avoiding getting closer to people incase you just MIGHT accidentally hurt someone?

We're all adults here. As long as you don't set out to purposely hurt people, then you're a good person. We all make mistakes

[Osensitive1]

I won't think it lame of you if you say you are leaving and then decide to stay. Not lame at all. I think you have added quality to Intensity. You have unique views on things. You post in a way that makes me think and I like that, it keeps my mind from circulating around the same old stuff.

Wondering what your interests are outside of forums, do you work, study, volunteer or something else. I couldn't gauge what your interests were before as you seem to know a lot about a wide range of topics.

Thank you, renaden. I'm a data specialist; work on a team to control, supply, and maintain a data warehouse. I've been doing for about two years, and previously worked in risk management over safety and ethics compliance for the same company. My general interests can vary and often do. I have a life long special interest, but don't talk about it, because people can find an obsession with horror to be weird. This interest has grown and changed as I've matured and lost all interest in fiction. Though I still love a good horror film, outside of that, my interest is horror fact. Criminal psychology is my interest.

[Osensitive1]

Do stay it's nice having you around 

Hope you reconsider this Jack. You'd be missed.

^ This.

Hope you reconsider this Jack. You'd be missed.

Not one person here,  who posts regular,  wants you to go.

Think so too.. and hope Jack stays around to post on I². And I wish Eris to return too. Calavera.

Stick around.

Thank you, too, Parts, Scrap, Icequeen, and Lutra.

[Osensitive1]

I am guessing someone else has already said:

If you leave you arent learning from your life experiences....you are just running away......again       

I don't think I'm running away; I'm having a problem, coming clean about it, and facing it.

[Osensitive1]

Not lame at all.   I think the purpose of the seven days is to think about things.

Not one person here,  who posts regular,  wants you to go.  Therefore,  the only reason for you to go is if you really don't like it here, don't like us, or some of us!  Logic should win here.   Logic says stay.

It matters not if you are Jack, Clare, Tom, Dick, or Harry.  (more Dick's should become members though )

Anyway,  use the days to think it over.  You fit in well here. 

Also, you might join somewhere else and not fit so well.  That could lead to you not posting.  We all know not posting could lead to a certain kind of madness.  A madness that compels you to talk to strange people on buses etc.  hell yeah it's a public safety issue....

Stay.

Thanks, bodaccea. Though I think it matters very much that I'm claire and Jack.

[Osensitive1]

The first time I tried to leave wrongplanet, was from a moment of realization, in reading a thread about the undiagnosed. Important points were made concerning the possible damage in misrepresenting the spectrum, in a place so many come to seek knowledge. Damage, no matter how well intentioned is still damaged, so I agreed. However, my need to be there didn't leave, so I just stopped talking about myself, stopped talking about autism, made myself comfy in the depths of PPR, and otherwise lurked.

  I have probably read that wrong,  but are you saying you are not autistic?   or just 'undiagnosed'?

probably me,  but the way you said about meeting an autistic woman,  just thought you would have said 'another' or 'fellow' autistic instead.  it don't matter anyway.

haha btw just read about lutra dancing to my singing -  you have to move legs only as hands will be placed firmly over ears lutra!

I don't know anything, and a diagnosis wont change that.  I've also spent years studying autism and am certain if I sought a diagnosis, It would be PDD-NoS. I won't bore with the specifics of why.

[Osensitive1]

But do you want to live your life like that though? (ok, online life, but still). Leaving and avoiding getting closer to people incase you just MIGHT accidentally hurt someone?

We're all adults here. As long as you don't set out to purposely hurt people, then you're a good person. We all make mistakes

I'm thinking about this one adam. I do live my life like that. They don't hurt me and I don't hurt them, and I'm a very content person. If my family ties weren't so close, that might not be true. It's true what I recently said about why I'm here. My day is filled with EITYN8R9348QAGN6RIAO8WIB3HE and the language is good for me. It's all very selfish, and I just happen to find the minds of autistics to be beautiful and interesting, and worth my time to interact. I know that last bit sounds snooty, but it's true. I don't often find people so interesting.

[ProfessorFarnsworth]

I really hope you reconsider Jack or at least come back after a long break.

Usually I ignore threads like this by default, but I guess I would miss you and wanted to say that.