It's still there, but compared to how it was in June it's virtually gone!
It's such a relief when I wake up in the night needing the toilet, to be able to just get up, go pee, wash my hands quickly, dry them on whatever's there and then go back to bed. (for example)
I mean the thoughts and feelings are still there sometimes, and I notice myself still doing little things like avoiding touchign something. but most of the time I realise I'm doing that and make a conscious effort to then touch whatever it is (like the door handle or something), so I don't start falling back into it. I think in a way the little things are hardest to get rid of, coz you're so used to doing them that you end up doing it subconsciously. Like my holding my breath around toilets was one of the most difficult ones to combat. It was still struggling with that when I left the hospital, but gradually I managed to overcome that too. And now it's becoming more natural to do things in a "normal" way. I don't feel so much like I'm making myself do things in an anti-ocd way, rather I'm just doing things how I "should" do them.
I don't wanna be complacent or anyting - I'm not totally cured. But it's going well.
