talked to Hailey a lot today. Trying to be his friend. Wanting him badly and guarding myself. He is a strange boy and wonder about his motive. I cant help myself from talking to him, though. He wants things that cannot happen. He wants to keep the chastity device on all the time and it just cant happen. so when we play it gets so hard and tight and everything becomes so, er, exciting we take it off and have our little fun. And inherently he is a sissy, who wants in be in permanent chastity and diapers. But then we play, and he starts begging me. I do not think it is possible to wear a chastity belt for more than a month or so at a time. And when we play, it gets so passionate, we wants to take it off.
but that is not permanent chastity lol, that's just kinky sex. And I know why he is conflicted in his mind, and I think he has a lot of problems with this
and I just cant not answer him. Ill be here for him, i guess.
I do love him but cannot be what I need. So we are talking still though, because he is in my heart and I cannot let go. I told him i don't want to get back together, and he listened, but can tell he is desperate wanting a woman to do this with. Not too many girls change diapers and make you kiss the toilet.
He is a good boy, but my heart hurts with him.
Boy Hailey is not ok with all this. Matt is not ok with this. Only the sissy is a whole person, ironically. And wearing diapers and a chastity belt since you are 13 is a lot of years of secrets.
I am not as sadistic with him, because this boy was once my boyfriend. I beat his ass raw but could never hurt his heart. There have been 3 boys Ive cared about since I broke up with my husband and this was one of them.
Ever have a man on his knees beg you for sexual favors ?
Like begging you. please, please, please, I want it so bad
yeah, maybe now you all know why I like this so much. Power is intoxicating.
I am feeling better about the whole fight thingy though, and hope i dont go to jail !
