Yeah, I have been abusive in terms of ringing her up and screaming at her and stuff. I just get so full of rage tho, I feel so powerless and out of control at how changeable she is. I mean about a year ago i decided I wanted to break up and she made it really difficult, turning up at my house to persuade me to come back etc. I know it was my choice and she didnt hold a gun to me, but it was difficult. Thats when we concieved a baby. eh, i wish i had coped with her better or we had never met or something. I mean when we met she was being looked at by social services and suicidal. it was too much for a dumb aspie man to cope with i guess, i bit off more than i could chew. I have no idea how to be a father to a baby.