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Start here => What's your crime? Basic Discussion => Topic started by: Soph on February 16, 2008, 12:52:37 AM
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why have i got the shakes?
im stimming like an autistic retard as well
obviously something in my pepsi
what is wrong with me?
(don't wanta list - just what is up with this shakiness)
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I get the shakes if I haven't eaten in a while. Have you had anything to eat lately? A happy hippo maybe?
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i murdered, decapitated and consumed the final happy hippo the other day
no happy hippos left
i put the empty box back in the cupboard though so i could always pretend-eat some imaginary hippos
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only had one meal yesterday actually
and it is tomorrow morning now
had a packet of wotsits
wotsits are cheesy poofs
like me
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i feel a meltdown coming on
will listen to moosik
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Parkinsons
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oh no
(http://img254.imageshack.us/img254/1483/milkdancethumbqw1.gif)
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Too much pepsi and not enough normal food.
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wuts a normal foodz?
i had mcdonalds and kfc for my breakfast yesterday
with a can of redbull
made me think i wis going to collapse
lol fucking HILARIOUS
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Something that's more nutrient than fat? I don't know, fruit, or pasta, or meat cooked without being drowned in oil. Get a sandwich?
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my mum got me some fruit last night, she told me to eat it but i didn't
i will get a cheese sadnwich in a couple hours and get fruit with that
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fuck you are right, i am a nightmare
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Low blood sugar. Eat some sugar/candy NOW, then get some pasta or bread or ric, something like that in you. Avoid chocolate, it slows down sugar absorbtion to a crawl.
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the only food i have within arms reach is chocolate
and more pepsi
maybe its the pepis
when i was 13/14 i was addicted to pepsi
i used to colllect the empty cans in my room and build pyramids with them
my mum was pissed off
when i got bacck from school one day she'd taken them all in a plastic bag to the recycling place in urmston
was very sad
havent drank pepsi in ages till tonight lol
am m listening to good music thouigh
actually mu step dad is diabetic, i have seen him get a hypo, my mum says i get like that sometimes but obviously on a much smaller scale
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that happened when i first met him when i wa younger
we went to a fair thing the next week in macclesfield and he had a hypo
didnt know wtf was going on lol
i got a cool purple fluffy thing on a stick though
great success!
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the only food i have within arms reach is chocolate
and more pepsi
maybe its the pepis
when i was 13/14 i was addicted to pepsi
i used to colllect the empty cans in my room and build pyramids with them
my mum was pissed off
when i got bacck from school one day she'd taken them all in a plastic bag to the recycling place in urmston
was very sad
havent drank pepsi in ages till tonight lol
am m listening to good music thouigh
actually mu step dad is diabetic, i have seen him get a hypo, my mum says i get like that sometimes but obviously on a much smaller scale
get a couple glucose pills from him then, he should have some
then EAT SOME CARB CONTAINING FOOD
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im finishing off my pepsi and listeningto gary numan first lolol
i have met gary numan
i have his autogrPH ON A CONCERT TICKIT
OOPS CAPS LOCK AGAIN
that always happens to me :orly:
i swear i didnt hit caps lock
my keyboard is fucking with me
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i think i have have lost weight
lol fucking hilarious
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also when i got up yestrerday, everything tasted like vomit
wtf is going on?
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heres my autographed thingie. acytually, its not addressed to me but whatever. i was there too :D
(http://img156.imageshack.us/img156/5838/fgdfgt2.png)
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gonna spontaneously combust
except it wont be sponatnous
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You need sugar and food.
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lots of sugars in pepsi
i have three cheesy poofs left
which cheesy poof shall i eat first?
the gayest?
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omg wait no i have 6 left!
grosssly underestimated the puff army!
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oh god i really should be shot
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with a de-spazzifying gun
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jesus i am contaminating this forum with my fucktarded posts
/me apologises
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I don't think there is anyone on here who doesn't have a fucked up life right now
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i hope all your lives "unfuckup" themselves
i really do
i think it sucks
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You need sugar without caffiene. Caffiene accelerates your metabolism and makes the problem worse.
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i need drugs and alcohohl
im starting to feel like shit now
this walwayss fucking ghappens
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i know how it's like to need drugs and alcohol. i wish you didn't though. :(
maybe you should go to a doctor to get a check up. maybe you're pre-diabetic or something. though in the meanwhile you should eat proper food and see if that helps.
why have i got the shakes?
im stimming like an autistic retard as well
obviously something in my pepsi
what is wrong with me?
(don't wanta list - just what is up with this shakiness)
that's caffeine in your pepsi. :P
eat some real food, no sugary caffeine shit. eat something healthy!
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maybe now is a good time to fuck myself up nyway
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actually i dunno why im on about
ignore
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Not eating anything and drinking a bunch of caffiene is going to make you feel like crap, gauranteed.
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i felt worse before, the caffeine amde me better
i felt worse when i didnt eat
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No, go for booze instead of caffiene if you need to do that sort of thing.
Get some hard candy
Eat something starchy
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Soph, what's up? why are you not eating? *hugs Sophtard*
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Let your mom or dad know you're blood sugar is too low at least.
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there is no alcohol here
my mmum ahardly ever buys any especailly now i drink it all
theres an alcohol shop down the road, incan see it from my bedroom windiw
but im too retarded to go
i wish there was alcohol in everything
whyndont they just give out alcohol at the doctors
instead f fucking around with pills that dont work
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Soph, what's up? why are you not eating? *hugs Sophtard*
im fucked up
i m dead already but still feeling shit
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i can bereathe mist onto my sglasses
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like a dragon
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ask for some
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alcohol? my mum knowx im depressed and is worried a lot, she knows i been drinking to stop feeling it, if i start asking i will look even more desperate
in have to go and stay at my grandpapernts (my mum's mum) in march because my mum doesnt trust me here on my own for a couple days
and i realised just then that i need to work out a way she wnt see the lines on my arm, i hae a fucking russian WORD on there, im fucked if she seees and shes much more likely to as its easy to hide at home
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good thing is me and sophie have the same name, so i f shit comes to fuck i will just say i was bored and wrote my name but didnt have a pen. that sounds ccrazy but thats the kind of retarded thing i would actually do, so believaly
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huh, I have now clue about your mom
my mom would get me booze if I asked for it, well, a moderate amount of booze
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she'd get me some, but worry even mroe
and i make her worry enough as it is
im here to stop people being messed up
but im actually messing them up even more]]
where is the sense?
nowhere
my left arm is getting shakey again
makes me think theres something wrong with my blood-pumping device
i feel an art attack coming on1
let me go get my colouring pencils and pva gloo
brb
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hey, she'll worry even more than that if you drink a bunch of caffiene and end up in the hospital from hypoglycemia
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i drink everyday and mom doesn't buy me booze anymore. i have to get money now so i can buy it myself. she doesn't want to enable me. lol. so she makes me work for the money but she knows i buy booze with it.
you should wear long sleeves. that's what i do. i made new cuts so i have to now. i also have to wear pants or leggings. i should get some knee high socks so i can just wear a dress sometimes.
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im gonan end up in hosptial one day probably anyway
not letting thme do anything to memade my mind up on that already
ive been having to wear long sleeves when i go downstairs now
but in my room or sleeping im ok because my left arm is against the wall always
bad idea, i wish id done it somewhere else now
<hypocrite>and you shouldnt cut</hypocrite>
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When I cut it seemed so logical. But now I'm like, "why the fuck would I do that?"
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i nver understood why peope did it when i was younger
i can see how iot helps now though
that and alcohol have saved me several times since december
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Low blood sugar. Eat some sugar/candy NOW, then get some pasta or bread or ric, something like that in you. Avoid chocolate, it slows down sugar absorbtion to a crawl.
Yeah. This is what I found off my dancing.
But, I don't think it's her problem - she seems
to get plenty of sugar in her diet.
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i'm worried about sleeping with my arms bare too. not that mom ever comes to my room. i left some bloody tissue downstairs the other day too and mom asked if i was cutting and i said no. she said nothing. before that too i had blood on my pants one time. she asked then too and i said no. i guess she's too afraid to whine about it. i got mad at her the first time she found out. she was all whiny and i couldn't stand it so i said i didn't wannt talk about it. i can't stand it being such a big deal to people. if i went to the hospital they'd freak out too. they have those gowns and everyone would see my arms. i watch a lot of Casualty and Holby City and ER and think about their stupid gowns. :P i dunno why people freak out about cutting. not that it's healthy but it's more important what causes the cutting. the process that leads to it.
i hope you don't end up in hospital, Soph. stay healthy. eat something and don't drink pepsi. :)
i think cutting feels logical too. but then in the morning i wake up with my arm sore and i'm all why the fuck did i cut again? i feel so stupid. at night when i'm drinking it seems logical and when i'm upset it doesn't matter if it's logical.
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I think it's all the caffeine.
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Low blood sugar. Eat some sugar/candy NOW, then get some pasta or bread or ric, something like that in you. Avoid chocolate, it slows down sugar absorbtion to a crawl.
Yeah. This is what I found off my dancing.
But, I don't think it's her problem - she seems
to get plenty of sugar in her diet.
Couple that with caffiene and the sugar goes bye-bye.
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I wish neither of you felt like cutting yourselves. :(
Soph, you're eating too much sugar constantly and that's causing your blood sugar to go up and down too drastically. You really need some protein and carbs, and lay off the candy and Pepsi. That's probably also what's causing your chest pains, too much sugar and caffeine.
I still think you need your heart checked, because I'll bet you have a problem with your mitral valve - it can cause panic attacks.
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i went through times in november wehere i didnt eat at all though, and that was just constant shit. at least this is shit most of the time but sometimes not shit.
i dont like how i always do it on my arm late at night when i get really bad or if i get suicidal or something, and then a few hours later when i calm down, i go to sleep and i have to lie with my arm making sure it doesnt touch the bed or anything lol
i dont realyl "cut" though
i know people say it is, but its not like i get a knife and slash my arms open, its more like cat scratches :D
well, maybe more than that but not enough to be "cutting"
but for the sake of it, i will lump it in with "cutting"
i hate those gowns they have too milla
i dont want to go to hospital or anything
if i found out i had cancer or something, i wouldnt go
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I get them really bad when I have a meltdown. I scared the shit out of people they seem to thin I am going to snap and kill them or something. It could just be nerves is there any way to get some stuff to calm you down a bit from the doctor like some benzos thats what I tale
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lol i get really bad with meltdowns as well
i got them sometimes in university, mainly when i went back late 2007 (was already depressed before sophie died and then things got a bit too much in november/december i think)
i hit myself on the head in the middle of a seminar not long before xmas lol
i dunno if anyone noticed, i guess they didthey must think im retarded
i want benzos
someone suggested them when i was bad in school, when i had to do presentations for my GCSE stuff
my anxiety has been really bad recently
before starbuline died i just had social anxiety
my social anxiety has half gone now, but the worst is still there
but i seem to have developed other kinds of anxiety
i get really bad anxiety attacks over weird things now
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I don't know how I got along before benzos people used to think I was the meanest mother around most of the time because I was always anxious and on edge Now they take the edge off along with my other meds much more relaxed but still nervous compared to most people
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people used to think i was in a bad mood all the time because i never spoke to anyone
then again i was in a bad mood actually because my school was fucking retarded
i dont have to do presentations at uni now because of my AS though, which is good - i can do a right-up instead. it means more work overall, but definitely better than speaking
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I don't smile or have much in the way of facial expressions that also lead people to think I was always pissed. I only had two presentations and uni in the 5 years I went always avoided those classes when I could
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yeah i hate doing speaking stuff
i used to not go to class sometimes in college, because i might get asked to read something out lol
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I always LOVED reading things aloud.
I'd get nervous about presentations,
but never that.
Even though people teased me, for
how good I was - that I put some feeling
into even history passages.
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im eating fruit
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Makes a change.
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anxiety attack
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When I cut it seemed so logical. But now I'm like, "why the fuck would I do that?"
Same.
And then I will feel tempted again. Round and round.
I still can't wear short sleeved t-shirts. I will have a lot of scars and some cuts still haven't fully healed and it was last year that I did it.
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I don't know how I got along before benzos people used to think I was the meanest mother around most of the time because I was always anxious and on edge Now they take the edge off along with my other meds much more relaxed but still nervous compared to most people
i wish my doctor could see that. benzos would make a huge difference.
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But they lose their effectiveness. Well, Valium does. If I take it two nights in a row, then on the third night I take it and it will have no effect. I get used to it too fast. :(
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why have i got the shakes?
sounds like a bad case of autism :laugh:
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im eating fruit
:orly:
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i ate nearly all of it :toporly: