INTENSITY²
Arena for the Competitive => Main Event Callouts => Topic started by: McGiver on April 07, 2006, 04:29:00 AM
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i have been in a funk.
i have not given my best effort, replies to questions come slowly for me lately, if at all. i have been half assing my arguments. basically i have lost some of my zeal, passion and without a doubt my optimism.
i have concluded that you are the main reason for this funk that i am in. because it boils down to depression. intensity would be back. and its just a forum. i think the thing that makes me the saddest is that a good friend wouldn't care enough to have faith in me.
after all, the words were all there; written for posterity. and either you chose not to bother reading what i wrote or you just didn't have faith in a friend who has always proven reliable and consistent. which speaks volumes. it makes it clear to me that you weren't really a friend to begin with. thus i am saddened.
also that i was duped, into thinking otherwise. and that hits my pride. i have always thought to be a person who can read others and when i felt used by you i was shocked. i also felt that i was wrong for believing in the same instinct i have survivd on for years. the same instinct that was developed over years and years of wasted time people watching, trying to understand.
it cuts right to the center of my being and a direct blow to my ego.
i am simply; not myself!!!
this funk has severely limited my abilities and heightened my insecurities. where before, i never would accept defeat, i now realize that it is possible.
i hate that feeling. i hate considering that i may be a quitter, but i don't have the passion. would you please return it, or don't.
i blame you Neuroman for the current funk i am in. defend yourself.
i will blame myself if i allow it to continue. for another may influence you, but ultimately the power to dictate who you are is exclusive to each person.
if you do not defend yourself, then i believe that it will show a clear message;
that my instincts were wrong about you being a friend, since you know me and do not care that i am no longer myself.
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i am simply; not myself!!!
I feel like my parents got a divorce.
Neuroman, neuroman, please join us here, we will not take up too much of your time. Look at what we did to jman... he likes us now. Could that have happened anywhere else? With anyone else?
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Intensity? is the Cinderella story of the AS community.
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Not to mention, what ever happened to Lucifer? Did she decide she was too holy for us?
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Lol, pyraxis, I thought you were going to tell me to shutup and stop whining ::). I can't help it, I do wish neuroman were here.
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Nah, I won't tell you to quit whining. I miss him too. I never got to face off against the wolf.
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I'm going to keep applauding you, Pyraxis, until you clarify what you want:
http://www.intensitysquared.com/index.php?topic=185.0
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http://as4us.net/cowboy/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=818
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i have no defense
i have aspergers
it is hard for me to maintain relationships even with people i like
think you on how difficult it is for people with AS to go somewhere new, to do something new.
i am still at my home.
you went away.
of course i care that you were (are?) depressed
i am sorry for that
someone said time heals
the wolf was wounded, some would have said to the point of near death
he is working on trusting one person
this person is responsible for his being here
he thanks them
as he feels like this person is with him, he was able to come here.
perhaps if he learns to trust this one person
he can try trusting others
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i have to tell you, shima is a special lady, i trust her.
*uses the knuckle of my index finger to wipe the tear from the corner of my eye, at that point it begins to flow*
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stakes?
agreed on in advance and i will engage.
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you mean a winner take whatever is agreed upon wager?
certainly, i will give it some thought and will send you a pm. unless you have already developed a plan, then you may pm me, or make it public, your choice.
but i must warn you, i am gaining in talent, then again, it might just be in my minds eye.
and i will play fair, yes tactics will be involved but no cheapshots.
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waiting
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thinking.
so much in front of me at this very second.
can you give me until late tonight.
was my previous post accurate in assessment?
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your assessment is correct
i will wait indefinitely.
tactics are for humans who have no legitimate argument
my challenge is to win without tactics
however i will not direct your strategy
mine is truth and logic
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you, my friend, are the stakes.
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your assessment is correct
i will wait indefinitely.
tactics are for humans who have no legitimate argument
my challenge is to win without tactics
however i will not direct your strategy
mine is truth and logic
nice set up. very well reasoned start.
except, that was in fact a tactic.
taking away your foes offensive.
impressive.
i am not making guarantees here, but, what i envision here is like fine wine or a highly anticipated novel.
more time elapses (in the case of wine) then the better it tastes and stronger the effect.
and as the interests mounts (as in the case of the highly anticipated novel) the sweeter the day and the larger the reception and more favorable are the reviews.
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i stated my strategy
you are free to use whatever strategy you choose
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Mc Jagger, would that other reason be sexual?
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i am not making guarantees here, but, what i envision here is like fine wine or a highly anticipated novel.
more time elapses (in the case of wine) then the better it tastes and stronger the effect.
and as the interests mounts (as in the case of the highly anticipated novel) the sweeter the day and the larger the reception and more favorable are the reviews.
Yeah but you also have to remember things that are highly anticipated often leave people feeling ripped off and wondering what all the hype was about.
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not to mention avoiding the discussion by talking round and about, and in pseudo-poetics.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
/me wanders off to find something to look at...
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look, a piece of lint.
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look - tumbleweed...
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here, these are click-clacks
(http://www.wickedvision.co.uk/images/clickclacklogo.gif)
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Did Neuroman ever reply??
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Did Neuroman ever reply??
It's been ten years, so apparently not. :dunno: