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Title: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 18, 2006, 04:11:19 PM
 
... get a helmet!

(http://img361.imageshack.us/img361/5561/eryjms0.jpg)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Nomaken on November 18, 2006, 04:29:49 PM
I'm a little tipsy so you are going to get the questions from the part of my mind i try to keep away from the keyboard while on this forum:

If you were to cum in a girls mouth, would you be willing to taste it when you kiss her afterwards?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on November 18, 2006, 04:38:27 PM
Whos that girl on your avatar?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 18, 2006, 04:40:45 PM
I'm a little tipsy so you are going to get the questions from the part of my mind i try to keep away from the keyboard while on this forum:

If you were to cum in a girls mouth, would you be willing to taste it when you kiss her afterwards?

You make it sound as if I've never done that. Curious ...




oh, try to let the real you peak out more often.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 18, 2006, 04:45:46 PM
Whos that girl on your avatar?

Evangeline Lilly (http://images.google.com/images?hl=en&q=Evangeline+Lilly&btnG=Search+Images)

My last job was portrait photography. I constantly looked at promo photo shoots that modeling agencies produce for ideas to "steal" or adapt to my own style, for use in our studio. I think she's now on TV.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: purposefulinsanity on November 18, 2006, 05:38:54 PM
What has been the most interesting experience of your life?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: purposefulinsanity on November 18, 2006, 05:51:46 PM
And btw- do I have to climb up your arse to ask you questions?   :laugh:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 18, 2006, 06:02:21 PM
That's easy. My kids are an enimga that I'm still trying to figure out.

The first sight of my son was easily the most amazing thing that I've ever experienced. I was immediately marked as a wierdo by the nursing staff, because I refused to cut the umbilical cord. I told them I didn't want THAT symbolic imagery between my wife and I. I did not want to be the person responsible for her being "disconnected" from her child.


I'll add some more thoughts later. It's time to start our Saturday night routine.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on November 18, 2006, 06:05:06 PM
The first sight of my son was easily the most amazing thing that I've ever experienced. I was immediately marked as a wierdo by the nursing staff, because I refused to cut the umbilical cord. I told them I didn't want THAT symbolic imagery between my wife and I. I did not want to be the person responsible for her being "disconnected" from her child.

I did exactly the same thing when my son was born. I refused to cut the cord. They are the pros, for crying out loud, and I don't give a shit about the symbol value.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 18, 2006, 06:49:18 PM
And btw- do I have to climb up your arse to ask you questions?   :laugh:

Well, I think it depends on the questions and, also, on how much detail your answer requires.

 :evillaugh:

Also, I have been trying to find a way to use that pic for something disgusting for a long time.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: purposefulinsanity on November 18, 2006, 06:52:14 PM
The first sight of my son was easily the most amazing thing that I've ever experienced. I was immediately marked as a wierdo by the nursing staff, because I refused to cut the umbilical cord. I told them I didn't want THAT symbolic imagery between my wife and I. I did not want to be the person responsible for her being "disconnected" from her child.

I did exactly the same thing when my son was born. I refused to cut the cord. They are the pros, for crying out loud, and I don't give a shit about the symbol value.

It isnt that hard to do, it kinda pisses me off that they don't ask the woman that just gave birth if she'd like to do it.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 18, 2006, 07:18:52 PM
What has been the most interesting experience of your life?

Going back to this question for a few minutes ...

I have put up the answer that everyone with kids expects, but it's true. Even though it seems like a cop-out, pat response to an evocative question, I can't state it any more strongly. My kids are IT!

I have done some fun stuff in my life, starting in music at fifteen, hiding my age, playing country music in a bar and, eventually moving into the sound reinforcement end of concerts shows. Taking long tour contracts with stars, living like I was on vacation the whole time, traveling all over the USA and Canada making music, some studio work, celebrity charity events, building my own KICK ASS sound system, and carrying a camera around my neck the whole time was "interesting", but none of it compares to the creation of life.

When the music business gobbled me up and spit me out, leaving me without any interest in continuing, I took a long vacation and switched to my camera for a way to make a living. I started learning more about people portraits at a job taking pics of families and that lead to a 'permanent studio' job, instead of a traveling job for the first time in my life. It was a large company and I had to take lots of pics, but there were moments were I got a little reminder of why I put up with all the asshole customers and evil bosses, often enough to keep going. The parent's faces ...

The look on a proud Mom's face when she sees what I've done with her kids pics is priceless. I enjoyed that reaction so much that I stayed with that company for many years. I worked damned hard for myself, outside the company also, but I kept coming back to the gravy job.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on November 18, 2006, 07:20:24 PM
The first sight of my son was easily the most amazing thing that I've ever experienced. I was immediately marked as a wierdo by the nursing staff, because I refused to cut the umbilical cord. I told them I didn't want THAT symbolic imagery between my wife and I. I did not want to be the person responsible for her being "disconnected" from her child.

I did exactly the same thing when my son was born. I refused to cut the cord. They are the pros, for crying out loud, and I don't give a shit about the symbol value.

It isnt that hard to do, it kinda pisses me off that they don't ask the woman that just gave birth if she'd like to do it.

my wife gets to reach between her legs and pull the baby out once the baby has at least their shoulders out.

i cut the cord with my second.  after my first i was in la-la land.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 18, 2006, 07:24:49 PM
The first sight of my son was easily the most amazing thing that I've ever experienced. I was immediately marked as a wierdo by the nursing staff, because I refused to cut the umbilical cord. I told them I didn't want THAT symbolic imagery between my wife and I. I did not want to be the person responsible for her being "disconnected" from her child.

I did exactly the same thing when my son was born. I refused to cut the cord. They are the pros, for crying out loud, and I don't give a shit about the symbol value.

It isnt that hard to do, it kinda pisses me off that they don't ask the woman that just gave birth if she'd like to do it.

Exactly! They don't ask ... they just assume. I guess it's the only thing they can think of to include the sperm donor, since he already did his little part and won't be needed again for a while. I considered it somewhat of an insult, although, I do understand that there are plenty of women who don't have the love of a decent man at that time. (I'm including myself in the decent category)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on November 18, 2006, 07:27:41 PM
They put up a screen and I could not even see her come out.  I was disappointed, but it was something about keeping the field sterile, I think.  It would not have bothered me to see her come out of my abdomen, but apparently it freaks some people out to see themselves be cut open.  They handed her to my husband since my arms were strapped down as if I was on a cross.  I had to tell him how to soothe her, because he had never held such a young baby before.

The doctor cut the cord because it was wrapped around her neck four times.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: purposefulinsanity on November 18, 2006, 07:41:11 PM
Why did they strap you down Callaway? :(
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on November 18, 2006, 07:42:43 PM
hey, waddup dawg?

know anything about audio?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on November 18, 2006, 07:46:34 PM
I had an emergency Caesarean section, so they had to do it, I guess.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 18, 2006, 07:47:28 PM
hey, waddup dawg?

know anything about audio?
ummm ... errr... yeah.

Not really into latest digital studios, but in the few vintage places that are still standing, I would be right at home, even still.

I wonder if I'm the only one here who uses a modern tube amp for stereo.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 18, 2006, 08:00:58 PM
I had an emergency Caesarean section, so they had to do it, I guess.
It kind of sounds like a convenience thing for them. They've probably had a few women totally freak right when they were too busy to deal with them.

We were lucky in so many ways. There were no major problems at birthing. The worst they did to my wife was an episiotomy, both times.

I remember watcing them suture her and they were getting really concerned about my mental health. I was merely watching and they were all worried about ME. Trying to convince me to sit down and relax ( I was relaxed, especially after the boy turned out so healthy ) and telling me that most men can't watch this without passing out. I mean jezus fucking christ bleeding on a stick, they just cut HER pussy open, not mine. They needed to pay attention to that. I was fine! I just wanted to make sure no one said "OOPS!", ya know.


MOD:

To faithful and gentle readers in the future, please, understand and recognise that I am not belittling the extreme trauma that a woman's body endures from the moment of conception and through to the end of lactation during reproduction. I am merely pointing out that our time in the delivery room was as straight-forward and problem-free as possible. We were very fortunate.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: purposefulinsanity on November 18, 2006, 08:11:39 PM
I've seen emergency c-sections before but I've never seen them strap a woman down before- that sounds like a really horrible experience Callaway and scary too.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Hypnotica_Gaze on November 18, 2006, 10:52:46 PM
DirtDawg, if i recall correctly, you asked me about some alternative fairytales/stories etc didnt you?

Well if you were serious, i couldnt find my old sanskrit/hindi ones which i was referring to, but i found a few little short stories of eastern nature etc, if you still want them i could copy a few i found, along with some titles and paste them to you in a PM or whatever, when i have some free time.



Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 19, 2006, 02:36:23 AM
Hey HG,

Before you go to too much effort, let me make you aware of something about my daughter, who's in kindergarten. For one, she is reading quite well and is ready for materials well in advance of what a normal seven or eight year old would be able to read and enjoy. Another important point is that she is extremely tactile in nature, which means that a stack of computer printed pages would not have the same intrigue as an actual book, with proper binding, stiff, compressed paper pages, slick, detailed illustrations, and portability.

Whatever I get for her will have to be in 'real' book form. So, merely a listing of some of your favorite stories or authors would be sufficient and very helpful. The thing you said before, which caught my attention, was the availibility of stories which portray women as strong and self sufficient, intelligent and able to meet and overcome challenges, instead of the western version of the submissive door mat type of woman, nothing more than a spectator as her destiny is defined, unable to affect the direction of her own future, and waiting for that special knight in shining armor to wisk her away to freedom and happiness, happily ever after, etc. To me those fairy tales are like pure poison to her character.

She is not self sufficient, she is five, but she is self contained and complete in her mind and has my survivor instincts and desire to broaden herself. I want to encourage that natural tendency of hers to fend for herself as much as I possibly can. Titles and authors will be great if you can offer those. Otherwise, I will search forward, myself in that direction. Either way, I want to thank you for the ideas.

 :)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: purposefulinsanity on November 19, 2006, 06:21:15 AM


Going back to this question for a few minutes ...

I have put up the answer that everyone with kids expects, but it's true. Even though it seems like a cop-out, pat response to an evocative question, I can't state it any more strongly. My kids are IT!



I don't think it is a cop-out response, I certainly find life with my kids, trying to understand them, the new experiences I have because of them,etc incredibly interesting.  Its an experience that can be difficult at times and tiring, but the rewards are so more than worth it.

How many children do you have? (sorry if you've answered this before somewhere else already).

Edited to add: yeah you did already say how many kids you have- sorry but I'm absolutely warn out today so my memory isn't at its best.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 19, 2006, 06:38:42 AM

How many children do you have? (sorry if you've answered this before somewhere else already).

Edited to add: yeah you did already say how many kids you have- sorry but I'm absolutely warn out today so my memory isn't at its best.

No problem. I have earned my braggart badge. What we really need for half of my BS is a Captain Obvious smiley.

<;^)


MOD:

BTW, it's a boy, seven, who looks like Daddy and a girl, five, who looks like Mommy. Both PDD. Perfect.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Hypnotica_Gaze on November 19, 2006, 01:01:48 PM
I sent you a PM DirtDawg with some ideas, names etc.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on November 19, 2006, 03:36:06 PM
+karma for DirtDawg, when my daughter was born, I was right there and saw her coming out every step of the way.  I basically saw my role as being the support for Carla and telling her that she was doing ok!  Which during the birth process, she grabbed the front of my shirt pulled me down to her face and demanded to know if she was doing ok!  That was during the major contractions and she needed mega reassurance!  Fortunately, she did great, no epesiotomy or even painkillers.  As for the cutting of the umbilical cord, neither one of us even thought about it, we were both in a daze!  In hindsight I'm glad we had a great crew of nurses and the doctor, they handled it and that suited me just fine.

As for Callaway's emergency cesaerean, it's a surgery protocol to have a screen even with scheduled procedures!  Cutting open the abdomen is dicey under the best circumstances and the risk of an infection there is unthinkable.  The slightest infection in the abdominal cavity is difficult to treat and can have awful consequences.  As for tying the wrists down, that may have also been for safety.  I know that Carla began to reach down towards Amber before she had fully come out and they had to stop her, but, they did it gently!  Carla was to put it mildly, out of her mind a little bit with the pain and excitement.  I shudder to think about the emotional state of a woman having an emergency cesaerean.  Giving birth is not for the timid and I sure as hell wouldn't have wanted the experience!  So my hats off to all the mothers out there!
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on November 19, 2006, 03:43:45 PM
Thanks for explaining why they strapped down my arms and put up the screen, Ozymandias.  I have always wondered afterward, but at the time, getting her out safely was my biggest concern.  I'll never forget when the doctor counted while he took the loops of her umbilical cord out from around her neck.  Fortunately they had time to let me stay awake for the surgery and I was glad for that, even though it was not exactly the birth I had planned.  The most important thing is that she was born alive.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 19, 2006, 06:50:28 PM
I sent you a PM DirtDawg with some ideas, names etc.

Wow!

We will get a lot of good from your listing, complete with synopses! I'm impressed and I'm in your debt.
Thank you so much.


Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 19, 2006, 06:53:11 PM
...  So my hats off to all the mothers out there!

Can I get a AMEN, brothers?  :)

Well said, Ozy!
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on November 19, 2006, 06:54:28 PM
dawg, how did you get so much karma in so little time?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 19, 2006, 07:14:22 PM
dawg, how did you get so much karma in so little time?
hmmm ... dunno. Probably the tree fucking pic. Ya gotta admit ... that was a great find!

I'm also proud of the clever way I opened this thread.

 :laugh:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on November 19, 2006, 07:15:55 PM
unfortunately i had + you over something else, before i wandered accross that tree picture.  which, btw, was fucking hilarious.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Scrapheap on November 19, 2006, 07:50:05 PM
dawg, how did you get so much karma in so little time?
hmmm ... dunno. Probably the tree fucking pic. Ya gotta admit ... that was a great find!

I'm also proud of the clever way I opened this thread.

 :laugh:

Where is the tree fucking pic?? I missed it!  :grrr:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on November 19, 2006, 08:14:29 PM
in the make someone laugh thread.
games forum
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: purposefulinsanity on November 20, 2006, 04:43:20 AM
dawg, how did you get so much karma in so little time?

Possibly because all the bitching about it reminds people that the karma function is there  :laugh:

I've 'yayed' dirtdawg a few times- for making me laugh (the fucking trees post for example), for backing up his words when he's been called on them instead of running away (the veg stealing comments for example), and basically because I find his posts refreshing.  And if that sounds too much like sucking his cock I personally don't give a fuck.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on November 20, 2006, 07:12:23 PM
Thank you, PI for ... ummm ... all of that.

I + you.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: purposefulinsanity on December 14, 2006, 04:11:04 AM
Do you ever sleep?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on December 14, 2006, 04:59:06 AM
Will you get rid of Hendrix and bring back the hot girl?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 14, 2006, 09:46:46 AM
Do you ever sleep?

Yes, but not in a traditional sense. I take catnaps, usually a couple of times per day.

My current working theory is that I may have fucked myself up, during my early years, by trying to force my body into a routine of sleep whoring at prescribed times, which never worked. Having a "normal" sleep routine has never fit me. Sure, I could pass out, just fine, with alcohol and get six or seven hours of sleep, everyday, and I did that every time I had a regular day job, but I don't drink alcohol anymore and I'm much stronger against stresses for lack of it. I am a problem drinker.

You know, there are two kinds of problem drinkers in this world, those who drink too much and those who drink too little. I drink too little, in the sense that I am very sensitive to alcohol, so a beer or two or three almost every night was a strong dose to me, and I did it regularly, over the years. Usually seven or eight within five or six hours  (a big night out, for instsance )  is enough for me to pass out. I could never have kept up with the likes of Kevv or Dragonshagger, the Night Knight.

Following with my theory, it seems that my body clock ignores the sun to a large degree, or maybe fights it, and takes its own course. I think, that I have a roughly thirty two to thirty four hour cycle (really a drag trying to work a nine to five job) and during that time I need to get about six to eight hours of sleep, when I'm healthy, which sort of translates into about three, two or three hour naps. I can't ignore the sun, completely, though, because it's too loud to sleep through during the day.

Without drinking alcohol or taking some kind of powerful sleep drug, I have never gotten more that five hours straight sleep in my entire adult life. I used to try sleeping pills over and over, until I realized that my body was fighting them with enough adrenaline to give me the shakes. After giving up all that doctoring crap and letting nature rule, I have been much better off. Usually after three or four hours downtime, I'm good again for another twenty or so.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 14, 2006, 09:49:58 AM
Will you get rid of Hendrix and bring back the hot girl?

Yes, but probably not the same pic and most definitely not before I get the red burned off my new Hendrix CD.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on January 02, 2007, 12:07:51 PM
Will you get rid of Hendrix and bring back the hot girl?
Evangeline followed by Jimi and for the new year, a short lived adaptation from The House Of Flying Daggers (cool movies).

How about this, for now, Odeon?

(http://i18.tinypic.com/34yy9ox.jpg)

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YOU ASSHOLE!!
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on January 02, 2007, 03:06:54 PM
Will you get rid of Hendrix and bring back the hot girl?
Evangeline followed by Jimi and for the new year, a short lived adaptation from The House Of Flying Daggers (cool movies).

How about this, for now, Odeon?

(http://i18.tinypic.com/34yy9ox.jpg)

Very nice.  :heart:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on January 02, 2007, 03:15:45 PM
too bad the best part of her body is covered with ink.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Litigious on January 02, 2007, 03:24:12 PM
No, the best part isn't on the picture at all.  :eyebrows:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on January 02, 2007, 05:19:40 PM
No, the best part isn't on the picture at all.  :eyebrows:

You're a bad man, Tig.

:laugh:

Why in the fuck was I the only one who ever called him, "Tig?"
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: driftingblizzard on January 02, 2007, 08:02:18 PM
What has been the most interesting experience of your life?

Going back to this question for a few minutes ...

I have put up the answer that everyone with kids expects, but it's true. Even though it seems like a cop-out, pat response to an evocative question, I can't state it any more strongly. My kids are IT!

I have done some fun stuff in my life, starting in music at fifteen, hiding my age, playing country music in a bar and, eventually moving into the sound reinforcement end of concerts shows. Taking long tour contracts with stars, living like I was on vacation the whole time, traveling all over the USA and Canada making music, some studio work, celebrity charity events, building my own KICK ASS sound system, and carrying a camera around my neck the whole time was "interesting", but none of it compares to the creation of life.

When the music business gobbled me up and spit me out, leaving me without any interest in continuing, I took a long vacation and switched to my camera for a way to make a living. I started learning more about people portraits at a job taking pics of families and that lead to a 'permanent studio' job, instead of a traveling job for the first time in my life. It was a large company and I had to take lots of pics, but there were moments were I got a little reminder of why I put up with all the asshole customers and evil bosses, often enough to keep going. The parent's faces ...

The look on a proud Mom's face when she sees what I've done with her kids pics is priceless. I enjoyed that reaction so much that I stayed with that company for many years. I worked damned hard for myself, outside the company also, but I kept coming back to the gravy job.

What mental abnormality does IT stand for?  I thought I knew them all...
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on January 02, 2007, 08:38:45 PM

... not it like I.T.

... but IT, like "it", but with implied emphasis.

... or google IT and scoll to the two hundred seventy ninth page ...
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: driftingblizzard on January 02, 2007, 09:05:30 PM
I'm laughing so hard I can hardly type....


He Now Adds, several days later:

I was laughing at myself because I did such an AS thing.
Only now I know why.  It makes laughing at myself easier and much more fun.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on January 06, 2007, 12:02:02 PM

I gotta plus ya for that. AS things are more popular here, than in many other places.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on January 06, 2007, 02:10:09 PM
have you ever had anything climb up your arse.  or be inserted?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on January 06, 2007, 04:33:38 PM
have you ever had anything climb up your arse.  or be inserted?

It's been tried a few times ... once by a flea. I've heard that once a flea tastes ass meat there's no going back and it will always be an ass biter after that. I obsessed for an hour to make sure it was dead, before I could go back to sleep.


If I answer that question, in more detail, you and others will probably make fun of me. Let's just say two failed attempts, including the flea, and three successful attempts. That makes a full house, I think.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on January 06, 2007, 06:16:54 PM
have you ever had anything climb up your arse.  or be inserted?

It's been tried a few times ... once by a flea. I've heard that once a flea tastes ass meat there's no going back and it will always be an ass biter after that. I obsessed for an hour to make sure it was dead, before I could go back to sleep.


If I answer that question, in more detail, you and others will probably make fun of me. Let's just say two failed attempts, including the flea, and three successful attempts. That makes a full house, I think.
what, kings over jacks.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: driftingblizzard on January 06, 2007, 06:45:07 PM
have you ever had anything climb up your arse.  or be inserted?

It's been tried a few times ... once by a flea. I've heard that once a flea tastes ass meat there's no going back and it will always be an ass biter after that. I obsessed for an hour to make sure it was dead, before I could go back to sleep.


If I answer that question, in more detail, you and others will probably make fun of me. Let's just say two failed attempts, including the flea, and three successful attempts. That makes a full house, I think.

I have no idea whether its a full house or not, but it soundsl like SOMETHING was full.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on March 27, 2007, 04:44:58 PM
do you have any suggestions for a catchy title under my current avatar?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on March 31, 2007, 02:30:02 PM
do you have any suggestions for a catchy title under my current avatar?

I think the one you have is appropriate, even funny. I don't really know how to do catchy.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: El on April 01, 2007, 03:00:51 PM
I don't know how to say this, but I... I think I may be falling for you.  I think about you all the time.  Last night I had an erotic dream about you.  To read about it in more detail, please Go here. (http://www.intensitysquared.com/index.php?topic=436.msg134224#msg134224)

I don't even dare ask the obvious question...
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on April 01, 2007, 08:20:20 PM
 :emb:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: duncvis on May 05, 2007, 07:36:44 PM
Are you gonna be joining the World Council then?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on May 05, 2007, 07:54:00 PM
have you ever had anything climb up your arse.  or be inserted?

It's been tried a few times ... once by a flea. I've heard that once a flea tastes ass meat there's no going back and it will always be an ass biter after that. I obsessed for an hour to make sure it was dead, before I could go back to sleep.


If I answer that question, in more detail, you and others will probably make fun of me. Let's just say two failed attempts, including the flea, and three successful attempts. That makes a full house, I think.

Now you've got me curious. What's the harm anyhow? We're going to make fun of you
either way. Personally, I'd like stories from someone who's tried more. I certainly had
curiosity this way (and have inserted things there regularly), but never met the
right conditions.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 06, 2007, 02:25:22 AM
Are you gonna be joining the World Council then?

I have no interest in taking over the world, but thanks, anyway.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on May 06, 2007, 02:26:54 AM
You know that your stars will stay yellow then?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 06, 2007, 02:51:25 AM
have you ever had anything climb up your arse.  or be inserted?

It's been tried a few times ... once by a flea. I've heard that once a flea tastes ass meat there's no going back and it will always be an ass biter after that. I obsessed for an hour to make sure it was dead, before I could go back to sleep.


If I answer that question, in more detail, you and others will probably make fun of me. Let's just say two failed attempts, including the flea, and three successful attempts. That makes a full house, I think.


Now you've got me curious. What's the harm anyhow? We're going to make fun of you
either way. Personally, I'd like stories from someone who's tried more. I certainly had
curiosity this way (and have inserted things there regularly), but never met the
right conditions.

The other failed attempt was a gang rape, which I had to fight myself out of. I was seventeen and there were six of them, all older, but not any meaner than I was at the time. It's actually an involved story and I remember details and can see pictures in my mind as clearly as if it was five minutes ago. It was the longest fight I have ever been in and I was absolutely exhausted and beaten to a pulp when it was over, but I got away, last man standing, although naked and bloody, and the only thing that went up my ass was a grease gun nozzle. I still call it a failed attempt.

I don't know what you mean by the right conditions, but I have known three men who I considered lovers, but I didn't count some group play when I was twenty two, living on the beach with hippies and stoned a lot. It would be impossible to recount those group experiences, accurately, because of all the dope we used during that time. I just remember days and nights would pass, with everyone fucking everyone, all the time.

I can't imagine why I never caught an STD.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on May 06, 2007, 03:00:26 AM
Wow. Where did the attack happen?

I was from a later time, and the whole
"free-love" idea was gone, by the time
I was old enough to be getting anything.

I was always curious how it would feel though,
but it wasn't what was on my mind the one time
that I was with a guy (the one group thing that I did,
though pretty tame by your standards, I'm sure).

I did use it as a bribe for one gf, if she managed to
get me another girl - I told her she could do me that
way, as long as I was in someone else. Funny thing,
when we finally got together with my wife, she never
pushed the issue.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 06, 2007, 03:19:15 AM
Wow. Where did the attack happen?
 

It happened in south Texas. It was actually more of a brutalizing than a fucking. The older brother of a girl I was dating led the beating on the premise that if he fucked me in the ass, his sister would no longer find me attractive. He was very wrong, becasue it brought out the mother instincts in the girl, which I was repulsed by.
It took a while to heal.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on May 06, 2007, 03:25:11 AM
I will never understand what makes guys think along those lines.
It's the same kind of crap the cops in NYC were caught doing.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on May 06, 2007, 03:49:43 AM
Well, if I didn't believe you when you said you were future sole survivor of the aspie elite, I do now. I'm with Calandale - damn.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 06, 2007, 05:36:10 AM

I guess my point is that life is not always about the ass.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on May 06, 2007, 05:45:54 AM
 :laugh:

(hopes that was actually meant to be funny)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on May 06, 2007, 05:46:43 AM
I couldn't figure it out.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on May 06, 2007, 05:49:18 AM
I thought it was a jibe at McJagger.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 06, 2007, 06:16:43 AM

There's that sheen, again.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on May 06, 2007, 06:17:10 AM
Wow. Where did the attack happen?

I was from a later time, and the whole

It happened in south Texas. It was actually more of a brutalizing than a fucking. The older brother of a girl I was dating led the beating on the premise that if he fucked me in the ass, his sister would no longer find me attractive. He was very wrong, becasue it brought out the mother instincts in the girl, which I was repulsed by.
It took a while to heal.
sounds like mexican machismo.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 06, 2007, 06:32:56 AM
Wow. Where did the attack happen?

I was from a later time, and the whole

It happened in south Texas. It was actually more of a brutalizing than a fucking. The older brother of a girl I was dating led the beating on the premise that if he fucked me in the ass, his sister would no longer find me attractive. He was very wrong, becasue it brought out the mother instincts in the girl, which I was repulsed by.
It took a while to heal.
sounds like mexican machismo.

Nah, all, but one were white guys. The ringleader was a roughian I had known for about four years. I wanted to fuck his sister, but had only done foreplay. It was a broken family, living with a drunken uncle, but the tough guy was the "father image" of his four younger siblings. He felt the duty and was doing what he thought was best, I suppose. The feud did not end there.

I tried to take his head off, about a year later, by stretching a cable across the path in his motocross trail. I fucked up, because he took a different angle and had more speed and elevation than normal. His chest and arm took the cable. He lost the use of his arm as a result. I was way past done with his sister by then, in fact I had hooked up with the girl who would eventually become my ex-wife, but he kept on coming.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on May 06, 2007, 06:42:45 AM
Wow. Where did the attack happen?

I was from a later time, and the whole

It happened in south Texas. It was actually more of a brutalizing than a fucking. The older brother of a girl I was dating led the beating on the premise that if he fucked me in the ass, his sister would no longer find me attractive. He was very wrong, becasue it brought out the mother instincts in the girl, which I was repulsed by.
It took a while to heal.
sounds like mexican machismo.

Nah, all, but one were white guys. The ringleader was a roughian I had known for about four years. I wanted to fuck his sister, but had only done foreplay. It was a broken family, living with a drunken uncle, but the tough guy was the "father image" of his four younger siblings. He felt the duty and was doing what he thought was best, I suppose. The feud did not end there.

I tried to take his head off, about a year later, by stretching a cable across the path in his motocross trail. I fucked up, because he took a different angle and had more speed and elevation than normal. His chest and arm took the cable. He lost the use of his arm as a result. I was way past done with his sister by then, in fact I had hooked up with the girl who would eventually become my ex-wife, but he kept on coming.
this all sounds like the makings of an interesting coming of age book.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 06, 2007, 06:54:57 AM

It still would have got him, if I had been able to put a little more angle on the cable, but sturdy trees are kind of rare in south Texas. I had to use the ones that would withstand the tension of the cable.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on May 06, 2007, 06:56:35 AM
What was his problem to begin with? Was he against you in particular fucking his sister, or anyone doing it?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on May 06, 2007, 06:58:03 AM
What was his problem to begin with? Was he against you in particular fucking his sister, or anyone doing it?
it was south texas.
i presume that he wanted her for himself.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 06, 2007, 07:15:04 AM
What was his problem to begin with? Was he against you in particular fucking his sister, or anyone doing it?

He harrassed anyone who spent time with her. I believe, in retrospect, that he was actually against his sister, more than me. At least until I had bested him, out of sheer luck of a few accidentally well placed strokes, in a real fight. Some people are never done, though.

I mentioned an email I got about six weeks ago with the subject line:

"Hi, (my real name). You knew my father, (my old nemisis)"

I did not open it for four days, but I looked at it a lot. I became curious to see the attachments. It was from this guy's son and included were two pics of me and his aunt (the girl we fought over) that he found in his father's things after he died. I have not responded, but I am very curious about the rest of the contents of the box of shit he kept about me. Is this kid trying to do me a favor, to honor something in his father's memory or is he going to continue the feud? *insert generic paranoid rant*

The email was two lines: he's dead and these photos were found. That's it! If curiosity killed the cat, I know how.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on May 06, 2007, 07:18:14 AM
he probably didn't like his father if his father was anything as an adult as he was as a teen.

how did the boy get your e-mail addy?

maybe you should e-mail back and inquire about his aunt....as an old friend.


you might get a clearer picture of the original e-mail from her.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 06, 2007, 07:26:14 AM

That is basically what I had planned to do, but I hesitate to toil a healed scar to bleed again for either of us. My family use my original Yahoo address with my real name, but that would be easy to get, by trial and error if nothing else.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Scrapheap on May 20, 2007, 11:11:34 PM
Hey DirtDawg..... haven't heard from you in a while.... is everything OK ??
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on May 20, 2007, 11:12:49 PM
Last I saw, he was pretty pissy,
and I just aggravated him more.
I hope I didn't piss him off too
much, as I really miss him.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on May 21, 2007, 08:53:03 AM
Last I saw, he was pretty pissy,
and I just aggravated him more.
I hope I didn't piss him off too
much, as I really miss him.
don't flatter yourself, you are an inconsequential nutter.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on May 21, 2007, 01:40:34 PM
I'm not. I just felt badly, as I was in
a playful mood, and pissing everyone
off (as my pleasure invariably does).
Seemed that the only exchange that he
had on that day was with me, and he
walked away pissed. Though, I suspect
things were not going right to begin
with, and all of the spamming (not
just mine) got on his nerves, for
whatever reason.

But, I was pretty damned wound
up at the time. Anyhow, I hope things
are ok for him. He's one of my favorite
posters here.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Scrapheap on May 21, 2007, 08:11:20 PM
DirtDawg has been browsing the site but not posting.


Is everything OK G.Go ??



Give us a sign!!
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 22, 2007, 01:20:04 AM
Almost any sign will do. ;)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 22, 2007, 10:39:23 AM
I'm fine.

I will check in every day or two.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on May 22, 2007, 10:40:45 AM

I'm fine.

I will check in ever day or two.

Good.

 :)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 22, 2007, 01:47:18 PM
Glad to hear it.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 22, 2007, 04:35:41 PM
I'm not. I just felt badly, as I was in
a playful mood, and pissing everyone
off (as my pleasure invariably does).
Seemed that the only exchange that he
had on that day was with me, and he
walked away pissed. Though, I suspect
things were not going right to begin
with, and all of the spamming (not
just mine) got on his nerves, for
whatever reason.

But, I was pretty damned wound
up at the time. Anyhow, I hope things
are ok for him. He's one of my favorite
posters here.

Forget it. It means nothing. I called you a name in some lame non-Intense sort of way, typical of me. People leave here almost everyday, but fading away, slowly, is more my style. It has nothing to do with you.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on May 22, 2007, 04:44:33 PM
Thanks. I know I can be an annoyance.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Scrapheap on May 22, 2007, 08:34:44 PM
I'm fine.

I will check in every day or two.

Glad to hear you're still hangin in there and fighting the fight G.Go!!  ;D
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: duncvis on May 23, 2007, 05:44:50 AM
I hope you don't decide to fade away DD. You're one of the most interesting folk here, and I'd miss you.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 23, 2007, 02:19:11 PM
I hope you don't decide to fade away DD. You're one of the most interesting folk here, and I'd miss you.

QFT
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: purposefulinsanity on May 23, 2007, 05:33:46 PM
I don't have a question for you I just wanted to say Hi. :)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 23, 2007, 09:35:25 PM
I hope you don't decide to fade away DD. You're one of the most interesting folk here, and I'd miss you.
Well, thanks. I have to fade away, but I'm not deleting my account. I'll try to explain. That means I'll be back, right?

I think of this:

Cheap Trick ( I love the stupid song!)

"I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me"

Sorry, Dunc, but that song is not about me. In fact, the opposite of that song's sentimental message is closer to the true me. I got off the stage at an early point in my music career. I also made sure I stayed behind the camera. I am at home with the grungy pub atmosphere, here, and I prefer to be the over-sauced, drooling, red-eyed graybeard in the corner, singing to himself and bragging to everyone for half an hour about making it to the head and back, without any beer or piss spilling incidents, but not noticing that I forgot to zip my pants, or that I picked up your beer by mistake and started drinking from it, occasionally kicking the jukebox until an annoying song stops playing, all the while needing to wipe my chin, again.

Having a lot of attention or actually "praise" drawn specifically and directly to me is somewhat toxic. I never had trouble with crowds, because people in crowds are mostly like a herd of bovine or some other such unintelligent hoof-trotters, but there have been times when I was devastated by some asswipe on stage creating a scene to make me "look good". I almost had to run away once when the manager of a huge club got on the microphone and talked about how that particular local band had played that venue many times and they often closed early because no one was there to play for, but on this night it was after one o'clock AM and the people were still there dancing, standing, chanting and wanting more music. He gave me full credit for the turn-around, since it was my second night to work that club and band and my sound company was the only thing different from the previous weeks. Within about thirty seconds I had almost two thousand people cheering for me and expecting me to like it. I managed to wave back, twice, before I stumbled backwards off my sound-riser to the back and blew a fountain of bile in an atomized spray about eight feet in radius.

It literally makes me violently ill to be "made over" too much. I can't take it. My logic systems tell me that it is harmless and it is usually meant in good faith, but logic doesn't keep me from becoming overwhelmed and blowing bile. It's the only thing that makes me toss-tidbits, but it is not something I can control. Admittedly, that was an extreme case, but the feelings are still there at times when someone wants to make me the center of something.

If I am to be in the center of something, it HAS TO BE ME doing it! If I get into a fight it has to be MY fight! Really, I can take it if it is only one or two people, but several people trying to sing some high praise of me gets to me, rather quickly. When there were several people trying to get me to join the World Council and telling me that I "belonged" in it, I was getting some disturbing feelings and I had a difficult time expressing them - probably should not have tried. I suppose I'm a little embarrassed to be such a wimp, considering some realtime trauma that I have trudged through. It probably doesn't make sense, either, to post my fractal artwork and not expect to get praised, but (this is the key point) that artwork is not something I have my soul invested in. I do it for the release of stress and it is out of a childish sense of friendship that I share them, besides, it is the programs I use that deserve all the credit, anyway, not me, so it is easy for me to stow-away what is said in that thread.

The rest of the pages I post in here represent the real me - hopefully most people know the sarcastic me  by now, too. It is me at my most human and fallible, not some persona I have cultivated for this site. If I was going to create a stylized likeness of myself for IntensitySquared  I would not have chosen to be an old washed up, depressed, headbanging, half-schizo, jobless, dry-sponge, living off the good nature of a fine woman with little of substance left to live for except his young kids. I would have chosen some personality that would be a little more interesting, don't you think? My negative reaction is an unforeseen circumstance due to the fact that I have tried to be as honest as possible with myself and my "new friends" here (investing) and I am not hiding behind some pseudo-persona, that makes it most difficult to tolerate the excess of attention (not the right word, because I crave deliberation, encouragement, approval, and guidance, but not accolades, glory, exaltations, kudos) when it happens, like the "Newsbox" thing, which really put me off, but again, I choose carefully which battles I fight. I can't help it. It is just me, being me. With the real me, you get the real me, but even with much of the squareness knocked off my pegs I still don't fit those neat round holes very well. Scr'eap even accused me of trying to get compliments, which goes to show how far off my communication skills are at times, since I just wanted it to end.

Just so that no one thinks I'm cooking up some dramatic mystery by disappearing for a while, I should let you in on some of the unusual things that have happened this month and captured my attention. It's May in Indiana, so there's the race, of course, but I'm also up against some personal stuff. I figure if you are still with me after all that, you deserve to know some of the really scary, emotionally heavy stuff, too.

I have been in contact, over a dozen emails, with the woman I fought over, (mentioned earlier in this thread) whose brother (I fought with and tried to kill) died a few months ago. The first fight took place when I was fifteen, but it later got very serious and was not really over for more than a year. However, the lovely lady (a year younger, but looks ten years older than I do, now) who I had known since childhood, was a person I "frequented" after I split up with my first wife, in my early twenties.

She and I were both horny sluts and involved in some group activities, living wild on the beach with other hippie/doper types, etc. but she became pregnant. At the time, last I saw of her, she was going to have an abortion, because she really did not want to start a family, especially not knowing who the father was. It was a big impact to me, because it ended a good thing. In many ways it was a blessing, however, because I let her go and concentrated my efforts on my business and had some successes, followed up contacts, my dad helped me get bank financing for some expansion, etc, etc. and my "life" took off at that point. Something changed her mind, though, and she brought the child into the world, anyway, but she stayed out of touch. I had no idea she had done that, until this month, which was the first time I had heard from her since the early '80s, but with no mention of her three or four year old son at that time.
The punchline ... her, soon-to-be, twenty eight year old son looks exactly like me in the picture she sent (I really don't need a DNA test, but my wife wants me to have one, thinks it would be good for me to know for sure - she does not know what it feels like to be this sure of anything) and he has also been diagnosed with autism, about twelve years ago, when he was still in high school.

This is the second "surprise" offspring I have lived my life without knowing of. My ex-wife also has a child who is also, obviously, begotten of my begettings. I have tried to contact the son of my ex-wife in the past, but she won't budge. I have shown respect at an arm's distance, though. God only knows what he has been told about me. She wants to hold him over me in some strange way which I don't understand. Dealing with my ex-wife is very tricky, because she is a whackjob psycho, so I had let go of the agony of not knowing a child of my loins, several years ago. Now with another "surprise" kid to ponder, I am wondering if my ex-wife's middle son (my son) is also autistic. If so, that would make four autistic kids from one autistic spazcase loser with nothing to brag about but the ability to produce high motility sperm. I don't know if that is good or bad, but the whole thing is somewhat upsetting, if you can imagine. I have got to meet these two young men, if at all possible, but I am not sure how or why.



It took me a while to explain. This was not meant to be so longwinded and it rambles a bit - sorry.

... and I don't expect anyone to respond.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 23, 2007, 09:37:29 PM
I hope you don't decide to fade away DD. You're one of the most interesting folk here, and I'd miss you.

QFT

Thanks, Odeon.


... see I need a keyboard shortcut that says this. :laugh:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 23, 2007, 09:38:33 PM
I don't have a question for you I just wanted to say Hi. :)

Hi, PI.
 8)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on May 23, 2007, 09:45:27 PM
I'm fine.

I will check in every day or two.
more posts by you means more times i get to randomly see your avatar.   ;D
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on May 23, 2007, 10:28:50 PM
I hope you don't decide to fade away DD. You're one of the most interesting folk here, and I'd miss you.
Well, thanks. I have to fade away, but I'm not deleting my account. I'll try to explain. That means I'll be back, right?

I think of this:

Cheap Trick ( I love the stupid song!)

"I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me"

Sorry, Dunc, but that song is not about me. In fact, the opposite of that song's sentimental message is closer to the true me. I got off the stage at an early point in my music career. I also made sure I stayed behind the camera. I am at home with the grungy pub atmosphere, here, and I prefer to be the over-sauced, drooling, red-eyed graybeard in the corner, singing to himself and bragging to everyone for half an hour about making it to the head and back, without any beer or piss spilling incidents, but not noticing that I forgot to zip my pants, or that I picked up your beer by mistake and started drinking from it, occasionally kicking the jukebox until an annoying song stops playing, all the while needing to wipe my chin, again.

Having a lot of attention or actually "praise" drawn specifically and directly to me is somewhat toxic. I never had trouble with crowds, because people in crowds are mostly like a herd of bovine or some other such unintelligent hoof-trotters, but there have been times when I was devastated by some asswipe on stage creating a scene to make me "look good". I almost had to run away once when the manager of a huge club got on the microphone and talked about how that particular local band had played that venue many times and they often closed early because no one was there to play for, but on this night it was after one o'clock AM and the people were still there dancing, standing, chanting and wanting more music. He gave me full credit for the turn-around, since it was my second night to work that club and band and my sound company was the only thing different from the previous weeks. Within about thirty seconds I had almost two thousand people cheering for me and expecting me to like it. I managed to wave back, twice, before I stumbled backwards off my sound-riser to the back and blew a fountain of bile in an atomized spray about eight feet in radius.

It literally makes me violently ill to be "made over" too much. I can't take it. My logic systems tell me that it is harmless and it is usually meant in good faith, but logic doesn't keep me from becoming overwhelmed and blowing bile. It's the only thing that makes me toss-tidbits, but it is not something I can control. Admittedly, that was an extreme case, but the feelings are still there at times when someone wants to make me the center of something.

If I am to be in the center of something, it HAS TO BE ME doing it! If I get into a fight it has to be MY fight! Really, I can take it if it is only one or two people, but several people trying to sing some high praise of me gets to me, rather quickly. When there were several people trying to get me to join the World Council and telling me that I "belonged" in it, I was getting some disturbing feelings and I had a difficult time expressing them - probably should not have tried. I suppose I'm a little embarrassed to be such a wimp, considering some realtime trauma that I have trudged through. It probably doesn't make sense, either, to post my fractal artwork and not expect to get praised, but (this is the key point) that artwork is not something I have my soul invested in. I do it for the release of stress and it is out of a childish sense of friendship that I share them, besides, it is the programs I use that deserve all the credit, anyway, not me, so it is easy for me to stow-away what is said in that thread.

The rest of the pages I post in here represent the real me - hopefully most people know the sarcastic me  by now, too. It is me at my most human and fallible, not some persona I have cultivated for this site. If I was going to create a stylized likeness of myself for IntensitySquared  I would not have chosen to be an old washed up, depressed, headbanging, half-schizo, jobless, dry-sponge, living off the good nature of a fine woman with little of substance left to live for except his young kids. I would have chosen some personality that would be a little more interesting, don't you think? My negative reaction is an unforeseen circumstance due to the fact that I have tried to be as honest as possible with myself and my "new friends" here (investing) and I am not hiding behind some pseudo-persona, that makes it most difficult to tolerate the excess of attention (not the right word, because I crave deliberation, encouragement, approval, and guidance, but not accolades, glory, exaltations, kudos) when it happens, like the "Newsbox" thing, which really put me off, but again, I choose carefully which battles I fight. I can't help it. It is just me, being me. With the real me, you get the real me, but even with much of the squareness knocked off my pegs I still don't fit those neat round holes very well. Scr'eap even accused me of trying to get compliments, which goes to show how far off my communication skills are at times, since I just wanted it to end.

Just so that no one thinks I'm cooking up some dramatic mystery by disappearing for a while, I should let you in on some of the unusual things that have happened this month and captured my attention. It's May in Indiana, so there's the race, of course, but I'm also up against some personal stuff. I figure if you are still with me after all that, you deserve to know some of the really scary, emotionally heavy stuff, too.

I have been in contact, over a dozen emails, with the woman I fought over, (mentioned earlier in this thread) whose brother (I fought with and tried to kill) died a few months ago. The first fight took place when I was fifteen, but it later got very serious and was not really over for more than a year. However, the lovely lady (a year younger, but looks ten years older than I do, now) who I had known since childhood, was a person I "frequented" after I split up with my first wife, in my early twenties.

She and I were both horny sluts and involved in some group activities, living wild on the beach with other hippie/doper types, etc. but she became pregnant. At the time, last I saw of her, she was going to have an abortion, because she really did not want to start a family, especially not knowing who the father was. It was a big impact to me, because it ended a good thing. In many ways it was a blessing, however, because I let her go and concentrated my efforts on my business and had some successes, followed up contacts, my dad helped me get bank financing for some expansion, etc, etc. and my "life" took off at that point. Something changed her mind, though, and she brought the child into the world, anyway, but she stayed out of touch. I had no idea she had done that, until this month, which was the first time I had heard from her since the early '80s, but with no mention of her three or four year old son at that time.
The punchline ... her, soon-to-be, twenty eight year old son looks exactly like me in the picture she sent (I really don't need a DNA test, but my wife wants me to have one, thinks it would be good for me to know for sure - she does not know what it feels like to be this sure of anything) and he has also been diagnosed with autism, about twelve years ago, when he was still in high school.

This is the second "surprise" offspring I have lived my life without knowing of. My ex-wife also has a child who is also, obviously, begotten of my begettings. I have tried to contact the son of my ex-wife in the past, but she won't budge. I have shown respect at an arm's distance, though. God only knows what he has been told about me. She wants to hold him over me in some strange way which I don't understand. Dealing with my ex-wife is very tricky, because she is a whackjob psycho, so I had let go of the agony of not knowing a child of my loins, several years ago. Now with another "surprise" kid to ponder, I am wondering if my ex-wife's middle son (my son) is also autistic. If so, that would make four autistic kids from one autistic spazcase loser with nothing to brag about but the ability to produce high motility sperm. I don't know if that is good or bad, but the whole thing is somewhat upsetting, if you can imagine. I have got to meet these two young men, if at all possible, but I am not sure how or why.



It took me a while to explain. This was not meant to be so longwinded and it rambles a bit - sorry.

... and I don't expect anyone to respond.

I understand the feeling that you want to see the young men.

A relative of mine gave up her newborn daughter for adoption when she was sixteen, but she signed up for a registry that would allow her daughter to contact her if she ever wanted to when she got older.  They made contact recently and now my relative is flying to California to see her daughter.  They have been corresponding for some time, but this will be the first time they will have seen one another in about twenty years.

Sorry for embarrassing you before.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on May 23, 2007, 10:30:59 PM
 :fsm:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 24, 2007, 12:58:44 AM
So you're the reason to the autism epidemic, DD. :o ;)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: duncvis on May 24, 2007, 03:46:58 AM
In lieu of having anything intelligent to say in response, I have for you a selection of inappropriate emoticons:

 :arrr: :baasign: :bunny: :pie: :book: :blonde: :dunce: :GA: :bath:

And a brown ale on the bar for you next time you feel like popping in for a pint. :beer:

Take it sleazy mate.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 24, 2007, 08:54:39 AM
So you're the reason to the autism epidemic, DD. :o ;)

If my theory holds:

1:3 to begin with.

After a little addition and exchanges of ... well, you know ...

5:6 right now, all counted.

We are gaining on them. :evillaugh:

At least, I'm doing my part. 8)

[/absurdity]
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 24, 2007, 08:59:30 AM
In lieu of having anything intelligent to say in response, I have for you a selection of inappropriate emoticons:

 :arrr: :baasign: :bunny: :pie: :book: :blonde: :dunce: :GA: :bath:

And a brown ale on the bar for you next time you feel like popping in for a pint. :beer:

Take it sleazy mate.

That's the best thing anyone could have said.

:GA:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on May 24, 2007, 09:22:45 AM
Hey DD. I missed your semi-disappearance because I've been moving countries, so I'm a little late saying hello and good to see you're okay. But hello anyway, here on earth and in whatever alternate reality you've been wandering into.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 24, 2007, 10:54:23 AM

Sorry for embarrassing you before.

You have done nothing wrong. You do a great job and you often amaze us. Keep it up.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 24, 2007, 11:11:03 AM
Hey DD. I missed your semi-disappearance because I've been moving countries, so I'm a little late saying hello and good to see you're okay. But hello anyway, here on earth and in whatever alternate reality you've been wandering into.

I'm OK and I'm not disappearing. I'm fading away slowly, for now. All you missed was a couple of days I spent at the track, with more to come, yet.
The alternate reality I am looking for is the one where the old ghosts can't find me. Problem is that everyone with a ghost is also a ghost.

Hope your move is going well.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on May 24, 2007, 11:42:56 AM
Yeah, good luck with finding a reality without ghosts - I think you'll have to wait till heaven. You don't want to come near me at the moment, I've got my hands full holding off other people's ua'lima and the odd sperith or two, so I'm seeing them everywhere.

So far the move's been amazingly uneventful. Thanks to paranoia I didn't miss a single flight or connection. Now I've just got to do all the sorting out on the other end of places to live and such.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 29, 2007, 04:18:03 AM
Yeah, good luck with finding a reality without ghosts - I think you'll have to wait till heaven. You don't want to come near me at the moment, I've got my hands full holding off other people's ua'lima and the odd sperith or two, so I'm seeing them everywhere.

So far the move's been amazingly uneventful. Thanks to paranoia I didn't miss a single flight or connection. Now I've just got to do all the sorting out on the other end of places to live and such.

Paranoia can be a powerful ally. Where is the other end?
 
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on June 23, 2007, 09:12:05 AM
Would you mind telling me more about this?

Who is they?


Psychologists.

Again, it was a bit of a joke, meaning they want to continue to diagnose you until you are tired of it or have completely exhausted your insurance coverage. That is why They  would diagnose ANYONE with "any kind of SHIT" that is "Not Otherwise Specified".

... but, I'm not a psychologist. I'm a ... uh ... a joker.

BTW, PDD-NOS was the first diagnosis for my son. We agreed to "help" with her research and all ageed to be diagnosed and allowed her into our home for observation of our interactions, etc. thinking it would aide the general cause to allow her team to look more deeply into our lives. It was not fun and I knew nothing about autism at the time, nor did I suspect that I was on the spectrum or what that could imply.

Thanks.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on June 23, 2007, 11:46:19 AM
I've mentioned it several times in other contexts, so there's not much more to it. The preliminary diagnosis was PDD-NOS. I had never heard of it and the only thing I knew about autism was that Dan Marino had an autistic son, Rainman, and the odd behavior of a number of adult autistics I had minimal contact with while photographing them with their families (it seems that families with live-in adult autistics are keen on hiring location photographers for a family portrait in their homes). At that time, about five years ago, I did not know that she had already put me in that shelf, too, but she gave me lots of reading homework before we went farther. It was in the first two weeks of assessing my son and that was as far as she would go, without further testing. He was only three, after all. It sounded smart to me after learning that his symptoms could continue to present themselves more clearly until he hit puberty, at least.

We agreed to yearly visits, along with weekly for about four months, and they have since changed his (most recent) diagnosis to Asperger's Syndrome and ADHD, but last year they were calling him HFA, ADD/ADHD and still reminding me there wasn't much difference in the words, but instead we should concentrate our efforts to learning to help him HIS way, rather than spending energy trying to split hairs. As I mentioned, I was extremely disappointed to have "NOS" on anything, medical, because insurance coverage was limited by that general term, whether it was chest pains NOS or ankle swelling NOS, it was a fucked up thing for us. It meant more out of pocket expense and less insurance coverage, so I developed a bit of an attitude and wanted EVERYTHING specified. I was even more ignorant then, than now. Those early months were an education to say the least. However, I became aware of myself and tried to hide from her team after that. It took some adjustment to accept.

That is when we were presented the option to "go all the way" and become one of her test cases or what ever. Part of that included all of us being interviewed individually, in the office and our home, and having a closer look at my daughter, almost a year later, who had turned two by then and was still not speaking more than a few words. Her latest is HFA, ADHD.

If I'm off on a tangent and have misunderstood your question, I'll try again to answer, if you want. Feel free to ask a specific question, but honestly, there's not much more to tell. It was at our last meeting that she revealed that she had me diagnosed PDD-NOS from the beginning (I was asking about myself more than my son, for shame). Unfortunately, these little meetings have become a grueling chore to my son (they always have been for me).
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on June 23, 2007, 10:41:33 PM
You answered it just fine, DirtDawg.  Thank you.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on June 24, 2007, 09:04:22 PM
Paranoia can be a powerful ally. Where is the other end?

At the moment, east coast USA. In a couple months, who knows. I'm open.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on June 25, 2007, 04:18:16 AM
Paranoia can be a powerful ally. Where is the other end?

At the moment, east coast USA. In a couple months, who knows. I'm open.
That's a great attitude to keep. It shows strength.
Are you working? You make it sound like you put yourself into one of the Hotbeds to begin a new job search.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on June 25, 2007, 03:58:06 PM
Thanks.

At the moment I'm not working. I have a couple feelers out for freelance work that I could do from my home computer, but it may not work because I don't have a freelance reputation in film/game CG yet (most of what I've done was local web design and stuff in the publishing industry). The plan is to use my current spot as a base for looking for a full-time project that I could travel to, but I can't just pick up and leave here yet for another couple months because of obligations. So I'm going to be working on my portfolio and sending out apps for late summer/fall gigs.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on June 25, 2007, 06:35:43 PM
DD, today we spent 2 1/2 hours getting the family ready for our family pictures.

we got there and i endured one hour of picture taking (i could name at least ten things that i hate to do but would rather have been doing.
twenty minutes later the lady says, "oops, sorry i forgot to turn on the umbrella light."

3 1/2 hours of our time, and she wants us to reschedule since her two o'clock appointment was there. and all she is offering for compensation is two free 8X10's.

is this enough?

what should we do to get lasting memories for free.

J.c. Penney's, in case you were wondering.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on June 25, 2007, 08:23:25 PM
Thanks.

At the moment I'm not working. I have a couple feelers out for freelance work that I could do from my home computer, but it may not work because I don't have a freelance reputation in film/game CG yet (most of what I've done was local web design and stuff in the publishing industry). The plan is to use my current spot as a base for looking for a full-time project that I could travel to, but I can't just pick up and leave here yet for another couple months because of obligations. So I'm going to be working on my portfolio and sending out apps for late summer/fall gigs.

I hope this works out for you the way you want it. Sometimes getting some outside help on your portfolio from a fresh set of eyes can be a benefit, if you know someone you can trust. Things like streamlining it and leaving them wanting more is usually a good idea, but it is often difficult to do for yourself when you have so much invested, personally. Portfolios are such an unfair way to judge an artist. I'm sure you know this.
Since you are not working, you should post more.
  :angel:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on June 25, 2007, 08:34:46 PM
Believe it or not I have actually done some scab work for JCPenny's studios, in the past. They are a fucked up company, in that usually the Studios are not part of the main store, but a concession arrangement with a third party to which Penny's leases space. Penny's usually will not get involved with customer disputes, so you are on your own. It does not hurt to try playing with that, but it is not a hold card for you.

Generally the studio has the final say. In their way of thinking they have already offered you sixty or eighty dollars (depending on what the current unit pricing happens to be) worth of discounts with the two free sheets of pics (standard practice in these instances). I hope you raised hell in front of the next sitting, because that will certainly make them want to shut you up and give you more free stuff.

Your problem is that they think they offered you sixty or so dollars in discounts for your inconvenience, when in reality, the pics they offered you actually cost them about two bucks to produce. Make sure that they know that YOU know this. At this point they still think they can make money off of you, especially if you re-scheduled for a new sitting time.

"Three and a half hours of our time wasted" should be your mantra, until you are satisfied. Chant in front of the other customers every time you can. Make yourself a squeaky wheel and they will want to stop you any way they can by offering more free stuff. Ask for a copy of customer satisfaction policy and the telephone numbers to their home office (it could be LifetouchTM or Josten'sTM), along with who you should contact to get this resolved, quickly. It's almost like a bluff, but it wouldn't hurt to call the main office if you are not satisfied. They will hate you, but the feeling is mutual, right? Unfortunately, it is an unregulated industry and they can make their own rules. You have to make that work for you by bitchin' for all you're worth, but I would do most of bitchin' AFTER the next sitting is already photographed or they might just fuck you again and "fire you" as a customer and refund all your deposits and sitting fees (but, possibly not, being unregulated) and tell you to take a hike.

This sucks! Sorry you had to experience it.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on June 25, 2007, 08:42:04 PM


Fine.
It was mainly something Dunc said earlier to me combined with Odeon's post to you in this thread. The conversion happened slowly, but whether the WC has won or lost is yet to be decided.


It has me in it; how much damage do you
think adding you will create?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on June 28, 2007, 09:52:23 PM
DD, an update on the JC penney portraits- we ended up getting 13 sheets for $34.55.
not too bad.  last time we got just slightly more for $150.00.
everything was amicable, and i didn't even have to start yelling. ;D
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on June 28, 2007, 10:16:14 PM
DD, an update on the JC penney portraits- we ended up getting 13 sheets for $34.55.
not too bad.  last time we got just slightly more for $150.00.
everything was amicable, and i didn't even have to start yelling. ;D

:woohoo:

I hope something I told you helped. By all rights you and your wife should have gotten complimentery rimjobs, as well, considering how much crap they put you through. Getting ready twice is no fun. It sounds like they gave you your photos at cost plus a few percent, which is probably the best they can do.
Good for you! 
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on June 28, 2007, 10:18:39 PM


Fine.
It was mainly something Dunc said earlier to me combined with Odeon's post to you in this thread. The conversion happened slowly, but whether the WC has won or lost is yet to be decided.


It has me in it; how much damage do you
think adding you will create?

Damage, probably none, but adding another source of confusion with questionable decision making ability won't help much, either.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on June 29, 2007, 03:30:36 PM
yeah.

i suppose that the quality of the pictures really helps in the negotiation process.

my oldest daughter was having a meltdown the entire time we were there.  we went in for family pictures and the only ones that turned out great were the pics of Boston.

if we had a great selection of family photos i suspect that the negotiations would have gone very differently.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: willow on June 29, 2007, 09:31:20 PM
I don't have any questions...I just want to climb up your ass.


Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on June 30, 2007, 08:18:30 PM
I hope this works out for you the way you want it. Sometimes getting some outside help on your portfolio from a fresh set of eyes can be a benefit, if you know someone you can trust. Things like streamlining it and leaving them wanting more is usually a good idea, but it is often difficult to do for yourself when you have so much invested, personally. Portfolios are such an unfair way to judge an artist. I'm sure you know this.
I figure a portfolio's more fair than a resume, and a heck of a lot more fair than judging me by who I know.

I can't tell if you meant this as offering help or not, but the portfolio's at www.studiopyraxis.com if you feel like checking it out. The purpose is to get a job in game design or film; 3d modeling, texturing or lighting. I'd actually be happy to cut stuff out of it and rearrange things. I suspect that most of the artistic angst is restricted to other aspects of the job search.

Since you are not working, you should post more.
  :angel:
What can I say, I just haven't had much of a taste for the hunt recently.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 01, 2007, 08:51:22 AM
I hope this works out for you the way you want it. Sometimes getting some outside help on your portfolio from a fresh set of eyes can be a benefit, if you know someone you can trust. Things like streamlining it and leaving them wanting more is usually a good idea, but it is often difficult to do for yourself when you have so much invested, personally. Portfolios are such an unfair way to judge an artist. I'm sure you know this.

I figure a portfolio's more fair than a resume, and a heck of a lot more fair than judging me by who I know.

I can't tell if you meant this as offering help or not, but the portfolio's at www.studiopyraxis.com if you feel like checking it out. The purpose is to get a job in game design or film; 3d modeling, texturing or lighting. I'd actually be happy to cut stuff out of it and rearrange things. I suspect that most of the artistic angst is restricted to other aspects of the job search.

I totally agree about being judged by the people you know. All of us have run into that in many aspects of our lives. I called it "wearing the right hat", earlier in reference to the Nashville music scene. What I really meant by another set of eyes was for someone who knows you and you trust to have a look, but I will definitely enjoy perusing your portfolio, myself. Thanks for the link.
I am also under the impression that you know far more about what makes a good portfolio than I do. I would not be so presumptuous or insolent as to criticize it myself, except in the way an "unwashed friend" might.


Since you are not working, you should post more.
  :angel:
What can I say, I just haven't had much of a taste for the hunt recently.
I hope this is not hormone related.
:laugh:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 01, 2007, 09:01:20 AM
I don't have any questions...I just want to climb up your ass.




I am assuming that this is related to my insensitivity to Starbuline a few nights ago. All I will say is that I was trying to make an underage troll go away. Many of the things I said were unnecessarily cruel and meant to put her off and make her leave. I admit that and I regret it. She stayed, though and I wish now I had done more to make her leave sooner. If you want to climb up and rip me to shreds for being an asshole, that's fine. I deserve it.

 I certainly agree with what you stated, concerning "benefit of the doubt" and I would never have doubted her or anyone if I she was revealing this under a different context. I also understand your position to be that the context does not matter. I believe that in this case it does, since she had already told so many lies and was trying to tug at heart strings to stay a while longer by the time she brought it up. I actually supported her at first and if she returns at eighteen to shut us up and embarrass us or whatever, I will support her again, regardless of what she thinks of me.

I can say nothing in my defense. There was a teenage kid trolling the forum, even after having it pointed out to her that she did not belong here and will be banned immediately upon the return of someone with administrative privileges.. The thing that she was not taking into account is that if it is discovered that this site is allowing minors and porn to connect it could be shut down. It is a serious legal matter to keep kids out of here. I wish, I wish, I wish I had done more and at least mentioned the legal ramifications to her. To me losing the contacts I have made on this site would be quite a blow and I would miss this gaggle of goofballls, tremendously. So, I suppose you can put it down to my being selfish and ego-centric.

If you remember, I was alluding to having some knowledge of the issue. Some of it I can't really talk about much, but when I said I understood a little bit, it is from having relationships with three  different women in my life who have been raped (FUCK, why is it always three of everything?) and one of them, I married.

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on July 01, 2007, 10:57:11 AM
I totally agree about being judged by the people you know. All of us have run into that in many aspects of our lives. I called it "wearing the right hat", earlier in reference to the Nashville music scene. What I really meant by another set of eyes was for someone who knows you and you trust to have a look, but I will definitely enjoy perusing your portfolio, myself. Thanks for the link.
I am also under the impression that you know far more about what makes a good portfolio than I do. I would not be so presumptuous or insolent as to criticize it myself, except in the way an "unwashed friend" might.
Actually there's one aspect of it you might be able to help with even without knowing what might appeal to animation folks or show off the right set of technical skills. That's telling me what kind of artistic impression it gives. I've been told that people wouldn't hire me because they couldn't get enough sense of my personality from my IRL demeanor (too awkward and stiff because the social stuff doesn't come naturally). So my hope is that I could convey myself through the art instead, enough for people to get that sense of reassurance from seeing something "real". But I've stared at these pieces for so long that I don't have much sense of what message they convey, and whether it has anything to do with either my actual self-concept or what they would find desirable.

Of course, if all that is too emo for you, feel free to give me the finger.  :)

I hope this is not hormone related.
:laugh:
:P Well for the fine upstanding citizens of Intensity, I may be able to make an exception.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: El on July 08, 2007, 02:03:13 PM
What other windows do you have open on your computer right now besides this one?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 08, 2007, 02:36:44 PM
I totally agree about being judged by the people you know. All of us have run into that in many aspects of our lives. I called it "wearing the right hat", earlier in reference to the Nashville music scene. What I really meant by another set of eyes was for someone who knows you and you trust to have a look, but I will definitely enjoy perusing your portfolio, myself. Thanks for the link.
I am also under the impression that you know far more about what makes a good portfolio than I do. I would not be so presumptuous or insolent as to criticize it myself, except in the way an "unwashed friend" might.
Actually there's one aspect of it you might be able to help with even without knowing what might appeal to animation folks or show off the right set of technical skills. That's telling me what kind of artistic impression it gives. I've been told that people wouldn't hire me because they couldn't get enough sense of my personality from my IRL demeanor (too awkward and stiff because the social stuff doesn't come naturally). So my hope is that I could convey myself through the art instead, enough for people to get that sense of reassurance from seeing something "real". But I've stared at these pieces for so long that I don't have much sense of what message they convey, and whether it has anything to do with either my actual self-concept or what they would find desirable.

Of course, if all that is too emo for you, feel free to give me the finger.  :)

I hope this is not hormone related.
:laugh:
:P Well for the fine upstanding citizens of Intensity, I may be able to make an exception.

How did I miss your post? I got so used to this thread being over and done long ago, that I never check. Sorry!

I will definitely offer a word or two of first and second impressions. I'm not convinced of how my comments could be of value, but I will look for some semblance of personality and give it a try.

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 08, 2007, 02:43:05 PM
What other windows do you have open on your computer right now besides this one?

Cute!
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Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on July 08, 2007, 04:28:50 PM
How did I miss your post? I got so used to this thread being over and done long ago, that I never check. Sorry!

I will definitely offer a word or two of first and second impressions. I'm not convinced of how my comments could be of value, but I will look for some semblance of personality and give it a try.

 :) I was worried I'd offended you somehow. Thanks.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Natalia Evans on July 10, 2007, 10:00:12 AM
Will you take this test and tell us what results you got?


http://www.pttools.co.uk/asc/asc_wp2.php
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: willow on July 10, 2007, 10:16:16 AM
I don't have any questions...I just want to climb up your ass.




I am assuming that this is related to my insensitivity to Starbuline a few nights ago. All I will say is that I was trying to make an underage troll go away. Many of the things I said were unnecessarily cruel and meant to put her off and make her leave. I admit that and I regret it. She stayed, though and I wish now I had done more to make her leave sooner. If you want to climb up and rip me to shreds for being an asshole, that's fine. I deserve it.

 I certainly agree with what you stated, concerning "benefit of the doubt" and I would never have doubted her or anyone if I she was revealing this under a different context. I also understand your position to be that the context does not matter. I believe that in this case it does, since she had already told so many lies and was trying to tug at heart strings to stay a while longer by the time she brought it up. I actually supported her at first and if she returns at eighteen to shut us up and embarrass us or whatever, I will support her again, regardless of what she thinks of me.

I can say nothing in my defense. There was a teenage kid trolling the forum, even after having it pointed out to her that she did not belong here and will be banned immediately upon the return of someone with administrative privileges.. The thing that she was not taking into account is that if it is discovered that this site is allowing minors and porn to connect it could be shut down. It is a serious legal matter to keep kids out of here. I wish, I wish, I wish I had done more and at least mentioned the legal ramifications to her. To me losing the contacts I have made on this site would be quite a blow and I would miss this gaggle of goofballls, tremendously. So, I suppose you can put it down to my being selfish and ego-centric.

If you remember, I was alluding to having some knowledge of the issue. Some of it I can't really talk about much, but when I said I understood a little bit, it is from having relationships with three  different women in my life who have been raped (FUCK, why is it always three of everything?) and one of them, I married.




nah. it was just a sassy/gross comment...there was nothing behind it.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: The_P on July 10, 2007, 10:41:17 AM
Internet friendships -- what do you think of them?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 10, 2007, 02:51:23 PM
I don't have any questions...I just want to climb up your ass.




I am assuming that this .......




nah. it was just a sassy/gross comment...there was nothing behind it.

I'm OK with gross and I really like sassy.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: willow on July 10, 2007, 02:52:23 PM
I don't have any questions...I just want to climb up your ass.




I am assuming that this .......




nah. it was just a sassy/gross comment...there was nothing behind it.

I'm OK with gross and I really like sassy.

kay.

bend over and cough while I get my mining gear....
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 10, 2007, 02:52:51 PM
Will you take this test and tell us what results you got?


http://www.pttools.co.uk/asc/asc_wp2.php

Here it is, but why?


(http://www.pttools.co.uk/asc/asc_wp_gif2.php?rbi=8.25&si=7.75&lg=4.25&poc=9.25&ir=3.25&rp=4.75&s=6&m=3.25)

# Repetitive or restricted Behaviours and Interests (RBI) - Stereotyped, repetitive behaviours and interests
# Social Impairment (SI) - Social understanding
# Language problems (L) - Speech, words and sentences
# Planning, Organization and Concentration problems (POC) - Cognitive skills related to being able to plan, organise and stay focused
# Imaging and Recall problems (IR) - Visualisation, imagination and remembering past events
# Reasoning and Problem solving problems (RP) - Cognitive skills related to rational deduction and working things out
# Sensory problems (S) - Impact of senses
# Motor problems (M) - Control of own movement

RBI =8.25
SI=7.75
L=4.25
POC=9.25
IR=3.25
RP=4.75
S=6
M=3.25

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Eclair on July 10, 2007, 03:05:29 PM
Helps her to figure out if you are NT or not  ;)

Maybe you have no right to be here and are preying on the socially retarded?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: willow on July 10, 2007, 03:12:18 PM
Helps her to figure out if you are NT or not  ;)

Maybe you have no right to be here and are preying on the socially retarded?

how does it help distinguish between NTs and not?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 10, 2007, 03:13:41 PM
Internet friendships -- what do you think of them?

Quite often, they are all I have the patience for and the internet is as close as I want to be to people. Other times I feel like I am missing something important by not being more active locally. I'm not one who is comfortable in some middle ground and I always wind up at the extremes of everything I do, including getting attached to people or not.

If we were talking about the possibility of setting up relationships, leading to a possible love interest, I think it is a great way to work past many of the people who would be a waste of our time. It is much better to eliminate those, with whom we could not be compatible, early in the process and the net could help narrow down those numbers a bit for many people.

I also realize that for some "socially handicapped" people, the "friends" they talk to on the net every day are as close to deep relationships as they will ever know.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 10, 2007, 03:14:45 PM
Helps her to figure out if you are NT or not  ;)

Maybe you have no right to be here and are preying on the socially retarded?

There it is - clear as mudglass.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 10, 2007, 03:19:48 PM
Helps her to figure out if you are NT or not  ;)

Maybe you have no right to be here and are preying on the socially retarded?

how does it help distinguish between NTs and not?

It shows that my language skills and my motor skills are less challenged than some who are on the spectrum. It also points out how much difficulty I have planning a shower or a trip to the store. I is not really very accurate, in my opinion, because I actually have better social skills than this chart shows, at least I think I do.

I don't think it shows whether anyone is NT or not, but remember there is no well defined division in reality.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: willow on July 10, 2007, 03:51:57 PM
Helps her to figure out if you are NT or not  ;)

Maybe you have no right to be here and are preying on the socially retarded?

how does it help distinguish between NTs and not?

It shows that my language skills and my motor skills are less challenged than some who are on the spectrum. It also points out how much difficulty I have planning a shower or a trip to the store. I is not really very accurate, in my opinion, because I actually have better social skills than this chart shows, at least I think I do.

I don't think it shows whether anyone is NT or not, but remember there is no well defined division in reality.

I'm not doing it. :P
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Eclair on July 10, 2007, 03:52:31 PM
Helps her to figure out if you are NT or not  ;)

Maybe you have no right to be here and are preying on the socially retarded?

how does it help distinguish between NTs and not?

SG seems to be obsessed with who has AS or if they genuinely have it.

http://www.intensitysquared.com/index.php?topic=2852.75
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 10, 2007, 04:16:10 PM
Helps her to figure out if you are NT or not  ;)

Maybe you have no right to be here and are preying on the socially retarded?

how does it help distinguish between NTs and not?

It shows that my language skills and my motor skills are less challenged than some who are on the spectrum. It also points out how much difficulty I have planning a shower or a trip to the store. I is not really very accurate, in my opinion, because I actually have better social skills than this chart shows, at least I think I do.

I don't think it shows whether anyone is NT or not, but remember there is no well defined division in reality.

I'm not doing it. :P

I feel that it is meaningless and can do no harm. If it gives SG something to talk about besides B&J, I'm all for it.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: duncvis on July 10, 2007, 04:18:37 PM
Yeah, ditto. I'm happy enough to oblige. I assume I passed.  :eyebrows:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 10, 2007, 04:20:37 PM
Helps her to figure out if you are NT or not  ;)

Maybe you have no right to be here and are preying on the socially retarded?

how does it help distinguish between NTs and not?

SG seems to be obsessed with who has AS or if they genuinely have it.

http://www.intensitysquared.com/index.php?topic=2852.75

Everyone has their own way of validating themselves, I suppose.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 10, 2007, 04:21:30 PM
Yeah, ditto. I'm happy enough to oblige. I assume I passed.  :eyebrows:

I guess we'll all find out, eventually.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on July 10, 2007, 05:14:42 PM
I didn't mind doing that test. I knew what it would say.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 10, 2007, 05:49:06 PM

Mine's kind of spikey and out of balance, of course. I wonder if anyone gets a perfect circle or a star.
 ::)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on July 10, 2007, 06:01:41 PM

Mine's kind of spikey and out of balance, of course. I wonder if anyone gets a perfect circle or a star.
 ::)

I doubt it because it's a spectrum and while not everyone will have a diagnosis, most people have strong and weak areas.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: willow on July 10, 2007, 07:01:12 PM
I didn't mind doing that test. I knew what it would say.


I didn't do it because I didn't "get" it. I'm used to things that are very direct, like "you are going to the 9th level of hell."
I don't understand fancy things, like numbers. :P
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Natalia Evans on July 10, 2007, 07:14:53 PM
I had troubles with it too so I took a guess by answering "in between". I'm not aware of everything about me or wasn't sure and I couldn't ask my buddies for help because they don't know me in real life.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Natalia Evans on July 19, 2007, 12:22:28 PM
Do you like fluorescent lights?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 19, 2007, 01:47:30 PM

Do you like fluorescent lights?

No.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Natalia Evans on July 19, 2007, 02:10:23 PM

Do you like fluorescent lights?

No.



Why not?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 19, 2007, 03:06:59 PM

Do you like fluorescent lights?

No.



Why not?

You and I have discussed this once, already.
I am most sensitive to the spectrum of light they produce. There are certain colors missing and other colors are too intense and seem out of balance. There are some (expensive) fluorescent bulbs which are filtered internally and include certain fluorescent elements which balance the spectrum to resemble sunlight. They are used mainly for photographic copy work. I don't mind those as much.

The noise is not really a problem, either. I have my own way of dealing with noises that distract me.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Tesla on July 19, 2007, 04:54:21 PM
I didn't mind doing that test. I knew what it would say.


I didn't do it because I didn't "get" it. I'm used to things that are very direct, like "you are going to the 9th level of hell."
I don't understand fancy things, like numbers. :P
9 is a number.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 19, 2007, 05:35:37 PM
I didn't mind doing that test. I knew what it would say.


I didn't do it because I didn't "get" it. I'm used to things that are very direct, like "you are going to the 9th level of hell."
I don't understand fancy things, like numbers. :P
9 is a number.

Yes, but to some, it is a command or an affectation.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Natalia Evans on July 20, 2007, 01:50:04 AM

Do you like fluorescent lights?

No.



Why not?

You and I have discussed this once, already.
I am most sensitive to the spectrum of light they produce. There are certain colors missing and other colors are too intense and seem out of balance. There are some (expensive) fluorescent bulbs which are filtered internally and include certain fluorescent elements which balance the spectrum to resemble sunlight. They are used mainly for photographic copy work. I don't mind those as much.

The noise is not really a problem, either. I have my own way of dealing with noises that distract me.


I have a bad memory now. Been getting bad in the last few years.

I'm assuming you hear them all the time?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 20, 2007, 01:20:53 PM

Do you like fluorescent lights?

No.



Why not?

You and I have discussed this once, already.
I am most sensitive to the spectrum of light they produce. There are certain colors missing and other colors are too intense and seem out of balance. There are some (expensive) fluorescent bulbs which are filtered internally and include certain fluorescent elements which balance the spectrum to resemble sunlight. They are used mainly for photographic copy work. I don't mind those as much.

The noise is not really a problem, either. I have my own way of dealing with noises that distract me.


I have a bad memory now. Been getting bad in the last few years.

I'm assuming you hear them all the time?

Of course.
I can hear the 60 Hertz fundamental (although sometimes it is doubled to 120 Hertz, by use of a rectifier) of the bulbs, along with the odd order harmonics produced by the excited gases and the even order mechanical harmonics produced by the ballast transformers. When they are all in a line I hear a Doppler Effect, also, as I move past them. I have to ignore it.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 20, 2007, 02:38:31 PM
How did I miss your post? I got so used to this thread being over and done long ago, that I never check. Sorry!

I will definitely offer a word or two of first and second impressions. I'm not convinced of how my comments could be of value, but I will look for some semblance of personality and give it a try.

 :) I was worried I'd offended you somehow. Thanks.

I haven't forgotten you, BTW.

I have had a look several times and I see an artist with a lot to express.
I am impressed with the variety of media in which you have worked. Kind of an explosion of talent in a sunburst of directions. It seems as if your 3D work is your favorite, or at least where you have toiled most. I want to see your sculpture more clearly, some day. I have not been able to get Quicktime to work on my box, though, so I can't view your animations, yet.
That is my first impression and (I'm sure you intended this) I really want to see more and more.

You definitely need to be involved in gaming graphics and illustration!
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: willow on July 21, 2007, 04:34:00 PM

Mine's kind of spikey and out of balance, of course. I wonder if anyone gets a perfect circle or a star.
 ::)

I am perfection, yo, regardless of form.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on August 05, 2007, 11:31:05 AM
I haven't forgotten you, BTW.

I have had a look several times and I see an artist with a lot to express.
I am impressed with the variety of media in which you have worked. Kind of an explosion of talent in a sunburst of directions. It seems as if your 3D work is your favorite, or at least where you have toiled most. I want to see your sculpture more clearly, some day. I have not been able to get Quicktime to work on my box, though, so I can't view your animations, yet.
That is my first impression and (I'm sure you intended this) I really want to see more and more.

You definitely need to be involved in gaming graphics and illustration!

Thanks for taking the time to actually look.  And for being honest  :-\ though it wasn't what I wanted to hear.

I guess I just need to be more confident that people want to see it.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on August 08, 2007, 01:57:47 PM
What do you know of the mystical properties of urine?

Own feelings only, not canned stuff I can pull off wiki.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 08, 2007, 06:09:50 PM
What do you know of the mystical properties of urine?

Own feelings only, not canned stuff I can pull off wiki.

Uroccultism is not exactly my area of curiousity. I am more studied in its chemistry and benefits to plant life all of which can be found on wiki. I really can't help, but you have rung a bell or two in my mind. I can remember meeting a village of Yacquis who would not fish waters until a certain elder woman waded in to pee first. The fishing was always good after she "went" but patchy if she was not available. 

You have me wondering, though. If I practiced Uralchemy, would I be looking to turn some into gold? Shouldn't be too difficult, since it's already kind of yellow.
Or should I try Urology? Hmmm... don't think a career of tasting unknown urine suits me. I would rather choose the source. Uromancy? I think that's more African, than American Indian, really. Urizardry? That one should be included in a best selling book, with Hoary Pooter as the main character, don't you think? Urovoyance? Knowing when those around you are about to pee? Could be useful, I suppose. Paraurysticism? A modern perversion of an ancient study of the Urodynamics of the Uriniverse, maybe?

Would a Urexorcism include drawing forth unwelcome urine, without its abiding?

You got me on this one, pal.
Maybe you should consult the Uracle, before you open Urandora's box.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on August 08, 2007, 06:12:45 PM
Thanks. You gave me some thoughts actually.

Plus, all the puns seem to indicate I should ask PMSElle.  :laugh:

I'll take a shot.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 08, 2007, 06:15:17 PM
Thanks. You gave me some thoughts actually.

Plus, all the puns seem to indicate I should ask PMSElle.  :laugh:

I'll take a shot.

You do know that the ones who actually have some understanding of the processes will not answer you, right?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on August 08, 2007, 06:20:56 PM
Thanks. You gave me some thoughts actually.

Plus, all the puns seem to indicate I should ask PMSElle.  :laugh:

I'll take a shot.

You do know that the ones who actually have some understanding of the processes will not answer you, right?

Maybe in part. Doesn't mean I can't get something.
Not everyone is unwilling to tell little things that
they've noticed. And I don't follow anothers' paths.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 08, 2007, 06:26:55 PM
I know it's not a suddden interest, but are you going to divulge any whys and wherefores for including some of us in your searches?




BTW, sorry about the tacky answer, but I couldn't hold it in or stop it, once it started flowing.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on August 08, 2007, 06:36:09 PM
I know it's not a suddden interest, but are you going to divulge any whys and wherefores for including some of us in your searches?

Sure. Picked some up off the old wolf's paws.  :laugh:



Quote
BTW, sorry about the tacky answer, but I couldn't hold it in or stop it, once it started flowing.

It helped. More than you might think.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: willow on August 09, 2007, 12:23:17 AM
mmmm...urine.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Alex179 on August 09, 2007, 08:01:32 AM

Mine's kind of spikey and out of balance, of course. I wonder if anyone gets a perfect circle or a star.
 ::)

I am perfection, yo, regardless of form.

Play druid much? 
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: El on August 10, 2007, 08:17:54 AM
BTW, sorry about the tacky answer, but I couldn't hold it in or stop it, once it started flowing.

Uh-oh.  Urine trouble.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 10, 2007, 08:38:42 AM
BTW, sorry about the tacky answer, but I couldn't hold it in or stop it, once it started flowing.

Uh-oh.  Urine trouble.

Not really any trouble. Just kind of a guy thing. It is almost impossible to stop after we start. Of course we can pinch it off, because, as you have noticed, our equipment is easy to manipulate, but it always comes out somewhere. Pinching it off usually makes it come out as tears.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: willow on August 10, 2007, 11:34:42 PM

Mine's kind of spikey and out of balance, of course. I wonder if anyone gets a perfect circle or a star.
 ::)

I am perfection, yo, regardless of form.

Play druid much? 

54 resto. once in a while. :P
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Tesla on August 14, 2007, 05:12:05 PM
This Oscope you were fiddling with, is that for work, or pleasure?  What are you doing with it?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 14, 2007, 06:42:13 PM
This Oscope you were fiddling with, is that for work, or pleasure?  What are you doing with it?

It's mine, a very old Tektronics twin trace, I use in the work I do for pleasure.

I will never use most of its functions. I have always been sort of a sound nut and now I analyse audio wave forms with it mostly, compare I/O on amps, phase align individual drivers in speaker systems, correct crossover anomalies.

In the old days I used it to trim out microphone responses for flatter sound and better impedance matching. Most of the old Shure microphones that were tough enough for road use need some "fixing" to get them to match up with each other. Aligning for phase in the main house system improves everything, too.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Tesla on August 14, 2007, 06:51:52 PM
Very cool.  I always wanted an oscope.  I get a lot of stuff off craigslist's "Free Stuff" section, but haven't seen one of them yet.  I got to play with them some in my physics lab, but not much.  What's your sound system like?

Have you ever seen this video (http://www.metacafe.com/watch/589035/fire_equalizer_for_your_music/) before?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 14, 2007, 09:24:23 PM
Cool vid!

I don't really have a professional sound system anymore, although my DVD movie rig would make a decent full range band PA for a small club of about five hundred seats if I added more power to it. It's only fifteen hundred watts, combined, but it will make you dance. My deck stereo would put out a good acoustic band (no drums) sound for about the same size club. Sound reinforcement was my business earlier in the game. I just do a little for friends and fun, these days.

What I call my "good stuff" is really a nice, smooth, musical, warm sounding system, which uses tube power and a tube preamp. I have an old Dual turntable and three disk players in the system, also. A trusty old Garrard table for 78s and a Revox A77 that I bring in and out of the system. I also have it all hooked to my computer via an M Audio 2496 card and I use Winamp. The best sounding disk player is a Sony 365 that has been modded, followed by a Denon 2900. The amps are minimalist SET design ( not my design, I fucking wish I was smart!) which only have eight solder joints in the signal path. An audiophile's dream if you are not a power hog. If I want to rock out, though, I use my movie rig.

My real pride is in the fact that I have designed an open back di-pole speaker system using high efficiency professional drivers combined with a modern "fullrange" driver, which works in conjunction with a unique set of outboard diffusion/dispersion panels/columns. The columns, which I need a name for, sit between the cabinets and the wall. They are acoustically inert, sort of. I can tune the wall effects, reflections and out front sweet spot by moving and angling the three sided column, thus manipulating the di-pole effect to a greateer advantage. Using a spectrum analyser and a reverberation (time domain) analyser, I can "tune" the system to any room. I have amazing control of room resonances, standing waves and cancellations with this set up.

I have actually been working on this idea for about twenty years and I'm in my eleventh generation, third of the present configuration, although I haven't done much with it in about five years. It sort of resembles an upright bass instrument, but the secret (and genius - a lot of people have built open back speakers since dynamic drivers were invented in addition to electrostatic dipoles) is in the concept and architecture of the outboard diffusion/dispersion column, so that's about all I'll say about that aspect here.

The enclosures each use two fifteen inch JBL drivers, which I have custom built and matched for smooth, extended response and control rather than all out power handling. (Yes, I have been coning, reconing, customizing and correcting speaker drivers since I was a teenager, working part-time in a music store.) They are aligned with a German Visaton eight inch driver for the mids and upper frequencies. I have occasionally toyed with Heil and a few other ribbon tweeters in various positions, but not using them, right now.

About eight years ago I had become really satisfied with my open back set-up and I began work on a truly high efficiency horn loaded system from scratch. (The bass is not horn loaded - maybe some day) I was done with the math and had some computer simulations of various parameters plotted out when my son was born. It was another year before I made my first prototype of the mid-range horns out of wood. Martinelli Sound (http://www.woodhorn.com/woodhorns.htm) was my inspiration, many years ago.

Just over two years ago, I was done with the construction of the wooden midhorns, except for a fancy oil finish, which I did over the winter, and began the high frequency horns. I did much better software testing of my curves (hell, the programs are much better, now) on the highs and my first prototype was perfect, except for the phasing, which I have yet to complete, since my scope died. BUT, I got my scope up again, so I will get back to the task of perfecting the high horns and correcting the inner phasing plug inside the drivers. I just wish I could have the design perfected and hire a machinist to make the adaption/phasing pieces which mate the flare of the horns with the drivers. There is a small trick I play in this area, too, but high frequencies are much more critical anyway and a whole new set of problems rear their heads at the high compression that I am attempting. I am getting 104dB with one watt at one meter with my mids and bass cabinets.

Anyway, now you see why I seem like a complete, uncaring nutball in most ways. I am already distracted by something bigger than I and you maybe see why I need an oscilloscope. You also know better than to ask me about my sound system, now.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: McGiver on August 14, 2007, 09:25:39 PM

Cool vid!

I don't really have a professional sound system anymore, although my DVD movie rig would make a decent full range band PA for a small club of about five hundred seats if I added more power to it. It's only fifteen hundred watts, combined, but it will make you dance. My deck stereo would put out a good acoustic band (no drums) sound for about the same size club. Sound reinforcement was my business earlier in the game. I just do a little for friends and fun, these days.

What I call my "good stuff" is really a nice, smooth, musical, warm sounding system, which uses tube power and a tube preamp. I have an old Dual turntable and three disk players in the system, also. A trusty old Garrard table for 78s and a Revox A77 that I bring in and out of the system. I also have it all hooked to my computer via an M Audio 2496 card and I use Winamp. The best sounding disk player is a Sony 365 that has been modded, followed by a Denon 2900. The amps are minimalist SET design ( not my design, I fucking wish I was smart!) which only have eight solder joints in the signal path. An audiophile's dream if you are not a power hog. If I want to rock out, though, I use my movie rig.

My real pride is in the fact that I have designed an open back di-pole speaker system using high efficiency professional drivers combined with a modern "fullrange" driver, which works in conjunction with a unique set of outboard diffusion/dispersion panels/columns. The columns, which I need a name for, sit between the cabinets and the wall. They are acoustically inert, sort of. I can tune the wall effects, reflections and out front sweet spot by moving and angling the three sided column, thus manipulating the di-pole effect to a greateer advantage. Using a spectrum analyser and a reverberation (time domain) analyser, I can "tune" the system to any room. I have amazing control of room resonances, standing waves and cancellations with this set up.

I have actually been working on this idea for about twenty years and I'm in my eleventh generation, third of the present configuration, although I haven't done much with it in about five years. It sort of resembles an upright bass instrument, but the secret (and genius - a lot of people have built open back speakers since dynamic drivers were invented in addition to electrostatic dipoles) is in the concept and architecture of the outboard diffusion/dispersion column, so that's about all I'll say about that aspect here.

The enclosures each use two fifteen inch JBL drivers, which I have custom built and matched for smooth, extended response and control rather than all out power handling. (Yes, I have been coning, reconing, customizing and correcting speaker drivers since I was a teenager, working part-time in a music store.) They are aligned with a German Visaton eight inch driver for the mids and upper frequencies. I have occasionally toyed with Heil and a few other ribbon tweeters in various positions, but not using them, right now.

About eight years ago I had become really satisfied with my open back set-up and I began work on a truly high efficiency horn loaded system from scratch. (The bass is not horn loaded - maybe some day) I was done with the math and had some computer simulations of various parameters plotted out when my son was born. It was another year before I made my first prototype of the mid-range horns out of wood. Martinelli Sound (http://www.woodhorn.com/woodhorns.htm) was my inspiration, many years ago.

Just over two years ago, I was done with the construction of the wooden midhorns, except for a fancy oil finish, which I did over the winter, and began the high frequency horns. I did much better software testing of my curves (hell, the programs are much better, now) on the highs and my first prototype was perfect, except for the phasing, which I have yet to complete, since my scope died. BUT, I got my scope up again, so I will get back to the task of perfecting the high horns and correcting the inner phasing plug inside the drivers. I just wish I could have the design perfected and hire a machinist to make the adaption/phasing pieces which mate the flare of the horns with the drivers. There is a small trick I play in this area, too, but high frequencies are much more critical anyway and a whole new set of problems rear their heads at the high compression that I am attempting. I am getting 104dB with one watt at one meter with my mids and bass cabinets.

Anyway, now you see why I seem like a complete, uncaring nutball in most ways. I am already distracted by something bigger than I and you maybe see why I need an oscilloscope.
see.  this is why i am terrified to ask you questions. :laugh:
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Post by: Calandale on August 14, 2007, 09:26:59 PM
 :laugh:
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Post by: Alex179 on August 14, 2007, 09:31:04 PM
Thats awesome Dawg.   I wish I was more involved in sound sometimes.   I spend too much time on games and playing acoustic (too lazy to even plug in sometimes).    I listen to music mainly in my car through the iPod via the AUX jack in the front of my stereo.   My PC speakers are 5.1 dolby and are fine for my room.   What you have is fantastic though, especially since you can take pride in making it yourself.
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Post by: DirtDawg on August 14, 2007, 09:42:33 PM
Thats awesome Dawg.   I wish I was more involved in sound sometimes.   I spend too much time on games and playing acoustic (too lazy to even plug in sometimes).    I listen to music mainly in my car through the iPod via the AUX jack in the front of my stereo.   My PC speakers are 5.1 dolby and are fine for my room.   What you have is fantastic though, especially since you can take pride in making it yourself.

Wanna hear a punchline? I don't give a fuck about mobile audio. I don't even have an after market head unit in my car. I'm into live music mostly, or high quality sound, which you can not get in a car. Cars are just too noisy for decent sound without making your ears bleed.

I have built a few bad ass subwoofer boxes for acquaintances' cars, though. I'm really good with sixth order designs and getting an "SQ" sound out of them, but I would rather use them for music, not cars..
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Post by: DirtDawg on August 14, 2007, 09:45:04 PM
see.  this is why i am terrified to ask you questions. :laugh:

Oops, I did get a little carried away there, didn't I?

There's just no short answer to the question, "Why do you need a scope or what't your sound system like?"

I barely even mentioned the deck system or the DVD system.




Like I said on the first page ... Get a helmet!
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Post by: McGiver on August 14, 2007, 09:51:05 PM
see.  this is why i am terrified to ask you questions. :laugh:

Oops, I did get a little carried away there, didn't I?

There's just no short answer to the question, "Why do you need a scope or what't your sound system like?"

I barely even mentioned the deck system or the DVD system.
if you are dying to tell us about it, i am here for you, man!
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Post by: DirtDawg on August 14, 2007, 09:53:36 PM
see.  this is why i am terrified to ask you questions. :laugh:

Oops, I did get a little carried away there, didn't I?

There's just no short answer to the question, "Why do you need a scope or what't your sound system like?"

I barely even mentioned the deck system or the DVD system.
if you are dying to tell us about it, i am here for you, man!

Thanks, but my fingers are tired, now.
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Post by: McGiver on August 14, 2007, 09:55:57 PM
see.  this is why i am terrified to ask you questions. :laugh:

Oops, I did get a little carried away there, didn't I?

There's just no short answer to the question, "Why do you need a scope or what't your sound system like?"

I barely even mentioned the deck system or the DVD system.
if you are dying to tell us about it, i am here for you, man!

Thanks, but my fingers are tired, now.
i am surprised that an old guy like you doesn't have a voice dictation program.
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Post by: DirtDawg on August 14, 2007, 10:26:01 PM
see.  this is why i am terrified to ask you questions. :laugh:

Oops, I did get a little carried away there, didn't I?

There's just no short answer to the question, "Why do you need a scope or what't your sound system like?"

I barely even mentioned the deck system or the DVD system.
if you are dying to tell us about it, i am here for you, man!

Thanks, but my fingers are tired, now.
i am surprised that an old guy like you doesn't have a voice dictation program.

 :laugh:

Actuallly I do! An old guy gave it to me when he updated to a newer version. I have never installed it, here, but I had it in the computer I used at the photo studio I worked at. I never used it for anything except photo notes, though. ... things like which lighting settings I had used or keeping track of which exposure had what strange thing going in a series of nearly identical shots.
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Post by: Tesla on August 15, 2007, 05:16:43 AM
Cool vid!

I don't really have a professional sound system anymore, although my DVD movie rig would make a decent full range band PA for a small club of about five hundred seats if I added more power to it. It's only fifteen hundred watts, combined, but it will make you dance.....

Wow.   :laugh:  I wish I understood more than a quarter of that.  Sounds very impressive though.  I assume you don't live in an apartment then!  I'm waiting for the day that I'll be able to build a decent sound system.  After I had built the projector, I wanted to take the next step and build some speakers so spent some time reading http://www.diyaudio.com/ (http://www.diyaudio.com/) but never was able to get around to it. 
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Post by: DirtDawg on August 15, 2007, 07:23:15 AM
Cool vid!

I don't really have a professional sound system anymore, although my DVD movie rig would make a decent full range band PA for a small club of about five hundred seats if I added more power to it. It's only fifteen hundred watts, combined, but it will make you dance.....

Wow.   :laugh:  I wish I understood more than a quarter of that.  Sounds very impressive though.  I assume you don't live in an apartment then!  I'm waiting for the day that I'll be able to build a decent sound system.  After I had built the projector, I wanted to take the next step and build some speakers so spent some time reading http://www.diyaudio.com/ (http://www.diyaudio.com/) but never was able to get around to it. 

I guess I misjudged your question. Happens a lot.
My system would only be truly impressive to someone who could comprehend what I have done with acoustics while working out the kinks in my open back system. I haven't really invented anything, though, except the inert outboard columns. I mainly combined "ancient" technology, ideas and math that were tossed around Bell Labs and other places in the beginning of audio reproduction, but ignored in the race for the most marketable product at the greatest profit.

DIY is a great place to find people who are trying everything they can think of, though. It's not just a bunch of kids trying to beat the price of gear by doing things themselves, although they are as common as flies over there. There are several guys there who I have a great deal of respect for and have created some interesting things as well. I haven't been active there in a very long time, but it was the first audio forum I joined. I also exchanged quite a bit of info over the years at Lansing Heritage forum, but they had some kind of hack and much of the old stuff was lost. Of course the "heritage" was easily replaced, but the conversations are gone.

If you are serious about building your own speaker system, without spending a lifetime learning shit the hard way, you should get one of the many pre-fab kits and follow the instructions. Kits are available for varying stages of hands-on abilities. Parts Express is a good place to start. First decide what you want your system to do, specifically, and how much acoustic space you need to fill up.
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Post by: DirtDawg on August 15, 2007, 07:28:51 AM
Thats awesome Dawg.   I wish I was more involved in sound sometimes.   I spend too much time on games and playing acoustic (too lazy to even plug in sometimes).    I listen to music mainly in my car through the iPod via the AUX jack in the front of my stereo.   My PC speakers are 5.1 dolby and are fine for my room.   What you have is fantastic though, especially since you can take pride in making it yourself.

Wanna hear a punchline? I don't give a fuck about mobile audio. I don't even have an after market head unit in my car. I'm into live music mostly, or high quality sound, which you can not get in a car. Cars are just too noisy for decent sound without making your ears bleed.

I have built a few bad ass subwoofer boxes for acquaintances' cars, though. I'm really good with sixth order designs and getting an "SQ" sound out of them, but I would rather use them for music, not cars..

WOW, Alex!

I just looked back at what I wrote, last night and how I worded it and it could certainly have been taken by you as a ""PISS OFF!!"

That was not my meaning at all. I only meant that when I go looking for a place to listen to great music, I look away from my car, but then I have a house. I have helped many guys get their cars sorted out, but my interest lies more in the performance of live music, than in car audio.

I hope you did not think I was telling you to fuck off!
I called what I said a punchline, because many (especially car guys) see my gear and they automatically think I must have the greatest car stereo in the world, but I don't even have anything in my car. That boggles their minds, usually. Sorry for not being more clear!
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Post by: Alex179 on August 15, 2007, 08:13:57 AM
It is ok.   I often am thought to be insulting people as well.   I didn't read it as my friend stopped by to smoke bud and play video games at 11:30pm EST lol.   I got into bed early enough thankfully as I am awake at work at 9am.

My car stereo is not aftermarket.   My stereo is a piece of crap compared to yours haha.   Like I said I spend far too much on games, consoles and my PC.   I rarely use my 100 watt Peavey or even my 15 watt.    Seem to just pick up the acoustic and go at it.   If I can play something well on acoustic, it is like swinging a bat with weights on it in the on deck circle.   I take the weights off so to speak when I play the electric and that makes the song easier to play (learning it first on acoustic).

My dad has a pretty nice home theater actually.   65 inch 1080i HDTV, progressive scan DVD player, Dolby 7.1 Yamaha system, the walls are soundproofed, etc.   We often watch movies there as he has Blockbuster Total Access and has movies all the damn time.   He has a 1080p 46 inch LCD in his bedroom but it has an inferior audio system.   He is considering Blue-Ray and a good home theater setup for the TV in his room.
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Post by: DirtDawg on August 15, 2007, 12:15:13 PM

That is definitely some nice display real estate. You should just describe it in acres to save time.
If your dad is that much into the bedroom theater stuff, he certainly needs to get high quality surround sound in his room, too.

I have nothing like that. My movie system is in our modest living room and I usually get some version of "The Look" if I mention expanding the gear at all. It is also used for the kids to do dinosaur gymnastics, build Lego cities, torture the cat, have an occasional carpet picnic, a dive from one of the subwoofers or a quick hand of Let's-See-How-Much-Shit-We-Can-Drag-Out-Before-Dad-Fucking-Screams. I guess if I was really the Man of the house  I would just do it anyway, but I like blowjobs too much to push unilateral decision making very far. That's kind of like trying to rake sand uphill in the wind.

You should get a tiny amp that you can pull out quickly. I know what you mean, though. Sometimes, even that's too much. I can't really play, but you wouldn't know that at first, because I know a lot of licks. I can't keep rhythm for more than a few measures. I bang on it sometimes just to think.


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Post by: Alex179 on August 15, 2007, 01:33:48 PM
The 15 watt is fine for that, but I lent it to my friend actually.   I wear headphones to not bother people sometimes anyways.   My effects pedal has stereo outputs so I can run one to each of the amps and it is nice for the chorus effect.   Sometimes if I am not careful I can hurt myself playing for long periods due to how I hold the guitar.   I know scales and modes somewhat and that is how I build riffs when I am just fucking around.   I do mess up on some songs and it isn't like I can play everything perfectly.   

My dad has a good deal of toys.   He is a big kid at heart, even watches children's movies and crap like that lol.    HDTV is a great thing imo.   This is coming from a gamer though haha.   The comcast box with HD and a DVR is pretty badass, it records all of his favourite shows in HD.   He never uses his TiVO anymore (its standard def).   If I was to have one upgrade I would take a HDTV over a sound system in an instant.   If you look at HD ready monitors you can sometimes find really good deals.   My dad orders his stuff online of course but shops at the store first (saves a ton of money).    I really want to get my own 22 to 30 inch 720p or wishful thinking a 1080p HD ready monitor (can just use a cable box for a tuner).
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Post by: DirtDawg on August 15, 2007, 05:37:39 PM
The 15 watt is fine for that, but I lent it to my friend actually.   I wear headphones to not bother people sometimes anyways.   My effects pedal has stereo outputs so I can run one to each of the amps and it is nice for the chorus effect.   Sometimes if I am not careful I can hurt myself playing for long periods due to how I hold the guitar.   I know scales and modes somewhat and that is how I build riffs when I am just fucking around.   I do mess up on some songs and it isn't like I can play everything perfectly.   

My dad has a good deal of toys.   He is a big kid at heart, even watches children's movies and crap like that lol.    HDTV is a great thing imo.   This is coming from a gamer though haha.   The comcast box with HD and a DVR is pretty badass, it records all of his favourite shows in HD.   He never uses his TiVO anymore (its standard def).   If I was to have one upgrade I would take a HDTV over a sound system in an instant.   If you look at HD ready monitors you can sometimes find really good deals.   My dad orders his stuff online of course but shops at the store first (saves a ton of money).    I really want to get my own 22 to 30 inch 720p or wishful thinking a 1080p HD ready monitor (can just use a cable box for a tuner).
I've looked at the HD stuff, bunches of times. I haven't seen any deals though. When I get ready, I will probably order one from a net dealer, too. Right now, I am looking for deals that I can take home immediately, in boys size nine jeans and girls dresses, size six, that INCLUDE BUILT IN SHORTS, PLEASE!!
I have a little wait, first. Hoping Blu-Ray will be mainstream by then.

Do you have one of those little headphione jobbies that plugs directly into the guitar, with a set of in/outs on the side? Those are fucking killer! I have an old Strat that they don't work well on, but all my other guitars drive it just fine. I made the mistake of taking my cherry Strat to the music store (more to show off, really) when I tried them out for the first time and I thought they were shit. Then another kid showed up with one at a church (where I used to do some volunteer sound work - don't get me wrong - I'm only in it for the music) when I had my beater Epiphone with me and I was very impressed. Everyone who lives in town should have a set. I live in town. I want one.

Your fifteen watt? What is it? My Champ is four watts with the (starved heater) tubes I have in it? I actually cloned it (not the vinyl) and so I have two, except mine has better parts in it. I dig stereo chorus effects, echo, shifting and stuff. I get lost for an hour sometimes, just banging on the damn things. I have one of the original ADA digital reverb/echo/phase/chorus rack mount pieces that I use.
Now, if only I could really play.
 :laugh:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Alex179 on August 15, 2007, 10:08:37 PM
As long as you have fun that is all that matters.   Don't be so harsh on yourself and play what you find is fun for you to play.   Just play for your own enjoyment.   

I have a 15 watt Peavy, it is solid state.   Having tons of effects at your disposal is fun that much is for sure.   Can easily get carried away.

I agree that clothing is important, I don't shop for kids clothes ever since nobody currently in my immediate family is younger than 23.  My dad gets some of his stuff at Costco/Sams.   He spends a good deal of time there to buy everything, doesn't shop for clothes online.    Really I don't know anyone who buys clothes online.   Outlet stores around here have good deals, especially when Florida residents get no sales tax (certain time of the year).   That is when people buy up shit like crazy.
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Post by: DirtDawg on August 16, 2007, 06:35:17 AM
As long as you have fun that is all that matters.   Don't be so harsh on yourself and play what you find is fun for you to play.   Just play for your own enjoyment.   

I have a 15 watt Peavy, it is solid state.   Having tons of effects at your disposal is fun that much is for sure.   Can easily get carried away.

I agree that clothing is important, I don't shop for kids clothes ever since nobody currently in my immediate family is younger than 23.  My dad gets some of his stuff at Costco/Sams.   He spends a good deal of time there to buy everything, doesn't shop for clothes online.    Really I don't know anyone who buys clothes online.   Outlet stores around here have good deals, especially when Florida residents get no sales tax (certain time of the year).   That is when people buy up shit like crazy.

Tax amnesty? Fuck - that would be cool. I'll bet it is a big sale time. I wonder if any other state legislatures are taking notes.
Around here, all the outlet stores are crap. The only notable manufacturer/importer we have that is clothes oriented is Burlington. The rest are all automotive industry related, except Corning or Ely Lilly. Too bad Ely Lilly doesn't have an outlet store.  :angel:

I grew up playing guitar, aspiring to be like some of the guys my dad knew. He worked in a music store most of his life and eventually started up his own business. He had an amazing set of contacts, people who had either been involved with or actually were legends in the fifties and sixties. I had more inspiration than anyone should ever have. Friends my age and I, all kept pace improving our music knowledge and skills together, but at a certain point about the time I got out of high school, I never improved past that level. Woodshedding no longer makes a difference, except to re-learn some dexterous movements that get rusty. As you know rust never rests and when I don't play, I lose dexterity quickly.

Like you, though, I play for my own entertainment and when I'm not down on myself, I have plenty of fun just making noise. I do have a variety of effects to call upon for even more noise. Generally, I collect odd things, but I never kept guitar effects pedals. One time, when I moved I left on the curb a big box of Electro-Harmonix stuff, some working and some not, including a working Wah-Wah pedal, like Jimi Hendrix used and one that needed repair. I had room for all my instruments, but not all the accessories. Fuck me! I didn't leave any tools behind, either, but I had to leave lots of stuff I regret losing.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: renaeden on September 23, 2007, 02:05:02 AM
MD, what is the new job you have got?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on September 23, 2007, 03:46:29 AM
MD, what is the new job you have got?

There is one more step in the process, before I am sure that I have the job.

If I pass ... then, I will be receiving and unpacking merchandise and assembling display areas, following a designed floorplan, for four Best Buy  stores in the area. I will work at a hub warehouse, and travel to the various stores in a company truck with materials and merchandise for assembly on-site. It seems a couple of steps more complicated than generic warehouse monkey.

Some of it will involve stocking CD, game and DVD shelves, but I could also be part of a team who occasionally sets their "Studio" displays of the newest HD equipment, removes and re-packs last month's display stuff, etc. I have a few things to learn.

I am hopeful, at this point.
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Post by: renaeden on September 23, 2007, 04:15:15 AM
That sounds like a cool job. We don't have Best Buy stores in Australia.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Natalia Evans on September 26, 2007, 02:32:31 AM
You said you ignore my PMs. What PMs have I sent you? Why do you ignore them?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on September 26, 2007, 03:12:11 AM
You said you ignore my PMs. What PMs have I sent you? Why do you ignore them?

You can be so incredibly cute, sometimes, that it boggles my mind.

I was joking with you, that's all. I generally don't ignore people. Like someone else mentioned, if I do not want contact from a specific person, I always make that perfectly clear to them. It's easier that way.

I was very stimmed out last night and I was responding to every thread that popped up with some of my weirdness.
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Post by: Calandale on September 26, 2007, 03:23:16 AM


I was very stimmed out last night and I was responding to every thread that popped up with some of my weirdness.

Wonder what was going on last night?
I felt the same.

Now, I'm just PMSing.
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Post by: DirtDawg on September 26, 2007, 04:41:19 AM
For me, it was from being stressed out.

I had another interview session, but since they were so busy this time, they put us in the room where all the security monitors and alarms were buzzing constantly. The room was small, hot, dusty and there were eight monitors, at least two of which have a questionable horizontal oscillator high voltage supply and they whined more than the others at about 15KHz. They are set up with a four-way split screens running. Some of the cameras were panning constantly and occasionally a red light warns that that particular camera is being recorded, separately from the others. Also yellow light comes on each camera to warn of movement in the area of each camera's view. The electrical distrubution was also in that room and there was a high pitched fan on a battery backup for their alarms which swiched on and off irregularly. The air conditioning duct made a miserable sigh as it forced stale air past a few too many tight curves and it also pressurized the room after closing the door.

Needless to say I was very distracted during the interview.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on September 29, 2007, 05:42:37 PM
I know you are into audio,tubes and such and thought you might be interested in what I found in an attic I was working on today.  They are two aluminum disks covered with acetate one almost completely peeled that are maybe twenty inches in diameter. They look like big records I believe they were recordings that were sent to radio stations but never saw anything like this. one is dated in the 1940's here are some pictures.  Do you know any more?
(http://i135.photobucket.com/albums/q131/parts67/record2.jpg)
(http://i135.photobucket.com/albums/q131/parts67/record.jpg)
(http://i135.photobucket.com/albums/q131/parts67/record3.jpg)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on September 29, 2007, 05:59:37 PM
I know you are into audio,tubes and such and thought you might be interested in what I found in an attic I was working on today.  They are two aluminum disks covered with acetate one almost completely peeled that are maybe twenty inches in diameter. They look like big records I believe they were recordings that were sent to radio stations but never saw anything like this. one is dated in the 1940's here are some pictures.  Do you know any more?
(http://i135.photobucket.com/albums/q131/parts67/record2.jpg)
(http://i135.photobucket.com/albums/q131/parts67/record.jpg)
(http://i135.photobucket.com/albums/q131/parts67/record3.jpg)

You're right. They are commonly called Transcription Discs.

Here's an article about them. (http://www.otrsite.com/articles/artwb006.html) There's lots more about programming transcription and related discs if you do a search.

"Although new to me in 1944, electrical transcriptions had been around for fifteen years. Western Electric (aka "AT&T"!) had pioneered large-disc recordings at much slower speeds for the early "talkies." When an optical sound-on-film process replaced these early transcriptions, the technology was taken over by entrepreneurs who saw a future for such transcriptions in radio broadcasting. The fidelity of the transcription discs was far superior to 78 rpm records -- much less surface noise. Radio networks were in their infancy, and programs could be sent via discs to individual radio stations in all parts of the country to be played at optimum times for the local markets. Amos 'n Andy in 1929 was the first program to be syndicated on two transcription discs of 5 minutes each, which were then joined in the middle by a local commercial announcement. However, these Amos 'n Andy transcriptonswere recorded at the 78 rpm speed. The World Broadcasting Service in 1929 was the first transcription company to license the slower-speed Western Electric technology."
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on September 29, 2007, 06:04:42 PM
Thank you :) wish they were in better shape though
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on September 29, 2007, 06:16:00 PM
Thank you :) wish they were in better shape though

They were considered disposable, to the radio stations, so they rarely went to the expense to make higher quality vinyl transcriptions. As you may know acetate, which was much cheaper, does not last very long unless it is carefully stored in very specific archival conditions.

Many of the early historical photographs, which used acetate as a film backing, have been lost to mishandling and decay of the acetate. Very sad, really.

If you got through that article, yet, it mentions that many of the early "radio programs" are only available to us today, because someone at the station took very good care of their transcriptions, despite the fact that the radio station companies thought of them as disposable.

Recording was also done in those days on "wire" recorders, instead of tape, but the quality was not good for a variety of reasons and they were not permanent either. You could also save money by re-recording a wire, but the transcription discs were not re-recordable.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on September 29, 2007, 06:28:37 PM
Thank you :) wish they were in better shape though

They were considered disposable, to the radio stations, so they rarely went to the expense to make higher quality vinyl transcriptions. As you may know acetate, which was much cheaper, does not last very long unless it is carefully stored in very specific archival conditions.

Many of the early historical photographs, which used acetate as a film backing, have been lost to mishandling and decay of the acetate. Very sad, really.

If you got through that article, yet, it mentions that many of the early "radio programs" are only available to us today, because someone at the station took very good care of their transcriptions, despite the fact that the radio station companies thought of them as disposable.

Recording was also done in those days on "wire" recorders, instead of tape, but the quality was not good for a variety of reasons and they were not permanent either. You could also save money by re-recording a wire, but the transcription discs were not re-recordable.

I got through most of it attics are not really what I'd call very specific archival conditions one the acetate fell off when I picked it up :(
My brother has a wire recorder and extra wire in the original packing in his antique store
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on September 29, 2007, 07:24:46 PM
Thank you :) wish they were in better shape though

They were considered disposable, to the radio stations, so they rarely went to the expense to make higher quality vinyl transcriptions. As you may know acetate, which was much cheaper, does not last very long unless it is carefully stored in very specific archival conditions.

Many of the early historical photographs, which used acetate as a film backing, have been lost to mishandling and decay of the acetate. Very sad, really.

If you got through that article, yet, it mentions that many of the early "radio programs" are only available to us today, because someone at the station took very good care of their transcriptions, despite the fact that the radio station companies thought of them as disposable.

Recording was also done in those days on "wire" recorders, instead of tape, but the quality was not good for a variety of reasons and they were not permanent either. You could also save money by re-recording a wire, but the transcription discs were not re-recordable.

I got through most of it attics are not really what I'd call very specific archival conditions one the acetate fell off when I picked it up :(
My brother has a wire recorder and extra wire in the original packing in his antique store

Yeah, everything about attic storage is wrong for acetate. Interestingly, some of the old photos which had acetate and other chemicals breaking down over time, actually became quite a fire hazard as they aged. Not just because of the fact that there was a stack of paper and plastic there, either. As they decay, they release nitrates and sulphides, which is not that far from gunpowder. I would expect that stacks of acetate records, kept in a box and stored in a hot attic would be kind of a bad idea for that reason, too.


Here's a guy selling a few transcription discs (http://www.radioarchives.org/DiscsForSale.htm) if it interests you. His apparently are playable. Of course you would need a special transcription turntable, because the discs won't even fit on most turntables and the tonearms would not be long enough either.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on December 06, 2007, 04:18:21 PM
Today I worked on an addition that had a type of cable I have not seen before.  It was regular looking coaxial but it had an extra metal weave sheath over it.  I have worked on lots of home theater rooms and never seen this before it seemed a bit much as it wasn't even a real theater room but the other end of the kitchen.  Is this something new an what would be the advantage especially where they put it?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 06, 2007, 04:46:22 PM
Today I worked on an addition that had a type of cable I have not seen before.  It was regular looking coaxial but it had an extra metal weave sheath over it.  I have worked on lots of home theater rooms and never seen this before it seemed a bit much as it wasn't even a real theater room but the other end of the kitchen.  Is this something new an what would be the advantage especially where they put it?

Double shielding is actually fairly common in permanent installations.

This type of cabling allows the installer to ground one shield on one end of the cable run and the other shield on the other end of the cable run. This does a number of things, but mainly it helps to remove interference in highly active areas, without having to ground both pieces of equipment together through the shielding.

Realize that the two shields will be out of phase with each other by something near one hundred eighty degrees, most of the time, if they have been designed properly, with the proper spacing, and insulation properties for the specific frequency range they are intended to work in. This really helps to eliminate problems associated with EMI.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: SovaNu on December 06, 2007, 05:12:51 PM
it's a crime not to save and take care of old recordings. stupid companies thought stuff is disposable? no it isn't disposable. >:(
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 06, 2007, 07:28:28 PM
it's a crime not to save and take care of old recordings. stupid companies thought stuff is disposable? no it isn't disposable. >:(

Uhm,

... I just counted, about three weeks agoo,  the old recordings I own. I couldn'nt count the tthe diffferent locations, becaus eiI I don't have them cataloged tha way. I have over nine hudred old tape recordings which I recorded in my headtrip, techie sound dude days.


Theyare more presciouus to me than my own life.

I listen to sopme of themm every single day.






I am a miserable old .......     




....... you decide.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: SovaNu on December 06, 2007, 07:31:46 PM
what's up, dawg? you sound depressed.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 06, 2007, 07:45:04 PM
I'm just a bit overstimmed, right now.





I just wen tot a public performance of my sons seasonal prrogram. The poor little fucker was not even there!11

He was constantly looking around at his mates to find hismself and try to keep up.


When he is alone or with a small group, he can kick some booty, but when he is with a group of fiftty or so he loses iot, just like I do.





 He hasd not yet realized how to make all groups into one force. I do not knowe how to teach him that trick. He must learn it though, if he is to pursue his interests..







I feel so bad for him right now and his sister is totally high maintenance.



She has tried to monopolise this evening, bt I cannot allow this!!!!

This evening is about him and his needs.




Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 06, 2007, 07:48:17 PM








.............  at the same time she is dying, because no one is talking to her.



I have tried and she has been very deep, but I am alone.




M wife is at work. Some of this shit requires two parents to go forard. I can't do it alone.



neither couilsd anyone!!!!!!
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: SovaNu on December 06, 2007, 11:18:02 PM
that sucks DD. try to chillax, you don't have to do everything alone. wait til your wife comes home.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 07, 2007, 10:28:10 AM
I signed off here, last night and we went into my bedroom and had cookies and hot chocolate, while watching a Rock-N-Learn disk. We fell asleep in my bed all together.

The night turned out OK.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: SovaNu on December 07, 2007, 10:45:26 AM
good. :laugh:

cookies rule.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 09, 2007, 07:37:59 PM
good. :laugh:

cookies rule.



Yes, they do.


I wish cookies for everyone.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on December 09, 2007, 08:35:11 PM
Hard to avoid, on the net.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 09, 2007, 09:45:47 PM


Geek!
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on December 09, 2007, 10:06:56 PM
I don't bite the necks off chickens.  ???
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 09, 2007, 10:26:37 PM

only if they are virtual chickens
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: The_P on December 12, 2007, 11:17:29 AM
Like my videos?

"Do you care about me?" - a Jman-esque question
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 18, 2007, 07:55:04 AM




Calandale, I would prefer that we move this conversation (assuming there is anymore to it) to here, because I feel a bit guilty continuing to spam up Renaeden's thread.








I am saying that I have managed to "create" a face/facade that keeps me safe, in many ways. People look away, quite often, instead of engaging me. You see it here as well. I consider it to be a sign that I am indeed as unimportant and ineffecive as I already feel.

You know, to a large extent, it's because you've ASKED
to be left alone.

Huh?

I've asked not to be arse-licked, as Dunc put it.

Anyway that's a different issue. I was mainly talking about RL interactions.

Irrelevance is an effective shield, apparently.





Wait a minute.

You think I am here because I want to be left alone?


Are there others who think this?

WTF!!!








I thought you wanted to be left alone. In one of my interpretations of reality, you are a person I have tried most ways I can think of to approach, and finally backed away from, thinking I had little of value to offer, and that which I thought might be valued, was a type of attention you didn't like.

In other interpretations of reality I'm nowhere near that insecure.

*attempts to sigh in a masculine way, can't quite*

I thought you were the stand-offish one.

:D

Anyway, I pour my guts all over the place, kind of freely at times. There is very little left for the curious or to approach or to step in or to be embarrassed about, since I find exposing some of my embarrassments and failures to be therapeutic in some ways. 

















Wait a minute.

You think I am here because I want to be left alone?


Are there others who think this?

WTF!!!
:laugh:

Not exactly, but that you have more
boundaries, at times.

I'm still not getting you.
You think I have more boundaries at certain times than at other times? That is true of almost everyone, I think. Yourself included, possibly.

... or are you saying that I have "more boundaries" than other people in general at (certain) times? Again, that statement is a little vague in my mind and quite possibly true of everyone.

Maybe I don't know what kind of "boundaries" it is to which you are refer. Considering that there is quite a bit of my personal life strewn over these pages, I feel as if I have opened floodgates, mostly, especially if you compare  how much I have posted about myself in comparison to how much most others post about themselves.

The only boundary that I can think of specifically asking people to respect is that I don't care to have a bunch of people gang up to tell me how cool (or what ever) I am. I become overloaded quickly when that happens. I don't mind a little grabass when I post a fractal that catches someone's eye, or when I bragged about outselling the rest of the department in computers a couple of weeks ago, but those things are separate from me.
I have very few personal boundaries to conversation, among my "friends."
Is that difficult to understand?
 :'(
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 18, 2007, 07:58:52 AM
Like my videos?

"Do you care about me?" - a Jman-esque question

Haven't seen one.

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on December 18, 2007, 02:23:20 PM
Hell, I don't know.
Maybe I'm just backpedaling
around, looking for something
that feels right. Because, you
definitely DO spill your feelings
out, as well as some pretty personal
stuff.

I guess that I just feel a barrier, and
was coming up with an explanation for
it, when maybe I can't express the
reason.

Funny to put it this way, as I have NO
way of backing it up, but I almost feel
as if you're in some tower, judging us
all.  :laugh:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on December 18, 2007, 02:40:33 PM
...

I guess that I just feel a barrier, and
was coming up with an explanation for
it, when maybe I can't express the
reason.

Funny to put it this way, as I have NO
way of backing it up, but I almost feel
as if you're in some tower, judging us
all.  :laugh:

That's an interesting perspective that Calandale has, DirtDawg.

I don't get that feeling from you at all.

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on December 18, 2007, 02:47:36 PM
It's not right either. I really
don't know quite how to
put it. Hell, maybe it's just
the respect that I hold for
DD. Which he insists we not
show.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: SovaNu on December 18, 2007, 02:50:58 PM
sometimes we humans feel things we do not know how to put in words.

as for boundaries, i feel closer to some than to others, partly because of how they open up to me and partly how i open up to them. some people seem more towery than others, which is because i'm this way and they're that way... doesn't mean i don't respect them and enjoy their company or want to climb their hair. it's all about chemistry.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on December 18, 2007, 02:56:00 PM
So to change the subject if you like how is work going?  I heard on the radio Best Buy sales are up
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on December 18, 2007, 03:24:09 PM
Let me put it in this way...

:dawg:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 18, 2007, 04:16:53 PM
Hell, I don't know.
Maybe I'm just backpedaling
around, looking for something
that feels right. Because, you
definitely DO spill your feelings
out, as well as some pretty personal
stuff.

I guess that I just feel a barrier, and
was coming up with an explanation for
it, when maybe I can't express the
reason.

Funny to put it this way, as I have NO
way of backing it up, but I almost feel
as if you're in some tower, judging us
all.  :laugh:

I regret that you feel a barrier.
I hope that it is an imaginary one and not something fashioned out of my treatment of you. Of course we disagree sometimes, but that's life. In fact, some of the most interesting and important relationships (and things in general) develop as a direct result of disagreement.

As far as judging, again, I think we ALL do a small bit of judging of each other, hopefully in a constructive or at least an honest way. This is also where some of the more interesting conversations begin. Coming to an understanding often starts by defining an unpopular or opposing stance and allowing yourself to be judged, even though a meeting of the minds may not be possible. You already know this, I expect.

The notion that I make you feel as if I occupy some mighty tower fills me with revulsion. I am extremely vulnerable and not any more stable than any other member, save for a couple who are having their worst times, right now. I imagine a string of mountain climbers tethered together. When one falters, the others only allow him to fall only so far before he can right himself. This is what my family does for me, but it does not create some mighty tower from which to judge others. I am very lucky to have them.

I have pointed out several times that it seems that my life is taking an upward turn, right now. I have already been through my worst times, lets hope. Things are getting better for me, but that does not set a gradient for anyone else. Even if I was going to be THE JUDGE, I would not assess a person's progress or placement along some path the same way I would assess their determination to improve and honest efforts to do so.

It would not matter if I did anyway, because no two people have the same goals or interests.


No tower for me, please.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 18, 2007, 04:18:13 PM
...

I guess that I just feel a barrier, and
was coming up with an explanation for
it, when maybe I can't express the
reason.

Funny to put it this way, as I have NO
way of backing it up, but I almost feel
as if you're in some tower, judging us
all.  :laugh:

That's an interesting perspective that Calandale has, DirtDawg.

I don't get that feeling from you at all.



I'm glad that you don't. It's a little unnerving to think that some might.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 18, 2007, 04:20:19 PM
It's not right either. I really
don't know quite how to
put it. Hell, maybe it's just
the respect that I hold for
DD. Which he insists we not
show.

Calandale, people show respect for me all the time. I DO see this. I am not put off by this, at all, as it often resembles friendship.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 18, 2007, 04:36:16 PM
So to change the subject if you like how is work going?  I heard on the radio Best Buy sales are up

It seems to be going very well at times. I have alienated a few people, but hopefully none of the ones that determine whether or not I can continue to do well.
 :-\

The company, at the corporate level, is very strong right now. They are definitely the leaders in most of the products they choose to sell. Our location is one of the smaller ones in our district of fourteen stores. This helps us in some ways, because they "expect less" from us.

Our store is actually number one in the nation for installations of home theater goods and also for car electronics installs, we are number four. I don't take part in any of that, but we recently got a huge banner to put up and a round of gift cards for them to divvy up among the more deserving employees (but, not managers) as a thank you. I got a fifty dollar bonus.
:woohoo:

They are very proud of their market position, too. They have a little graphic that is used on behind the scenes stuff - it is a generic fat man's ass (representing our competition) and a big boot kicking it (representing our success) :D.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 18, 2007, 04:42:16 PM
Let me put it in this way...

:dawg:

:D

I always thought I would be the only one to use that smiley.

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on December 18, 2007, 04:50:18 PM
So to change the subject if you like how is work going?  I heard on the radio Best Buy sales are up

It seems to be going very well at times. I have alienated a few people, but hopefully none of the ones that determine whether or not I can continue to do well.
 :-\

The company, at the corporate level, is very strong right now. They are definitely the leaders in most of the products they choose to sell. Our location is one of the smaller ones in our district of fourteen stores. This helps us in some ways, because they "expect less" from us.

Our store is actually number one in the nation for installations of home theater goods and also for car electronics installs, we are number four. I don't take part in any of that, but we recently got a huge banner to put up and a round of gift cards for them to divvy up among the more deserving employees (but, not managers) as a thank you. I got a fifty dollar bonus.
:woohoo:

They are very proud of their market position, too. They have a little graphic that is used on behind the scenes stuff - it is a generic fat man's ass (representing our competition) and a big boot kicking it (representing our success) :D.

Glad your doing well.  Some people are afraid of people who know more than they do but they aren't the ones who usually make decisions . Congratulations on your bonus gift card ;D
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 18, 2007, 05:18:40 PM
So to change the subject if you like how is work going?  I heard on the radio Best Buy sales are up

It seems to be going very well at times. I have alienated a few people, but hopefully none of the ones that determine whether or not I can continue to do well.
 :-\

The company, at the corporate level, is very strong right now. They are definitely the leaders in most of the products they choose to sell. Our location is one of the smaller ones in our district of fourteen stores. This helps us in some ways, because they "expect less" from us.

Our store is actually number one in the nation for installations of home theater goods and also for car electronics installs, we are number four. I don't take part in any of that, but we recently got a huge banner to put up and a round of gift cards for them to divvy up among the more deserving employees (but, not managers) as a thank you. I got a fifty dollar bonus.
:woohoo:

They are very proud of their market position, too. They have a little graphic that is used on behind the scenes stuff - it is a generic fat man's ass (representing our competition) and a big boot kicking it (representing our success) :D.

Glad your doing well.  Some people are afraid of people who know more than they do but they aren't the ones who usually make decisions . Congratulations on your bonus gift card ;D

Thanks! I would credit good luck, mostly.
So much of it depends on luck, you know. I have had an adult dose of bad luck finding a job and maybe the pendulum swings my way for a while.



Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on December 20, 2007, 04:57:53 PM
*attempts to sigh in a masculine way, can't quite*

I thought you were the stand-offish one.

:D

 :laugh:

I am the standoffish one. It's just not always by conscious choice, so when I'm secretly scrambling not to hide, I tend to hope that others will have sufficient ESP to come interact with me anyway.

And while I have no idea of the implications of an almost masculine sigh, it's still good to know this is all in my head.  :P

I feel as if I have opened floodgates, mostly, especially if you compare  how much I have posted about myself in comparison to how much most others post about themselves.

I like that. I know everyone's different, but for me it would take a lot of balls to post about cremating an ant queen. I find little space for the sacred amongst the chaos of human interaction.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 21, 2007, 07:26:26 AM
*attempts to sigh in a masculine way, can't quite*

I thought you were the stand-offish one.

:D

 :laugh:

I am the standoffish one. It's just not always by conscious choice, so when I'm secretly scrambling not to hide, I tend to hope that others will have sufficient ESP to come interact with me anyway.

And while I have no idea of the implications of an almost masculine sigh, it's still good to know this is all in my head.  :P

I am guilty of similar behavior at times, too. Rather than drifting towards some median, though, I tend to swing wildly between both extremes of intro- and extro-, while trying to interact. It's not pretty.


BTW, dramatically sighing for effect shunts away some aspects of old school, movie-hero masculinity (in my opinion) no matter how it is done.
Only meant that I keep covering this ground and it remains a mess.

Quote
I feel as if I have opened floodgates, mostly, especially if you compare  how much I have posted about myself in comparison to how much most others post about themselves.

I like that. I know everyone's different, but for me it would take a lot of balls to post about cremating an ant queen. I find little space for the sacred amongst the chaos of human interaction.

It's sort of like what you said a few days ago. You have tried everything you can think of to start a conversation. It comes to nothing, mostly. I had hoped that the unlikely event of finding her body, buried in knee-deep snow, while I was mindlessly toiling to just get rid of the snow, would be intriguing to someone. I felt like it meant something that she was discovered by someone who knew what to do.

It is often small instances that inspire great wonder in my mind, but it is my lack of ability to express myself that keeps me from properly conveying that wonder to another person.
ToM is a bitch, as Odeon says.



(that's me, on the left):hahaha:

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on December 24, 2007, 07:23:35 PM
So reading your posts you seem to have the "overly sensitive nose" I do also do people look at you weird when you tell them about their car problems by the smell for me they never appreciate it or about the gas leak they haven't noticed
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 24, 2007, 09:36:16 PM

Yeah, I used to. I rarely bother these days. There is very little to gain by being thought of as an animal.

It's just not worth trying to explain how I know that they had cream cheese on a bagel for breakfast four hours ago or how I know that they cut themselves yesterday, etc.

I sort of have the nose of a dawg. Oddly, not only do I smell things with a finer sense, I can also tolerate heavy, horrid smells that could make other people sick. Not sure why.

It causes a little crossover, though. I also get visuals and aurals from smells. 

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on December 25, 2007, 06:55:44 AM
we must have similar wiring in that respect some of those horrid smells I like say ammonia
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: SovaNu on December 25, 2007, 07:09:04 AM
aural eh? that's fascinating. there was someone on an LJ aspie site who could hear colors. apparently a screaming orange wall attacked her lol.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 25, 2007, 08:39:48 AM
aural eh? that's fascinating. there was someone on an LJ aspie site who could hear colors. apparently a screaming orange wall attacked her lol.

yeah, I can't trust it fully. I may have a sensitive olfactory sense, but it lies to me.

hear coloras? see sounds
whatever the fuck you want to call it.
i am there with the synaesthesia problems. i learned about the fact in my teens and later in my twenties i realized that i was different from most people because of this. it has caused me problems, but it has also given megifts. it is not beautiful fuck those who tell you that it is wonderful they don't really have to decifer it for themselves. they are probably full of shit. if i could live my life on acid away from harm then i might have power from it but it doesn't work that way day to day. harm is everywhere. it fucks me up every moment.

i have to constantly keep "like a file running in my mind" of reality working in the background where all my senses are related to my brain in a difference signal. i don't know any other way to explain it. the summation is extremely difficult to deal with and i can not even look at it for more than a few seconds and only when i am alone and safe or asleep do i do this. my brain has learned to take the difference signal and try to make sense of things i sense.

my touch is good though. I can get a lot of pure information when i touch things. i only wish that my sense of touch did not need so many days off! my sense of touch takes a few days off and comes back swinging its balls and making everything about what it is does.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on December 25, 2007, 12:26:31 PM
Fascinating. I have synesthesia (color/sound) but it's pretty mild and doesn't interfere with everyday life. My hearing can be fucked-up oversensitive at times but not the kind where I could detect minute variations in pitch and tone - more like some types of sound are amplified in my consciousness to frustration levels.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on December 25, 2007, 03:22:50 PM
Loud sudden sounds are cause bright flashes in my eyes to me and can be almost paralyzing not much cross over with smell though
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Soph on December 25, 2007, 03:23:46 PM
i don't have synesthesia, but i do get the thing with sound/colour a bit. much more with letters and numbers though. oh and days of the week, they have colours too lol
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 25, 2007, 06:11:38 PM
Fascinating. I have synesthesia (color/sound) but it's pretty mild and doesn't interfere with everyday life. My hearing can be fucked-up oversensitive at times but not the kind where I could detect minute variations in pitch and tone - more like some types of sound are amplified in my consciousness to frustration levels.
I call it a problem, but the reality is that i know no other way to see, hear, smell. forget taste, because there's almost nothing there. I was actually a half grown teen when i started to realize why I was always so afraid, angry and moody. nothing ever was the same from one look to the next and it was because that the sounds were also different. my answer was to look closer and listen more deeply and really try to remember and become more aware of what is happening all around me. School was a nightmare but if i could read the lesson i had it first try and often read the entire set of textbooks in the first month of school. So, i knew i was smart and if i really tried i could do better at keeping track of all that was happening all around me, instead of just halfdying of fear every time something moved or squeaked.

I guess it probably doesn't makes sense, but what i mean is that i started to have the courage to actually look at things more deeply and listen more deeply and try to sort it out by details, instead of just cringing and covering my ears or fluttering my eyelids constantly in my autie way. it was a process but once it started to work, i was obsessed with seeking out new things, obviously.
that's when I stupidly dropped out of high school and took off down the road with a band for the first time.
 ::)

As I got older it became obvious to me, finally, that no one else ever seemed to "see what i see" or "hear what i hear." 

I only learned what it was called after my son was diagnosed with Dysfunction of Sensory Integration and i began reading about all the different forms. I was still in denial of many things at that point, but evidence and understanding was piling up. He does not have more than a mild crossover, thank goodness. However, at his age i did not know i was "wrong", either. We have been through a great deal of analysis with these two though, none of which my parents had the means to pursue had there even been any reason to think that my problems were anything more than emotional or behavioral.

When i say it causes me daily problems,
it is because of the amount of concentration and focus (concentration ... with ADHD ... yeah right! :D) i have to maintain. It exhausts me rather quickly sometimes and it's a mental fatigue.
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Post by: DirtDawg on December 25, 2007, 06:19:21 PM
Loud sudden sounds are cause bright flashes in my eyes to me and can be almost paralyzing not much cross over with smell though

That is the basic definition.
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Post by: DirtDawg on December 25, 2007, 06:31:26 PM
i don't have synesthesia, but i do get the thing with sound/colour a bit. much more with letters and numbers though. oh and days of the week, they have colours too lol

I'm not sure what that is. I have heard this from others, but to me everything has colors, patterns, layers and sounds, not just certain words.
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Post by: renaeden on December 28, 2007, 10:43:13 PM
Loud sudden sounds are cause bright flashes in my eyes to me and can be almost paralyzing not much cross over with smell though

That is the basic definition.
And that is me exactly too.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Calandale on January 09, 2008, 04:35:52 PM
What's the most erotic thing you've done,
with a member of your own gender?
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Post by: Parts on January 18, 2008, 06:42:23 PM
One simple question knowing where you work and all.  All there stores around here are incredibly loud is it the same in yours and if so how do you handle it.  I have even walked out before because they had the music so loud and I had forgotten my ear plugs.
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Post by: DirtDawg on January 18, 2008, 10:31:18 PM
Work. Why did they have to call it "work," anyway?


Oh yeah, sometimes it's loud.

I may have fairly sensitive ears, but I don't get overloaded from just high volumes of sound or even bright lights. While I still have a threshold, mine is quite a ways from what you are describing. Maybe you don't know, but, I listen to my own music very loud, sometimes - on my own. An average person would not be able to tolerate my home sound system for more than a few minutes, but I love it and I consider it a type of personal therapy. My system is capable of fairly high sound pressure level beginning in the sub-audible range. Ask Odeon to verify, but low frequency sound takes some tricks and lots of power.

At work I don't have the pleasure of my own music, though. It is often canned mixes from a corporate distribution on CD or a hard drive that we switch out on scheduled dates. I just have to block that out and NOT hear it, so to speak. I can do that fairly well for about three or four hours on a better day, but by the end of a long day, I am somewhat overloaded. I have been guilty of showing up here whacked out from work and trying to post before I found my center and calmed myself down. Some people thought I was drunk. In fact my wife still thinks I am drunk, sometimes, when I am whacked from sensory overload - stumbling around, bumping into things, unable to sit still, slurring my speech, jumping out of my skin if touched, talking a hundred miles per hour and way too loudly, not making sense, obsessively manipulating something, spinning or tapping things - it's typical low functioning behavior actually, now that I know what that means.

I am lucky in that I am usually working in the warehouse, while the store is open, or at least back and forth to the front, carrying things out to the sales floor or re-setting some display that has to be changed for an advertisement. I can deal with short bursts of extreme annoyances for quite a while, but if I was going to our store to buy a television or a refrigerator (something that I was going to have to live with for a long time) I would hardly be able to think long enough to make a good purchase decision. My wife would have to come with me and hold my hand (:D).

Honestly, the lights bother me more than the sounds though. They use mercury vapor lighting for economy, but they are not well dispersed or balanced. There are dark spots and bright spots. Also as the fixtures and bulbs age the spectrum they produce drifts a little and some spots are a different color. I am sensitive to the color of light and to a balance of intensity of the light also. Again, I have a wide tolerability threshold, but it adds up after a while. It has nothing to do with the overall brightness, though. When I was working in photography, I had no problems with the studio strobes I used, either. In fact I always kept my eyes open normally during the exposure flash and I am able to see the balance of the  strobes. If one of them is getting weak, I am always the first to notice. (I could also tell by the sound they made.) More importantly, I was absolutely sure what the portrait would look like and I knew if my timing was not good and I had missed an expression. I KNEW if I had a blnk. I knew that a light hit the nose from above when it shouldn't. I knew if I had given them Rudolph Syndrome by allowing a strobe to light their nose from behind making it glow red. I could see it and it does not hurt me.

The weird thing is that the lights in our store are enough different from each other that when I look across the store I see a landscape like dunes in a desert or something, because of how much brighter some areas are. I have actually given names to some of the more over achieving lights, like Spike and Tiger, and old geezer names, like Gerard and Reginald for some of the wimpy ones. Sounds stupid, but that helps to distract me and prevent me from succumbing to the vertigo, dizziness and kinetosis that I feel as I look across the uneven landscape of lighting.

As bad as all that sounds, I can deal with ALL of that a hell of a lot easier than I can deal with a constant parade of new people to have to work with on some personal level. I've been there almost four months and there are now only about sixty people who work there. When the store is open there are usually only fifteen to twenty people there. I'm talking about fellow employees, only. There are always eight or ten people who I have not allowed contact with, except for "strictly business" reasons and it was very quick answers, directions, questions, etc, but absolutely no exchange of personality fluids, if you know what I mean. I can only let in so many people at a time. If I work there long enough, I will eventually get to know and (be forced to) interact with all of them, but it is slow for me to do that. At my rate it will be over a year, before I can allow that many people. Customers are not so bad, because I know they will go away soon.

I have been told over and over that I am a really good salesman, but I don't think so and I certainly don't want to spend a day on the sales floor. Yes I have sold a bunch of stuff up there already, but it was always just answering a few questions at first and I really don't know enough about many of the procedures to do that job well. Now I have learned buttloads about much of what we sell and I can answer even more questions, so if the customer is there to buy already, I can help them find what they want and show them where to pay. I also have spent much of my life on the road away from "my comfort zone" so I have this instinct to take back-up stuff and keep every eventuality covered. This leads me to ask the customer if they have cables or cleaners or media or power strips or flash drives or cases, etc. They have a fancy name for that on the sales floor, but to me that's just my way of giving them everything they want so they will go away sooner.
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Post by: DirtDawg on January 19, 2008, 08:57:22 PM
What's the most erotic thing you've done,
with a member of your own gender?

I am not ignoring you.

I just noticed this last night for the first time and I've given it some thought.

I was quite experimental in my early twenties. I did everything that happens and some group things too. I have no idea why I never had an STD.

To me, THE most erotic was I believe called an "A-frame."

Imagine an MFM double fuck and the Ms are kissing. Some guys are really good kissers. A circle blow from a talented lady with six other guys was kind of sexy, too, but I wasn't really doing anything with the other guys, except watching them get head. A pretty red head it was, too. It was my first time encounter with a freckled girl. I found the freckles mesmerizing.
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Post by: Calandale on February 04, 2008, 06:21:25 AM
Thought you'd get a kick out of this.
Ran into it at random.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PuhEK5Fa-30&feature=related
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Post by: Parts on February 26, 2008, 04:47:33 PM
Here is a weird one the radio in my truck just stopped making any sound even on the CD.  It still goes on and shows stations but doesn't play.  No info shows on the stations like it used to so
i don't think it's getting signal either.  Probably just replace it  but the whole thing strikes me as weird
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Post by: odeon on February 26, 2008, 05:01:35 PM
Here is a weird one the radio in my truck just stopped making any sound even on the CD.  It still goes on and shows stations but doesn't play.  No info shows on the stations like it used to so
i don't think it's getting signal either.  Probably just replace it  but the whole thing strikes me as weird

Mute function, maybe? Some players have wiring for hooking up a mobile phone in the car, including a mute when the phone rings, and there could be a short somewhere. Or, it could simply be a software problem and all you have to do is to cut off power to restart it?!
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on February 26, 2008, 05:13:27 PM
Here is a weird one the radio in my truck just stopped making any sound even on the CD.  It still goes on and shows stations but doesn't play.  No info shows on the stations like it used to so
i don't think it's getting signal either.  Probably just replace it  but the whole thing strikes me as weird

Mute function, maybe? Some players have wiring for hooking up a mobile phone in the car, including a mute when the phone rings, and there could be a short somewhere. Or, it could simply be a software problem and all you have to do is to cut off power to restart it?!

Good fielding, Odeon!

... and he's exactly right. One other thing to think of is if your system has "high" power, often there is a separate fuse for the amplifier. If the amplifier fuse goes, the whole machine would work as normal but with no sound. Your owner's manual is your friend, in this case.

You can probably find a manual online as well with a model number search at the manufacturer's site, unless it's a factory unit. If so, all bets are off.


If all else fails, buy a new one at Best Buy (:D) or even better order it online from Krutchfield and install it yourself.
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Post by: Lucifer on February 26, 2008, 05:24:17 PM
Here is a weird one the radio in my truck just stopped making any sound even on the CD.  It still goes on and shows stations but doesn't play.  No info shows on the stations like it used to so
i don't think it's getting signal either.  Probably just replace it  but the whole thing strikes me as weird

Mute function, maybe? Some players have wiring for hooking up a mobile phone in the car, including a mute when the phone rings, and there could be a short somewhere. Or, it could simply be a software problem and all you have to do is to cut off power to restart it?!

Good fielding, Odeon!

yes, he's good with his hands.   :angel:
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Post by: Parts on February 27, 2008, 09:48:08 PM
More on the radio it doesn't pick up any stations at all either it scans though the whole band.  Also I can hear some station barely even when the radio is off coming through the speakers :-\
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Post by: odeon on February 28, 2008, 01:58:49 AM
Then I suspect the technical term is "fucked up". :-\
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Post by: DirtDawg on February 28, 2008, 01:54:48 PM
Then I suspect the technical term is "fucked up". :-\

Operative plan would be get a new one. Unfortunately all these modern ones are chip-based and you might be able to find some replacement mechanical parts, but almost all the chips are obsolete once they hit the assembly line.

(Fcuckign comsumer society!! as per Lucifer)

There is not much you can do if something "Inside" has gone wrong. New ones are less than a hundred bucks with more features. Sorry.
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Post by: odeon on February 28, 2008, 05:22:25 PM
You could still find that fuse and hope for some weird circuit to reconnect, I suppose, but yes, you probably need a new one.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on February 28, 2008, 11:01:54 PM
Probably will get a new one getting it in will not be as easy as it was in all my other cars as it's above the heater and AC instead of under it like they used to be and it looks like a pain in the ass
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Post by: DirtDawg on February 29, 2008, 06:26:01 PM
Probably will get a new one getting it in will not be as easy as it was in all my other cars as it's above the heater and AC instead of under it like they used to be and it looks like a pain in the ass

Sounds like it will be. Anything put together with jigs and robotic arms is usually a bitch to work on.

It will be worth it though.

You might find that paying to have a professional installer do it is well worth the money when you consider how much your own "off-time" is worth to you.

My off-time has always been extremely valuable to me.
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Post by: Parts on March 01, 2008, 11:11:34 AM
I fixed it!!!!!  I remembered another computerized radio that I had with a similar problem so I did the same thing.  I disconnected the battery for a few hours and let it all reset :clap:
What ever happened to reset  buttons on things?  When I was a kid they had them
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Post by: odeon on March 01, 2008, 01:28:48 PM
I fixed it!!!!!  I remembered another computerized radio that I had with a similar problem so I did the same thing.  I disconnected the battery for a few hours and let it all reset :clap:
What ever happened to reset  buttons on things?  When I was a kid they had them


Reset buttons are becoming very rare these days. Glad you were able to fix it. :)
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Post by: DirtDawg on March 01, 2008, 01:57:46 PM
I fixed it!!!!!  I remembered another computerized radio that I had with a similar problem so I did the same thing.  I disconnected the battery for a few hours and let it all reset :clap:
What ever happened to reset  buttons on things?  When I was a kid they had them


Reset buttons are becoming very rare these days. Glad you were able to fix it. :)


True, but when Odeon mentioned a posssible software problem, it never occcurred to me that you had not tried a re-booot.

Glad you were able to find the problem. You may have to do this from time to timetime.


BTW, I have an older DVD player in my third system that occassionally needds to have the power shuit off so it can heal. It's like allowing it a nap
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Post by: odeon on March 01, 2008, 02:12:31 PM
I fixed it!!!!!  I remembered another computerized radio that I had with a similar problem so I did the same thing.  I disconnected the battery for a few hours and let it all reset :clap:
What ever happened to reset  buttons on things?  When I was a kid they had them


Reset buttons are becoming very rare these days. Glad you were able to fix it. :)


True, but when Odeon mentioned a posssible software problem, it never occcurred to me that you had not tried a re-booot.

Glad you were able to find the problem. You may have to do this from time to timetime.


BTW, I have an older DVD player in my third system that occassionally needds to have the power shuit off so it can heal. It's like allowing it a nap

Bad power supply?
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Post by: DirtDawg on March 01, 2008, 03:08:00 PM
I fixed it!!!!!  I remembered another computerized radio that I had with a similar problem so I did the same thing.  I disconnected the battery for a few hours and let it all reset :clap:
What ever happened to reset  buttons on things?  When I was a kid they had them


Reset buttons are becoming very rare these days. Glad you were able to fix it. :)


True, but when Odeon mentioned a posssible software problem, it never occcurred to me that you had not tried a re-booot.

Glad you were able to find the problem. You may have to do this from time to timetime.


BTW, I have an older DVD player in my third system that occassionally needds to have the power shuit off so it can heal. It's like allowing it a nap

Bad power supply?

Most likely, but possibly aging or ineffective shielding/grounding could also be to blame.

I live in a nightmarish, rabidus locus when it comes to a discussion of EMI. I have also discovered and corrected multiple groundloops that our electrical utility company, cable company and the telephone company had created for me. About three years later I discovered one that the natural gas company had set up. Every little bit helps, but the main problem is Gaussian, I'm convinced. There is a reason why I can move something three inches or swivel it thirty or forty degrees and cure it temporarily.

I just want to move somewhere, where I only have one line for all utilities to follow and it's about fifty miles long in one direction.
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Post by: El on April 01, 2008, 08:36:51 AM
What member of I2 would you most like to join me in a threesome with?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on April 01, 2008, 03:37:38 PM
What member of I2 would you most like to join me in a threesome with?

My answer would have to depend on whether we are talking about a matter of days or weeks on end. If I chose a female for a short time, for instance, it would be all about me, but if I chose a male over a long period of time, the game would inevitably become all about you. Could be a workable plan, if all my yet to be born, virgin selves were not "betrothed."


In either case, I might like to keep a roster of switch hitters on call.
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Post by: El on April 02, 2008, 07:30:26 AM
What member of I2 would you most like to join me in a threesome with?

My answer would have to depend on whether we are talking about a matter of days or weeks on end. If I chose a female for a short time, for instance, it would be all about me, but if I chose a male over a long period of time, the game would inevitably become all about you. Could be a workable plan, if all my yet to be born, virgin selves were not "betrothed."


In either case, I might like to keep a roster of switch hitters on call.
Tag-team fucking?
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Post by: Alex179 on April 02, 2008, 07:38:14 AM
Would giving high fives be looked upon badly?
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Post by: El on April 02, 2008, 07:39:13 AM
Would giving high fives be looked upon badly?
Aren't there a couple of stupid positions like that- like Eiffel tower or sommat?
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Post by: Alex179 on April 02, 2008, 07:46:54 AM
Would giving high fives be looked upon badly?
Aren't there a couple of stupid positions like that- like Eiffel tower or sommat?
I believe so.
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Post by: DirtDawg on April 02, 2008, 02:14:14 PM
What member of I2 would you most like to join me in a threesome with?

My answer would have to depend on whether we are talking about a matter of days or weeks on end. If I chose a female for a short time, for instance, it would be all about me, but if I chose a male over a long period of time, the game would inevitably become all about you. Could be a workable plan, if all my yet to be born, virgin selves were not "betrothed."


In either case, I might like to keep a roster of switch hitters on call.
Tag-team fucking?

I know you're kidding.

I was thinking of something a little more sultry.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on May 03, 2008, 04:08:05 PM
Today while scavenging through bulk pick up piles I came across a box of vinyl mostly classic rock stuff.  I am probably going to selll them at the flea market but was wondering   if there is some way to tell if they are reprints or from when they came out.  Any web site link  that is understandable by a non expert would be helpfull
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Post by: DirtDawg on May 03, 2008, 09:24:15 PM
Today while scavenging through bulk pick up piles I came across a box of vinyl mostly classic rock stuff.  I am probably going to selll them at the flea market but was wondering   if there is some way to tell if they are reprints or from when they came out.  Any web site link  that is understandable by a non expert would be helpfull

Wow, nice find, but what you are asking is very complicated. The ways in which LP manufacturers identified their products varies a great deal.

There are often entire sites with fan forums dedicated to figuring out just ONE popular artist's work. Once you get past the numbers on the label it really gets dicey, most of the time. If you mean, by the use of the word "re-print" that you would like to know if the LPs were higher quality like those from major labels, you can often get clues by finding that an Atlantic (for instance) LP was not manufactured by an Atlantic affiliate. That is a certain give-away that it is most likely a re-issue.

The thing to remember is that each time the next record is "pressed" it wears out the master a slight bit. So, if possible, a collector would prefer to own an LP made during the early life of a master disk.  Some masters are also more detailed or "true to life" than others and therefore more desirable. Not only do they wear out over time from use, some masters are lower quality from the beginning also.

In the deadwax (that area after all the music on an LP side, towards the innermost grooves, at the center) there are sometimes clues engraved into the various masters that were used to help identify which vinyl LP was produced by which master, but there is no standard way to enter this information and it was often neglected. People always got creative with that part, too. I have often used google to search what I find in the deadwax, but not all of the inscriptions are categorized and identified.

There is also information (sometimes) at publishing and record companies' websites which helps.

Honestly, it's not a reasonable pursuit for an amateur interest. Once you define the LP by the numbers printed on the label (re-issues often have a different number from the original or in some cases, it is the same, but a series number follows the set of numbers which identifies the group and album) and the "type" of label, stop there. This is basically what I do, because it is so involved researching a run of LPs.

The only ones that I own that I truly know the whole scoop about are the ones that I bought myself out of the first run of pressings at the time of release. Most of the other LPs I own, I  only know details because I got lucky in my research or the lives of the masters were well documented, as in the case of Beatle albums.
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Post by: DirtDawg on May 03, 2008, 11:11:41 PM

Sorry, forgot to put up my favorite link for this type of research. "The Collective" mind at SH.tv can often help sort out what's what.

Steve Hoffman's fan site. (http://www.stevehoffman.tv/forums/)

Huge site, stats are amazing ...... Threads: 143,975, Posts: 3,045,873, Members: 16,233

I pop in every so often and exchange private messages, but I don't really go there much these days. A couple of years ago their forum died and much was lost. They got back up soon,  but it would not let me have my name back.




Anyway, don't get discouraged if you ask a question in the music forum. I have asked several early in the morning, often get an answer in minutes and my thread ends up on the fifth page by noon.

:D
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 04, 2008, 04:32:00 AM
Thanks for the link. I have a whole bunch of rare Beatles LPs and singles I need to check, and that place seems to be perfect.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on May 04, 2008, 06:28:09 AM
Some are Beatles albums and at least one Zappa one too
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Post by: Hiphop Grandma on May 04, 2008, 09:54:53 AM
If you give me a list I can give you a rough estimate... it would depend on whether or not they are original/older prints and not newer ones.
Popsike.com is a pretty cool for records, you might find the value of some of yours on that site.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 04, 2008, 01:03:56 PM
Thanks for the link. I have a whole bunch of rare Beatles LPs and singles I need to check, and that place seems to be perfect.

There is actually a disorganised group of members who complain constantly about there being too many Beatle threads.

:D

Fair warning:

It is a family friendly site and it is HEAVILY moderated!


The moderators are called Gorts, like in the movie. most of the Gorts are cool, but don't think of it as a free speech site. It is certainly not.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 04, 2008, 01:15:32 PM
If you give me a list I can give you a rough estimate... it would depend on whether or not they are original/older prints and not newer ones.
Popsike.com is a pretty cool for records, you might find the value of some of yours on that site.

True, popsike is a site with a few well informed hobbyists.

Steve Hoffman is a true, proven over time, recording professional and many of his forum members are currently active in the music recording industry or the industries offering the consumer electronic goods and services. It would be difficult for me to recommend another, honestly.


Oh and BTW, Steve, the man himself, often responds to topics which interest him. He is a proper post whore when he has the time.

:rofl:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 04, 2008, 02:53:14 PM
There is actually a disorganised group of members who complain constantly about there being too many Beatle threads.

I'm not about to post there, but I might read a few threads. :D
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 04, 2008, 02:57:59 PM
There is actually a disorganised group of members who complain constantly about there being too many Beatle threads.

I'm not about to post there, but I might read a few threads. :D

If I can remember correctly, the last time I searched that site for threads with the word, "Beatles" in the title, there were around six thousand.

Ten times that for the ones which mention the Beatles within the body of the posts.

:D

It's actually an OK place as long as the discussion does not stray from music related topics.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 04, 2008, 03:01:40 PM
I have a bunch of LPs I need to check so I might try that place.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Lucifer on May 04, 2008, 03:06:48 PM
you can pal up with beatle soul - she's bound to be on there.  :laugh:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 04, 2008, 03:13:14 PM
I don't think she was even born when I bought most of my Beatles collection.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 04, 2008, 03:37:10 PM
I don't think she was even born when I bought most of my Beatles collection.

I doubt it and I expect that she would find the place extremely boring.


I think of it as kind of like a reference book.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 04, 2008, 03:38:19 PM
I don't think she was even born when I bought most of my Beatles collection.

I doubt it and I expect that she would find the place extremely boring.

Thing is, I'm extremely proud of my Beatles collection. I have a few gems.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 04, 2008, 03:43:33 PM

I am, too.

I don't have any real rarities, though. Just good sounding LPs with warmth, depth and body.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 04, 2008, 04:00:50 PM

I am, too.

I don't have any real rarities, though. Just good sounding LPs with warmth, depth and body.

Most of mine still sound good, others I bought because they were rare enough to include in my collection, in spite of minor damage.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 04, 2008, 05:42:22 PM
I do have a complete collection, including many duplicates, of black rainbow early releases. They are not particularly rare, except in pristine condition, but on a desirability scale (to a "completist" collector) many of them have monetary value.

I don't think that SH.tv would help much to determine value in that way. The place is peppered with completists, though.

You might enjoy to peruse their marketplace, but last I noticed, it was mostly SH remastered CD releases which changed hands, as it should be I suppose.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 05, 2008, 01:26:27 PM
My collection is by no means complete--there are some singles I'd die for.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Lucifer on May 05, 2008, 02:07:33 PM
My collection is by no means complete--there are some singles I'd die for.

bet my sister has them.  she had all of them, in monophone, etc.  she's probably chucked them out now, though.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 05, 2008, 02:15:10 PM
My collection is by no means complete--there are some singles I'd die for.

bet my sister has them.  she had all of them, in monophone, etc.  she's probably chucked them out now, though.

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 05, 2008, 08:56:41 PM



fucking hurls, sells a buick, screams at ralph etc

I would be OK with her doing that, except that I also have thrown old reocords away



i don't have time for nausea right now
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on May 08, 2008, 08:02:18 PM
Do you know anything about old crank record players.  I have acquired a an Edison diamond disc record player and about 50 discs  from the twenties the springs are busted can they be rewound
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 08, 2008, 09:00:06 PM
Do you know anything about old crank record players.  I have acquired a an Edison diamond disc record player and about 50 discs  from the twenties the springs are busted can they be rewound

Sorry, but I don't know much about them.

They are mechanical things though. Nothing can go wrong with them that can't be solved.

They can certainly be fixed. You just need to find the right artisan.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on May 09, 2008, 05:29:18 AM
Do you know anything about old crank record players.  I have acquired a an Edison diamond disc record player and about 50 discs  from the twenties the springs are busted can they be rewound

Sorry, but I don't know much about them.

They are mechanical things though. Nothing can go wrong with them that can't be solved.

They can certainly be fixed. You just need to find the right artisan.

I am pretty good at mechanical things and furniture I never fixed a spring canister before tough.  They are an interesting player the Beta max of their day.  Incompatible with normal 78 hey ran at 80 the rival system it lasted about 14 years.  The records are about 3/8 of an inch thick and have a center of pressed wood
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 09, 2008, 02:42:25 PM


Sounds like you can handle it.

honestly, if it was mine, I would delve nito the job.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: renaeden on May 11, 2008, 04:09:04 AM
You have probably written about this before, DirtDawg, I am wondering why you are having trouble typing. I just read a post of yours that mentioned it.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 11, 2008, 12:51:25 PM

I just get hyper sometimes.


Sorry.

I used to not post. I would only read, but I have become more relaxed with you guys. I will try harder to calm up when I can't see the mistakes.


It does not make sense to type shit that no one can understand.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on May 11, 2008, 02:42:48 PM
Hey, some of us understand some of it.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: renaeden on May 12, 2008, 04:51:55 AM

I just get hyper sometimes.


Sorry.

I used to not post. I would only read, but I have become more relaxed with you guys. I will try harder to calm up when I can't see the mistakes.


It does not make sense to type shit that no one can understand.
Please, no need to apologise. I do understand your posts (most of the time, as with everyone)and I like them, I find them interesting. I never skim over your posts so I don't want you to stop posting. I hope I haven't made you feel uncomfortable. Will you tell me if I have?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 12, 2008, 05:54:26 AM

It is not you who makes me uncomfortable, Renaeden. Not at all. I doubt that anyone is more aware of just how unstable I can be than myself.

I often respond internally to outward stresses. There are aspects of my job which cause me stress and I often overestimate my own ability to endure those.

I am sorry that I have sometimes not even realised the effects of hyper-anxiety as I sit down to interact with my "friends"  here.
I sometimes go back to respond to someone and find complete words left out of my posts or words misplaced and out of order, sometimes too many letters, sometimes too few, sometimes one letter from one word exchanged with one letter from another word, changing the entire meaning. I don't even make constant or consistent errors, like most people do by continually misspelling the same words or using some mis-learned grammar.

If I did make consistent errors, it would be much easier to understand my "twyping."
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: renaeden on May 12, 2008, 07:09:15 AM
I like your posts, iam not worritfd about spelling, I thought it was your keyboard givinhg you hassles. I am a sloew two-dffinger typier and I micxx letters a lot. I have to go nback with every post to make sure I don;t make mistakes,. I am sort of pfussyty about it. I made a poiost here to show you.. Not to make fun, II just wantte d to shoe I understand what you m,ean.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on May 12, 2008, 11:18:54 AM
I try to imagine what it would be like if I had to type my posts with thick work gloves, since I know that you tend to have these problems typing when your hands have trouble feeling.  I like your posts and I don't have much trouble at all figuring out what you meant to type.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 12, 2008, 07:32:04 PM
I like your posts, iam not worritfd about spelling, I thought it was your keyboard givinhg you hassles. I am a sloew two-dffinger typier and I micxx letters a lot. I have to go nback with every post to make sure I don;t make mistakes,. I am sort of pfussyty about it. I made a poiost here to show you.. Not to make fun, II just wantte d to shoe I understand what you m,ean.
I try to imagine what it would be like if I had to type my posts with thick work gloves, since I know that you tend to have these problems typing when your hands have trouble feeling.  I like your posts and I don't have much trouble at all figuring out what you meant to type.
thank you both for trying.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 12, 2008, 07:32:51 PM
I try to edit, but I don't always see what;s wrong at first.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 12, 2008, 07:36:21 PM


I have already slowed my posting quite a bit from where it was a year ago. I doubt that I will ever be the daily post whore that brought me to my present numbers, but I will probably "die here', becaues I like this bunch of misfits .....  Unless something goes wrong with the site.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on May 13, 2008, 05:38:32 AM
I use the goggle tool bar spell check constantly
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 13, 2008, 06:14:04 AM
I use the goggle tool bar spell check constantly

That doesn't work for me, nor does Firefox's spell checker. You have to at least be "close" to the word for the spell checker to help much.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on May 13, 2008, 07:39:38 AM
I get that too  :-[
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 13, 2008, 12:07:44 PM
I use the goggle tool bar spell check constantly

That doesn't work for me, nor does Firefox's spell checker. You have to at least be "close" to the word for the spell checker to help much.

The Firefox spell checker is quite handy since it works in real time.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Lucifer on May 13, 2008, 12:51:43 PM
I use the goggle tool bar spell check constantly

That doesn't work for me, nor does Firefox's spell checker. You have to at least be "close" to the word for the spell checker to help much.

The Firefox spell checker is quite handy since it works in real time.

what does this mean?  do the others give you seventeenth century spellings, or something?

:LMAO:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 13, 2008, 01:44:06 PM
I use the goggle tool bar spell check constantly

That doesn't work for me, nor does Firefox's spell checker. You have to at least be "close" to the word for the spell checker to help much.

The Firefox spell checker is quite handy since it works in real time.

what does this mean?  do the others give you seventeenth century spellings, or something?

:LMAO:

It's pooter-speak, silly. :smarty:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Lucifer on May 13, 2008, 01:53:56 PM
my version's funnier.  :P
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 13, 2008, 02:01:04 PM
my version's funnier.  :P

 :indeed:

 :plus:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 13, 2008, 02:06:05 PM
I use the goggle tool bar spell check constantly

That doesn't work for me, nor does Firefox's spell checker. You have to at least be "close" to the word for the spell checker to help much.

The Firefox spell checker is quite handy since it works in real time.

Yeah, it catches any, "I before E, except after C"  mistakes right away, but it often suggests nothing even similar to the word I need.

I keep it off most of the time, but sometimes I try it again. It serves a function, but not mine, usually.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 13, 2008, 02:19:02 PM
I use the goggle tool bar spell check constantly

That doesn't work for me, nor does Firefox's spell checker. You have to at least be "close" to the word for the spell checker to help much.

The Firefox spell checker is quite handy since it works in real time.

Yeah, it catches any, "I before E, except after C"  mistakes right away, but it often suggests nothing even similar to the word I need.

I keep it off most of the time, but sometimes I try it again. It serves a function, but not mine, usually.

Maybe you should look into those auto-complete programs out there? There are a few that help you write both faster andbetter.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on May 13, 2008, 02:53:26 PM
I use the goggle tool bar spell check constantly

That doesn't work for me, nor does Firefox's spell checker. You have to at least be "close" to the word for the spell checker to help much.

The Firefox spell checker is quite handy since it works in real time.

Yeah, it catches any, "I before E, except after C"  mistakes right away, but it often suggests nothing even similar to the word I need.

I keep it off most of the time, but sometimes I try it again. It serves a function, but not mine, usually.

Maybe you should look into those auto-complete programs out there? There are a few that help you write both faster andbetter.

... or just make it a point to slow down when I know I have been "exposed"  to the kinds of things that send me into space without my cowboy hat.


I will try. I promise I will try.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on May 14, 2008, 12:50:10 PM
Don't worry, Dawg. It doesn't bother me.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on June 23, 2008, 08:34:52 AM
I found Zeiss Ikon folding camera  it says Nettar 515/2 in it it appears to be of WW2 vintage.  Could this be worth anything?  I am going to show it to my photographer brother but will not see him till the 4th of July.  I believe it takes standard 120 film
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on June 23, 2008, 03:12:20 PM
I found Zeiss Ikon folding camera  it says Nettar 515/2 in it it appears to be of WW2 vintage.  Could this be worth anything?  I am going to show it to my photographer brother but will not see him till the 4th of July.  I believe it takes standard 120 film

Impossible to say, precisely. I could not even get you in the ballpark without a close inspection and some research. Lots of info on these can be found on the net. They made buttloads of these things so they are not rare, but that also means that many camera guys are familiar with them.
Does it work? Is the leather still good? Is the lens in good shape? You will need to know the lens design and the shutter design, before you can even begin to assess its value. The serial number will also help to determine when it was made and which specific improvements to the design were included in your camera.

I have seen working examples go for fifteen bucks, several years ago. Specific lens design, shutter type, film transport mechanism improvements, optical rangefinders and several other factors determine the value, in addition to the overall condition. I've seen desirable ones, with Compur shutters and faster (Tessar f/4.5) lenses, in pristine condition, go for close to a thousand bucks.

It's been years since I went to a camera show looking for goodies. The last few times I went, literally six or seven years ago, I was looking for professional equipment and did not even browse the collector models from the past.

It's a great find either way!

Here's a guy who collects cameras who also lists a Nettar 515/2. (http://www.amdmacpherson.com/classiccameras/zeiss/zeissindex.html)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on June 23, 2008, 03:24:07 PM
I found Zeiss Ikon folding camera  it says Nettar 515/2 in it it appears to be of WW2 vintage.  Could this be worth anything?  I am going to show it to my photographer brother but will not see him till the 4th of July.  I believe it takes standard 120 film

Yes, it probably is worth something. How's the lense? Any damage to it?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on June 23, 2008, 05:44:00 PM
Everything on it is in good shape even the leather  I will bring it to my brother on the forth for him to check it out,  he is a photographer and an antique dealer
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on June 23, 2008, 07:53:58 PM
Everything on it is in good shape even the leather  I will bring it to my brother on the forth for him to check it out,  he is a photographer and an antique dealer

COOoool!

You should run a couple of rolls of film through it anyway, just for fun. You will probably have to find a pro shop to process it, but a six by nine negative makes a really nice print, especially in black and white.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on June 24, 2008, 02:24:28 PM
Yes, you should shoot a few rolls, just to see what it's like.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on July 04, 2008, 06:53:29 AM
It's a submariner's expression. When they receive no return echo, the protocol is to increase power to the ultrasonic mapping equipment. They call it "sounding." Deep-sounding is extreme use of the power potential of their systems.

Does increasing the power work better for you than changing the frequency?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 04, 2008, 07:56:45 AM
It's a submariner's expression. When they receive no return echo, the protocol is to increase power to the ultrasonic mapping equipment. They call it "sounding." Deep-sounding is extreme use of the power potential of their systems.

Does increasing the power work better for you than changing the frequency?

Of couse not, but within those amchines, the practical stops have been reached before deployment. They are also capable of multiple frequency detections and full spectrum sounding and full spectrum detection (within their own limits0.

Finding my own limits has been a lifelong search. Usually interest wanes long before stamina is used up.
That of course affects which frequencies I claim as my own.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 04, 2008, 08:23:01 AM


None of my stops had been determined when I started. If so, then the limits were not clear.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on July 04, 2008, 09:57:14 PM
My brother says the camera is from the 1930's and in very good condition.   He said to put $100on it and accept no less than $70 not bad for a trash find it even has the owners name and address in Austria inside
(http://i135.photobucket.com/albums/q131/parts67/003-8.jpg)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on July 06, 2008, 03:07:13 PM
What's the make of that camera?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on July 06, 2008, 03:11:58 PM
What's the make of that camera?



I found Zeiss Ikon folding camera  it says Nettar 515/2 in it it appears to be of WW2 vintage.  Could this be worth anything?  I am going to show it to my photographer brother but will not see him till the 4th of July.  I believe it takes standard 120 film
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on July 06, 2008, 03:13:53 PM
Oh, right. I had a very different Zeiss Ikon camera in my mind.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on July 06, 2008, 03:15:56 PM
This camera he said was the stripped down version of a high end camera
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on July 06, 2008, 03:23:19 PM
This is the one I was thinking about. I did a Google search and found a site with old cameras, among them a Zeiss Ikon Super Ikonta 533/16 (http://www.lumieresenboite.com/collection2.php?l=2&c=Zeiss_Ikon_Super_Ikonta_533/16). It's supposed to be one of the best of its kind.

(http://www.lumieresenboite.com/images/collection/zeiss6x6.jpg)

Yours is older, though, I believe.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 06, 2008, 03:24:01 PM

Sorry, GA.

(Response was removed from its original thread to keep GA from having to read it in his own thread)








I like cats...

Served wrapped with masa harina, smothered in goat cheese, then baked to perfection? Enchiladas!  I must agree.

(It was three days later when I learned what I had eaten, though.)
What was your reaction (it is hard to throw up something you ate three days previous)?

At first, I laughed and thought that they were kidding me or that I was misinterpreting some colloquial usage of Spanish words. I was crossing the continental divide in southern Mexico, guided by "strangers" on our way to the Pacific Ocean during the second of my three extended sabbaticals.



It was only after we had wildcat for dinner the fifth time that I believed them. I had already eaten cat on three other accasions and the subject of "What it was" had not been introduced to the conversations.  The next serving was just as delicious as the first, even after seeing it prepared. Roughing the wild can be a learning experience.

I was glad when we got to some major waterways on the western slopes, though, and could eat fishcatch, clams and turtles, instead of lizards, snakes, 'possums, cats, bugs and birds (the local native cuisine). It was a six month journey on foot (there and back, although we dipped into the southern, rainy jungles on the way back and left the desert to the north) across wild, unsettled terrain, with three burros to carry some of the supplies (salt, water, corn, spices, cover, weapons) that literally changed my life. I also found dozens of places where I would like to live forever, crossing those incredible mountains. I know I've mentioned this trek a number of times on this site, but I've not gone into much detail, here.

Hardly anyone to identify with these days, anyway. It seems that everyone who had a clue as to who I am is gone, now.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: renaeden on July 07, 2008, 02:43:39 AM
Another 'Dawg story. :) Have you thought about writing a book or equivalent? You have done some awesome things worth telling.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 07, 2008, 08:16:09 AM
Another 'Dawg story. :) Have you thought about writing a book or equivalent? You have done some awesome things worth telling.

I have.

There is one, very complete, well indexed and heavily annotated accounting of my work in music, of which I am very proud, that had become an obsession at one point. In my naivete, I discovered that even writing truthful, cross-documented, photographed to the extreme of detail, precision surgical references to causal and effectual happenstances in real life may draw some legal consequence.

I was sure that, having "Teh Truth"  on my side, shown in graphic depiction and with multiple sources of erudite commentary from others who were involved, would take me past some of the stops. I was stupid. Law suits, just from my original hamfisted proposal to a publisher came in threes, twice. Yes, six times I was presented with lawsuits from people who I had never mentioned or photographed, but were acting on behalf of other parties. The publisher was presented with twenty something of the same type of "legal wrangling" stop orders.

So, I go back to work. I re-write much of the book, editing many of the more revealing photographic accounts, taking all the soul out of the passionate work I had spent years creating, but I lost interest in watering it all down. Rock-N-roll is not watered down. It is raw, unforgiving, a "Run Once" activity in the live performance world, and to tell my story, I must use my knowledge and cross documentation of the events by those who were there, as they happened or there is no reason to pursue any of it.

As far as my three sabbatical journeys, each time I did this, I was making an escape from what I was and had ever been or known of myself. I carried no cameras, no contact information, no identifying documents (except in Mexico I carried an American Social Security card). My personal journals which I kept at times are hand written, hand drawn, hand burned after some troubles (in one case) and are not publishworthy in their present states.

I have only taken an interest in making these accounts more presentable after discovering that I have a full-grown son who grew up without knowing anything about his real father, just last year. Unfortunately, I have little time to devote and I have not made much progress, yet.

It seems that every time I try to do anything with my oldest son (who I have only made contact with this past year), my present wife thinks that I am abandoning my current responsibilities and looking for an excuse to leave her and my present family behind. We have not sorted this out yet.
I have also become aware this year that I have another son from my first marriage who was kept from me, but for entirely different reasons. My first wife and I ended our relationship on a really bad note, while she was involved with another man (and pregnant) and this other man raised this (middle) son of mine, who is also in his late twenties.

This little saga has made me very determined to refine my past journals and try to make them coherent. I will some day complete the task, but thanks for asking.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on July 07, 2008, 09:44:14 AM
Damn that sucks about the legal "wrangling".   >:(   Stories like yours should be told, unvarnished, honest tales from the music world, instead of some glossy, bs that the "stars" put out as Biographies.   Don't give up!

Sounds like your wife is wildly insecure atm.  Good luck there as well!   :plus:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 07, 2008, 10:05:18 AM
Damn that sucks about the legal "wrangling".   >:(   Stories like yours should be told, unvarnished, honest tales from the music world, instead of some glossy, bs that the "stars" put out as Biographies.   Don't give up!

Sounds like your wife is wildly insecure atm.  Good luck there as well!   :plus:

Thanks for the encouragement.

... and you're right about my domestic problems. I don't see an end in sight to it all. I don't want it to "end" with her, but it takes two and I'm probably only about one half, so to speak. The burden she must bear to deal with someone like me is much to ask.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on July 07, 2008, 12:22:09 PM
Damn that sucks about the legal "wrangling".   >:(   Stories like yours should be told, unvarnished, honest tales from the music world, instead of some glossy, bs that the "stars" put out as Biographies.   Don't give up!

Sounds like your wife is wildly insecure atm.  Good luck there as well!   :plus:

Thanks for the encouragement.

... and you're right about my domestic problems. I don't see an end in sight to it all. I don't want it to "end" with her, but it takes two and I'm probably only about one half, so to speak. The burden she must bear to deal with someone like me is much to ask.

Not really, but, she must be aware that you had a past life and your not going to just throw that away and ignore your kids by other women.  Your doing the right thing by meeting them and talking to them.  Your giving those kids a past and a history.   :thumbup:  It's not like your throwing your present family away either.  SHE needs some serious counselling and that right quickly. 
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 07, 2008, 05:31:25 PM
Damn that sucks about the legal "wrangling".   >:(   Stories like yours should be told, unvarnished, honest tales from the music world, instead of some glossy, bs that the "stars" put out as Biographies.   Don't give up!

Sounds like your wife is wildly insecure atm.  Good luck there as well!   :plus:

Thanks for the encouragement.

... and you're right about my domestic problems. I don't see an end in sight to it all. I don't want it to "end" with her, but it takes two and I'm probably only about one half, so to speak. The burden she must bear to deal with someone like me is much to ask.

Not really, but, she must be aware that you had a past life and your not going to just throw that away and ignore your kids by other women.  Your doing the right thing by meeting them and talking to them.  Your giving those kids a past and a history.   :thumbup:  It's not like your throwing your present family away either.  SHE needs some serious counselling and that right quickly. 

I am doing my level goddamnedest to hang in there. She may just need some time to herself. I am open to her needs.
Hell! She's my best friend. I am not goint ot give up on her easily.

I can not see myself doing much more for those who grew up without knowing me or who they are.

I have to schedule everything!

We talk, my oldest and I, but I hate and can not understand telephones and can only take just so much, before I have to end a conversation. I have only talked to the middle one twice in recent times. I talked to him quite a bit when he was about twelve and I was thirty seven, but we did not know that we were related by direct blood scoring. My evil ex-wife only allowed me that much contact with him, until recently. SHE KNEW he was my son at that time or she would not have allowed even that much contact.  I should be grateful for even that little, but there has been way too much blood gone under that bridge to ever forgive her, if you know what I mean.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on July 07, 2008, 06:34:28 PM
Damn that sucks about the legal "wrangling".   >:(   Stories like yours should be told, unvarnished, honest tales from the music world, instead of some glossy, bs that the "stars" put out as Biographies.   Don't give up!

Sounds like your wife is wildly insecure atm.  Good luck there as well!   :plus:

Thanks for the encouragement.

... and you're right about my domestic problems. I don't see an end in sight to it all. I don't want it to "end" with her, but it takes two and I'm probably only about one half, so to speak. The burden she must bear to deal with someone like me is much to ask.

Not really, but, she must be aware that you had a past life and your not going to just throw that away and ignore your kids by other women.  Your doing the right thing by meeting them and talking to them.  Your giving those kids a past and a history.   :thumbup:  It's not like your throwing your present family away either.  SHE needs some serious counselling and that right quickly. 

I am doing my level goddamnedest to hang in there. She may just need some time to herself. I am open to her needs.
Hell! She's my best friend. I am not goint ot give up on her easily.

I can not see myself doing much more for those who grew up without knowing me or who they are.

I have to schedule everything!

We talk, my oldest and I, but I hate and can not understand telephones and can only take just so much, before I have to end a conversation. I have only talked to the middle one twice in recent times. I talked to him quite a bit when he was about twelve and I was thirty seven, but we did not know that we were related by direct blood scoring. My evil ex-wife only allowed me that much contact with him, until recently. SHE KNEW he was my son at that time or she would not have allowed even that much contact.  I should be grateful for even that little, but there has been way too much blood gone under that bridge to ever forgive her, if you know what I mean.

The evil ex will reap what she sowed.  Sooner or later, your son will put the pieces together, if he hasn't already and will certianly feel resentment toward her for keeping the facts from him for so long.  You won't have to do or say a thing.  What goes around comes around.  Yes, I know what you mean.

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 07, 2008, 06:48:15 PM
Thanks, again Ozy, for the encouragement.

I think you may have more insight, yet to offer.

There is just no place to put these emotions in my experience. It is like a full hand of jokers, in poker.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on July 07, 2008, 07:16:48 PM
Thanks, again Ozy, for the encouragement.

I think you may have more insight, yet to offer.

There is just no place to put these emotions in my experience. It is like a full hand of jokers, in poker.

Yes, unless it's jokers are wild, then the hand can be anything you want.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on July 07, 2008, 07:21:30 PM
Another 'Dawg story. :) Have you thought about writing a book or equivalent? You have done some awesome things worth telling.

I have.

I hope that when I get to that point I'll have as many fascinating stories.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 08, 2008, 11:04:27 AM
Thanks, again Ozy, for the encouragement.

I think you may have more insight, yet to offer.

There is just no place to put these emotions in my experience. It is like a full hand of jokers, in poker.

Yes, unless it's jokers are wild, then the hand can be anything you want.

So, true, but ...
You know as well as I do that, in real life, Jokers are discarded.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 08, 2008, 11:20:59 AM
I moved this here, Alex, because it was in PMS Elle's "problems"  thread and it does not belong there.




Ha.  Wow.  As of now I'm apparently single.  I can start actually looking to get laid now, then.

I seem to be in the same boat. My marriage is apparently dissolving before my eyes.

I'm not a decent wanker/vulture, though. It doesn't work for me any more than tickling myself cheers me up when I'm down.
I may need to become an eagle/hunter, once again.
That is terrible.    Don't you have a child with your wife?    Since it is a marriage there will be lawyers involved too.   Ugh, I hate lawyers.

I have two autistic children with this woman. I am not going to give up at this point ... even considering  how much I would like to get laid again - NOW!.

i am focused on trying to resolve what ever the fuck is wrong. She is not my enemy - she is my best friend and has been for many years. The fact that we have lost the ability to communicate is symptomatic of marriages in our age group, whether we are talking about couples with kids the ages of ours (we are both late bloomers) or couples who have been married for as long as we have (almost seventeen years, now, with home mortgage, bills out the wazoo, changes in our respective personalities, many deaths shared in the collective family, stresses we could never have imagined ... etc.)

This past year has put a number of exterior strains on our relationship. A great deal of it has to do with the fact that I've just recently discovered that I have two other grown son's by two other women from the far past, before I even met her.

There are other things, too. None of it has to do with anything I can control. THAT part is what has me in a fucking tizzy (as my grandmother used to say). No matter what I try to do, it makes no difference, it seems.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on July 08, 2008, 11:21:34 AM
Thanks, again Ozy, for the encouragement.

I think you may have more insight, yet to offer.

There is just no place to put these emotions in my experience. It is like a full hand of jokers, in poker.

Yes, unless it's jokers are wild, then the hand can be anything you want.

So, true, but ...
You know as well as I do that, in real life, Jokers are discarded.

True, but, it was always my philosophy that no matter what, I was holding onto my Jokers in the event that they would pay off.  Being discarded many times has given us much in common.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on July 08, 2008, 11:50:05 AM
Thanks, again Ozy, for the encouragement.

I think you may have more insight, yet to offer.

There is just no place to put these emotions in my experience. It is like a full hand of jokers, in poker.

Yes, unless it's jokers are wild, then the hand can be anything you want.

So, true, but ...
You know as well as I do that, in real life, Jokers are discarded.

True, but, it was always my philosophy that no matter what, I was holding onto my Jokers in the event that they would pay off.  Being discarded many times has given us much in common.

Yeah!
NO SHIT!

I just plussed you elsewhere, though. I owe you one.

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on July 08, 2008, 03:28:36 PM
Thanks, again Ozy, for the encouragement.

I think you may have more insight, yet to offer.

There is just no place to put these emotions in my experience. It is like a full hand of jokers, in poker.

Yes, unless it's jokers are wild, then the hand can be anything you want.

So, true, but ...
You know as well as I do that, in real life, Jokers are discarded.

True, but, it was always my philosophy that no matter what, I was holding onto my Jokers in the event that they would pay off.  Being discarded many times has given us much in common.

Yeah!
NO SHIT!

I just plussed you elsewhere, though. I owe you one.



We've all been discarded to some extent or other.  The harsh reality of being socially blind in a mega social world.   :plus:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: punkdrew on July 09, 2008, 12:03:12 AM
I'm a little tipsy so you are going to get the questions from the part of my mind i try to keep away from the keyboard while on this forum:

If you were to cum in a girls mouth, would you be willing to taste it when you kiss her afterwards?

Absolutely. Fair is fair. If she's willing to swallow, I'm willing to wallow.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: punkdrew on July 09, 2008, 12:08:05 AM
Thanks, again Ozy, for the encouragement.

I think you may have more insight, yet to offer.

There is just no place to put these emotions in my experience. It is like a full hand of jokers, in poker.

Yes, unless it's jokers are wild, then the hand can be anything you want.

So, true, but ...
You know as well as I do that, in real life, Jokers are discarded.

True, but, it was always my philosophy that no matter what, I was holding onto my Jokers in the event that they would pay off.  Being discarded many times has given us much in common.

Yeah!
NO SHIT!

I just plussed you elsewhere, though. I owe you one.



We've all been discarded to some extent or other.  The harsh reality of being socially blind in a mega social world.   :plus:

QFT. I've been abandoned countless times by people I thought I could rely on, because I couldn't pick up on their non-verbals. part of why I'm determined to stic it out with J. we have 3.5 yrs of history and unlike my brother's wife (now ex, I hope to Gawd) she's willing to work at it. At its worst, it's "mote and beam" as they said in BEyOND THE FRINGE. She can see my motes, but is struggling to dislodge her beams.

I wish I knew what to say to you Dawg other than "Hang in there." You obviously have a history together of facing and dealing with many struggles. i still think it's worth it. Al though you *might* want to ask me again tomorrow... :-\
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Alex179 on July 09, 2008, 04:02:13 PM
I moved this here, Alex, because it was in PMS Elle's "problems"  thread and it does not belong there.




Ha.  Wow.  As of now I'm apparently single.  I can start actually looking to get laid now, then.

I seem to be in the same boat. My marriage is apparently dissolving before my eyes.

I'm not a decent wanker/vulture, though. It doesn't work for me any more than tickling myself cheers me up when I'm down.
I may need to become an eagle/hunter, once again.
That is terrible.    Don't you have a child with your wife?    Since it is a marriage there will be lawyers involved too.   Ugh, I hate lawyers.

I have two autistic children with this woman. I am not going to give up at this point ... even considering  how much I would like to get laid again - NOW!.

i am focused on trying to resolve what ever the fuck is wrong. She is not my enemy - she is my best friend and has been for many years. The fact that we have lost the ability to communicate is symptomatic of marriages in our age group, whether we are talking about couples with kids the ages of ours (we are both late bloomers) or couples who have been married for as long as we have (almost seventeen years, now, with home mortgage, bills out the wazoo, changes in our respective personalities, many deaths shared in the collective family, stresses we could never have imagined ... etc.)

This past year has put a number of exterior strains on our relationship. A great deal of it has to do with the fact that I've just recently discovered that I have two other grown son's by two other women from the far past, before I even met her.

There are other things, too. None of it has to do with anything I can control. THAT part is what has me in a fucking tizzy (as my grandmother used to say). No matter what I try to do, it makes no difference, it seems.
Damn you have two kids with her (which is what I thought, but didn't want to assume).   It sounds like that she doesn't want to understand your side of things, and no matter what you do or say you will end up being wrong.    That sounds typical of broken up marriages these days, as both have to be willing to compromise.    What do I know anyways?   I haven't been in a relationship that lasted more than 2 years myself lol.    These two sons are from your past, and you can't go back and change your past.   If you didn't know about them fully, then how could you be expected to inform her about them?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 05, 2008, 10:06:32 AM
I moved this here, Alex, because it was in PMS Elle's "problems"  thread and it does not belong there.




Ha.  Wow.  As of now I'm apparently single.  I can start actually looking to get laid now, then.

I seem to be in the same boat. My marriage is apparently dissolving before my eyes.

I'm not a decent wanker/vulture, though. It doesn't work for me any more than tickling myself cheers me up when I'm down.
I may need to become an eagle/hunter, once again.
That is terrible.    Don't you have a child with your wife?    Since it is a marriage there will be lawyers involved too.   Ugh, I hate lawyers.

I have two autistic children with this woman. I am not going to give up at this point ... even considering  how much I would like to get laid again - NOW!.

i am focused on trying to resolve what ever the fuck is wrong. She is not my enemy - she is my best friend and has been for many years. The fact that we have lost the ability to communicate is symptomatic of marriages in our age group, whether we are talking about couples with kids the ages of ours (we are both late bloomers) or couples who have been married for as long as we have (almost seventeen years, now, with home mortgage, bills out the wazoo, changes in our respective personalities, many deaths shared in the collective family, stresses we could never have imagined ... etc.)

This past year has put a number of exterior strains on our relationship. A great deal of it has to do with the fact that I've just recently discovered that I have two other grown son's by two other women from the far past, before I even met her.

There are other things, too. None of it has to do with anything I can control. THAT part is what has me in a fucking tizzy (as my grandmother used to say). No matter what I try to do, it makes no difference, it seems.
Damn you have two kids with her (which is what I thought, but didn't want to assume).   It sounds like that she doesn't want to understand your side of things, and no matter what you do or say you will end up being wrong.    That sounds typical of broken up marriages these days, as both have to be willing to compromise.    What do I know anyways?   I haven't been in a relationship that lasted more than 2 years myself lol.    These two sons are from your past, and you can't go back and change your past.   If you didn't know about them fully, then how could you be expected to inform her about them?

In order to be fair to her, things have turned around a bit lately. We are at least talking about the possibility of staying together, in the last few days.


I have more than a small hope, now.

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on August 05, 2008, 07:39:12 PM
Awesome news.  :)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on August 05, 2008, 09:04:08 PM
In order to be fair to her, things have turned around a bit lately. We are at least talking about the possibility of staying together, in the last few days.


I have more than a small hope, now.



I'm glad because I believe that the two of you have so much history together it would be a crying shame to throw it away.

Were the two of you talking about the possibility of not staying together, before?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 06, 2008, 01:10:57 PM

Yes.

We've had a sort of an in-house separation for about two months. It has been a miserable time.


 :violin:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Lucifer on August 06, 2008, 04:18:24 PM

Yes.

We've had a sort of an in-house separation for about two months. It has been a miserable time.


 :violin:

:hug:

glad to hear things are better, dawg.  i'm not one who subscribes to the "stay together at any cost" school, though, but you know yourself what's best for you, and everyone else.  if not, keep talking, here or wherever, okay?

/more hugs.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on August 06, 2008, 04:43:50 PM
I moved this here, Alex, because it was in PMS Elle's "problems"  thread and it does not belong there.




Ha.  Wow.  As of now I'm apparently single.  I can start actually looking to get laid now, then.

I seem to be in the same boat. My marriage is apparently dissolving before my eyes.

I'm not a decent wanker/vulture, though. It doesn't work for me any more than tickling myself cheers me up when I'm down.
I may need to become an eagle/hunter, once again.
That is terrible.    Don't you have a child with your wife?    Since it is a marriage there will be lawyers involved too.   Ugh, I hate lawyers.

I have two autistic children with this woman. I am not going to give up at this point ... even considering  how much I would like to get laid again - NOW!.

i am focused on trying to resolve what ever the fuck is wrong. She is not my enemy - she is my best friend and has been for many years. The fact that we have lost the ability to communicate is symptomatic of marriages in our age group, whether we are talking about couples with kids the ages of ours (we are both late bloomers) or couples who have been married for as long as we have (almost seventeen years, now, with home mortgage, bills out the wazoo, changes in our respective personalities, many deaths shared in the collective family, stresses we could never have imagined ... etc.)

This past year has put a number of exterior strains on our relationship. A great deal of it has to do with the fact that I've just recently discovered that I have two other grown son's by two other women from the far past, before I even met her.

There are other things, too. None of it has to do with anything I can control. THAT part is what has me in a fucking tizzy (as my grandmother used to say). No matter what I try to do, it makes no difference, it seems.
Damn you have two kids with her (which is what I thought, but didn't want to assume).   It sounds like that she doesn't want to understand your side of things, and no matter what you do or say you will end up being wrong.    That sounds typical of broken up marriages these days, as both have to be willing to compromise.    What do I know anyways?   I haven't been in a relationship that lasted more than 2 years myself lol.    These two sons are from your past, and you can't go back and change your past.   If you didn't know about them fully, then how could you be expected to inform her about them?

In order to be fair to her, things have turned around a bit lately. We are at least talking about the possibility of staying together, in the last few days.


I have more than a small hope, now.



Good thoughts and best wishes heading your way!
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 06, 2008, 05:01:33 PM

Yes.

We've had a sort of an in-house separation for about two months. It has been a miserable time.


 :violin:

:hug:

glad to hear things are better, dawg.  i'm not one who subscribes to the "stay together at any cost" school, though, but you know yourself what's best for you, and everyone else.  if not, keep talking, here or wherever, okay?

/more hugs.


Thanks.

You weren't really around through the worst of it. I am also of the cloth who move on, away from gnarls in a relationship. Obviously, the kids are quite a draw to me, though, so I had more plans to make than my own needs. Not fully adequate in the resources department these days, either.
I am the one who "moved out" of the bedroom. I have slept in the garage, in the yard, under the trees, with the birds, on the back deck, on the couch, etc. It's a good thing that I don't really sleep, because I would not have been on time to work, otherwise.

It seems like I talk too much sometimes, especially here. I mostly feel like I'm among "friends" here. Can't really say why.


Realise that it is as Callaway has mentioned - our history together is a long one. We have shared literally a third of her life and over a fourth of mine together. That includes many birthdays, happy times, growth together, many deaths, lots of life, a dozen pets, mistakes, victories, confusion, insights, health and sickness ...
It is not easy to give it all up.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: punkdrew on August 06, 2008, 05:35:01 PM
In my case, it's illness (she has MS and OCD) which partly keeps us together. And we both recognize that we've been together too much lately and that I need time off. I'm working on scheduing that.

Honestly, though, there have been times where if she was capable of living independently (as she has in the past), I would have left. A good friend asked me recently, "Would you be all right by yourself?" And my instant answer was "Yes."

Do I love her? Sometimes. And sometimes I really hate her.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 06, 2008, 05:50:22 PM
I moved this here, Alex, because it was in PMS Elle's "problems"  thread and it does not belong there.




Ha.  Wow.  As of now I'm apparently single.  I can start actually looking to get laid now, then.

I seem to be in the same boat. My marriage is apparently dissolving before my eyes.

I'm not a decent wanker/vulture, though. It doesn't work for me any more than tickling myself cheers me up when I'm down.
I may need to become an eagle/hunter, once again.
That is terrible.    Don't you have a child with your wife?    Since it is a marriage there will be lawyers involved too.   Ugh, I hate lawyers.

I have two autistic children with this woman. I am not going to give up at this point ... even considering  how much I would like to get laid again - NOW!.

i am focused on trying to resolve what ever the fuck is wrong. She is not my enemy - she is my best friend and has been for many years. The fact that we have lost the ability to communicate is symptomatic of marriages in our age group, whether we are talking about couples with kids the ages of ours (we are both late bloomers) or couples who have been married for as long as we have (almost seventeen years, now, with home mortgage, bills out the wazoo, changes in our respective personalities, many deaths shared in the collective family, stresses we could never have imagined ... etc.)

This past year has put a number of exterior strains on our relationship. A great deal of it has to do with the fact that I've just recently discovered that I have two other grown son's by two other women from the far past, before I even met her.

There are other things, too. None of it has to do with anything I can control. THAT part is what has me in a fucking tizzy (as my grandmother used to say). No matter what I try to do, it makes no difference, it seems.
Damn you have two kids with her (which is what I thought, but didn't want to assume).   It sounds like that she doesn't want to understand your side of things, and no matter what you do or say you will end up being wrong.    That sounds typical of broken up marriages these days, as both have to be willing to compromise.    What do I know anyways?   I haven't been in a relationship that lasted more than 2 years myself lol.    These two sons are from your past, and you can't go back and change your past.   If you didn't know about them fully, then how could you be expected to inform her about them?

In order to be fair to her, things have turned around a bit lately. We are at least talking about the possibility of staying together, in the last few days.


I have more than a small hope, now.



Good thoughts and best wishes heading your way!

Thanks, Ozy. Every bit helps.

 :plus:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 06, 2008, 06:19:58 PM
In my case, it's illness (she has MS and OCD) which partly keeps us together. And we both recognize that we've been together too much lately and that I need time off. I'm working on scheduing that.

Honestly, though, there have been times where if she was capable of living independently (as she has in the past), I would have left. A good friend asked me recently, "Would you be all right by yourself?" And my instant answer was "Yes."

Do I love her? Sometimes. And sometimes I really hate her.

I'm sorry, Wandrew. I had no idea.

About three years ago, I lost a true friend to MS. Most of the time you did not know anything was wrong with him, but sometimes he awoke in the intensive care ward of the hospital. One time he didn't.

This can certainly add deciding factors to a discussion of making a change, even if your own self is dying a little along the way. My instant answer would also be a resounding, "Yes,"  but for the two young kids we have together.
I know that sounds lame as fuck to some people, but once you have known, cared for and loved a child, a person changes, irreversibly. I have no intention of being without them, as long as we live.

One of the conditions of my wife and I staying together is that I am free to attempt to maintain some semblance of a relationship with the "other two,"  who I have missed out knowing all these years. It will never be a close relationship, but the impact of meeting the oldest face to face (twice, now) will have a lasting effect on me and I think it may on him as well. I must try to explore this.

The younger of the two (still, a grown man), I have only talked on the phone with, but last December, I was still not sure that he was my son and it had been years since I had any "non-corrosive" conversations with his mother. I bit holes in my tongue to "be nice" to his mother and forced this subject through. She seems to be most regretful for her past actions, but she is also bi-polar, so Things Could Change, rather quickly. He is grown, though and he knows about his mother. It may still work out.

My current wife still insists that I have DNA testing done, but if you saw these men - it would be as obvious that we are related as it is to us.
I may give in to that request, but I have little incentive.

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on August 06, 2008, 06:29:26 PM
What is the harm of DNA testing?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 06, 2008, 07:46:59 PM
What is the harm of DNA testing?

None, really, but it doesn't feel right, at this time, for me to ask that of either of them, since they both have already accepted me. It is my wife's insistence, not either of theirs. I would not hesitate if I was asked by either one of them, though. Honestly there is nothing to lose, either way.
Who knows - nothing may come from any of this, either way.

It was actually quite a bit easier with the younger one, whose mother I was once married to. I suspect she may have "helped" some, after all this time, maybe a change of heart or something. (I know she had a terrible relationship with HER real father and her step-father was much more of a real father to her) I had always wondered, because of the timing of the child's birth, but she had always, vehemently denied the possibility (she was with another man during our last flings) and also kept the child completely away from me (did not bother me at all, but a few years after she was divorced from the other man, she still would not let me meet her young teenage son, FFS. I became suspicious, but really did not care. It just made me hate her that much more, all over again).
I knew she was involved with a dark complected Hispanic man, but I did not know that she had had a pale-faced, red headed baby. Now the young man has light brown hair on his head and a dark auburn beard (sounds familiar). She knew all along!

With the oldest one, the reality came as a complete surprise from out of the forgotten blue yonder.

Goddamn! This is starting to sound like Peyton fucking Place.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on August 06, 2008, 08:07:49 PM
LOL, I don't know what Peyton Place is, but I get the gist. It does make sense that asking your sons to test would be a sensitive issue though.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on August 06, 2008, 08:19:23 PM
LOL, I don't know what Peyton Place is, but I get the gist. It does make sense that asking your sons to test would be a sensitive issue though.

"Peyton Place" was both a racy and controversial novel and prime time soap opera  long before you were born!   8)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 06, 2008, 08:38:25 PM
LOL, I don't know what Peyton Place is, but I get the gist. It does make sense that asking your sons to test would be a sensitive issue though.


I understand that it is fairly easy to have DNA testing for paternity done these days and not very costly, either.
Honestly, if it were not for the incredibly powerful "family resemblance" in my own gene pool and the associated histories of those in question, there would be no assumption of lineage, anyway. But, it's just too obvious to deny.

The funny thing is that the DNA testing issue has more to do with my wife's own insecurities than anything, I believe. She is going through some bad times and has sectioned herself from me in many ways.
I think I have her convinced that my intention is NOT to be rid of her, but to mend what ever bridge spans the stream of old blood between us and try to acquaint ourselves once again, in the hopes that we can rekindle what we once found so comforting together. All this new crap has nothing to do with our problems, except to her.
She feels betrayed, I feel pushed away and we're both wrong.




Peyton Place was a smash hit book from the fifties about a small town and the drama of love, inbreeding, sniffing tail and screwing everyone (I've never read it, but that's the rep it has), which was quickly made into a movie and later in the sixties, a prime time, soap opera style television series. I meant it as a cliche.

:D
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 06, 2008, 08:39:53 PM
I see Ozy, the other resident old phart, beat me to the explanation.

:D
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: punkdrew on August 06, 2008, 10:34:23 PM
LOL, I don't know what Peyton Place is, but I get the gist. It does make sense that asking your sons to test would be a sensitive issue though.

"Peyton Place" was both a racy and controversial novel and prime time soap opera  long before you were born!   8)

Let's all get up and dance to a song that was a hit before your mother was born
Though she was born a long, long time ago
Your mother should know (your mother)
Your mother should know (aaah)

Sing it again...No.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 06, 2008, 10:57:47 PM
maclen publishing?

How old are you, anyway?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: punkdrew on August 07, 2008, 01:35:06 AM
Old enough.

OK, OK. 45. For realsies.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Lucifer on August 07, 2008, 01:50:28 AM
I see Ozy, the other resident old phart, beat me to the explanation.

:D

only cos i wasn't online.  :P
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Lucifer on August 07, 2008, 01:52:37 AM
Old enough.

OK, OK. 45. For realsies.

youngster.  :P

seriously, it sounds as though you have so many difficult choices to make, on a day to day basis.  cyberhugs for you: i can't imagine what that situation must be like, other than it's a complete mind fuck, a lot of the time.  :hug:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Lucifer on August 07, 2008, 01:55:06 AM

Yes.

We've had a sort of an in-house separation for about two months. It has been a miserable time.


 :violin:

:hug:

glad to hear things are better, dawg.  i'm not one who subscribes to the "stay together at any cost" school, though, but you know yourself what's best for you, and everyone else.  if not, keep talking, here or wherever, okay?

/more hugs.


Thanks.

You weren't really around through the worst of it. I am also of the cloth who move on, away from gnarls in a relationship. Obviously, the kids are quite a draw to me, though, so I had more plans to make than my own needs. Not fully adequate in the resources department these days, either.
I am the one who "moved out" of the bedroom. I have slept in the garage, in the yard, under the trees, with the birds, on the back deck, on the couch, etc. It's a good thing that I don't really sleep, because I would not have been on time to work, otherwise.

It seems like I talk too much sometimes, especially here. I mostly feel like I'm among "friends" here. Can't really say why.


Realise that it is as Callaway has mentioned - our history together is a long one. We have shared literally a third of her life and over a fourth of mine together. That includes many birthdays, happy times, growth together, many deaths, lots of life, a dozen pets, mistakes, victories, confusion, insights, health and sickness ...
It is not easy to give it all up.

no, it's not easy to give up.  people change, but emotions and that feeling of sticking with what you know don't, and therein lies the rub.

it's always complicated, isn't it?  if i had a magic wand to wave about over you and wandrew (and others), i would.  sadly, there's rarely a quick fix solution.

and you don't talk too much: that's what friends are for, to coin a cliché.

:hug:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on August 07, 2008, 03:00:36 PM

it's always complicated, isn't it?  if i had a magic wand to wave about over you and wandrew (and others), i would.  sadly, there's rarely a quick fix solution.

and you don't talk too much: that's what friends are for, to coin a cliché.

:hug:

 :agreed:

I wouldn't ever say, "Stay together for the sake of the children," but in your case there is so much more to it than that.  I think that it would be easier for you to amputate your right arm than it would be for you to leave your wife and children, so I'm glad that you are finding a way to fix this.

Why is the fact that you have two other children from previous relationships that you knew nothing about until recently such a problem for your wife?  Would it actually make it easier for her to deal with if you did have a DNA test and proved to her that they were yours?

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on August 07, 2008, 04:12:27 PM
LOL, I don't know what Peyton Place is, but I get the gist. It does make sense that asking your sons to test would be a sensitive issue though.

You're too young.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on August 07, 2008, 04:13:32 PM
I see Ozy, the other resident old phart, beat me to the explanation.

:D

Just replied to Pyraxis, me, and yet I'm younger than you two old farts.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Lucifer on August 07, 2008, 04:49:40 PM
I see Ozy, the other resident old phart, beat me to the explanation.

:D

Just replied to Pyraxis, me, and yet I'm younger than you two old farts.

what d'you want, a flag on your head?

:smarty:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: odeon on August 07, 2008, 04:54:08 PM
I see Ozy, the other resident old phart, beat me to the explanation.

:D

Just replied to Pyraxis, me, and yet I'm younger than you two old farts.

what d'you want, a flag on your head?

:smarty:

Nah, just a hearing aid and a new walking stick.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 07, 2008, 05:48:43 PM
I see Ozy, the other resident old phart, beat me to the explanation.

:D

Just replied to Pyraxis, me, and yet I'm younger than you two old farts.

what d'you want, a flag on your head?

:smarty:

Nah, just a hearing aid and a new walking stick.

Punk!

Where's your stamina?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on August 07, 2008, 06:24:48 PM
Damn, compared to you methuselahs, I haven't even graduated preschool.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on August 07, 2008, 06:39:09 PM
I see Ozy, the other resident old phart, beat me to the explanation.

:D

only cos i wasn't online.  :P

Peyton Place was based on a small town in New Hampshire.  My home state, so I was front and center for all the hoopla and yadda yadda yadda when it was first published.  As far as it's "raciness" is concerned, well, by todays standards it is pretty damn tame, but, the real dirt and racy hubub about it, was the fact that it was based on real people in a real town.  The woman who wrote it was considered quite the "oddball" in the town and died fairly young even for that time period.  Though she was a heavy smoker and drinker in her own right.  Her only real "crime" was in writing the truth under the guise of fiction.  And being from a small town myself, I can vouch for a lot of stuff that would corroborate what she wrote.  It's just that in the 50's, one NEVER spoke of these things out loud!   ::)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on August 07, 2008, 06:39:53 PM
I see Ozy, the other resident old phart, beat me to the explanation.

:D

Just replied to Pyraxis, me, and yet I'm younger than you two old farts.

Don't call this "fart" old!   :orly:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: ozymandias on August 07, 2008, 06:43:43 PM
Damn, compared to you methuselahs, I haven't even graduated preschool.

We're heading towards Attends wearing and your still not potty trained yet!   :razz:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 07, 2008, 07:02:58 PM

it's always complicated, isn't it?  if i had a magic wand to wave about over you and wandrew (and others), i would.  sadly, there's rarely a quick fix solution.

and you don't talk too much: that's what friends are for, to coin a cliché.

:hug:

 :agreed:

I wouldn't ever say, "Stay together for the sake of the children," but in your case there is so much more to it than that.  I think that it would be easier for you to amputate your right arm than it would be for you to leave your wife and children, so I'm glad that you are finding a way to fix this.

Why is the fact that you have two other children from previous relationships that you knew nothing about until recently such a problem for your wife?  Would it actually make it easier for her to deal with if you did have a DNA test and proved to her that they were yours?




I fear that she wishes for the opposite. She wants to prove that they are not related to me and all this will go away.

I have yet to figure this one out. I know she has told me that she feels that I am losing interest in our family, but that's bullshit! I think most here know that's bullshit. All our problems seemed to start last year, when I fucked up and set up a meeting with the older son on "Father's Day."

I must re-state that "Mother's Day" is a very big deal around here. (You know why.)

I think that she expects that my lack of sensing some powerful emotional sentiment over a Hallmark Cards, made up "SPECIAL" day, is somehow a testament to some parallel lack of caring about my current family at large. It was quite a rough time, leaving on that night (over a year ago) to go into the unknown and meet up with a stranger, who seemed to be connected some way to my life. I had to really push past myself to do that. She has no concept of how difficult, yet how important, that trip was to me.

She has also used my horrid personal failure (meltdown or what ever the fuck you want to call it) on return home ...

(remember, I went into the hospital the next day, due to a terrible anxiety attack from melatonin abuse and the attending doctors proceeded to pump me full of Valium, which landed me in intensive care with a heart rate over two hundred BPM. I can not take those kind of drugs, but they did not ask, they followed protocol, hit me up and when I reacted badly, called the police and had them point guns at me. Now that I think of it, I may not have told the whole story about how I ripped up the room they were attempting to treat me in, flipped the table through the window, held down the security guy who was working the morning shift and stepped in to help subdue me, wrapped the hoses around the doctors throat, tore the cabinet off the wall and used it as a shield against the guns ... some other shit that I don't remember, too. When they gave me Valium, on top of the melatonin,  I went a little nuts, got really fired up and broke things. It took three shots (one in the leg, one in the back and one in the neck) of some anti-psychotic (I forget what it was, now, but they also give it to schizophrenics and Alzheimer's patients who are suffering from deep panic) for six or seven people to get the straps on me and get me into a bed where they could wheel me around, take some blood, pin me with electrodes, measure stuff, give me oxygen, electrolytes, fluids, etc. It was one of my worst days. I was supposed to sleep for two days, I heard the doctor who stabbed my neck saying, but I awoke thirty minutes later, pissed off as HELL!  ...  but tied down.)

... as a way of demonstrating how all this is "just wrong."  It has been almost impossible to make her realize that the two incidents were only related by my own inability to sleep under certain stresses COMBINED with my experimenting with melatonin during that time, coincidentally.
SHE is just fucking wrong! The two things are NOT related in any other way. I am not going to go nuts again, over having some sort of relationship with my two grown sons.

It was all due to the drugs. I HATE drugs. The only drugs I can take are alcohol (puts me to sleep), pot (wakes me up), and caffeine (puts me to sleep, relaxes me). All the others have effects that are not predictable on me. I know that seems fucked up, but that's the way it is. IT WAS THE DRUGS! It was not the trip to Texas or the meeting or the fact that I had not slept in three days.

Yet, she brings this all up, over and over again.

I wish I knew why she can not separate the two happenstances. Hell, things are really good for me, now. I'm not so depressed, I have a job again, I've lost weight, my health is decent, life is good, except for her and MY (couple) bullshit.
We will sort this shit out in a way that makes sense, though. I will not give up at this point. Not yet.


I don't think she even sees that I am happier now, than I have been in about four or five years.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on August 07, 2008, 09:06:35 PM
Sounds like a real disaster zone. I'm glad nobody got hurt.

I hate drugs too, especially force-administered. It's hard to believe there's not a way of giving clearer fuck-off! signals on anyone's part, that would let a mess like that be avoided.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Callaway on August 07, 2008, 09:36:25 PM

I fear that she wishes for the opposite. She wants to prove that they are not related to me and all this will go away.

I have yet to figure this one out. I know she has told me that she feels that I am losing interest in our family, but that's bullshit! I think most here know that's bullshit. All our problems seemed to start last year, when I fucked up and set up a meeting with the older son on "Father's Day."

I must re-state that "Mother's Day" is a very big deal around here. (You know why.)

I think that she expects that my lack of sensing some powerful emotional sentiment over a Hallmark Cards, made up "SPECIAL" day, is somehow a testament to some parallel lack of caring about my current family at large. It was quite a rough time, leaving on that night (over a year ago) to go into the unknown and meet up with a stranger, who seemed to be connected some way to my life. I had to really push past myself to do that. She has no concept of how difficult, yet how important, that trip was to me.

She has also used my horrid personal failure (meltdown or what ever the fuck you want to call it) on return home ...

(remember, I went into the hospital the next day, due to a terrible anxiety attack from melatonin abuse and the attending doctors proceeded to pump me full of Valium, which landed me in intensive care with a heart rate over two hundred BPM. I can not take those kind of drugs, but they did not ask, they followed protocol, hit me up and when I reacted badly, called the police and had them point guns at me. Now that I think of it, I may not have told the whole story about how I ripped up the room they were attempting to treat me in, flipped the table through the window, held down the security guy who was working the morning shift and stepped in to help subdue me, wrapped the hoses around the doctors throat, tore the cabinet off the wall and used it as a shield against the guns ... some other shit that I don't remember, too. When they gave me Valium, on top of the melatonin,  I went a little nuts, got really fired up and broke things. It took three shots (one in the leg, one in the back and one in the neck) of some anti-psychotic (I forget what it was, now, but they also give it to schizophrenics and Alzheimer's patients who are suffering from deep panic) for six or seven people to get the straps on me and get me into a bed where they could wheel me around, take some blood, pin me with electrodes, measure stuff, give me oxygen, electrolytes, fluids, etc. It was one of my worst days. I was supposed to sleep for two days, I heard the doctor who stabbed my neck saying, but I awoke thirty minutes later, pissed off as HELL!  ...  but tied down.)

... as a way of demonstrating how all this is "just wrong."  It has been almost impossible to make her realize that the two incidents were only related by my own inability to sleep under certain stresses COMBINED with my experimenting with melatonin during that time, coincidentally.
SHE is just fucking wrong! The two things are NOT related in any other way. I am not going to go nuts again, over having some sort of relationship with my two grown sons.

It was all due to the drugs. I HATE drugs. The only drugs I can take are alcohol (puts me to sleep), pot (wakes me up), and caffeine (puts me to sleep, relaxes me). All the others have effects that are not predictable on me. I know that seems fucked up, but that's the way it is. IT WAS THE DRUGS! It was not the trip to Texas or the meeting or the fact that I had not slept in three days.

Yet, she brings this all up, over and over again.

I wish I knew why she can not separate the two happenstances. Hell, things are really good for me, now. I'm not so depressed, I have a job again, I've lost weight, my health is decent, life is good, except for her and MY (couple) bullshit.
We will sort this shit out in a way that makes sense, though. I will not give up at this point. Not yet.


I don't think she even sees that I am happier now, than I have been in about four or five years.

Even if that is what she secretly wishes for, if they are yours and it is proven with a DNA test, that might settle the issue in her mind.

I mean, most people come with some sort of baggage and it's not like you lied to her about it, since you were in the dark about it yourself.

I can see why your wife would blame your meltdown on the trip to Texas and the lack of sleep for three days. I had not realized that your meltdown was as bad as it was.  I hallucinated when I got little or no sleep for several days in a row, but of course you need less sleep than I do.  Now you know that melatonin and valium suck for you.  Maybe the anti-psychotic injection was Geodon.  I think that the injectable form usually works pretty quickly in the way you described.  I guess they could also have given you Risperdal Consta, but that lasts for two weeks in your system, not two days. 

Just a thought, but if your wife can't see for herself that you are happier now than you have been for years, how could you help her see this?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on August 07, 2008, 10:57:59 PM


Even if that is what she secretly wishes for, if they are yours and it is proven with a DNA test, that might settle the issue in her mind.

I mean, most people come with some sort of baggage and it's not like you lied to her about it, since you were in the dark about it yourself.
She and I both have heavy baggage to bear from well before we ever met. I only briefly talked about some of mine here and not at all about hers, but her early life are as bad as mine, just different.
These known things were out in the open between us and accepted as well as either of us could have. Fact is, our horrible pre-histories may have helped to bond us in some twisted, fucked up way.

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I can see why your wife would blame your meltdown on the trip to Texas and the lack of sleep for three days. I had not realized that your meltdown was as bad as it was.  I hallucinated when I got little or no sleep for several days in a row, but of course you need less sleep than I do.

Yeah,  I have already admitted to being a spazcase, in the past here. I doubt any of this is really news. I have also talked about the violence inside me, which never fully goes away. I was kind of scared that day and it is when I am afraid of something that I become a little more spazzy and maybe even dangerous. I knew I was out of control early that morning (about three AM) and that something was wrong. It has always been that way. I "see" it coming and there is nothing I can do. That is why I value courage so much. It keeps me from being overcome by my fear so easily.

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  Now you know that melatonin and valium suck for you.  Maybe the anti-psychotic injection was Geodon.  I think that the injectable form usually works pretty quickly in the way you described.  I guess they could also have given you Risperdal Consta, but that lasts for two weeks in your system, not two days. 





It was haloperedol.
I don't know if that may have been someone's idea of the "best" thing to use or if that was all they had. My regular doctor was pissed that they had given me so much, but praised them for getting the heart monitors going as quickly as they had, because it is apparently risky. Of course, having a wild, scared half to death spazcase loose in the ER is kind of risky, too.




LATE EDIT:

I'm not quite sure why I keep saying "my trip to Texas."  When I first realized that the older was quite possibly my offspring, I told myself for days that I was "going to Texas to meet him."   The fact is, we met half way last June, at a hotel just south of Memphis. Sorry for the confusion. It is my confusion and automatic typing that is to blame. You are not confused.


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Just a thought, but if your wife can't see for herself that you are happier now than you have been for years, how could you help her see this?

I reallly don't know any more I can do. I mean, I do as many outgoing things as I have ever done, or more, these days. I am "positive" about many things. Hell, she was the one who helped me to see how depressed I was years ago, when I tried all those anti-depressants. It makes no sense that she would not see the recent changes in me as super-positives.

I am left with a feeling that she is not reallly "looking at me,"  but still balled up inside her own problems, which I can only imagine since she has sort of cut me off from most of her inner-scapes.
I don't want to sound like I am faultless, though. I am self-centered in many ways and this surely plays some part in the underlying issues.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on September 14, 2008, 05:05:00 PM
Found in a junk pile a Teac A-2340.  I see they are restively popular but really know nothing nobody has prices on them too :-\ What is you opinion of it and a guess at what I should ask or it
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on September 14, 2008, 06:34:19 PM
Found in a junk pile a Teac A-2340.  I see they are restively popular but really know nothing nobody has prices on them too :-\ What is you opinion of it and a guess at what I should ask or it

I haven't seen one of these in ages, but in their day they were not bad. I found a link to a brochure (after a search on ebay) that listed the retail price at $899 in the early seventies.

One thing that makes this machine cool is the ability to use it in four channel or two channel stereo. I don't remember if they will record in half track or not. You could fudge it, by using it in four channel (one direction) and it should playback a true half track tape just fine, but a real half track (professional) machine would have about thirty percent more tape surface in contact with the heads than a four channel used in this way. The four channel must leave three empty spaces (strips) between the tracks to ensure that you don't have crosstalk between the tracks.

I've seen similar units go for around two hundred bucks in working order. Obviously the heads wear out rather quickly on these machines and the belts and pinch rollers turn to  stone or powder. Universal belts are easy to find, but the heads need to be in decent shape to get much for it, mainly because they are kind of difficult to replace and calibrate properly. Hard to imagine one being in a junk pile.

WoW! Great find.

I need to find better quality junk piles!
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on September 14, 2008, 06:53:04 PM
You can put big stuff out two or three times a year here at the curb for the city to take.  When they do this I drive around town and scavenge in my truck.  Almost got a working pottery kiln the other day but when I got back to where it was others had already laid calm.   This year has been good for me I have a knack for finding these type of things and am always looking
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: renaeden on October 13, 2008, 09:24:10 PM
Thought I should re-post this here in case you do not visit Callaway's thread to read it:

Yeah, but I can't blame my keyboard. I do too many typos, these days.

Sorry.

I try to edit them out when I can see them again. Can't see them when they are fresh, sometimes. Can't see the pic. Does it have some kind of spell check function, microphone and voice recognition built in or something?
Was about to say Huh? When I realised you can't see the picture. I see no problem with your typing, have posted about it to you before.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: The_Chosen_One on October 14, 2008, 08:13:09 AM
You can put big stuff out two or three times a year here at the curb for the city to take.  When they do this I drive around town and scavenge in my truck.  Almost got a working pottery kiln the other day but when I got back to where it was others had already laid calm.   This year has been good for me I have a knack for finding these type of things and am always looking
You know what's stupid though? Some people say it's stealing to take stuff put out on the footpath for recycling/dumping. The previous owners have put it out there to be carted away so as far as I'm concerned, it's fair game.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: renaeden on October 15, 2008, 06:33:21 AM
You can put big stuff out two or three times a year here at the curb for the city to take.  When they do this I drive around town and scavenge in my truck.  Almost got a working pottery kiln the other day but when I got back to where it was others had already laid calm.   This year has been good for me I have a knack for finding these type of things and am always looking
You know what's stupid though? Some people say it's stealing to take stuff put out on the footpath for recycling/dumping. The previous owners have put it out there to be carted away so as far as I'm concerned, it's fair game.
  :agreed:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on December 20, 2008, 08:55:07 PM
You mentioned a sensitivity to barometric pressure in this post http://www.intensitysquared.com/index.php/topic,2039.msg449358.html#msg449358

How are you with big low pressure systems and storms they make me almost like I am high.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 21, 2008, 02:24:40 PM


OH shit!

Someone posted in my thread.


I will respond in time.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 21, 2008, 02:40:49 PM














sorry, I can't reallly interact right now


only vent

wel'l talk a bit latter
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on December 21, 2008, 06:36:25 PM
Sorry to put you off, Parts.
It came as kind of a surprise to notice something new in this long dead thread and I was also a little overwhelmed at the time from work.





As far as being sensitive to pressure, I don't know what to say. Uhm, yes!
It is one of my far senses that is "wide fucking awake"  most of the time, as opposed to "not present" as with most other people.

I am also able to "feel" slight changes in real time pressure of my surroundings.
This sense makes it almost impossible for someone to "sneak up" on me, especially inside a closed space, because the finest change in air pressure, I can sense. I am disturbed by slight changes in pressure even before I notice a Doppler or echo movement from something in my area changing in reflective coefficient or causing a "sound shadow"  (I don't really know any other way to describe it, if you don't now what a "sound shadow" is) in my surroundings (due to a body or an absorption mass moving silently in the room for instance). I can't tell you how many times I have jumped up from some task and thumped the nose or pinched the nipple or poked the navel (all to demonstrate precision) of someone with the gall to think that they could sneak up upon me from out of my view. You can't, most of the time.

As far as enjoying weather related phenomenon, which are in constant flux on a moment by moment basis, I sometimes find myself quite distracted by the pleasure of higher pressures, when in near perfect silence, especially. The pleasure is often interrupted, though, due to my being even more sensitive to changes at higher pressures.

As the barometric pressure falls, I become less sensitive, but less alive as well. I can feel all the energies within my body being depleted at a higher rate than I can keep up, just to hold (us?) together as a unit. I have a set of theories regarding reasons we all become depressed on rainy (low pressure) days.

Obviously, being a spazz, I also experience times when you could clumsily stomp up right in front of me and whack me in the neck with something and I would not react or feel it at first or even know who you were without changing my direction of focus and "resampling"  what had just happened.

Some days are diamonds, some days are coal.

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Eclair on February 07, 2009, 10:35:00 AM
Thanks for your description of how you perceive the changes in air pressure around you.  There was also a reference in there to nipple pinching, always refreshing!

Now, I have a question.  Feel free to answer when you have time.

I went to see some live bands tonight, just a local pub, beautiful funk/soul music.  And there was one particular musician who caught my eye...but I had seen him earlier in the night, didn't know he was a member of one of the bands that were on later in the night.  So anyway...they finish their set, a girl starts chatting with him, kisses him once, but directly on the mouth and starts playing with his hair.  I say to my friend...well that must be his girlfriend.  (Devastated!)  Anyway, as things panned out, clearly she was not.  And I started to notice all sorts of girls giving him attention.  (And yes in amongst this he does pass close by several times and smiles at me...but I'm not giving him any attention - that he knows of ;) )  Then when we are leaving I see him out on the street coming back from loading his equipment and a CARLOAD of girls are chatting to him, with one blowing a kiss as they drive off!!!

So my question is this....I can understand I suppose the attraction of the whole groupie/musician thing, though it's not my style in any way shape or form.  What I did think was, it would be hard for a guy (any guy, not just Mr Gorgeous in my story above) to think he's pretty shit hot if he's a musician and constantly getting attention from the ladies. 

Since you are well versed in this area...what do you think Dawg?  I'm sure the ego may shrink with time, but does it give the guy some little edge....ie; does he think he can make any woman quiver with delight?

I say this because there were a lot of butt ugly, not very personable men there that were getting no doubt undeserved attention, and I put it down to the fact it was because they could play an instrument?  Again, I get the concept...but this fawning all over a guy because he's a musician...mmm.  I ask all of this too because a few months ago, I was seeing a guy...he used to play in bands etc....and I am kind of thinking now, me not giving him the adoration he clearly would get previously has pissed him off.

Anyway, I have probably rambled on somewhat, but wondered what your thoughts were. Generally do musos tend to keep their inflated egos for a long time?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Eclair on February 07, 2009, 10:53:39 AM
Sorry Dawg...I did not realise this shit had happened - I hope your arm heals soon, and glad they have those guys in custody. 

hugs and xxx's

 :-*

no.

i had to defend myself again

iwent too far

What happened?

Three assholes broke into my neighbor's house. She is an elderly widow with a boyfriend. She usually stays at his house in the country, but returns once a week to get mail, check out stuff, maintain the place and then leaves again.

I happened to notice activity over there and went over to inquire as to the identity of the "Angel"  who helped my wife with some snow shoveling chores on the day we had sisteen inches of snow. The "Angel"  with a Bobcat said that she knew my neighbor. I figured that there aren't that many seventy year old ladies with Bobcats going around helping women with snow removal and it would be easy to find out who she was and return some good will to her.

I walked right up into her screened-in porch, started to knock and the door was open -  I said, "Hello?"  then I heard a noise at my side just as a baseball bat swung at my head. I managed to duck enough and get my arm up to protect my head, snag the bat and came around with a bit too much force and hit the punk with my left hand in the temple. He went out cold, had not woke up, and was bleeding from the ear when the cops got there. I did not know at the time that he had broken my arm and another punk ran towards me out of the dark.  I stabbed him in the solar plexus with the end of bat knocking his breath out as the third punk broke through the back dooor and took off.

I only saw his black coat. The second guy was recovering and trying to run away and I hit him in the femur as hard as I fucking could with his buddy's bat and he was done fighting.  It was only about four minutes when the cops got there, because another woman walking by had seen me get hit and knew that "helen" would not do that, so she called the cops. Two of the punks are in police custody. I have had the entire neighborhood stop by. FUCK!

I have an air cast and a sling right now on my right arm. He hit me just below the elbow and fractured my right ulna. I did not know at first, but it got so swollen and purple that I went to the emergency room last night. I will be in the cast for four to six weeks, supposedly. It was not a complete break, just a hiarline fracture, so the prognosis is good.  It all happened so fast- -in the span of about twenty minutes.  I went in to the police station to make a docu-video of my statements when I was done at the hospital.
Four of our neighbors stayed with the kids while I went to the emergency room, but innedd them to go when I was done.

I got some sleep and I have taken an Oxycodone. They gave me twelve of them, but I don't really have any pain, unless I try to flex my elbow, so I will keep them for later.

We never even used to lock our house. This place has gone completely nutz!

I'm so grateful that you have those Ninja reflexes or else you might not have been able to defend yourself after getting hit with a baseball bat in the head.

The town that I grew up in has deteriorated also, I noticed when I went there to try to help my father.

My brother showed me crack houses that you wouldn't even know were there unless you drove by very late at night.

I hope the fracture of your ulna heals quickly and without pain.  What's an air cast?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on February 07, 2009, 12:41:07 PM
I'm glad you stopped them.


How come you think you went too far?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on February 07, 2009, 06:51:39 PM
I'm glad you stopped them.


How come you think you went too far?

It is because the guy whose leg I took out is severely injured. He came at me scary and I put him down - I had the bat by then and stabbed him in the midsection with it, then I ran to find out what the rest of the noise was about as the third one broke through the back door and hoofed it away.

When i came back into the main room, with nothing in my mind but getting the motherloving FUCk out of there and calling the cops, the second guy was trying to gain his feet and run away, after having his breath knocked out, but I hit his upper leg, too hard though, with the bat. They both went to the hospital - the first guy did not regain consciousness during the night and has a rupture in his inner ear from my left fist- he's fine - the second guy has a compound fracture of his femur.

That's what I meant by "going too far."  I could have pulled the punch a bit, like his buddy did with me and my head, but I hit him with a large portion of my chi and broke is femur in three places, requiring surgery - I was fully ramped up with adrenalin at that point and I could have done much worse if they had kept coming - I just want it to go away now...

I just found that out about how badly I hurt the second guy at about eleven last night (I was already  listening to my evening music and almost settled enough to go out) when my neighbor/cop/"friend" came by to tell me that they were investigating me, as well. That's why I have removed or edited so many of my posts in the last few hours.(probably a stim, but fuck I have been harsh at times. i'm not a harsh person.) fuck it they can look but they wont find shit. i am the innocent bystander who wasd involved in a crime. I am not a bad person. I am not wrong! I am innocent. I should not be investigated. 

I know what they are doing now though - they are amking a stronger case against the burglars.


Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on February 07, 2009, 07:17:32 PM
Sorry Dawg...I did not realise this shit had happened - I hope your arm heals soon, and glad they have those guys in custody. 

hugs and xxx's

 :-*

Thanks for the hugs and can you put the kisses just below my right elbow?

:D

I'm OK. mostly.

My wife was totally freaked when she found out the next day what had happened while she was at work, trusting me to "take care of things"  on teh homefront.

There is some history and she thinks I am starting up being some kind of a headcase again, but that's NOT the case.

I am more stable than I have been in a great while - job, audio projects in the works, hardons, eating well, exercising more, writing poetry again, drawing my thoughts, re-writing on my old journals some, hardly smoking as much, reading seven or eight books at a time ... I was getting back to being myself, until this new thing.

I have spent a lot of time rocking and "hugging myself,"  as she calls it, since.

... but I'm OK. I've been through much worse.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on February 07, 2009, 08:15:55 PM
Thanks for your description of how you perceive the changes in air pressure around you.  There was also a reference in there to nipple pinching, always refreshing!

Now, I have a question.  Feel free to answer when you have time.

I went to see some live bands tonight, just a local pub, beautiful funk/soul music.  And there was one particular musician who caught my eye...but I had seen him earlier in the night, didn't know he was a member of one of the bands that were on later in the night.  So anyway...they finish their set, a girl starts chatting with him, kisses him once, but directly on the mouth and starts playing with his hair.  I say to my friend...well that must be his girlfriend.  (Devastated!)  Anyway, as things panned out, clearly she was not.  And I started to notice all sorts of girls giving him attention.  (And yes in amongst this he does pass close by several times and smiles at me...but I'm not giving him any attention - that he knows of ;) )  Then when we are leaving I see him out on the street coming back from loading his equipment and a CARLOAD of girls are chatting to him, with one blowing a kiss as they drive off!!!

So my question is this....I can understand I suppose the attraction of the whole groupie/musician thing, though it's not my style in any way shape or form.  What I did think was, it would be hard for a guy (any guy, not just Mr Gorgeous in my story above) to think he's pretty shit hot if he's a musician and constantly getting attention from the ladies. 

Since you are well versed in this area...what do you think Dawg?  I'm sure the ego may shrink with time, but does it give the guy some little edge....ie; does he think he can make any woman quiver with delight?

I say this because there were a lot of butt ugly, not very personable men there that were getting no doubt undeserved attention, and I put it down to the fact it was because they could play an instrument?  Again, I get the concept...but this fawning all over a guy because he's a musician...mmm.  I ask all of this too because a few months ago, I was seeing a guy...he used to play in bands etc....and I am kind of thinking now, me not giving him the adoration he clearly would get previously has pissed him off.

Anyway, I have probably rambled on somewhat, but wondered what your thoughts were. Generally do musos tend to keep their inflated egos for a long time?

This is a very complicated question, but I'm jealous. I haven't seen a decent live funk/soul band since last spring.

In my experience, Yes, an extended ego does indeed give most of these front-guys an edge.  I was never one of them, but in a band with five or six guys, I usually had third or fourth pick of the "best looking"  women  (obviously, the "best looking woman" was often mine, since my tastes don't really follow the Hollywood Glamazon trend. I have always preferred "well built."  healthy women).

Whether or not they keep it up ... nah. Once they lose their spotlight, they are usually less "frontly" than normal in the ego department and way less than normal in the confidence department. That probably doesn't take away from their abilities, but it seems that they generally require quite a bit of support to re-establish themselves once the spotlights shift to another Hawt Guy.

A shifting spotlight has been known to instigate a number of "catfights"  between these hot front guys.  I am not saying that they are all this shallow, but many of them fall almost helplessly into the expected role before they even know what they are doing, find themselves in shit over their heads and try to fuck their way to some air, abandoning all their real friends in the process.

All that shit comes and goes, though. To a true musician, only the music is real. We can only touch you with our music.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on February 07, 2009, 08:32:44 PM
It is because the guy whose leg I took out is severely injured.

Ah, ok.  :-\

Guilt can be a motherfucker.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Eclair on February 09, 2009, 05:48:59 AM
Sorry Dawg...I did not realise this shit had happened - I hope your arm heals soon, and glad they have those guys in custody. 

hugs and xxx's

 :-*

Thanks for the hugs and can you put the kisses just below my right elbow?

:D

I'm OK. mostly.


just below your elbow?  Nowhere else?  ;)  (Sorry, always being naughty!)

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All that shit comes and goes, though. To a true musician, only the music is real. We can only touch you with our music.

Thanks so much for taking the time to give me your insight.  :-*

I agree with the touching with the music thing.  Absolutely.

I have done a painting for him....I'm yet to give it to him, but it IS exactly the same way for me.  If I give him the painting, it feels like it's the most precious thing.  But if I don't get a chance to feel comfortable enough to give it to him, it still feels nice when I look at it and know it was expressed because of him. If that makes sense?

So thank you.



And try not to worry about your stuff....I think you had a completely natural reaction, from the story you have told on here about the whole incident you had.  Hope your body AND your mind mend soon.  And when I say 'mind' I mean, you and probably other people are being a little bit tough on you, but you did the best you could at the time, for a noble reason I believe.  That is the main thing.

ps.  hope you get the chance to see some good funk soon, I'm loving it.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: punkdrew on February 09, 2009, 10:54:37 PM
WoW.

First of all, hope you're feeling better and enjoying your meds.

Second of all, these guys were breaking and entering and then they assaulted you. You would have been within your rights to hurt them a fuck of a lot worse. When you have to do a lot of things very fast, you tend to spend time afterwards wondering what you could have done differently. The answer is: nothing. Your reactions were instinctual. Thinking about pulling punches is for organized fights. You had to react and react fast, just like that guy who safely landed the plane in the Hudson after losing both engines. So IMO you should not waste any more time wondering if you could have hurt those guys less.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on March 18, 2009, 03:21:06 PM
Going through stuff today and found something I have not seen before.  In with some really old 78's there where small ones the size of 45's but before I think they made them.  I don't have a photo now but have seen these before?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: punkdrew on March 18, 2009, 04:19:25 PM
They might be acetates. The smallest 78's I've ever seen were no less than 10". I know that at one time there was a place @ the Empire State Bldg where you could make an acetate recording to send to your friends back home. Those acetates were about the size of 45's. Either way, I'd handle them with kid gloves and find some non-invasive way of having them transferred to CD.
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Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: punkdrew on March 18, 2009, 04:20:56 PM
Oh, and before you all make any jokes about your "big 10 inch...record," I've not only already heard it, but actually saw the guy who first performed the song--the late Bullmoose Jackson.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: punkdrew on March 18, 2009, 04:24:55 PM
They might be acetates. The smallest 78's I've ever seen were no less than 10". I know that at one time there was a place @ the Empire State Bldg where you could make an acetate recording to send to your friends back home. Those acetates were about the size of 45's. Either way, I'd handle them with kid gloves and find some non-invasive way of having them transferred to CD.
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No wait, I tell a lie. There WERE 78's made in the early 20th that were roughly the size of 45's. Can't remember the name of the company. They were either 1 or 2-sided, and each side ran 1-1.5 mins. in length. I'll do a search and see if anything jogs my memory.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Parts on March 18, 2009, 04:55:02 PM
They might be acetates. The smallest 78's I've ever seen were no less than 10". I know that at one time there was a place @ the Empire State Bldg where you could make an acetate recording to send to your friends back home. Those acetates were about the size of 45's. Either way, I'd handle them with kid gloves and find some non-invasive way of having them transferred to CD.
'

I have a couple acetates too these I think are the type you mentioned below

Here is a photo of it next to an acetate
(http://i135.photobucket.com/albums/q131/parts67/008-12.jpg)
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: punkdrew on March 18, 2009, 06:22:21 PM
Yep, that's it! Little Wonder records. Here's a brief blurb from wiki about them:

Little Wonder Records was a United States record label from 1914 through 1923.

 Little Wonders were manufactured by the Columbia Phonograph Company, and were distributed exclusively by Henry Waterson (the business partner of Irving Berlin) in their early years (1914-1916) -- an arrangement that has only recently been discovered as the original contract stipulated that both parties were to keep this relationship a secret. Artists are generally uncredited on Little Wonder labels, which simply give recordings such general attributions as "band", "tenor", "quartette", or "accordion solo".

Little Wonders were lateral-cut single sided 5½ inch gramophone records. The records contained only about 1½ to 2 minutes of music. The small size of the discs (together with the cherubic face on later versions of the label) has led some record collectors to incorrectly assume that Little Wonders were made as children's records; they were actually made for the general audience looking for low-priced recordings.

The records retailed for ten cents each, some of the lowest priced recordings available at the time. This price point revolutionized popular recorded music, making it possible for everyday people to purchase and listen to music other than live performances. The audio fidelity is average to slightly above average for the time, with rather narrow grooves (best played with a smaller stylus than contemporary discs). Millions and millions of these records were sold, principally through many 5 & 10 cent department store chains of the time and through Sears & Roebuck catalogs.

There is some controversy about whether Little Wonders were made by artists who recorded for Columbia. One account says that recording artists would visit the Little Wonder recording studio on one floor of the Woolworth Building before or after making records at the Columbia studio on a higher floor of the same building. And there has been some speculation that the masters for Little Wonders were actually warm-up balance checks recorded as tests at the beginning of Columbia recording sessions; if such tests happened to record a usable performance, they would be leased to Little Wonder. However, court papers from an early lawsuit between Waterson and Victor Emerson indicate that performers were paid separately and specifically to record for Little Wonder records.

Among the noted artists of the day whose performances were released (uncredited) on Little Wonder include Al Jolson, Gene Greene, Wilbur Sweatman, Billy Murray, Vernon Dalhart and the Louisiana Five.

Little Wonder # 339, "The Camp Meeting Jubilee" by a male vocal "quartette", issued in 1916, contains the lyrics "We've been rockin' an' rolling in your arms / Rockin' and rolling in your arms / In the arms of Moses." This is believed to be the first use in an audio recording of the phrase "rock..and roll..", albeit in the context of a religious spiritual rather than its later secular use.

http://www.littlewonderrecords.com/

Additional note from wikipedia about 78 record sizes:

In the 1890s the early recording formats of discs were usually seven inches (nominally 17.5 cm) in diameter. By 1910 the 10-inch (25.4 cm) record was by far the most popular standard, holding about three minutes of music or entertainment on a side. From 1903 onwards, 12-inch records (30.5 cm) were also commercially sold, mostly of classical music or operatic selections, with four to five minutes of music per side. However, other sizes did appear. An 8 inch disc with a 2 inch diameter label became popular, though short lived, in Europe. They cannot completely be played on much modern equipment because the tone arm cannot reach in far enough.

Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: El on April 01, 2009, 06:38:42 AM
I had a lovely time last week.  You were fabulous- everything I'd hoped, and more.  But how come you never called me back?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Blasted on January 09, 2010, 06:38:33 PM
Are you an ailurophile?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on September 05, 2010, 04:22:48 AM
Re Posted:



One of the reasons I am so excited about KIT is that in less than two weeks I may actually meet my very first son, but aside from that ...



Is this another son you didn't know about?

Not really - over the years, I have come to know. This situation is not even parallel to the time back when I discovered that I had a son I never knew of. This is a young man (I "suspect" fathered by me) who was raised by my ex-wife; the woman I married when I was barely out of high school. She and I divorced about six months later and spent a great deal of time trying to get back together and "destroying each others lives,"  somewhat, instead of making a clean break.

After my ex-wife and I divorced, we kept on "trying"  to be together. Even after we had both taken on a few more partners as companions  (my own roster during that time included a re-unite with my first real girlfriend who was the mother of the other older son you already know about - I am sorry if this all seems complicated, but it is really not complicated at all to me. Things are actually coming together in my life.), we kept on getting back together and breaking up again. It was almost five years after our agreement to dissolve our marriage, before we finally gave up on trying to rekindle the awesome thing we had once shared together. During that time (I was creating my own career in music and I was gone a lot) she had a child. She always and always and always told me he was not my son, but as time went on, I came to know. She still denied it and eventually, once I showed interest in knowing the truth, she would no longer allow me contact with him, since he was still a kid. Things began to turn very ugly between his mother and I well before I met my current, lifelong, forever wife. His mother and I had our last time together when the young man was about twelve or so. I have to be honest about this one point, because it really burns for me to live with such stabbing regrets. He was there at first during that last hook-up between my ex-wife and I, but I did not even look at him. He was just about twelve or so and I did not even look at him. (this one instance of failure - MY OWN  failure - is something that will always weigh heavily upon my mind. I could have begun to establish a rapport with the young man on that day, but I was more interested in his mother's "mommy parts" and how I was going to relieve/relive myself all over them)

Now that he is almost thirty five and we have made contact, finally, it seems fairly obvious to both of us that I am much more likely to be his true father than the short, dark man (six inches shorter than I am and nine inches shorter than he is) he knew as a child. This young man is six feet two inches tall, a little husky, has reddish blond hair, red beard, light skin, freckles, blue eyes - like me, but quite unlike the short-statured, dark, black haired, black eyed American Indian dutiful man he thought of as a father in his childhood or his fairly short, olive-skinned, Spanish mother.


Earlier this week, we actually talked on the phone for the first time, after exchanging a number of emails over the recent past. He made the decision to come for a visit and meet me. I am certain that she, after all these years, has had some kind of "change of heart"  and instead of denying the possibility, she may have helped to set this up. (Oddly, several email accounts I have set up using a portion of my real name, she has found and sent me mail) I still have harsh feelings toward her, but the thought that she may have softened and told him some positive things about me and helped us to make contact after all these years, fills me with a need to keep my tone level for his sake - after all, she IS his mother and I am little more than an unknown person from his mother's past.

I know, though. He looks like my father (like me) and he sounds like my brother on the phone. My brother has a "family trait" speech impediment (I do not have it, but several of our sixteen cousins do, as do two of my six uncles) that is caused from an inability to quickly curl the tongue away from the gums when making combination sounds like "sd"  or "st"  forcing them to draw this sound out very slightly. The impediment is very minor and mostly unnoticeable to the average person, but not quite so to members of the family. Obviously, this is not that much to go on, but when I sent a family pic of all four of us (my own immediate family) taken at Christmas two years ago, he did a photoshop thing, cutting us all out, leaving my son (the eleven year old) in the pic and placing a similarly aged pic of himself next to it, altering the Christmas tree background by replacing all the ornaments with pigs asses (similar sense of humor as well, it seems) and the overall brotherly resemblance was astounding.

Sorry for the "wall of text" response, but I guess I need to explain how very different this situation is from anything else I have had to deal with.

The "other one,"  who I may have to start calling the middle son (mediusdawg? nah) or some such crap comes around every six months or so. He was here in the early spring.  My wife and young ones seem to really like him. At first my daughter ran around telling everyone she had a "grown up brother who had a car and a beard"  - two things that she has latched onto that set him apart from all her friends' brothers, I suppose.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Pyraxis on January 25, 2014, 09:16:37 PM
I knew this thread was in here somewhere.

Which anime series does he like?

 :LOL: There is no shortage of girls.

"Slice Of Life" but I really think that is more of a genre style than an actual series. He watches Crackle (free on his tablet) quite a lot. It is loaded with Anime serials.

He takes ideas from the "good things"  that happen to the characters and draws them out six or ten at a time, to be later cut into wild looking things that he folds into his own version of 3D origami pieces or simply just starts cutting out some totally random-looking shape, drawing in details and folding to stand on its own later. He likes to make scenes of multiple characters, all laughing, partying and having fun - enjoying life.


If you could see what he draws, to be later cut out and folded, you would be amazed. "How can this crazy thing you are drawing turn into a human?"  The other side is just as amazing. He just cuts a blank sheet into some random shape going at lightspeed, almost then starts filling in details and it just comes to life.  He has a kind of deep vision into perspective and dimension that I have never seen. And I have lived my whole life around artists. His art is different.




I hate the fact that I posted in this thread accidentally and NOW have totally hi-jacked the thing for my own use.

GO BACK to LAUGHS, everyone!!
Pyraxis, i wish you could see thee entire process. It is amazing.

Just now he is doing laundry to earn allowances against the horror of the world and goes immeiately back to his worlk.

I am an evil father

I make themmd do chores; I am evil..

I hadn't heard of Crackle. I used to have a Crunchyroll subscription for getting series and then bought films on DVD.

What he does sounds really cool. I'm kinda curious to see it. I can imagine though it takes skill to start with a blank sheet and cut the outline before doing the drawing.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: DirtDawg on January 25, 2014, 09:32:57 PM
I knew this thread was in here somewhere.

Which anime series does he like?

 :LOL: There is no shortage of girls.

"Slice Of Life" but I really think that is more of a genre style than an actual series. He watches Crackle (free on his tablet) quite a lot. It is loaded with Anime serials.

He takes ideas from the "good things"  that happen to the characters and draws them out six or ten at a time, to be later cut into wild looking things that he folds into his own version of 3D origami pieces or simply just starts cutting out some totally random-looking shape, drawing in details and folding to stand on its own later. He likes to make scenes of multiple characters, all laughing, partying and having fun - enjoying life.


If you could see what he draws, to be later cut out and folded, you would be amazed. "How can this crazy thing you are drawing turn into a human?"  The other side is just as amazing. He just cuts a blank sheet into some random shape going at lightspeed, almost then starts filling in details and it just comes to life.  He has a kind of deep vision into perspective and dimension that I have never seen. And I have lived my whole life around artists. His art is different.




I hate the fact that I posted in this thread accidentally and NOW have totally hi-jacked the thing for my own use.

GO BACK to LAUGHS, everyone!!
Pyraxis, i wish you could see thee entire process. It is amazing.

Just now he is doing laundry to earn allowances against the horror of the world and goes immeiately back to his worlk.

I am an evil father

I make themmd do chores; I am evil..

I hadn't heard of Crackle. I used to have a Crunchyroll subscription for getting series and then bought films on DVD.

What he does sounds really cool. I'm kinda curious to see it. I can imagine though it takes skill to start with a blank sheet and cut the outline before doing the drawing.

Yeahhhh the drawing is awesome

 but the follding is  is whar reaaly freaks undone our!!

sorrroyuuut even the spiellll   check does not owerork.


I amm seriuou9osly goinff to dstop tryining.l  to post until I can ylaer aNG D Or i mrnat about how now is tought= SHIT SWEE AAI CAN POST SHIT##!@
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: 'andersom' on January 26, 2014, 02:39:43 AM
I knew this thread was in here somewhere.

Which anime series does he like?

 :LOL: There is no shortage of girls.

"Slice Of Life" but I really think that is more of a genre style than an actual series. He watches Crackle (free on his tablet) quite a lot. It is loaded with Anime serials.

He takes ideas from the "good things"  that happen to the characters and draws them out six or ten at a time, to be later cut into wild looking things that he folds into his own version of 3D origami pieces or simply just starts cutting out some totally random-looking shape, drawing in details and folding to stand on its own later. He likes to make scenes of multiple characters, all laughing, partying and having fun - enjoying life.


If you could see what he draws, to be later cut out and folded, you would be amazed. "How can this crazy thing you are drawing turn into a human?"  The other side is just as amazing. He just cuts a blank sheet into some random shape going at lightspeed, almost then starts filling in details and it just comes to life.  He has a kind of deep vision into perspective and dimension that I have never seen. And I have lived my whole life around artists. His art is different.




I hate the fact that I posted in this thread accidentally and NOW have totally hi-jacked the thing for my own use.

GO BACK to LAUGHS, everyone!!
Pyraxis, i wish you could see thee entire process. It is amazing.

Just now he is doing laundry to earn allowances against the horror of the world and goes immeiately back to his worlk.

I am an evil father

I make themmd do chores; I am evil..

I hadn't heard of Crackle. I used to have a Crunchyroll subscription for getting series and then bought films on DVD.

What he does sounds really cool. I'm kinda curious to see it. I can imagine though it takes skill to start with a blank sheet and cut the outline before doing the drawing.

Yeahhhh the drawing is awesome

 but the follding is  is whar reaaly freaks undone our!!

sorrroyuuut even the spiellll   check does not owerork.


I amm seriuou9osly goinff to dstop tryining.l  to post until I can ylaer aNG D Or i mrnat about how now is tought= SHIT SWEE AAI CAN POST SHIT##!@

You wrote about him doing things like that a couple of years ago too.
Good to see he kept doing this, and probably evolving his skills further.

Amazing skill.

I find it very hard to realise that there are people who have no skill at all to go from 2D to 3D (a friend of long time ago of mine had that), but the skills of your son, the way you describe are even more baffling.

I would love to see what he does.
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Kapkao on January 27, 2014, 06:12:45 PM
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Post by: DirtDawg on February 02, 2014, 11:16:39 PM
I will try to take some pics of his origami and try to show how it all starts in 2D drawings, insanely sprawled out, then he cuts and folds it and folds it into a 3D thing or the reverse.

He just starts cutting out these totally random crazy looking things that eventually, he draws in details and folds into a standing image of terror (dragons or dinosaurs) or sweetness (his many forms of female shapes he seems to try to find something in) and then I find he has had a plan the whole time and an entire scene comes together of orgami-type things, drawn in pen or crayon and folded and cut.

It may be a full day before I begin to ramp his ass about the mess he has made on the floor and not picked up.  :laugh:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Gopher Gary on February 03, 2014, 12:20:51 AM
I will try to take some pics of his origami

 :thumbup:
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: El on April 01, 2014, 09:15:43 AM
What is the show cesium and iodine love watching together?
Title: Re: Before you climb up my ass, with a list of questions ...
Post by: Yuri Bezmenov on January 19, 2015, 09:32:15 PM
What is the show cesium and iodine love watching together?

The X-Ray Files??     :dunno: