How are you feeling right now?

[DirtDawg]

These kinds of comments make me feel a bit pissed off.

Help me to understand you, please.


Are you saying that my hiding for half of my life pisses you off (I recognised early on that I was quite different from other folk - had no clue as to why or how or even if it was permanent -  and began to STOP expressing my inner thoughts to others, preteen, because my thoughts seemed almost insane to the people I knew - you just eventually learn to NOT tell people that the way you found their lost keys in the tall grass after dark was that you could still hear them and so it was easy to find their keys for them - people begin to reject you even more than before if you admit to this kind of shit. I HAD to make less of what I sensed just to not alienate everyone who acknowledged my intelligence.)


Why does this piss you off?



  .....  or that the ones who are making an attempt to respond to my concern are pissing you off.


  .....   or is it simply that you are not even entering this conversation and you could elaborate some and create a entirely separate context of your own?

(The understanding of how the many ways my "internal intensity"  is manifest in my outward, bodily animation puts most people off, was to come much later in my life.  Being photographed so candidly, without my knowing, made me feel that I have lost some degree of my ability to simply  "Lie Low"  and stay off peoples' radar ...  or is it their  "retardar"  that I am trying to fly under?)

Sorry, my post was in sympathy with you and Hyke....as in "these kinds of comments that so called 'normal' people think they have the right to make on their observations of us" piss me off.

You are right in misinterpreting what I said. Truth is, I just didn't have all the words to explain why at the time. And maybe I don't tonight either....but at the time it was the little I could give to show that I could relate (failed on that attempt!).

It goes back to my little soapbox about empathy. If people really understood how tolerant and perservering WE have to be of their feelings...uggh....and then they think they can throw this shit out about their observations of us.

In other words, DD, how many times have you bitten your tongue and wanted to be honest about how you perceived someone, or what you thought of something, but held it back to not hurt someone's feelings....but this little shit at your work thinks he can pull up a photo and use it as some 'flimsy' way to point out your behaviour, without any thought or regard to the fact it might be harassing or embarassing to you.

I think he's weak as piss.

That's the best I can do without getting angry about it.
 

I get it now.

I am glad that you can identify with me on so many levels.

[P7PSP]

Good, I received my permanent Drivers License today and I am going to get $650 for a gun (what I put into it ~ 2 years ago) on Sunday.

["couldbecousin"]

Good, I received my permanent Drivers License today and I am going to get $650 for a gun (what I put into it ~ 2 years ago) on Sunday.

Then, with the $650, you can buy more guns! 

[SBI_Patience]

I'm feeling neutral.

[P7PSP]

Good, I received my permanent Drivers License today and I am going to get $650 for a gun (what I put into it ~ 2 years ago) on Sunday.

Then, with the $650, you can buy more guns! 

That was my old way of doing things, now I am trying to stop and use my money to travel. If I ever get to Netherlands I would like to meet Hyke for lunch if she doesn't get mad about our Islam disagreement.   But I do like your way of looking at things cbc, come to Cali sometime and go to the range with me.  

I'm feeling neutral.

Maybe you need a range trip to.

["couldbecousin"]

Good, I received my permanent Drivers License today and I am going to get $650 for a gun (what I put into it ~ 2 years ago) on Sunday.

Then, with the $650, you can buy more guns! 

That was my old way of doing things, now I am trying to stop and use my money to travel. If I ever get to Netherlands I would like to meet Hyke for lunch if she doesn't get mad about our Islam disagreement.   But I do like your way of looking at things cbc, come to Cali sometime and go to the range with me.  

I'm feeling neutral.

Maybe you need a range trip to.

I've wanted to go to a range for years! What requirements do they have in Cali for a person to be allowed to shoot at a range? 

[P7PSP]

Good, I received my permanent Drivers License today and I am going to get $650 for a gun (what I put into it ~ 2 years ago) on Sunday.

Then, with the $650, you can buy more guns! 

That was my old way of doing things, now I am trying to stop and use my money to travel. If I ever get to Netherlands I would like to meet Hyke for lunch if she doesn't get mad about our Islam disagreement.   But I do like your way of looking at things cbc, come to Cali sometime and go to the range with me.  

I'm feeling neutral.

Maybe you need a range trip to.

I've wanted to go to a range for years! What requirements do they have in Cali for a person to be allowed to shoot at a range? 

Have a photo ID and I'll supply the guns and ammo. I'll even stand behind and gro behind you to help you with your stance.
Superboyian will have to work out stance with simple verbal instructions. 

["couldbecousin"]

Good, I received my permanent Drivers License today and I am going to get $650 for a gun (what I put into it ~ 2 years ago) on Sunday.

Then, with the $650, you can buy more guns! 

That was my old way of doing things, now I am trying to stop and use my money to travel. If I ever get to Netherlands I would like to meet Hyke for lunch if she doesn't get mad about our Islam disagreement.   But I do like your way of looking at things cbc, come to Cali sometime and go to the range with me.  

I'm feeling neutral.

Maybe you need a range trip to.

I've wanted to go to a range for years! What requirements do they have in Cali for a person to be allowed to shoot at a range? 

Have a photo ID and I'll supply the guns and ammo. I'll even stand behind and gro behind you to help you with your stance.
Superboyian will have to work out stance with simple verbal instructions. 

Yay! You are so kind. But what is that word... grow?   Do people grow at the range? 

[P7PSP]

Good, I received my permanent Drivers License today and I am going to get $650 for a gun (what I put into it ~ 2 years ago) on Sunday.

Then, with the $650, you can buy more guns! 

That was my old way of doing things, now I am trying to stop and use my money to travel. If I ever get to Netherlands I would like to meet Hyke for lunch if she doesn't get mad about our Islam disagreement.   But I do like your way of looking at things cbc, come to Cali sometime and go to the range with me.  

I'm feeling neutral.

Maybe you need a range trip to.

I've wanted to go to a range for years! What requirements do they have in Cali for a person to be allowed to shoot at a range? 

Have a photo ID and I'll supply the guns and ammo. I'll even stand behind and gro behind you to help you with your stance.
Superboyian will have to work out stance with simple verbal instructions. 

Yay! You are so kind. But what is that word... grow?   Do people grow at the range? 

:lol: Hard to say, it all depends. 

[odeon]

OK-ish but tired

['andersom']

Good, I received my permanent Drivers License today and I am going to get $650 for a gun (what I put into it ~ 2 years ago) on Sunday.

Then, with the $650, you can buy more guns! 

That was my old way of doing things, now I am trying to stop and use my money to travel. If I ever get to Netherlands I would like to meet Hyke for lunch if she doesn't get mad about our Islam disagreement.   But I do like your way of looking at things cbc, come to Cali sometime and go to the range with me.  

I'm feeling neutral.

Maybe you need a range trip to.

The only valid reason not to meet you for lunch would be me not being in the country. 

Would be great to see you.

[SBI_Patience]

Just neutral.

[odeon]

Tired. My eyes are itchy.

[SBI_Patience]

I'm feeling pissed off. Its a long story.

[DirtDawg]

Pretty damn good, really.

I helped my son feed a huge Morgan breed horse from his hand about an hour ago.  (We were at the county fair)

I had to show him about twenty times that the huge beast would not hurt him. HE FINALLY DID IT!  a few times. He allowed a Morgan to eat from his hand. This was one of the most enormous horses I have ever seen!  (OH, and I have seen many a huge horse, in my time)

The fact that MY (autistic) son did this makes me feel pretty damn good, really.