hungry and exhausted. I had to stop eating earlier today because my esophagus closed and I couldn't swallow. This happens from time to time and I was about to go to 7-11 to get a Sprite (carbonated drinks seem to be the only things that can shorten a really bad one) on the way I got an order for white castle. So I went ahead and got it and I got two more, but one of them apparently hadn't been received by the restaurant. One of the orders promised 24 dollars and I couldn't tell which was which but that was probably the one that didn't go through. It always is. If it's a fast food order and it says something crazy like 24 dollars it's not going to pan out. But I still accept them 1) just in case they pan out and 2) because I'm a sucker and a fool. Got so angry I had to stop driving cause I was distracted thinking about my roommate. So I bought some sprite and some skittles. Managed to eat them, so I guess that's one small success. I think sometimes I should go to the doctor to get this thing looked at, and find out what it is, but it happens unpredictably and with almost everything I eat, but especially carbohydrates (rice, potato, wheat, etc, any kind of starch really) but sometimes even with meat. I'm wondering if one day it might kill me. Perhaps that would be for the best. I doubt I could afford the expense of whatever I'd have to eat if that's the problem, instead of my usual.
